DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

A/N: oh mighty! i was supposed to get mockingjay (the third hunger games) today but my mom couldn't take me to the store. So now I'm really upset. Hopefully I can get it tomorrow! lol sorry for boring you with my personal life

chapter playlist:

hear you me- jimmy eat world blindness- metric looking up- paramore leave out all the rest- linkin park over the moon- RENT fix you- coldplay la vie boheme- RENT dancing with tears in my eyes- ke$ha josey- hey Monday young forever (feat mr. Hudson)- jay z hurricane drunk- Florence + the machine very loud- shout out louds never think- rob pattinson altas- fanfarlo breathe me- sia we are broken- paramore our song- taylor swift eyes on fire- blue foundation

Alice is now totally focused on her visions now. So if it wasn't bad enough with my Dad knowing what we were all thinking, Alice know's all of our futures. Even small things like when I'm going to get hungry. It's so annoying!

Seth and Leah are here now everyday, all day. And the pack comes and goes. It's probably because we have food. But hey, what do I know?

They agreed to help us fight, so Alice thinks that there is a 17% chance we will all die. But then she quickly adds that there's an 83% chance we'll live.

We are all betting on the 83%.

I've been trying to have fun with Anthony and not make everything a death sentence.

Seth and I have been taking him to the park and the zoo and museums and such. Leah always tags along, and at least two family members like to come with us, it depends on the destination for the day. And then on top of that we almost always have a member of the pack with us.

I think Anthony likes all the attention.

Today it was Me, Seth, Anthony, Leah, Mom, Dad, Grandpa Charlie and Sue. My dad was really hesitant about leaving the house, because he needed to be close to Alice if something change, but he wanted to spend time with us.

We were on our way to a small amusement park in Seattle . The car ride was mostly quiet except off small conversations amongst everybody. Then Charlie mentioned someone I almost forgot about.

"Renesmee, Kate is in town."

I froze. Then I realized he meant Kate Black. Jacob's sister. I haven't seen her in forever.

"Really?"

"Yes, and she wants to see her nephew." He said.

I smiled. "Well tell her I can come over tomorrow."

"Alright will do." Charlie nodded.

We pulled into the crowded parking lot. It was a very cloudy day almost about to rain, so my parents and I wouldn't stand out too much. Seth and I walked in together, Leah next to us with Anthony stumbling beside her. My parents with their hands held, behind us, and Charlie and Sue next to them. I laughed internally. We were all paired up. I saw my Dad smiling too.

We mostly rode little kid rides because of Anthony, but occasionally someone would stay behind with him, and we would all go on the 'big kid' rides. On one of the roller coaster rides, Seth kissed me, on the way down, and the ride had a camera, and when we got off the ride, we bought the picture.

After the long day, we were headed out when, Seth spotted a photo booth. He tugged on my hand, and we went into the little booth. He pressed the buttons, and the the screen said "ONE, TWO, THREE."

We both smiled, as the camera flashed. Then he whispered, "I love you." Into my ear, for the next picture.

I looked into his eyes for the next one.

In the last one, we kissed. We laughed as we climbed out of the booth. We grabbed our pictures, and we all headed out of the park.

In the car ride back, I examined our pictures. We looked just like my parents when they are together. I smiled. I've always wanted that, and now I've got it.

We arrived at the big white house, and yet again the house was full of vampires and werewolves. I sighed and went into the house. The noise of everybody was really irritating me. "We never get privacy anymore."

"You want us to leave?" Paul asked with a smile on his face.

I realized I said that thought out loud. "No it's fine!" I exclaimed, as I left the house and started for the cottage. I heard laughter coming from the house.

I sat down in front of the door, and rested my head on my knees. I heard someone walking towards me, and I didn't bother to look up.

I felt kisses being planted on my ear, and then going down across my jaw. A smile spread onto my lips. I swung my long hair over that side of my face. Then Seth's arms wrapped around me.

"You can't get away from me that easily." He purred. Laughter escaped through my lips.

"I've noticed." I murmured.

I snuggled into Seth's lap, and sat comfortably.

"It's nice out here." I whispered. "No one is-" Then Anthony came running across the lawn and through the trees. "Nevermind." I giggled. I could feel Seth's whole body shake with laughter.

Anthony came into view.

"Momma! Oh, I sorry." He exclaimed. "Have fun!" He went off back through the trees.

