hye! just wanna say hello to the readers...:) oh...plsssssssssssssss review....thanks so much!

ps: ...did i forget something?? oh yeah....the disclaimer... ahem...i do not own FURUBA... everyone knows that already...-sigh-

The Reason I Love You

Chapter Six

Where am I? Why am I in this deserted place? Why am I here? What happened? What am I doing here? And who... Who-who am I?

"Kyo-kun?" I turned my head towards the sound. Such comforting sound... "Kyo-kun..." there it is again. It's calling someone. But who? And the sound, the voice... sounds so familiar... I like it, no; I love the voice so much I couldn't tear my eyes away from where it leads me to. Though I can't see it, and I don't know whose it calling, and who it belongs to, but I had this urging feeling to go and run towards it. To grasp it, hold it, embrace it. The voice is so calming.

The place I was in was very deserted, empty. All I can see is my own body sitting in the middle of nowhere. Where I am or what I doing here is really something I couldn't quite figure. I turned my head again towards the same soothing voice I heard earlier. It's a very caring, gentle and nurturing voice, almost pampering like a mother's, but sweet, kind and loving like a partner, a lover. "Kyo..." Who is this voice calling?

The voice roamed all around the place I was in. I couldn't quite put it, because I don't know whether I am in a room or hall or anywhere. It was a huge empty space where everything was bright white in colour. Everywhere I looked was all white, except for a certain portion of the place I currently inhabitant. It stationed far behind my back. I turned around again, now completely staring behind my own back.

There, in the middle of nowhere, I saw two paths. They were so far I couldn't figure what they were that I stood to look at them and stumbled dismissively. My legs, how long has it been since the last time I used them? They feel extremely stiff. My whole body felt stiff. My hands are so stiff and somewhat swollen looking I can't barely move them. I stood up once more; my legs shook as I forced them up straight, carrying the burden of my asleep-like body.

I walked slowly, dragging my feet, nearer to the two paths I saw earlier. The voice too, was leading me to them. It took me a moment to uncover the stiffness of my almost malfunctioning body. I walked and continue walking towards the two paths. But the more I walked to them, the further they seem to become. I started running, grudgingly ignoring the fact that I hurt my limbs with every movement I did.

I ran and ran and ran until I'm out of breath, yet the two paths are still too far for me to reach. I fell on the hard floor of nothingness, exhausted. The voice is still urging me to go towards the paths before me. This time it came by with another voice. The second voice is not as sweet and soft as the first, but gruff and deep, yet it still holds gentleness and kindness. I like it too. I feel so protected by just listening to the voice; still saying the same thing, calling the exact same name. I wonder who this Kyo person is. Is it...me?

That wasn't the only thing I was wondering about. I wondered why I was so intense; otherwise very happy hearing these voices calling a name I wasn't sure who it belongs to. I stood up again, slowly and a little more confidently, and walked towards the paths once more. This time, the paths stays put.

In countless steps or so I reach the two said paths. I stood almost ten feet away from them. Half of me was somewhat firm and confident, whilst the other half told me to run away from it. I ignored all feelings except for the curiosity building within my veins. I took a step nearer. The voices are still roaming all around me, getting louder than before. For the first time I ignored them as well, for my attentions are now fixed on the two paths ahead.

The paths split gracefully in front of me somewhat very tempting. It seemed like they were urging me to walk all the way through them till I might somehow reach the end. Something tells me I had to choose and walk through one. But I don't exactly know which one to pick and where it will lead me to. The two paths were very identical but with slight unnoticeable differences. The one on the right was huge and welcoming; it almost seemingly sucking me into it. The left was just as big as the other, and as welcomingly so; but the aura somewhat disheartening and fearsome. I looked at both of the paths simultaneously. I stood in front of the paths, for how long I can't really tell, staring into the two seemingly long ways through. I stared at the right path; it's soothing. I turned at the other; it's welcoming, full of love and care, but filled with fearsome unknown and unseen burden. I shuddered.

