A/N: Chapter 21…Hello to my lovely readers…Thanks again to all those who alert and fav my story.

Additional note to my readers. My mother tongue is French. My ultimate goal is to master English and to write a story with no mistakes. If there are mistakes in this chapter, please excuse-me. France

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MY ALL chap.21

CONFIDENCE

ALICE

I knocked on the door. Edward, Emmett, Jasper and Rosalie were outside, playing baseball. The weather was fairly mild for this time of the year. It was sunny outside and Emmett who was a sort of hyper-active guy convinced them to go outside and to play baseball. There was a baseball field very near the house and they willingly accept to go with Emmett.

Carlisle and Esme were working. Bella was in Edward's bedroom and I wanted to talk to her.

So as we were alone in the house, I thought it was the best time for me to talk to her. I hesitated on the doorway, unsure of myself but I wanted her to know my story.

"Bella…it's me…Alice…Are you busy? Can I come in?" I asked her, in a smooth voice.

"Sure honey…Come in. I am just reading." Bella answered.

I opened the door and sat on the bed.

"What are you reading darling?" I asked her.

"Wuthering Heights, my favourite book. I don't know how many times I read this book. And every time, it is like the first time I read it. It captivates me."

"I read this book when I was in high school. It is so intense. I loved it too."

"Do you mind talking to me for a few minutes? I asked." I would like to tell you about something awful that happened to me in high school. I know Edward might have told you a part, but I would like you to hear my story and it doesn't have a happy ending."

"Yes, sure Alice…I am all ears for you." Bella said in a low voice.

Then I began to talk. I folded my hands in my lap and looked down at them while I spoke.

"I was fifteen years old when I first met Peter. He was a new student at my school. The first time I saw him, I thought my heart would melt. He was so beautiful. He was more beautiful than Edward…at least for me he was. He was a tall, muscled and very handsome guy. His hair was raven- black and his eyes were deep blue. A lot of girls were absolutely crazy about him. Edward and Peter were the most gorgeous boys in the school; the first one was my brother and the second one would be my boyfriend…That I had decided as soon as I laid my eyes on him."

I was quite popular at school too. I guessed that was in the family. Emmett was good at sports and he was a charming guy…A bear…but a very humorous and funny guy. And he had his way with girls too. Edward…well…I am sure you already know. There were a lot of girls around him and he was a sex god on two legs."

"We had a lot of friends and we enjoyed life a lot."

"Peter was also playing baseball in Edward's team. Peter was a hell of a great player but he was a bad loser and he was very aggressive."

"I went to watch him every time he played. As my brother was playing in the same team, it gave me a reason to be present at every game. At school, we began to talk."

"Even if I was only fifteen years old, I began to be very sexually attracted to him and he was physically attracted to me too."

"We began to date. I was very soon in love with him."

"And I thought he was in love with me too."

"At the beginning he was a caring, charming and tender boyfriend."

"He offered me flowers. He bought me gifts. He left me notes in my locker, saying how much he loved me and how much I was important for him."

"But as our relationship was getting stronger, gradually I noticed that his attitudes were changing."

"He didn't like when I was spending time with my friends. He wanted to be alone with me, all the time."

"When I wanted to see a friend at her house and spent time with her…He was angry…"

"He told me that he didn't know what to do when I was not with him."

"He told me that he was missing me every single minute when I was not with him."

"It was even worse when I wanted to spend time with boys."

"I had a very close friend. We were friends since we were four years old. His name was Laurent. Every time I spent time with him, Peter threw a fit."

"He told me that I was not loving him enough because why would I like to spend time with anyone…He didn't want to be with anyone except with me, and that was real love…being all the time with the one we loved the most."

"He didn't like to see the affection I had for my brothers and my parents."

"He wanted to be the only one…as he often told me…"We don't need anyone…just you and me Alice…if you really love me…stay with me all the time…"

"And I did as he asked me. I stopped seeing my friends…all of them."

"I was not the same with my brothers and my family."

"I wanted Peter to realize that I was really in love with him and that nobody counted."

"But, it was not enough. If he saw me talking to other people, he was mad."

"He began to push me, to slap me, to grab me by the arms and to shake me. Not in front of the people…when we were alone."

"And as we were often alone, every thing that happened at school was a reason to argue."

"He was jealous of everyone and I began to feel trapped and I was afraid of him."

