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MY ALL chap. 19
PAIN AND JOY
EDWARD
I was so fucking damn furious, with what happened to my Bella, at the party at La Santa Fé. It was the first time, I was feeling that jealous. And the second time, I was feeling that angry. The damn fucking bastard and his two acolytes. There was almost a fight, outside the restaurant, after the party. Those damn fuckers were obviously waiting for us in the parking…drunk and certainly intoxicated by drugs.
Tyler, the ex-boyfriend, shouting insanities to Bella, yelling at her, and telling her that she was a fucking damn imbecile, dating me. That I was a womanizer and that I would use her and leave her soon.
Emmett held me tightly, because I almost lost my temper. I nearly punched Tyler's face; my hands in fists, my knuckles white from the pressure, and my whole body shaking so much, out of rage.
"I am going to kill you…" Come here fucking asshole…Tell me…Repeat that again…"
"Fucking bastard…I am not afraid of you…You and your fucking bitch…" Tyler yelled
at me.
"Don't provoke me…I am going to rip your head off…Fucking asshole… Come…just come here…"
"Edward…stop…Calm down" Emmett said…
Jake and Jasper were just beside me, telling the guys to go.
Marcus went out of the restaurant, hearing the screaming and told the guys to leave the place. He was about to call the cops. The two bar bouncers; two huge guys who were employed to keep the place calm, were outside too. One of them called a cab and pushed the three aggressive guys in the cab.
Marcus invited us, back in the bar. He didn't want me to drive my SUV, before I was in complete control.
I told Jasper to get near Alice…My sister…She was in shock too…She was looking at me. Her eyes wide-opened….and very confused.
We all followed Marcus in the restaurant. He asked Lauren to make coffee and we sat down on the stools at the bar.
Marcus talked to Bella.
"So this Tyler is your ex-boyfriend. What the hell is going on with him?"
"I don't know Marcus." Isabella answered in a shaky voice. He was never aggressive before. I don't know what's happening to him…"
"Did he touch you? ... I mean…What did he do to you?"
"He tried to kiss me"….He pushed me on the wall…" and his friends were holding me." Bella added, her voice still shaking.
I was looking at Isabella. She was hiding something. What the fuck really happened near the washroom? There was something more. And she had to tell me.
I was so fucking damn angry. How did he dare touch my girl? …How did he dare try to kiss her? …And what else? Nobody could touch my girl…nobody…except me…
And my sister Alice…What was she thinking? What was in her mind right now?
I kissed Bella and rubbed her back.
"I love you Bella…I am here…Tell me….What really happened near the washroom?" I added in a soft voice, whispering in her ear. Talk to me love"
"I'll tell you at home. I am so sorry Edward."
"Don't apologize love. None of this shit is your fault. I just want to know."
"At home love…not here Edward…Please…"
"Okay, darling…now drink your coffee. We'll talk about it later. Try to relax."
We continued to talk a bit…About Thanksgiving and our trip to Pittsburgh. Alice was calmer now; Jasper holding her hand and kissing her cheek. She had organized everything. The reservations for the flight were already made. We were going to leave New York on Monday and my mom and dad were eagerly waiting for us.
Bella was absent minded. She did not follow the conversation at all; her mind, obviously not there. She was lost in her train of thoughts.
BELLA
That fucking jerk had ruined my night. And I was furious and ashamed.
How would Edward react? He was so fucking angry. What could I do?
They were so strong. They were so drunk. What could I do? Tyler pressing me against the wall. And the other two holding me against my will.
I could feel Tyler's erection on my thigh. His hands on my breasts…his mouth…on mine…
He kissed me and tried to force his tongue in my mouth.
And I had lied to Edward….I was not able to tell him…I was a bit frightened of him too. His anger was so out of control. I froze.
And I knew Edward knew there was something else…Why did I lie to him? ...Why didn't I tell him the truth? Who was I trying to protect?
