Author's Note: Hey, everyone! The feedback I received from the previous chapter was amazing! I'm so glad you enjoyed Drunk!Jesse. It was certainly a joy to write him. Thank you so much for the heart warming response. You guys are the best.

Lauren: Haha... I'm glad you think my rendition of Drunk!Jesse is worth paying money for! :D

On to your questions...Yes, I am a 'Friends' fan actually. Drunk!Monica has always been one of my many, many inspirations in writing out a drunk person in a story. In the previous chapter, I slipped in one line from 'Friends'. But, other than that: it was 100% Jesse St. James talking right there.

And it's funny that you brought up your next question because this chapter in particular centers on the tying of loose ends and the filling of holes throughout the story. I realized that it needed to be done before we approach the next chapter, which is a prelude to the climax. I'll get to that later ;)

Wendla: I had to acknowledge your review because it was so freakin' hilarious to read. I'm so glad Jesse brought you that much joy. You're gold.

Criss: Hahahah... Rachel is definitely an admirable girl in making the right decision. I would have definitely taken advantage of him as well. (Drag him into the backseat right there and then XD)

Okay, on to this chapter:

These are basically some entries of Rachel's diary throughout the course of events in the story. It explains a lot about her internal battle with the men in her life: Finn, Jesse, Puck and even Mr. Schuester.

We get to see how her thoughts on Jesse evolves throughout the story. From admiring him as a fan, to being sexually attracted to him, to thinking something could happen between them, to her feelings blossoming into something more real, to realizing her efforts may be fruitless ... and more. What these two have is anything but simple.

It's a relatively short chapter, but it needed to be done for clarification and for the next chapter to happen.

Well, it's time to read, enjoy and review.

Have fun, guys!

Dear Diary,

It was an absolute disaster.

Operation: Dakota Stanley went awry in the worst of ways. Not only did he refuse to even look at us, but we were informed that his fee is insanely over the budget we had in mind. We drove all the way to Carmel High... only to come back feeling MORE hopeless than before.

AND they have Jesse St.James.

I once heard he doesn't even sleep. Like Edward Cullen... or a crazed insomniac. He downs so many 'Red Bulls' and protein shakes in a day, it's impossible for him to stop moving around.

And they have him as a leader. I mean, everyone knows once the captain of your ship is dedicated and there, everyone sort of falls into line and follows his/her lead. It's only natural.

I like to think of myself as the head of 'New Directions', but really... everyone knows I'm kidding myself. I saw it the first time Mr. Schue quit on us. I tried to delegate the tasks as fairly and aptly as I could, but what did I get in return? Name-callings of 'bossy' and 'wanna-be queen'!

Then, Finn comes along (in that beautiful, knight-in-shining-armour way of his) and just starts yammering off exactly what I said like five minutes before! And everyone acts like they've just received a ray of hope from the Heavens or something. Hence, Finn became the unspoken leader. And to be honest... he isn't Jesse St. James.

I saw that fierceness in Jesse's eyes when we went to Carmel for Dakota. Finn, however, is sometimes not even there. So, I feel it is my duty to be the best (potential) girlfriend I can be to him and make him realize what a great singer/leader he can be.

Even if I can't seem to stop thinking about Jesse St. James.

Dear Diary,

I left 'New Directions'.

I know I said that I was going to work hard in making it the coolest club it can be with Finn faithfully by my side... but, I can't. I just can't anymore.

First of all, Mr. Schue made it clear to me he realizes how good I am... but, he still won't give me the part of 'Maria' because he doesn't want the others to know that I'm better than them (or something of that derivative).

COME ON! THEY KNOW, OKAY?

He's just jealous of me. Everyone knows it.

To make matters worse... I went to see Jesse St. James again.

I can't even bear to pen down that experience, Diary. I can't even begin to explain how one second, I'm a total admirer of his talent and leadership qualities (only from afar) ... and the next second, I'm suddenly picturing him naked.

Furthermore, that said experience did not end well. I went home drenched in beer, successfully making an ass out of myself in attempting a conversation with him, and having newfound information that Jesse St. James is a womanizer (not that that should really matter to me, though).

Then, Finn suddenly began to shower me with attention. It was so heavenly.

It definitely compensated the upsetting run-in I had with Jesse before. I knew I needed to get my mind off of the (more or less) stranger from Vocal Adrenaline. So, I allowed myself to reciprocate Finn's sudden affections.

I felt myself falling hard and fast... but, it was more of an act of desperation than genuine love. Before I knew it, I kissed him at the bowling alley. It was a spur of the moment thing. Granted, it was awkward and his lips were kind of dry (unprepared, of course)... but, I convinced myself it was the right thing to do.