"After throwing a fit, he apologized. Then, he offered me flowers or a gift and asked me to forgive him."

"At that time, I thought that I could save him…in a way…by showing him more love and by doing everything he wanted me to do."

"But it was not enough. I began to feel secluded and to lose confidence in myself."

"At home, I hid the marks that were on my arms or I invented false reasons".

"It was at school, in gym, I tripped on the floor, someone hit me with his tennis racket…every pretext I could find, I spilled it out."

"But my family didn't believe me. I knew it because of the glances they were exchanging while I was giving them explanations on the causes of my visible bruises."

"They tried to talk to me but I kept my mouth shut and lied to them."

"Then one day Peter got really mad."

"I was working on a project with a team mate and I was still in class long after the bell rang."

"After our work was completed, I went out to meet Peter, who was waiting for me near his car."

"As soon as he saw me he grabbed me by the hair and pushed me against the hood."

"He put his hands around my neck and began to strangle me and he was absolutely fuming."

"He was yelling and calling my names…."Where were you? Who was with you? Why are you late? Where you with a guy? You little whore…Tell me who was with you? "

"I couldn't talk…I couldn't breathe…"

"Luckily for me, Edward and Emmett were still in school. They had a basketball practice after the school hours and Edward came to my rescue.

"I saw Edward running and as soon as he was near Peter's car, he grabbed him by the arms and began to punch him."

"I never saw my brother so angry; as if he was in complete darkness."

"He punched Peter I don't know how many times. Peter's face was covered with blood and even if he was on the ground, Edward kept on beating him."

"I howled with terror…but Edward was not hearing me."

"I am sure he would have killed him if Emmett had not come to stop him."

"Peter was on the ground, unconscious…"

"The principal went out of the school and saw Peter on the ground….his face looking like a piece of meat."

"He called the cops and Edward and Peter were arrested."

"Emmett and I went to the police station as well."

"I told the policemen what happened…and the evident marks I had on my neck talked for themselves."

"I didn't press charges against Peter. As soon as he was bailed out of jail, I'd never heard of him. His parents moved out and I never saw him again."

"I wanted to tell you Bella…Because of what happened to you at La Santa Fé with your ex-boyfriend. I knew you were in shock seeing Edward. I was in shock too. Edward is very protective of me and I am sure he is very protective of you."

"I can't blame him Bella. I am sure he found a link between those two events. That was why he reacted so aggressively."

"He would never bear someone hurting you…He loves you so much."

"I know Alice…I know…I didn't understand Edward's rage that night but as soon as he told me what happened to you, I understood it."

"And I am so sorry for what happened to you…so sorry…." Bella added in an emotional voice.

"And how did you deal with it afterwards?" "Was it hard for you Alice?"

"Yes…very hard…I saw a psychologist during one year. And I am not quite done with it…I mean…You know I love Jasper but I still have trouble trusting a guy. I've never had a boyfriend or made love to anybody after Peter. I don't know when I'll be ready. I know Jasper is a great guy and he is my boyfriend now…But he understands. We will take it slow…step by step… I often make jokes on sex, but making love to someone, giving him my soul, my body and my heart…completely. I am still afraid."

"Jasper is a great guy…and he loves you Alice; the way he is looking at you…The way his eyes shine when he sees you. I really think he is the one for you…And I am sure he will give you the time you need. Don't worry Alice."

"Thank you Bella…Thank you to have listened to me. I love you as if you were my own sister. You don't know how happy I am that you are a part of our family."

"I love you too Alice. I love Emmett and your mom and dad. I love Edward too…but that you already know. He means the world to me."

"You mean the world to him too. He's been waiting for you for such along time. I've never seen my brother so happy."

"That's it honey….That was my story. I think I'll go and take a shower and try to calm down before the boys come back. I am a real bunch of emotions right now…but it will be okay…See you around dinner time."

"Okay Alice…I love you."

Then I stood up, opened the door and went to take a shower.

BELLA

Poor Alice. What kind of guy could behave like this? Alice was so nice and charming. What the hell was wrong in some boys' head? I guessed some girls could act the same way. How could someone want to control another person completely? I couldn't understand it…I would never understand it.

I didn't understand Tyler's behaviour either.

He was never aggressive. He was just behaving like a teenager. Some attitudes, I could never accept.

I tried to read my book but my concentration was all gone.

I decided to take a shower and waited for Edward.

The sun was setting down so they would be home soon.