Me…evidently…But…why? .... I didn't want Edward to fight…I didn't want him to get hurt. Three against Edward…The thought of him being hurt…No…I couldn't bear it…I had to keep my mouth shut…I knew Edward was angry…a part of him…so violent…so aggressive…
And Alice…What was going on with her? She looked so frightened…her face so pale…and her eyes with that worried look…
I had to talk to Edward later…He was calmer now…And Tyler and his friends were gone…I had to tell him the truth, and I had to know about Alice…There was something very wrong here…
We talked a bit about our trip to Pittsburgh. I tried to concentrate but I was not succeeding at all.
Edward was trying to comfort me…but I was still shaking inside…and he had to give me some answers about Alice's behaviour… This was so fucking weird…
I drank my coffee slowly. Edward was running his fingers in my hair, and he kept kissing me and telling me how much he loved me.
I loved him too…Jesus…How much could a heart endure? ...Pain and joy…Pain…because I didn't know him that well….and because I had to get some answers….and joy…because that beautiful and charming man was in my life…
It was almost three in the morning when we left…This would be a very long night…a very long night.
EDWARD
We left Marcus' restaurant at around three in the morning. My Bella was still so silent. Something was bugging her, and I had to know. And I had to explain myself as well; the way I reacted. I was so fucking furious and angry. I didn't want her to believe I was that kind of aggressive. She had to know why. She had to know what happened to Alice.
And the memories of that afternoon were so vivid right now. Vivid and painful. Alice was only sixteen years old. She was dating one of my baseball's teammate…. His name was Peter. They were together since a year…her first teenager love. The relationship was pretty tumultuous. He was taking drugs and drank a lot. He was not a nice guy at all. But Alice was in love and she was not listening to anybody.
She thought that if she could show him how deeply in love she was….she could save him. The more he was with her; the more he wanted from her. He was a fucking jealous and violent guy. He was violent when we played baseball. He was violent when Alice was talking to friends at school… he was even violent when she was having fun with us…He tried to exclude her…He wanted to be the only one.
Bruises began to appear on her arms…but she was hiding them from us. She invented false reasons; it was because she felt at gym…she tripped on the floor….someone hit her with his tennis racket…
Then one day, after school I saw Peter. He was near his car. I saw him, pushing Alice against his car's hood… His hands around her neck…Jesus-Christ…he was strangling her…
I ran and grabbed him by his t-shirt…and I punched him…how don't know how many times….I didn't count…everything was black….I didn't hear Alice screaming…
Emmett stopped me….His strong arms holding me…And I saw Peter, lying on the ground…his face swollen… and blood all over him…unconscious…
I was arrested as well as Peter…No charges against me…and Peter was placed in custody.
Alice didn't want to testify or to press charges against him…As soon as Peter was bailed out of jail, his parents moved out…and we didn't hear from them.
It took Alice a year to recover. A year before we saw her smile again…A year of painful therapy…And tonight, the frightened look I saw in my sister's eyes was exactly the same…Fuck…I had to talk to her too…
We finally arrived at my apartment; each one at our turn taking a shower. I didn't like the silence… Silence all the way along in the SUV…and silence in the apartment.
Isabella finally went out of the bathroom. I asked her to follow me in my bedroom. I sat on the bed and Isabella sat in my lap. I snaked my arms around her waist, kissing her on the hair and telling her how much I loved her.
Then, I began to talk. I told her that I was sorry about what happened at La Santa Fé. I told her that I was not that of a bad guy. I told her about Alice and Peter. I told her why I reacted so strongly and so aggressively…
And I asked her to tell me the truth. To tell me everything of what really happened at the bar ... That she shouldn't be afraid of me…
And she talked. She told me that Tyler kissed her and touched her…and that the other two were holding her…and that she didn't know what to do….that she was afraid that I would get hurt…and that she was afraid…because of the look she saw in my eyes…
I reinsured and comforted her the best I could. She finally drifted in sleep and I went to talk to Alice.
Alice was sitting on the couch with Jasper, crying. His arm was around her shoulder and he was talking to her.
