Chapter 3: Mom at 18 Part II

Jessica pulled up to my house at 11 that night. After the movie we had went to a local McDonald's and then spent a hour or two in a clothing shop. I hadn't bought anything but Jessica had bought me a pair of jeans, with butterfly's on the back pocket and a dark blue camisole. She simply said it was a late birthday present. I had hesitatingly accepted it, If I was truthful I did like the shirt.

I walked into the house, noting Charlie's cruiser in the drive and as I opened the door my face a bit more open then it had been. I was smiling softly, not a true smile but it was a improvement, and my eyes had brightened just a bit, at least now they had some emotion in them. I was heading up the stairs when Charlie's voice stopped me.

"Where the HELL, have you been!?" He almost roared and I turned trying to look innocent but the look on his face made me cringe. It was a mix of anger, sadness and worry. When he looked at me fuller in the light his expression faltered a bit, his eyes sparked with happiness...or something similar to it.

"I...I went out with Jess, just like I said I was." I spoke almost confidently and bit smug. He looked shocked, it was so unlike me in these last months. He sighed and motioned for me to follow hum. I did, dragging my feet. Charlie wasn't ever this emotional from what I recalled and it worried me. I looked down and felt my mind wondering back to how E..HE had acted before leaving me. It was spooky similar only unlike him, Charlie was angry.

"Sit down Isabella." He said. Crap!, full name; I thought as I cringed and sat down across from him on the couch. He was sitting on our coffee table and he pinched the bridge of his nose but I pushed the image of Ed..dammit..Edward doing the same back. I didn't need him...I could live without him.

"I called your mother earlier." He started and I widened my eyes. He had really called Renee? I had thought he was trying to scare me, bluff his way passed my barrier that I had built around my emotions.

"Why, I TOLD YOU I WAS GOING OUT! I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK..." He cut me off by standing up anger on his usually calm face and he shouted, the first real angry shout I'd ever heard my father use.

"ISABELLA MARIE SWAN! I DIDN'T JUST CALL BECAUSE OF THAT....AND THIS ISN'T ABOUT THAT ETHER." He yelled and then sat back down I think I saw his eyes tear up.

"Your mother is...well the doctors don't think she will make passed the birth." He said almost whispering as he went. I looked at him shocked, mom was..did he just say...

"What? Mom is...pregnant?" I asked and he looked at me and nodded.

"It wasn't long after you left Phoenix after your..accident." He began and then sniffed

"When I called your mother...I felt like something wasn't wright, then not two minutes into our conversation she screams like someone is killing her." He started again and I had to hold in my gasp. Was she ok? She had to be....plenty of women had baby's at 36, it wasn't uncommon.

"The next thing I heard was Phil running and grabbing bags, from Renee's screaming I knew it was the baby bags...your mother went into labor." He said and looked at me. I was confused now, what was charlie trying to say? He sighed upon seeing my confused and lost look before continuing.

"I called the hospital about a hour ago. Renee is only in her seventh month...she didn't want to tell you this Bella, but Renee was told after having you that having another child would be to dangerous because of her cancer." He said and I gasped and stood up.

"CANCER!?" I lowered my voice as small tears came to my eyes, I suddenly felt faint.

"What...why. Mom doesn't have cancer, she would have told me." I watched as he stood up and pulled me into a small hug. I felt so odd, Charlie wasn't one for hugs...not even when I was younger. He pulled back and sat back down on the coffee table pulling me down on his knee. Which was even odder considering he hadn't done that since I was 5 years old and I was now 18...a lot heavier and bigger.

"Renee never wanted you to know...its the reason we fought when you were a child. She went into remission when you were 7 and was declared cleared of the cancer in her breast...but it wasn't long after that she wanted to have another child, I wouldn't allow that. I was so afraid it would hurt her in the long run and I was happy just having you." He stopped as a tear ran down his face. It finally clicked, the reason my mother left forks.

"Mom didn't leave because she hated forks, it was because you wouldn't let her have another child." I said and he nodded and chuckled. "She didn't love forks but she said that you and I made it so much more bearable. It was a week after your 8th birthday when she left." He said and I let my tears fall.

"Mom will be ok though, wright?. You said she was cleared of the cancer." I asked and he sighed again, when he sighed so much I knew it never meant good news.

"I'm sorry Bella. It was during one of her check ups they said that the cancer was back...she was four months then and she refused to heed the doctors words and have a abortion." Charlie spoke and I chocked, she was dying. I didn't blame my mother though, I'd never kill my baby ether but I didn't really plane to ever have any ether. Though obviously Ed..Edward had made that decision for me.

"She isn't going to make it is she." I asked and he shook his head. He was about to speak when the phone rang. He looked at me but then stood up and sat me back on the floor, and walked over to our phone. He picked it up and looked perplexed...then realization flashed across his face.

"Yes this is Charles Swan....Yes, Sophia Renee Dwyer is my ex-wife.." I raised a eyebrow. I had never heard anyone call my mother by her first name...I always new she went by her middle but not that she even put the first one on documents. She had always hated her first name.

"....HOW DARE YOU! NO, YOU STAY THERE AND TELL THOSE DOCTORS TO STOP WITH THAT...REALLY? WE WILL JACKASS." I snapped of my thoughts by Charlies yelling. I had never seen him so angry, and I wondered what the hell was happening. He slammed the phone down and then turned to me.

"Bells...it isn't good news." He said and then I felt my head rush.

"....She's dead baby...she lived long enough to have the twin's but..." I didn't hear anymore before I fell to the ground and everything went black.

…..................................................................Hour latter:

I awoke to a soft wind hitting me In the face. I slowly opened my eyes and cursed myself for not eating while with Jess or at school. I realized slowly that we were no longer at my house, I was in the cruiser and Charlie was at the wheel, the radio was also on and a oldies song I reconsigned from my parents time was on.

