DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

A/N: ugh! hectic day! my arms are soooo sore! i carried my body weight in textbooks! and we didn't get our locker's yet either, so it was a fun day... not really!

I'll be starting chapter playlists, um I just turn on my writing playlist, and click shuffle. What ever comes on, comes on. So if you see the same song on another chapter, I can't help it. Oh and the songs don't relate to the chapter or the story, and if they do, than it's a complete coincidence. And I HIGHLY recomend all the songs! my writing songs, are usually my favorites

chapter playlist:

kiss with a fist- Florence + the machine hot and cold- katy perry fix you- coldplay ending start- metric raw sugar- metric beautiful disaster- Kelly Clarkson I'm not calling you a liar- Florence + the machine monsters- hurricane bells ur so gay- katy perry hardwire- metric walking on air- kerli defying gravity- wicked hey Julie- fountains of wayne dancing with tears in my eyes – ke$ha cosmic love- Florence + the machine

When I woke up in the morning, Anthony's eyebrow's were furrowed staring at my face. "What's wrong?" I asked.

"I didn't see daddy." He whispered.

I thought back to my dream, but there was a problem. There weren't any.

Wow.

That's a first. Ever since AJ was born, I've had dreams of Jacob.

"So what did you dream about honey?" I asked.

He grimaced. "Bad dings." I held him close.

"Like what?" I asked, I was surprised at how motherly I sounded.

He let out his bottom lip, he was pouting. "Too scary to talk about."

I shrugged, "Okay."

We got ready for the day. I tried not to think of what was scaring my child, but the thought kept creeping back into my head.

My parents were already at the house, I let Anthony down and he went over to his little corner of the house where he claimed his own. He sat in his little beanbag, and little boxes of toys surrounded him.

I went up to Dad.

"Did you happen to hear Anthony's thoughts last night? Like what he was dreaming?" I asked.

He looked worried. "No. Why?"

"Well this morning he told me he had a nightmare. And he seemed pretty scared. He was so scared he wouldn't even told me about it."

My dad put his hand on my shoulder. "Well I could find out." He started walking over to where Anthony was sitting, I followed. We both sat down. AJ looked up from his toys and smiled. Rosalie came over too.

She gave us questioning looks but we both ignored her.

"Hey Anthony." My dad said sweetly.

"Hi Gwandpa." He said as he picked up a toy airplane. He made noises, meant to resemble a motor, and he pretended that the plane was flying. It landed on dad's shoulder.

We all laughed. I looked at my dad. He was reading Anthony's thoughts. Mom came and joined us, she sat next to dad. My dad sat there, with that look on his face for minutes.

Then he moved over to Anthony, and started playing him.

"What was that about?" Mom asked me.

"I'll tell you later." I said, as I watched them play.

"So, AJ, have you been having nightmares?" My dad asked him.

A frightened look came on Anthony's face, similar to the one this morning. My dad's eyebrows knitted together.

"So you're scared?"

Anthony nodded. I jerked forward, but my mom held me back.

Dad grabbed AJ and gave him a hug. "Don't worry. We'll all be okay. I love you, buddy."

"Wove you too Gwandpa." He said as they parted.

My dad looked at me. "Renesmee may I speak to you?" He looked at mom. "Bella you can come too."

We went out the front door. I bombarded him with questions.

"What is it? How scared is he?" I asked over and over again.

"Ness. At least give me a chance to answer." He chuckled.

"Edward, what's going on?" My mom asked.

"Anthony has been having nightmares about us being hurt. And he was all alone. He thinks we went to the same place where his Daddy went." I felt my heart sink, as my Dad said this.

I can't believe my son dreamt this. What did it mean?

"Renesmee. It's just a dream, but I'll be listening to his thoughts a lot more now. I'll let you know if he has it again." I nodded, and we all headed inside. I saw Alice and Jasper sitting on the staircase. I went and joined them. Being around Jasper at stressful times helped.

I sat down, and closed my eyes, I could feel both of their stares.

"Nessie, you seem overwhelmed and confused. And sad. And scared." Jasper said.