I went to the kitchen and took a glass of Chianti. I walked to the living room and turned on the TV. I flipped through the channels and there was that movie playing; 'A goblet of fire'.

My God…That was so true…That guy, Robert Pattinson, who was playing the role of Cedric, he was so much looking like Edward. They certainly looked like twins. I could imagine Edward playing that role when he was younger; the same face…the same eyes…he was as gorgeous as was my Edward.

I was really captivated watching the movie when the boys and Rosalie came back.

"Hello my love" Edward said to me as soon as he entered the door.

"I missed you, ma chérie…What did you do all afternoon?" He added with his velvety voice, kissing me on the forehead.

"I read a book and talked with Alice." She told me everything about Peter…sad as hell…"

"I know love…I know…but it belongs to her past. Now that Jasper is in her life, everything should be fine"

As soon as Jasper heard Edward, he climbed the stairs to see Alice.

"So what are you watching? Edward asked me.

"A Goblet of fire…Jesus-Christ Edward…that guy is fucking looking like you…Look at him."

"Pattinson…yep…If I watch him closely, I think he looks a bit like me…but I am more beautiful."

"Show off". I added laughing and rolling my eyes. That ego you have."

"My ego is a part of my charm. Don't you know it mon amour?"

"Ha! Ha! Ha! Go and take a shower….There's a funny smell around here…a little to masculine for my taste. I think you need it. And I added in a whispery voice"…It's not true my love. You still smell good but you should take a shower anyway. We'll eat dinner soon."

"Yep…Go and take a shower bro" I heard Emmett saying. You should have seen him Bella…running all across the field trying to catch my ball, when I was at the bat. No wonder he smells. His face was red as a beet. He was not even able to hit one ball I pitched to him. Every fucking time I pitched the ball, it was a strike. Even Rosalie was better at the bat."

"Shut the fuck up Emmett." You can be such a prick…" Why were you throwing that ball so hard?" You wanted to impress Rosalie?"

"Hey asshole…I don't have to impress Rosie." She is impressed just by having me at her side."

Then I heard Rosalie mumbling something like jerk…

And a minute later, Rosie added. "Emmett…Can you stop hugging me? …I can't breathe…and I am not a puppet…please stop swirling me.

That was the way it was with Emmett; a teaser…an exuberant and funny guy…and I loved him.

Around 5:00, both Esme and Carlisle came back from work.

They ordered pizza from an Italian restaurant and we all gathered around the dining-room table as soon as the delivery boy arrived.

As it was our last night in Pittsburgh, we all decided to spend a quiet night at home.

We watched a movie called 'Benjamin Button'. It was a beautiful, sad and emotional movie. And I thought all of us felt sadder because the next morning, some of us would leave.

I was maybe the luckiest one. Edward was coming with me, but Jasper and Rosalie would leave and let their loved ones behind.

Sure, they would see them again. Emmett and Alice had decided to fly to Montreal in three weeks. But I knew three weeks could seem a long time when you were in love and not seeing the person you wanted to be with all the time.

At nine thirty, Edward and I went to his bedroom. Our flight from Pittsburgh to New-York was at eight in the morning. Then we would have to drive from New-York to Montreal.

We both brushed our teeth and went to bed.

I snaked my arms around Edward's waist, my head resting on his chest. He kissed me on the hair and we both drifted in a sound deep sleep.

At five in the morning we were all back in the kitchen. Esme had made coffee and there were muffins on the kitchen table.

We ate in silence and then it was time to go.

Esme and Carlisle were really sad. They expected to see us at Christmas holidays. They hugged and kissed us and asked Edward to call as soon as we would be in Laval.

Alice had said her goodbye to Jasper, tears very near falling from her eyes. Jasper was emotional too. He told her that he would call and chat with her on internet.

Emmett drove us to the airport. We kissed him and told him that we would go in the airport to get a coffee. In fact, Edward, Jasper and I wanted to give him time to say to goodbye to Rosie.

Fifteen minutes later, Rosalie came to meet us. Her eyes were red and pricking with tears.

I offered her a coffee and we all went to register our luggage; our boarding passes and our passports in hands.

One hour later we were on the plane.

This had been a marvellous week. The only thing that had upset me…was the night at The Altar Bar…and Kate…but that I wanted to forget.

I loved Edward and he loved me…His family was my family…I was happy and sitting just next to the most important person in the world…My Edward…My man.

End of chapter 21

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