Gina works the diner all day
Working for her man, she brings home her pay
For love - for love

She says we've got to hold on to what we've got
cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - well give it a shot......

"Hey, Bells! I'm so glade your awake, here." He said reaching into the area beside us and pulling out a McDonald's bag and a then handed it to me. "I got you a milk shake to...its in the ice chest in the back seat." He said and I chuckled. He always kept the ice chest in the back seat, for when he went fishing but this was odd. I looked inside to see a chicken sandwich with a thing of fry's and some ketchup. I picked at a fry and sat up straighter.

Looking at the speed meter I was shocked to see he was speeding, almost 80 miles per hour and this was a 45 mile per hour road.

"Daddy...whats going on?" I asked and he looked at me sadly.

"Your mother died having the babies...there was nothing the doctors could do. That call I got was form the hospital telling me what had happened and that Phil was putting the babies up for adoption..." I snapped to look at him, anger coloring my features. That...he was trying to get rid of my baby siblings?

"I went off on them, told them to let me speak with him. I gave him a ultimatum...Though you don't know Phil isn't from the best background. His father killed three people before being caught and Phil's last girlfriend was declared missing only a year before he met your mother. I never approved of him...I told him I'd look into it deeper if he didn't cancel the adoption and stay with them until we got there." I felt proud of my father and a intense hatred for Phil. I had never once thought he was a bad person but now I was very worried, had he ever hurt my mother after I left? She had seemed almost scared for me to leave and when I refused to come home when in Phoenix last year she had seemed almost sad and relieved at the same time.

"Sleep Bella...I'll get us to the airport." He finally said, I ate a few more fry's and part of my sandwich before breathing in and letting the music wash over me and I fell into deep sleep.

We've got to hold on to what we've got
cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - well give it a shot

Whooah, were half way there
Livin on a prayer
Take my hand and well make it - I swear
Livin on a prayer

We've got to hold on ready or not
You live for the fight when its all that you've got.....

Time Skip::::

We arrived in Phoenix around noon the next day. I hesitantly got off the plane, gasping at the sunlight that made the area glow and was way warmer then Forks ever thought of getting. Charlie looked at me but just thought I was reacting to missing the sun. In reality I had realized if I went into the sun I was breaking my promise, I closed my eyes and pushed the slight guilt back and stepped out and into the sun. It almost stung my eyes at first, having not been in sunlight like this in almost a year.

"It's ok Bella...not let get a rental." He said and we walked to a rental across the street, I was almost shocked it was still there. I had thought it was closing last year from lack of business. They didn't have very nice cars and everyone wanted something pretty to drive around in. I was almost happy when Charlie chose a small green Toyota, also very amused. It wasn't a very manly car and I had openly ever seen him drive in the cruiser which seemed to put fear into the hearts of forks.

It only took us 40 minutes to get to the hospital and I winced. Hospitals always made me remember memories best left forgotten but I really had no choice. I walk into the building trilling behind Charlie who was almost running down the halls.

"Hello, I am looking for Doctor Yule..." Charlie asked the receptionist that was older, about 43 with bottle blond hair and a kind smile. It was very apparent she was a natural light Carmel haired women and her eyes were a striking hazel.

"Of course...Paging Doctor Yule, please report to the waiting room." She said as she spoke into the intercom. I was almost shocked, I didn't remember ever hearing a hospital paging anyone like that. I shook my head and walked to sit down laying my head against my dads chest. I was feeling like road kill and then I Jerked awake from cold hands shaking me.

I almost thought it was Carlisle in front of me, he was of similar build and height, and his hair was golden like his, the cold hands. As the image came back to me I saw it was not Carlisle and almost started crying. I had to move passed this.

"Hello, I'm Doctor Lyle Yule. Your father noticed you were having some..problems after arriving, and I told him I'd take care of you." He said smiling kindly. He was young, 30 at most, and he may have resembled Carlisle but Dr. Yule had a tanner skin and his eyes were a light blue. I opened my mouth to speak only to notice a tube, and I gagged. He looked concerned before taking the tube out and I coughed and he grabbed a glass of water.

I gulped it down and smiled softly. "What..What happened? Where is my father?" I asked and he walked around me and felt for my heart beat and other things before smiling and answering my questions.

"He went to take care of your mother arrangements and the Twins which I hear are your siblings. I am happy they will have a family to go too..I was adopted my myself and I never had a loving family because of it. I think you could describe them as trailer trash, as harsh as that is." He stopped and put his scope thing to my chest, "Phil Dwyer already left, Charlie is just looking after the twins until you wake up, said he didn't want to name them until you awoke...or decided anything big. As it is Phil refused to sign the birth certifacate as the mother." Dr. Yule said and I nodded.

"As for you, you were highly dehydrated and over worked. I'd say you haven't been eating properly for weeks or months. It amazing you can still function. Your eyes though..." He began but I cut him off.

"What about them?" I asked and he sighed handing me a mirror. I gasped, no longer were my eyes a nice dark chocolate brown but a weird brown/green color. They appeared a brown color in one glance but at a closer inspection they where a brownish emerald green color...but not bright as apposed so green eyes.

"As you know every new born baby has blue eyes and then at a few months they change or stay the same. It rare when someone doesnt have specks of unnoticed colors in there eyes, and like most your were finally mixed with emerald green. When all this stress and from these records the flu and pneumonia you had months ago this made you shut down and you eyes turned from mainly brown to a even mix. Think of it like a hazel, sometimes they will appear brown at others green." He said and though I only got some of it I nodded. I rested back and sighed, closing my eyes.

"I'll go get you father and sister's." He said and I almost didn't comprehend that he said I had 'Sister's'.