"I know." I said vaguely.

A wave of happiness swept over me. I smiled. "Thanks."

They both looked at me and smiled. Alice's eyes glazed over and then she snapped back to reality.

"Ness, you'll be getting a phone call in approximately four seconds." She said cheerfully.

"Four. Three. Two. One." I counted outloud. The shrill ringing of my phone filled the air.

We all laughed and I looked down at the caller ID.

Seth Clearwater Calling

I felt my cheeks blushing, and Jasper started cracking up, Alice had a huge grin on her face. I hurried up the stairs to my dad's old room. I sat down on the couch, and opened my phone.

"Hello?" I asked silently, because everyone in this house could hear my phone call, and I'm sure they were listening.

"Renesmee? Did I wake you up?" He asked.

"No, it's just I live in a house full of noisy vampires." Bouts of laughter came from downstairs.

"Haha. I see. Uh, you mind if I come over today?"

"No of course not."

"Alright, be there soon."

"Bye."

"Bye." I hung up the phone.

When I was walking back down the stairs, Alice gave me one of her looks. I walked faster, before she could attack me with one of her makeovers.

I ran over to Anthony and picked him up. "Mommy, will I get to fight wiff Ungle Emmett today?" I set Anthony down.

I turned around and glared at Emmett. "Do you have to be putting these ideas in my one year old child?"

He chuckled. "Yes I do. He's the only one willing to fight here."

"Uh, I would!" My dad and Alice said at the same time.

"Yeah but you both cheat." Emmett said.

"I do not cheat." My dad responded. Alice nodded in agreement.

"Yes you do. It's not fair, when you know what I'm going to do next." He looked at Alice. "Or when you can see what I'm planning on doing."

My dad smiled. "Oh." And Alice let out a laugh.

"Well what about me?" Mom asked.

"He's scared that you'll beat him again." My dad said quietly between laughs.

"And Jasper is too afraid that I'll beat him again." Emmett said ignoring what my Dad's comment.

"Am not!" Jasper shouted. "I'm just tired of your gloating afterwards. And I can beat you."

"Really?" Emmett, said as he cocked an eyebrow. They both ran into the backyard, the whole family ran outside. Esme and Carlisle were the last one's to arrive.

After an entertaining fight, Seth and Leah came, and he sat next to me on the grass. Leah, was talking to Anthony.

Emmett lost, and started begging for a rematch.

We all sat around the yard, watching them. Eventually as they kept calling rematches, everyone started going back into the house. Seth and I were the last one's. AJ went in with Leah and Esme earlier.

Seth and I were in my room at the cottage.

"Seth. I think we should talk." I said nervously.

"About what?" He asked.

"Come on. I think you know." I whispered. He nodded. "I hope you know how hard this is for me. I mean I lost Jacob. And I like you. A lot." If only I could let go of Jacob, then I would love him. "But I'm not ready for love. Not yet at least.

"And I feel horrible, when you love me so much. And you deserve my whole heart. And before you didn't have it. But I can give it you now. I think."

"Renesmee, you're not ready." Seth said quietly.

"I agree. But I can't keep my feelings locked away either."

"I don't want your heart, unless you feel like its right. I don't want you to be sad."

"I know. God! I don't deserve you! You don't deserve someone who is still in love with a dead man." Damn the truth hurts.

"How much is it going to take you to understand." He looked into my eyes. "I'm okay with it. You've been through a lot Nessie."

I felt the tears in my eyes. "I know but it feels so wrong. I thought that Jacob would be here forever. And now… He's not. And I have these feelings for you. But I still have feelings for Jacob. And I feel horrible! I shouldn't feel this way."

"Renesmee you shouldn't fight how you feel it only makes things worse, believe me."

"I know." I buried my face into his neck. He wrapped his arms around me and I cried. I cried for Seth. For my baby who was having nightmares. For Jacob who can't be alive to see his child grow up. But mostly I cried for myself, because I didn't know what to think.

a/n: i'm tired. my neck hurts, because I was carrying like 50 pounds in my backpack today.

you know what i'm about say...

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