Disclaimer: I do not own Sesshomaru, Inuyasha, Kagome or anything else owned by these creative geniuses!
Author's Notes: Once again I am sorry that I haven't had an opportunity to update sooner. This time I was having horrible writers block. However, I hate when stories just get abandoned and you are just left wondering. If I have one fan who is still reading I will always keep writing.
Kagome was sitting a safe distance away from the well house. She was completely overwhelmed by her previous lust induced actions. She had run from the well as soon as her feet hit the dirt floor of the well-house. "Do you think he will pull me through again?" Her panicked thoughts were catching up with her while she caught her breath sitting far away from the offensive object.
"Oh Sesshomaru…." Kagome breathed out his name remorsefully. She tried to make some sense of the evolution of their relationship. "How did all of this happen? How did everything change so much? Do I care about him more than I originally thought? When did all of this change?" Kagome knew how much she cared for the Lord of the West. "I can't be with him anyway…. He wouldn't wish to be with a human? Why does that hurt so much to think? What about my relationship with Inuyasha?" Kagome sat and thought until the sun started to set and her butt hurt from sitting on the hard wooden stairs leading toward the well.
Kagome finally smelled dinner cooking and regretfully stood up to leave the well house and decided to head back to the house and enjoy one final meal before she needed to go back to the past and attempt to piece her strange little life together. "I don't know what to do with you Sesshomaru. I don't know what to do without you Sesshomaru" Kagome mumbled to herself as she headed back toward her home. "Once I returns to the feudal era I will have to deal with Sesshomaru and I will have to deal with Inuyasha" She thought as she slid the front door open and stepped into her familiar home. She just left home but so much had changed - she felt like a completely different person than she was earlier today. She felt like there was a string wrapped around her body pulling and twisting her toward the well, toward Sesshomaru. Suddenly being apart from him caused her to feel breathless and desperate to get back to him, to figure out what was going on. However she couldn't allow herself to return to him, she needed some distance and some time alone in order to sort out her own feelings before she goes back to the past and gets suffocated by the power and influence that is the Lord of the West.
"Mama! I am home for dinner"" Kagome called and she walked right into her home and kicked off her shoes.
"Oh hello Dear - back so soon? Come sit down I will make a plate of food for you". Kagome crawled into her chair at the dinner table and ate her dinner slowly. Her mind was unable to to wander too far from her strange ice-prince.
Kagome climbed up the stairs toward her bedroom. Her feet felt heavy as she felt like she was pulling herself more painfully away from Sesshomaru. She decided a hot bath and some self reflection would help her figure out what happened. She needed some time to take a deep breath and try and figure out what she wanted. She ran away so quickly that she had really no idea what Sesshomaru really wanted. "He asked me not to leave him… but what does that really mean? Sesshomaru could never love me - not seriously. He probably only wants to bed me and then throw me away. Everyone knows how he feels about humans and half demons. He may not despise them as he once claimed but they aren't his favorite" She wasn't sure if he was capable of loving her. She wasn't sure if she was capable of loving him. She knew that he was a good and honest friend, and he hides the best parts of his personality so others will not see his weakness. Is that true or is she just giving him too much credit?
Her thoughts were turning on her and she was now resenting and getting mad at Sesshomaru for things had never done or said- being along wasn't helping anymore it was just poisoning her opinion of him. She let out loud growl of frustration, knowing that she wasn't accomplishing anything so she knew that she needed to go back to him and confront this issue. Kagome used her lavender shampoo and conditioner in an attempt to calm her thundering heart, the idea of Sesshomaru being hateful or unkind to her that way made her heart hurt and fear to flood her body.
"Do I want to be with him? Why does the idea of him acting this way, hurt so bad?" Kagome felt the heat rush to her face as she thought about the reactions her body had to the demon lord. Her body definitely wanted Sesshomaru but what about her mind? "Inuyasha doesn't want my body or my mind does he? He wants Kikyo and the only reason he shows me any favor is because I look so much like her" She suddenly felt relieved, if nothing else Sesshomaru showed her that Inuyasha is not the person she should spend her life with. She wanted to cry, scream or jump up and down with joy - She needed to see him now. This needs to end today, all this needs to be cleared up today.
She walked toward her bedroom and decided to find something different to wear instead of her typical green school uniform. For some reason she needed something that would amp up her confidence so she could face those two dog men and say what she really needed to say. She started digging through her closet and found a white, lace, full length sundress that she had bought a couple years ago and never had an occasion to wear. She curled and pinned her hair romantically to the side and applied some pink lip stain and a light dusting of a floral perfume.
She opened her closet door for one last check before she headed into the past. This dress hugged her curves beautifully and she was acutely aware of the way the dress showed off her hips. In the two years since she bought the dress she has filled out into a woman and she looked sensual and sexy. It had been awhile since she looked at herself with a critical eye and she recognized how beautiful she really was. After the way Sesshomaru touched her today she couldn't keep herself from thinking where she wanted those hands to be embracing her again. A deep blush spread across her face. "C'mon girl, get it together, you have to be strong to get through this meeting with Sesshomaru".
As she left her home, the rest of her family was already asleep for the evening - it was later than she anticipated. She primped longer because she was really nervous to head back. She walked toward the well house in a pair of silver flats and her long white dress - she felt beautiful in the evening with the night's breeze brushing across her skin.
She didn't hesitate - she jumped down into the well and pulled herself up the vines. She sat on the edge of the well and waited patiently, she knew that Sesshomaru would come and find her. Her hair was blowing softly in the wind and the moon was high and bright in the sky. Sesshomaru walked out of the tree line and stopped in his tracks when he saw her. He only knew it was Kagome by her scent, mixed with a soft floral scent. She was dressed more beautifully than he has every seen - she looked like royalty.