Seth and I both broke into laughter again. My lips met Seth's, again and they stayed there.

Leah came through with a struggling Anthony in her arms.

"Seth, stop sucking face with Renesmee." She retorted.

I pulled my face away from his as I turned bright red.

"I told Anthony to come here, so he could go to bed, but looks like someone else was planning on doing that." She said as she narrowed her eyes on the last part.

I only turned more red.

I reached my hand out for Anthony, and he held on tightly. Leah said her goodbyes, and left us. Seth followed us inside. I placed AJ in his crib, and Seth held me in his arms in my bed. Anthony was already fast asleep, and I could hear slight snores coming from Seth. I could finally find peace to fall asleep.

I was stumbling along the sand at La Push beach. I saw a tan man sitting right on the shore. As I got closer he looked very familiar. Then his face turned, and I started running towards Jacob.

I stopped moving when I saw how sad his face looked.

"How could you do that to me?" He asked.

"Do what?" I was confused.

"Let me go." He said softly.

"But you told me to!" I started yelling.

"I didn't think you would actually forget about me." He muttered.

I thought back to the past month. I haven't really thought about Jacob at all. I felt my heart drop to the floor.

"I didn't." Was all I could say.

"Stop lying Renesmee. I know you forgot."

I felt tears in my eyes. I sank down to my knees. I looked at the sky. "Is this what I get? For being happy for once? Being haunted in my dreams?" I screamed. I fell on to the sad, and weeped.

Jacob sat a few feet away from me, and just watched.

I sat up, and wiped my tears away. "Why aren't you doing anything?" I asked.

"Because you don't love me anymore." He stated.

"Yes I do." I protested.

"Not like before."

I ignored his answer. "So why haven't you been coming?"

He bit his lip. "The question is why haven't you been coming?"

My brain was tired, and therefore I couldn't think right now. "What do you mean?" I demanded.

"You care more about Seth, than me right now. And this isn't a buy one get one free sale, Renesmee." My bottom lip trembled. "You can only choose one in your life, you can't get both."

"But Jacob…" I had tears in my eyes.

"I miss you." He said bluntly.

My eyes widened. "Me too. I always will."

"Sure, you haven't missed me this pass month."

My jaw dropped. "That's unfair! You told me to go on with my life, and to be with Seth, and-"

"I never said life was fair, Renesmee."

"Anthony misses you." I blurted out.

"Yeah well you've found someone else to replace me with, so."

"Jacob! Seth is not replacing you!" I yelled.

Then I heard someone shout my name behind me. I turned around and saw Seth, and my family, my pack family, and my son.

Seth waved for me to come over. Without realizing it, I took two steps forward.

"You need to make a choice soon." Jacob yelled.

I turned around, "Jacob. He's alive. And well you're… not." I bit my lip. I was dying to go see Seth.

"Well I guess that answers my question." Jacob said throatily. I turned around and started running to everyone before Jacob could see me crying.

I woke up abruptly, screaming. Seth put both his hands on my cheeks, whispering to me.

"Shh, Renesmee. It's okay." He cradled me in my arms.

"Did I wake Anthony up?" I whispered.

"Amazingly no. That kid could sleep through anything."

I laughed. "What did you dream about?" Seth asked softly. It was still dark and the only light came from the moon through my window.

I decided I should tell Seth. "I've had these dreams for at least, the past nine months. And they are about Jacob. And then when I started liking you, he told me it was fine to be with you and then when I let myself let go of Jacob, the dreams came less and less often. And I haven't had one in a month. The one I just had, Jacob was mad at me because I loved you. And then I saw everybody on the beach, and I started walking towards them, and then I woke up screaming." I explained. I noticed tears rolling down my cheek.

Seth caught the tears with his hand. "Don't worry, they are just dreams." He whispered.

I shook my head fiercly. "No they aren't. They seem too real. At least to me they do. And they scare me." I said with a pouted lip.

Seth tilted my head. "Don't ever be scared of anything again."

"How? When the Volturi are coming soon?"

"Well when the time comes, the we'll worry." He smiled, and I couldn't help but smile too. "But right now, just be happy."

"Agreed."

I relaxed, and fell back asleep in his arms.

a/n: can anyone guess where I got the idea of the dreams from? (hint it's a movie)

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