Oh boy… I don't know where to begin… I totally updated late and I'm REALLY SORRY about that! My biology teacher gave us a project I didn't know how to make and my history teacher made us do a dramatization about the traditions of the Asian Families :'(. I was busy making the script. You can totally hang me for this… I'll try to update more soon. But anyways, on with the story! xD

Forgetting Me

Disclaimer: I do not own Matantei Loki

- - - -Chapter 7: Regrets- - - -

Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.

~Sydney Smith~

Having sleepless nights was already becoming a normal thing when he arrived in Asgard. The hours he slept would only be three hours and if he was lucky, it would sometimes reach to five. But after arriving in Midgard, sleep never overcame him. He was never sleepy, always wide awake as his eyes would constantly stare at the ceiling. Sleeping pills never worked and neither did counting sheep. Being awake was the only thing he could do during night time.

The sunlight was already filtering through the sheer curtains. He figured that Yamino would be here soon to wake him up but instead he climbed out of bed and went to his bathroom. He turned on the faucet and let the water run for a bit.

He took a handful of water and splashed it on his face. This was now the fourth day of his stay here in the human world and he wondered when Narugami was going to decide to return home. Waiting for him was soon getting on his nerves and he just wanted to get out of here as soon as possible. A frown touched his lips after a minute and he tiredly leaned on the sink, resting his head on the edge of white porcelain.

He didn't know how long he was in that position but he heard footsteps. When he lifted his head up, he saw a towel ready for his usage. "Thank you," he accepted the towel from Yamino who greeted him with a gentle smile.

"How was your sleep Master Loki?" he asked.

"It was good."

Yamino gave a brief look of doubt to the man standing in front of him. The tired eyes Loki was giving him were easy to notice and Yamino couldn't help but let worry surface in his features.

"Should I make your usual breakfast?"

"Yes, thank you."

Yamino nodded but he didn't leave yet. He waited, because Loki didn't make a move to dry himself with it. He was just staring at it with a blank look. A minute later, he spoke again.

"Being back here in Midgard can bring back lots of memories…" Loki announced as Yamino was ready to hear his father finally speak his feelings. "Don't you think Yamino?" He glanced at his caretaker.

"Yes, we did make lots of memories back then. I certainly enjoyed buying all those useful house equipments." Yamino said with a gentle laugh. Loki chuckled at this. "I never thought Midgard could be a nice place to stay, even if it was just for awhile. With all these memories, it was a little hard to leave." He confessed and Loki felt the pang of guilt he always felt.

Yamino continued, noticing Loki's look of downcast. "It was my choice to follow you wherever you would go Master Loki and I have no regrets of leaving this place."

The god of mischief let out a small laugh.

"That's good. It's good to hear that you have no regrets."

"Then what about you Master Loki? Do you have any regrets after leaving this place?" Yamino finally asked, gentle eyes carefully watching Loki's reaction.

"I don't know…" he sighed. He didn't know what to feel anymore. These unsettling emotions raging inside him; he didn't know what to do about it. "Leaving or erasing Mayura's memories of us, I don't know…"

"Master Loki…"

"But I just hope she'll forgive me for doing this to her… It was all I could do to erase all the pain away."

Yamino nodded before speaking. "I think… Miss Mayura would understand the decision you made even if she didn't know about it." Yamino comforted. "It was the decision you made and maybe… it was for the best." He stepped closer to Loki and took the towel from his hand and began to dry his face.

"The problem here Yamino is that I don't think it was right of me to erase her memories while the other side of me thinks it is. But I know I just had to do it and just forget about it like nothing had happened but thinking on how she couldn't remember me anymore…" he trailed off, not wanting to continue anymore.

In that moment, Yamino could clearly see that Loki was regretting. Even from the start when he erased all her memories, he already regretted it. And the sad emotions inside of him weren't helping him and his health at all. Yamino could finally understand Narugami's view on Loki's situation. He knew that Loki had to make a decision; the one that would stop all this. If he didn't make the right one and start to regret it again, then Yamino won't know how long that body and mind of his can hold out much longer. And if that bottled up emotions start to burst then Loki would surely…

…breakdown.

Even if he was a god, that wasn't impossible.

There were board notes to be copied on the board but she didn't bother scribbling it all down. Instead she drew small doodles in her notebook while her eyes would show laughter whenever she would see what she would suddenly draw with her wild imagination that she was well-known for.

She gave out a giggle and she vaguely heard her teacher stop writing on the board to look at her.