I stood there for another long hour, thinking of which path to choose. I'm totally blank. The voices I heard came from both of the paths and I know they can't help me as much. I sat. I don't know for how long I have been sitting there but I stayed long enough and I still hadn't found any answers for my confusion. All I know is that the calming and beautiful voices are both now starting to diffuse and disappearing. Suddenly I feel so left out and alone.

I stared at the paths once more. Wondering what lies ahead and which one I would eventually take as my somewhat final decision, and also which one may lead me to the ending that I would never regret having.

***

It's been almost two weeks since the incident of Kyo's tragic accident happened. The Sohmas had had a particularly hard time with all of the things that had happened to their family and now they have to add one more involving one of their close relative. With the things that happened, the Sohmas wondered whether or not they're freed. It just seems so unlikely since the atmosphere is still so desperately sad.

Hatori had been inside the office with Kazuma and Dr. Satoshi for almost forty-five minutes. Hanajima, Shigure and Yuki had been watching over a very distraught Tohru, who was staring off into space once more. Arisa had been blabbering about coming and accompany her as well, but she has her job on tow. If she's unable to show her face in front of her boss today she'll be sacked for sure. Yuki, Hanajima and Kureno had had a hard time listening to Arisa's complains and snide comments about how stupid and inconsiderate her boss really is yesterday evening. At long last, only after Hanajima had finally ensured and convinced her that Tohru will be safe with her and Yuki that she eventually let it down. They can actually breath normally once more without Arisa tagging in their necks.

"They sure took a pretty long time discussing," said Yuki suddenly, after a long silence. Shigure nodded silently back. "Well, let's just hope the results wouldn't be as bad as we thought it would," was the reply.

Hanajima sat silently beside Tohru, who now had tears rolling down her cheeks. She heaved a long, sad sigh before hugging onto her dear saddened friend. Tohru's appearance was forlorn. Nobody who knew Tohru would ever guess it was her at the first sight. She was so different. It seems as if the cheerful Tohru they once knew were no longer existed. She cried almost all the time, and she had awful nightmares every time she sleeps. She was so tired looking, and has huge bumps under her eyes, which were red from crying and lack of sleep.

They rarely heard her speak, or even smile, let alone hear her laugh her once cheerful laugh, ever since that day. Hanajima and the rest had been taking turns on taking care of Tohru and accompanying her to the hospital to visit a still unconscious Kyo. Tohru had become worse ever since Kyo was diagnosed to be in the state of coma, and the doctors were unsure as to how long it would take him to finally awake.

Kazuma too was distracted by the news about his now coma son. He rarely teaches nowadays but merely let Kunimitsu or Yuki or Hatsuharu to handle the job for him. Yuki and Hatsuharu had been giving lessons to the once Kyo's students as a part time job, seeing that they were both had too much free time and had been simultaneously teaching the little kids karate in turn. Now Hatori and he were cramped in Dr. Satoshi's office listening to the doctor about his seemingly forever sleeping son.

He barely heard the two discussed. He merely caught a few glimpsed of their doctor's heart-to-heart chat. It was only Hatori who kept on asking questions, which in his opinion, had been very helpful since he didn't know what to ask Dr. Satoshi. If the doctor ever asks him anything, he would only questioned him when will his precious son ever going to open his eyes and smile at him once more in return.

After another painful half an hour, Hatori decided that he no longer had anything to ask his fellow colleague. So they, along with Dr. Satoshi, finally stood up and left the office to meet up with the rest outside. Just as soon as they saw them, Dr. Satoshi brought them to Kyo's new room since he was moved the night before after having his regular checkups. After they reached his room, Tohru walked silently to sit at the side of Kyo's bed, reaching for his left hand and grasped it tightly within her own, kissing it tenderly, before putting her head down on his bed. Kazuma went to sit on the other side of Kyo's bed, staring intently, boring sad eyes, at him. Yuki and the rest bowed their heads and went to sit at the extra chairs provided or stood against the wall of the first class hospital room.