"So Jasper…I guess you know everything now…don't you? "…I asked him.
"Yes, Edward. Alice told me everything…I am so fucking sorry…" I didn't understand why you reacted with so much anger… Now I do understand…Jesus-Christ…I would have reacted the same fucking way…How is Bella? ...Is she okay?"
"She is sleeping now…" How are you sis? ... I am so sorry…I didn't want you to see me like that."
"Don't apologize Edward…It is just the memories… I'm gonna be okay…"
"I love your sister Eddie…I love her so much…" Go and see Bella…I am here with Alice…Go….You must be with Bella now…."
"Okay, Jazz…I love you Al…if you want to talk…you know I am here."
"I know Eddie…Go and see Bella…Jasper is with me". My sister added in a soft voice.
I went back to bed; my body tightly pressed against Bella, my arms snaked around her waist. And she dreamt…Bad and good dreams….bad when she was screaming…then, I was holding her tight…singing to her…and good…I think… when she was saying my name and how much she loved me…
BELLA
My sleep was restless… good dreams and nightmares….
I was dreaming of Edward…We were in a meadow…It was so magnificent and calm…I was on the grass and Edward's arms were around me. He was grazing my cheeks and he was singing to me…His eyes so green, burning with fire.
*I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I love the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not here
I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me…
So listen to me
And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you…
I love this man so much…I was repeating his name over and over…and telling him how much I loved him.
This dream was so intense, so beautiful…It was real…It was my reality…I was so happy…but the minute after…Edward was not here…he left…and I was so sad…like my heart was gone…like I was disappearing…like my life was empty…and utterly sorrowful.
When I woke up, Edward was not in bed…And the memory of the nightmare went back…He wasn't in the apartment either…The pain was back in my chest…Alice and Jasper were still sleeping…I presume they were…the door of the bedroom was closed and there were no sound…complete silence…
I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then sat on the couch and waited…He should have left a note…How could I live without him? ....and where was he?
Thirty minutes later Edward was back. His hands holding a tray of coffees and a bag…
"Hey hello my love…he said, putting the coffees and the bag on the table. "How are you?"
"I am… fine…You were gone…I didn't like to wake up alone…"
"Oh…sorry…You were asleep…And there was no food here….I just went to the Starbuck…"…And you didn't sleep too well…I didn't want to wake you up…." Am I forgiven? He added this time kissing me…
"Yes my love you are…It must be the nightmare…" I woke up and you were not with me…and…in the nightmare…you left me…and…"
"Shhh…my love…I am not going anywhere… I am here…" I will never, ever leave you…You are as important as air is to my lungs…" I love you so much Bella…"
"I love you too Edward…I am sorry…I feel a bit stupid…"
"Don't say that love…After what happened yesterday…I know how you were stressed. Next time I'll leave a note…"
"So are you hungry Bella? ... Let's go and wake Alice and Jasper up…" Edward added.
Edward walked to the guest room and knocked on the door. I heard a grumpy voice…that was Alice's voice…and I started to laugh.
"Oh! Oh! ....grumpy Alice…I thought your sister was always in a good mood…."
"Well…I don't know…maybe we are interrupting something…Edward retorted…winking at me…
"I hear you Edward" Alice added in a grumpier voice…What time is it anyway?"
"Time to get your lazy ass up….C'mon both of you…Open the fucking door…I am counting…One…Two…Three…"
"Okay…okay…stop that Eddie…We're coming…"
Jasper came out first…something in his eyes…a twinkle…his eyes were brighter than usual.
Grumpy Alice followed…Her hair in complete disarray…well…well…maybe we did interrupt something.
We sat in the kitchen, drank our coffee and ate. Edward had bought muffins and all-butter croissants. And I was so fucking hungry…The food comforted my stomach….The love I saw in my boyfriend's eyes comforted my heart…and made me forget all about the previous night.