He raised an eyebrow, seeing her giggling to herself while she's copying notes. Little did he know that she wasn't even doing what he thought she was doing. He cleared his throat loudly, catching the whole class' attention.

"Miss Daidouji, is something funny over there in your seat?"

Mayura quickly jerked her head towards the old face of her world history teacher. She unconsciously rubbed the back part of her head and she gave out a nervous laugh, an apologetic look appeared on her face.

"No it was nothing sir." She answered sheepishly.

"Well, be quieter next time. You may continue copying." He said before turning back towards the blackboard to continue writing the notes.

"Yes sir." She responded, trying to hide a laugh, knowing he didn't catch her doodling instead of writing down notes. Her classmates chuckled at her and she saw Kotarou roll his eyes before bringing back his head to his notebook.

Looking at the notes on the board, she gave it a brief look and sighed. Might as well copy those notes on the board.

Minutes passed by and Mayura yawned and stretched her neck and arms after the teacher left. School was now finished and tomorrow was a Sunday, meaning no school and she could do whatever she wanted. She grinned to herself when she placed all her things inside her bag. Her father would be home late tonight and this was a chance that she would find some Fushigi Mysteries. But first, she'll have to water her apple tree.

Students rushed out of the school ground in a hurry since today was the last school day of the week and it meant, hanging out with friends, going to karaoke or just go directly home to sleep. Mayura took her time in her pace, clearly not in a hurry. She spotted Kotarou get inside a black car, his face looking smug as ever and Mayura couldn't help but roll her eyes. When his car drove off, she saw green in her eyesight. Standing across the street from her was none other than Narugami, the boy she saw the other day.

Mayura waved. "Hi there!"

"Yo!" Narugami greeted back, jogging off towards her.

"It's been awhile. What brings you here?" she asked, smiling brightly at him, feeling like they were old friends.

"I just came by here to tell you something."

"Really? But how'd you know what school I was from?"

"Uhm…" He didn't know what to say to that question. Seeing as though Mayura was waiting for an answer while she cocked her head to the side, he racked his brain for any logical answer needed. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed some of the girls wearing her same uniform. Aha!

"It was because of your uniform."

"Oh yeah…" she gave an 'oh' sound before giggling and whacking herself. "Silly me. Anyway what are you going to tell me then?"

"Right. I was just here to remind you about your apple tree. You mustn't forget to water it now."

"Well, I'm clearly off to do just that right now." She said, showing him the watering can she borrowed from the gardening club.

"Good. Then that's all I needed to know." He started walking away. "I hope it's gonna go well!" he called out cheerfully over his shoulder. That was just some words he wanted to give to her before she would arrive to where her apple tree was planted.

"Wait-wha?" she was confused and was about to call out to him until he disappeared around a corner. "What was that supposed to mean?" she asked herself, putting a finger to her chin thoughtfully.

Narugami breathed a sigh of relief. He was glad all of that was now over. He gave Mayura something to be confused about and he bet she was on her way to the apple tree now. He looked down; a small smile was on his lips. The shine of the sun cascaded his features in a certain glow.

It was time for the caretaker to take action now. Narugami planned on choking the four-eyes if ever he was ever going to screw up with the plan he actually made up.

He tiredly leaned on the wall with his eyes closed. All he had to do now was wait. He had done his part and it was up to Loki to do his.

Everything was always filled with surprises and she wondered if she was living in dream land. Her crimson eyes looked over everything within her vicinity. In her mind, every little fiber in her brain screamed impossible and she too believed that. This mansion… was not here yesterday!

"Fushigi Mystery…" she muttered, trailing her fingers on the metal bars of the gate that stopped her from entering.

She refused to believe that this was here yesterday and that she just missed it. She tossed that thought out, stating clearly in her mind that this was impossible. Unless… aliens came to earth and were currently occupying this large mansion! What else was there to explain?

"Fushigi Mystery!"

Yamino perked up his ears in alarm, clearly thinking that he had heard something. He shrugged. Maybe it was just some bird but he was stopped short from pouring tea on the tea pot when Ecchan came floating fast towards him.

"Mayura! Mayura ish here!" he called out happily and Yamino couldn't believe his ears. He suddenly felt nervous all of a sudden, feeling his palms going to sweat.

"SSSShhhh Ecchan. We don't want Master Loki to know about this now, do you?" he brought his finger to his lips and Ecchan nodded obediently but still managed to look excited.

