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A/N: I'm so sorry *looks down sadly* I wrote this ages ago, and I meant to update, but I got caught up with other writing, babysitting, school, homework, friend drama ... and I've really been getting back into books, so I've been trading an hour or two of free computer time for reading time. But I'm here now! Forgive me for taking so long?

For: Each and every single one of you.

Title: My Little Decoy
Genre: Romance
Rating: T
Warning: Suggestive references to sex.
Pairing/Character: Lily/Sirius
Word Count: 552

Lily knew what she was to him, what their relationship meant and why it ever came into existence. She knew it, she accepted it, she liked it. She wanted him for the same reason he wanted her, and so there was no reason to feel rejected, neglected, hurt. And she didn't. She felt dangerous, adventurous, sneaky. She'd spent so long being the good girl, Little Miss Uptight, that it was nice to let go and find another side of her.

She knew it was wrong, but she didn't mind. She knew it was betraying people they both loved and trusted, but she didn't care. She knew it was disgusting, but she loved it.

All the moments late at night, behind statues and in hidden passages; all the kisses and whispered words of false affection in gasps of passion; all the secret smiles and winks behind backs – they all sent shivers up Lily's spine, thrilling her, and she loved it more than anything.

And even though she knew from the start what she meant to him, Sirius never failed to whisper, "I'm using you, my little decoy," as he pressed her against the wall, kissing her with a passion she only found within him and no one else.

It didn't matter that James was her boyfriend and his best friend, it didn't matter that their NEWTs were coming up, it didn't matter that Sirius's family had disowned him and that Lily's sister hated her. They used each other for the sole purpose of forgetting, of escaping reality and entering a fantasy world where nothing else mattered but them. They left their worries and stress in their beds as they snuck down at moonlight to see each other, to feel each other, to embrace each other.

It was risky and passionate, delicious and exciting, beautiful and treasured. It was cliché, cheating on the boyfriend with the best friend, but Lily felt so special in those moments. Sirius could choose any girl he wanted, and yet he chose her in the dead of night, her of all people. Not that it meant anything, of course; they were using each other as an escape, and there was nothing more to it, but Sirius could have chosen anyone to use, and yet he chose her. Because it was more exciting, Lily knew, for betrayal to be thrown in, to steal the loved one of a loved one just for a few hours each night.

She was his little decoy, as he was hers, and there was nothing more to it. But as they lay in their respective beds in their respective dorms after a few passionate hours together, both Lily and Sirius wondered what if would be like if their relationship was emotional as well as physical, if James was out of the picture and they could be together openly. They'd shake their heads at the ridiculous idea – Lily loved James for who he was, she loved Sirius for what he could do. They're only attraction to each other wasn't like that; it didn't mean anything.

But they couldn't help but wonder, just imagine, what it would be like if they were more than decoys.

"I'm using you, my little decoy." - Decoy, Paramore.

A/N: Lily/Sirius is sort of my guilty pleasure, as is Remus/Lily. Remus/Sirius and Lily/James are unbeatable; those pairings belong that way. But when I read S/L or R/L, I can't help but smile.

Shameless plugging: I have two new stories up, The Message Within (Remus/Sirius) and Dearest James (Lily/James), so if you could take a look, I'd be forever grateful. And I'm working on two drabble collabs (they're for challenges on HPFC, and I'm putting them in separate collabs merely so it's easier for the challengers to read them), so keep an eye out for them if you like Slytherin (they're both going to be related to Slytherins). I'll tell you when they're posted, 'kay?

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