Once in a while I was staring at Alice. She seemed okay too…It was a shock, hearing of what happened to her when she was sixteen…This Peter was a fucking sick jerk…Maybe she would be willing to talk to me later…Just to make sure she was really okay….her story was far more stressful and hurtful than what happened to me with Tyler and his fucking friends.
We decided to go shopping in the afternoon. Edward wanted to offer me something special for Thanksgiving…I always had been embarrassed receiving gifts…but he insisted so much…that I accepted…one condition though…I wanted to give him something too.
Edward called Emmett and asked him to meet us near Tiffany & Co….My God…he wanted to offer me a jewel.
It was two in the afternoon. We walked to the store. The air was crisp; a perfect sunny day, not a single cloud in the sky…a perfect day to be outside…a perfect day for lovers.
And I was so happy, seeing Alice and Jasper, hand in hand. Emmett was holding Rosalie, his hand on the small of her back…And Edward, his arm tightly snaked around my shoulder.
We walked into the store and Edward asked me to choose among some pieces of jewellery…and he would decide which one he would offer to me on Thanksgiving...because he wanted it to be a surprise…but he wanted to be sure that the one he would choose, would really please me…
The jewels were very expensive…and I didn't want him to spend that amount of money…I was very embarrassed…
"Don't look at the price my love…Money doesn't matter…whatever you like…I want Thanksgiving to be really special…And I want to see that jewel on you…" Edward said in a smooth voice.
I looked at different pieces; earrings, necklaces, pendants, charm bracelets and rings with precious birthstones…diamonds, crystal jewellery, topaz, emerald, ruby, aqua-marine, sapphire…
I tried a lot and picked three; a ring…which was my favourite…it was so beautiful…there were two aqua-marine stones and diamonds beaded in between the aqua-marine gems… the ring was made of eighteen-carat gold….aqua-marine was my birthstone…the diamonds were so delicate…it was absolutely magnificent…
My second choice was a necklace; the chain was gold…eighteen-carat as well and the pendant was an emerald heart…emerald…the color of Edward's eyes…
My third choice was a pair of blue sapphire heart earrings…blue…Edward's favourite color…
Edward kissed me and asked me to turn around…He didn't want me to look…And I didn't hear a single word…He paid the cashier and we went outside.
Jasper and Alice were outside, waiting for us. Jasper was holding a bag. Emmett and Rosie were still inside.
A few minutes later, Emmett and Rosalie joined us. Emmett had a bag in his hands….And Rosalie's face was all shades of red…
I asked the girls if they wanted to come to Abercrombie & Fitch… I wanted to buy something to my boyfriend. They followed me and we sent the boys to the Starbuck…
Alice helped me to pick clothes for Edward. I bought several t-shirts, a polo and his favourite cologne.
Alice bought two shirts for Jasper and Rosalie bought a long sleeves sweater and a t-shirt for Emmett.
We paid for everything and went to the Starbuck to meet up with our boyfriends…it was evident that we were all couples now and we took coffee.
We all decided to go at La Santa Fé for dinner and see Marcus. We were leaving the next day and we didn't know when we would come back to New-York.
I called Jess and Angie and asked if they wanted to meet up with us at the restaurant. They nicely accepted.
At six-thirty we were at La Santa Fé. Jake, Jess and Angie were already sitting and obviously enjoying themselves.
I ordered a sunset cooler and Edward took a 'peaches and cream' cocktail…because of your scent love… he whispered to me…
Marcus ate with us…We had a great time. Around eleven we all left the restaurant. The next day, I would meet my parents' boyfriend. I knew I would love them. My boyfriend was a hell of a charming guy. I knew his parents would be as charming.
End of chapter 19
A/N: Hope you enjoyed this chapter.
Recipe of sunset cooler and 'peaches and cream' cocktail
Sunset cooler
4 oz. cranberry juice
2 and a half oz. orange juice
Ginger Ale
Splash of lemon juice
Blend juice and ice until smooth
Top with ginger ale.
Peaches and cream cocktail
Equal parts of peach Schnapps and cream
Dash of Rum
Layer in order in shot glass
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