He breathed in and out, preparing himself for what's to come. After doing everything he needed to do in the kitchen, he brought the tray of snacks with him as he walked up the stairs before stopping short to knock and come inside Loki's office.

"I brought you your snacks Master Loki." He announced, trying so hard to feel calm even though his heart was racing.

"Oh, thank you Yamino." Loki said, putting down a book he finished reading on the table.

"The tea we have right now is Earl Gray, one of your favorites." Yamino continued, pouring tea on a tea cup before handing it to the god of mischief.

Loki sipped it quietly, savoring the nice smell of the hot liquid. He finished it after one gulp and Yamino poured tea on it again.

"Was the book nice Master Loki?" he asked randomly.

Loki got up and went towards his bookshelves. He trailed a finger on some books, deciding what to read next after placing the book he finished reading back to the place where it was kept.

"It was interesting but I didn't really like it." He answered absentmindedly.

"Oh is that so? Do you want me to buy you some new books in the city bookstore?" he asked, praying silently to himself that Loki would lookout the window.

"That'd be nice. Why don't we buy some new books now? The day is still beautiful and the sun hasn't completely set," he suggested, walking slowly towards his desk and he started to look out the window. "It might be good for me to take a… walk…"

He went silent for a moment and Yamino was sure that Loki saw Mayura just outside the gate of his mansion.

"What's wrong Master Loki?" Yamino asked, acting as if he didn't know what made Loki go stiff and silent.

The caretaker tried to inch closer so that he could see Loki's reaction. Surprise filled his face for a moment before it was contorted into sadness, knowing that he couldn't see her now. He went on his way and quietly sat down on his chair and sipped his tea like nothing was there.

"Was that Miss Mayura?" he quietly asked, still acting as if he didn't know.

Loki felt his heart drop down to his feet and he winced at the name Yamino uttered. And the caretaker didn't miss that small involuntary action.

He didn't answer and just stayed silent. Yamino continued on. "Why don't you see her." he suggested with an encouraging smile.

Loki sighed. "I won't. I erased her memories remember?"

"Well, you can still make new memories with her. Memories more precious than the ones we used to have here."

"No. It's not my place to enter her life again."

The words that came out of his own mouth, managed to give him a painful sting in his heart. His head felt dizzy and he was tired all of a sudden.

"Why won't you just enter her life again Master Loki? It's alright. She'll welcome you with her happy smile like how she always did when you first met even though you wanted nothing to do with her at first."

Loki didn't answer as he stood up, ignoring the now cooled tea on his desk. He just couldn't see her. He'll be going back to Asgard before she would get to know him again. Everything became blurry and he needed to go back to his room to rest his now aching head.

"I'm tired. I should go back to my room and rest. We'll just buy the books tomorrow if we have the time." He said, heading towards the door, his fingers massaging his temple.

"Master Loki…"

The door closed with a small click before Yamino could say the next words. He sighed in sadness and a frown touched his lips. It was becoming harder to smile with Loki around. Yamino turned to the window to see Mayura look around the front garden of the mansion. Her expression was clearly lost and he saw her shrug before turning to leave.

What would Narugami say if he finds out that his plan backfired?

It wouldn't be a good one… Yamino thought, sighing once again.

Loki's room was beginning to become dark once the sun started to set. It was becoming darker after he jerked the curtain to cover his window. Without waste, he immediately flopped down his bed. He covered both his closed eyes with his arm while using the other one to lose his cravat around his neck.

The feeling in the room was becoming heavily thick and he felt his lungs constrict for more air than his body actually needed. Seeing her earlier felt like his blood turning to ice and he didn't know what to do other than staying still and stiff and not see her. But in truth…

He wanted to see her.

He wanted to so badly that it hurt.

But he couldn't. He needed to be away from her.

Without thought, he got up and looked at himself in the mirror that hung on his bathroom wall. He stared at his own reflection, unable to recognize the broken man that stared back at him.

He was sure that he would go back to Asgard as soon as Narugami was giving the go signal. And everything that happened here, he was going to forget. Even though it hurt, he was still going to do so. And no one was going to stop him…

Everything became a blur when he told himself that and the words Yamino said was running around his mind endlessly.

Why won't you just enter her life again Master Loki?

Loki didn't reply to that question but in his mind, he knew what he would have said.

The reason why he didn't want to enter her life was if he did, he'll never want to leave.

:: End ::

Well that was the end chapter 7! It took me awhile to write this but I hoped you liked and enjoyed it. I'll be sure to update more chapters.

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