UNTIL I found out about Finn's motives.

Diary, it hurts too much to even write it all down... Let's just say that he was only trying to seduce me back into Glee Club so he could get a shot at a scholarship if they win something.

Oh, and in the midst of his 'wooing'... he failed to tell me that he had impregnated Quinn.

I bet Juliet never had this kind of problem with Romeo.

Dear Diary,

I am bound to grow old and alone... with forty-seven different cats. I just know it. It's written in the stars for me.

I enjoy writing lists... Perhaps this will sting less if I just list out the reasons my love life could be worthy of an obituary.

FIRSTLY: Finn and Quinn are still very much together. She threatened me to stay away from him the other day. Is it really so hard for her to realize I'm there for both of them if they need me? Sorry for trying to be nice.

SECONDLY: I tried to make Puck the rebound guy (I know, I know... what the hell, right?)... But, he's actually a halfway-decent guy once you get to know him. AND a great kisser too. It didn't exactly work out because he's somehow in love with Quinn. Figures.

THIRDLY: I ran into Jesse in dance class the other day. I thought we had made some sort of connection... he kept staring at me... he even took the initiative to dance with me... AND HE EVEN TALKED TO ME. As in, him being the one to instigate a conversation. I thought I was going to freakout. I mean, I knew I allowed myself to fall head over heels for Finn in order to take my mind off of Jesse... and I made out with Puck to take my mind off of Finn... so, in essence, Jesse was the main reason for all the craziness. I thought everything was going well... until he left with another girl.

I was wrong. Listing does not make it sting less.

Dear Diary,

I saw another side to Jesse recently: Vulnerable.

He was immensely inebriated when I found him. I took it upon as my responsibility to drive him home.

What is that, by the way?

Why do I bother with boys who will never be interested in me? Why do I feel it my duty to help them or better them or change them?

I did it with Finn.

I did it with Puck.

And I recently did it with Jesse.

The only difference was... well, I never thought I had to do it with Jesse. And with him... I actually didn't know what to expect. Hence... I didn't know whether I was capable in helping him with whatever problem he may have.

He left my car that night. But, at the same time he left me feeling... Spent and empty from trying to understand him... but, whole from allowing me in to at least try.

I wanted more, but I knew I couldn't have it.

First of all, he's from Vocal Adrenaline. Fraternizing with the enemy never did anyone much good.

Secondly, he doesn't even know my name. The fact that we've been running in to each other again and again, and there still isn't an established relationship between us... means something, right?

Thirdly... well, the above two reasons suffice (more than I wish it would).

So, I tried to forget about him. But, that only lead to even more pain.

I had developed a crush on Mr. Schuester. This ended with him crushing my dream in the most humiliating of ways. He tried to do so through a song. That stung.

I tried to focus all my energy in winning Finn back again (what else could I do, right?). I enlisted Kurt's help in giving me a makeover. It was a nice change; more raunchy. I just had fun with it. But, that ended in Finn calling me a 'sad clown hooker' to my face. Who in their right mind puts up with this kind of treatment, Diary? Me. Because Finn was the closest shot I had to forgetting about Jesse.

Trying to make nice and forget that Finn had hurt me in the worst way a boy could hurt a fairly vain girl (by telling her she looked ugly) was the way to go, I thought. So, I invited him to take the yearbook photo for Glee Club with me considering he was my co-captain. Besides, everyone else deemed it social suicide (as if they're social statuses weren't already dead and buried). I figured he could redeem himself with me and we could be there for each other. But, no... He didn't even turn up that day. I was alone.

Yet, I still hadn't forgotten about Jesse amidst all this.

It's time for a serious wake-up call, Diary. 'Sectionals' is only a mere few days away. If my life is in shambles... that doesn't mean I'll allow it to leak into my career. We are going to win; I'll make damn sure of it.

I swear upon my name, Rachel Barbra Berry*, that it is going to be a happy day that day.

Author's Note: You guessed it. The next chapter is going to be centered around 'Sectionals'!

What's so special about the next chapter?

Well, we'll be witnessing the return of Jesse's P.O.V.! That's right. Since you guys enjoyed being in his head so much, I figured, why not? (It's only natural that he'll be there at Sectionals to scope out the 'competition')

Lover boy's P.O.V. will be incorporated along with Rachel's P.O.V. Hence, 'Sectionals' will feature both their perspectives as we switch back and forth between them. Should be interesting, right? I hope you guys think so!

How will Rachel react in seeing him again after the drunken incident?

Will Jesse remember her from his inebriated stupor?

All your questions will be answered in due time as we edge closer and closer to the end.