They made eye contact across the field and they held the heated gaze. Kagome was sure that Sesshomaru could hear her heart thundering and Kagome could see the micro expressions of shock and awe on his perfect chiseled face and it caused a slight smirk. Suddenly Sesshomaru's head turned sharply and his eyes narrowed. Kagome knew that face, it meant that Inuyasha was coming near. Kagome looked at Sesshomaru and nodded her head quickly toward the tree line, signaling for him to hide for the moment. His eyes narrowed but his large frame disappeared and she could no longer sense his unique energy anymore. "He must be hiding behind a barrier" She thought leaving her body turned toward where she last saw Sesshomaru but turned her head toward the red blur that approached quickly.
"Hey wench, you aren't supposed to be home until tomorrow morning, you need to be careful. You need to me come pick you up to protect you - you aren't able to protect yourself." Inuyasha said condescendingly toward her. Kagome kept her gaze held on her dog friend and let the comments brush off her shoulders - this was only the beginning.
"Inuyasha - we need to talk " Kagome breathed out softly and calmly - she was channeling her inner ice lord. She could see his shoulders tense up and he looked slightly panicked. Dogs do not behave well when they are cornered.
"What? Why… What are you talking about wench?" Kagome could feel the energy in the field changing and she needed to keep calm so she could say what she needed to say. It needed to come across as clear and concise.
"Inuyasha. I will always care about you as a friend. However, I need to tell you that I can't be with you. I no longer have the same feelings I used to have for you. I was so young when I first came here and you saved me so many times and I fell for the hero I thought that you were." She smiled at him gently, a loving and friendly smile and she could see the blush and confusion spread across his face.
"Kagome… I…." Kagome held up her hand to stop him, a friendly and calm gesture.
"No, don't Inuyasha. You do not need to say anything. I know that you love Kikyo, even though she isn't who she used to be, I know she is who you are going to end up with. I just want you to be happy, whoever you end up with". She stood up from the well and walked over the her old friend and gave him a warm hug.
"Kagome. I do love her… I don't want to hurt you" He mumbled and blushed as she pulled out of the hug and stepped away from and started walking toward the tree line.
"Inuyasha, I don't want to hurt you either. However, the next thing I tell you is going to make you mad and I need you to keep yourself calm." She had put some distance between them knowing perfectly well that Inuyasha could close the distance instantly. She looked at him with sad eyes "okay here we go" Kagome braced herself for the coming argument and rage and look of betrayal on one of her closest friends faces.
"I think i've found someone who makes me happy too but you don't like him very much" She held his gaze as he saw the realization spread across his face. She saw his hands curl into fist and a growl to escape his lips.
"I will not let you end up with that fucking wolf trash Kagome. You deserve so much better than him. Don't settle for that loser just because we can't be together" Kagome was surprised by the conclusion Inuyasha jumped too and her eyes grew wide but then she realized he had no idea about the meeting between she and Sesshomaru and how he took care of her and how they grew together. She took a calming breath before she said her next statement "Sesshomaru won't let Inuyasha hurt me… will he?" She braced herself for the reactions that were about to happen.
"Oh Inuyasha - It isn't Kouga. Don't be ridiculous. I'm sorry but I have been meeting with someone that you didn't know about and I am kind of crazy about him. He is an incredible man. He is strong, smart, kind and understanding… and he takes really good care of me. We are very different but we are working on communicating better I think. However, Inuyasha, I know that you don't like him but I need you to trust me when I say that he is different with me" She turned away from him and cross her arms across her chest and looked at the tree line because she needed his strength to get through this conversation.
"It is Sesshomaru" Kagome spoke clearly and with intention and she could feel the rage radiating off Inuyasha behind her.
"I think I am going to stay with him for a little while Inuyasha while we try to figure out what we both want from each other" She said it with finality and started walking away from him slowly. She knew the shock would wear off quickly so she needed to say everything before he flew off the handle.
"Go and find Kikyo and have her help you with the Jewel hunt for now. I know that you guys aren't the best terms right now but if I am not with you but I'm sure she will help you. I will catch up with you guys later. I know that it is my responsibility and we still need to hunt down and kill Naraku" Kagome continued walking away but knew his sensitive ears would pick up on everything that she said.
"Don't bother- you fucking traitor" Inuyasha's voice bled venom as he turned on his heels and ran toward the village. Kagome felt like he punched her in the stomach - she knew that it was going to hurt but she never thought she would feel the hatred usually saved for Naraku aimed toward her.
He appeared so quickly, and a warm hand slid across her stomach and his hot body pressed against her body. He held her tightly to his body and Kagome sank into his strength, allowing him to hold her up and keep her from collapsing in on herself.
"We've been here before - you saving me from the damage done by your brother" She laughed dryly and cuddled deeply into Sesshomaru. He chuckled and ran his hand soothingly up and down her body.
"Wearing a dress like that, and hugging my brother - you're lucky I didn't kill him and carry you away from here" Sesshomaru spoke his voice raspy, trying to maintain control. Kagome tilted her head up toward him and pressed her lips softly against his again, this time Sesshomaru responded warmly, it was an embrace shared by lovers who overcame a huge obstacle and had many more to overcome still. They pulled apart smoothly and languidly.
"I'm glad you like the dress - I wore it for you" Kagome murmured earning an approving growl from the man in front of her. Which caused Kagome to blush red across her whole face and hide her face in his broad chest.
"Sesshomaru - carry me away from here. I've done everything I needed to do here". Kagome breathed out softly wrapping her arms more tightly around him.