Dr. Satoshi then left the family in the room, leaving Hatori and Shigure discussing about Kyo's current situation. Hatori was informed by the doctor that Kyo might take some time to be conscious. He also might suffer, as what Hatori once predicted, some organ malfunction and memory suppression or worse, become paralyze. Hatori told them that Kyo would probably have problems controlling his right side of his body, since that he was badly injured on that particular side. He also will have to attend countless therapy sessions to make up for his nerve systems dysfunctions. Dr. Satoshi also said that Kyo will have to get help from everyone he knows even in his current condition, saying that mentally, Kyo is half conscious, and that he listens if people talked to him. "It was an emotional range of way to help him wake. Some people didn't believe it could work, but it always worth a try," said Dr. Satoshi to Hatori, which the latter repeated to the group in the room.

After a few hours of chats and discussions, it was already time for them to head home since it's already pass the visiting hour. On their way home in Hatori's MPV, where Shigure, Hatori, Yuki and Kazuma were currently discussing, they were interrupted by a silent and broken voice. Everyone (except Hatori who was driving) turned to the small voice, staring at the owner who sat in between Kazuma and Hanajima. Tohru hung her head, staring at her own hands on her lap as she spoke. Neither of them actually heard what she was saying and apparently waiting for her to repeat herself. After guessing that she probably won't, Hanajima asked her to repeat it once more.

"Thank you..." she started. "For everything..." she paused. The whole MPV was waiting for her to continue, so she did. "I-I think I've been a burden," she was now weeping, Hanajima wrapped her arm around Tohru, uttering comforting words. "I know I have...I-I am s-so sad...I m-miss him so m-much..." her tears fell onto her hands. "Seeing him laying there on t-the bed, with all t-those things o-on him..." she paused, wiping her face, "h-he's right t-there...in front of m-me...b-but I can't h-hear him speak t-to me..." she inhaled, wiping her face once more, "I m-missed his v-voice talking to m-me...I m-missed his e-eyes looking at m-me..." Kazuma clasped her hand as she spoke, "a-and all I can s-see...are his c-closed eyes...s-silent mouth...I-I don't know w-what to d-do...every time I s-see him like t-that, I want to c-cry..." she paused again, "I am s-so sad..." she cried harder, letting her tears flow down her red cheeks.

Everyone in the MPV was dead quiet. Yuki and the rest of the men didn't really know what to say. Hanajima sat there and comforting her, her own eyes shining with tears. Kazuma too, shed tears in his eyes, letting it slowly flow down his cheeks, ignoring the once pride of being an honoured man, gently grasping his beloved supposed-to-be daughter-in-law's hand. Yuki hung his head low. He never quit feeling sorry for the girl he love as a mother figure, as a best friend, as his own family. He was sad for her, and for him, his once nemesis of a cousin, Kyo. He had never once thought that one day he, the ex rat, would cry for the cat. He had never even thought that this tragic accident would ever happen to Kyo. Yuki put his head into his right palm, shielding his tears from view.

Shigure was very quiet. He himself was close to tears. He turned his head away from the tearful view to stare at the road before him. He had cared for Kyo like his own troublesome younger brother. He's been living with him for three years, talked to him, teased him, advised him like an older brother would. It's just so hard for him to think that he might lose him. Shigure sighed deeply, continuing to stare at completely nothing in front of him.

Hatori was constantly trying to maintain his focus on the road, fighting back his own tears from falling. He had never once thought, after so many years of slaving himself for Akito and listening to her used snide comments about how dreadful and unloved the cat was, that one day there are people, including him, that would cry for the cat. Every time he glanced at the rear view mirror where he saw Tohru weeping on Hanajima's chest, he felt as if his own world shattered. Kyo was so lucky to have someone to care for him, worry about him, love him and cry for him.

But it was useless, since the one concern is still unknown about how everyone feels for him. How everyone actually cared for him. How he had actually left an impact in everybody's life. He's still unknown to that. It was still worthless...

ps: i hope this chapter's ok...it hadn't had anything in it since i cramped the 'issues' in the later chapters...anyway, i'm on the way to finish chapter nine...oh, a spoiler...kyo's not going to be here for a while..hope u guys don't mind.. (i miss him...TT_TT)..