Chapter 4: Funeral : Life is Beautiful
You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie
You can't breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you're the joke
There's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive
BPOV:
Dr. Yule came back 10 minutes latter with a clipboard of paperwork and handed it to me along with a subscription. I looked at him confused.
"There vitamins, one is for you and the other is for the twin's...they'll need them to grow healthy, its amazing they lived being two month's premature....they both have under formed lungs. I suspect Asthma in the future." He said and I nodded and looked over the papers. There was a death certificate for Renee and looking at it I chocked on my sobs. I couldn't break now...I had to care for two others. I breathed in and then out, I didn't know if I could do this.
"You know, you remind me of my daughter." I heard my doctor speak softly and I looked up at him shocked. I had never known a doctor to be so personal when dealing with a patient, not even Carlisle had been.
"Your daughter? I'm sorry its just...you don't look old enough to be a father." I said and it was true. I knew by looking at him he was older then Carlisle physically but he didn't look older then 27. He smiled and laughed as he changed my I.V.
"Its good gene's...while most my family will look older then their years during their teenaged years they don't really start wrinkling till long into their 40's..I'm only 32 though, I had my daughter with my wife, Ella, when we were only 17." He stopped before pulling a chair up to my bed side, it was them I realized just how young he appeared.
"Her name was Mary – Anne, she looked a lot like my wife, long brown hair and my eyes." He stated smiling, his eyes becoming glazed like he was remembering something.
"Was?" I asked wearily. I just knew this was not a happy ending. He looked at me and sighed before running a hand through his blond hair.
"Was...she died two years ago." He said and I saw his eyes glisten with unshed tears. I decided to change the subject and looked down at the papers.
"Can I sign this as the Twins' parent? Or do I need to sign mom's name?" I asked, I didn't mind ether way but I really wanted to put my name. I knew I would need to raise them and eventually I'd move away from Charlie...the Twins would grow up only knowing me...the thought of them calling me mommy warmed me somehow and they seemed to push any thought of Edward and the Cullen's to the back of my mind. Odd, because I haven't even seen them yet.
"You can go ahead and sign as the mother....you'll need to see a social worker eventually though, to sign a adoption certificate...just in case something happens to them they know your not their birth mother." He said and then stood up and walked to the door. I watched as he walked out and spoke to a nurse with red hair and brown eyes, about the age of my father. She nodded and I used the pen he left to write my name on my mother death certificate and I noticed that he had already signed it.
I moved on to the twins' birth certificate, their foot prints were behind it and I smiled, they looked so small. Looking at the other info on their certificate I noticed they only weighed 3 pounds and 20 ounces. I almost chocked...so tiny. I breathed in and then I thought of names...they would need names.
"Bella, your father and sister's are here." I heard Dr. Yule say and he smiled before walking back out to give us some privacy. My dad was smiling softly with two babies in his arms. One was wrapped in light Purple and the other in light Pink. I smiled and noticed a band on each arm, a hospital band. He took the seat Dr. Yule had once sat in and handed me the Pink blanket. I 'awwed' and looked down at the baby that was snuggled close to my heart. She was so small...so beautiful.
I never knew how this could feel...I had never been around babies, my mother had never wished to be around them and until recently I had thought it was because she hated kids. I knew better now, she was jealous, envious...like Rosalie. I closed my eyes and waited for the pain but none came. I opened them and looked to see the baby had her eyes open, looking at me with clear blue eyes.
I wondered if they would change color?
"What should we name them Bells? Your mother always liked the name Rose." He said and I looked at him with a smile. He looked happier then I had seen him since I came to live with him. I could also see the sadness, but my mother never wanted anyone to cry for her, only remember her. I chuckled as the little pink blanketed baby grasped at my chest, I knew what she wanted but I couldn't help her there.
"Sorry baby, I don't have milk." I said and Charlie blushed softly and shook his head. I raised my other arm for the other baby and he lifted it into my arm. I held both babies to my chest and they fit perfectly. The other baby, who by looking at there bands I knew was baby number 1 and the Pink one was younger. I looked at each and finally smiled.
"Sarah Rosalie and Mary Alice Swan." I spoke and he looked at me. He raised a eyebrow at the middle names. I didn't think he knew that Edwards other sister was named Rosalie but he hadn't taken me for old fashioned names.
"Alice?" He asked and the pink baby giggled and did a baby clap. I knew then which one would be which. I nodded and Handed him the Purple blanketed one, now Sarah.
"Yes...the oldest will be Sarah Rosalie...Sarah for Jacob's mother and Renee's Mother, and Rosalie to mix Rose and your mother's name." I stopped as he looked at the baby and smiled and nodded bouncing her softly. I thought it would be better not to tell him it was also HIS sister's first name.
"The youngest will be Mary Alice...after Dr. Yule's daughter, and Alice after...Alice." I said the last part sadly and he nodded. He loved Alice just as much as I did, he thought of her like the second daughter he had never gotten to have.
"Welcome home Sarah and Mary." He said and I smiled. Maybe my life would get better after this...I could do this and they would heal me. I thought looking to my sisters, now my daughters.
…..................................................Time Skip
1 Week latter:::
"…......She broke your throne, she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah....." I sang as I bathed the twins. I had finally been let out of the hospital two days ago and aloud to take the twins with me. Dr. Yule had given me his home number and information encase I ever needed anything, he had been very touched by me naming my youngest sister after his daughter.
I chuckled as Mary Alice; which Is what I usually called my baby. Charlie usually called her Ali or Mary. Sarah was my little Sarah bear or Rosie. Anyways Mary Alice splashed the water in the sink getting me wet. I shook my head and took a hold of Mary's hands. Sarah had giggled and looked to be amused. I was a firm believer that even though they were only a week old and babies they understood everything said to them.
"That isn't nice Mary Alice. Behave." I said sternly but with amusement in my voice. Charlie had been making the last arrangement for Renee's funeral, which was what I was readying them for. Charlie had gotten a hold of a social worker and thanks to him being a officer the paper work for the adoption was already being finalized. Charlie had decided since I was taking the role of mother he'd be the 'cool grandpa', his words not mine.
I lifted Mary Alice out of the water filled sink first, they were still such small babies but to make her giggle I made a grunting noise like she was super heavy, it worked on both ends. Almost as if it was rehearsed the twins both burst into giggles. I laid Mary on a pink towel that had her initials on it and did the same for Sarah, though Sarah's towel was purple. The initials were stitched in blue and green silk – Blue – Sarah, Green – Mary Alice.
I laid out their outfits. They both had a matching pink and brown jumper dress and a little body suit to go under it. Mary's was pink and said, Sugar and Spice and everything nice. While Sarah's was dark blue with the word Lucky on it. A brown and pink hat for Sarah and a pink hat with a kitten on it for Mary Alice, to finish the outfit was ballets booties, Sarah's were silver and Mary's were gold. I sighed and called out knowing Charlie would hear.
"Dad, can you come and put the twins into their cloths!?" I waited and not a minute latter Charlie came in. He had cleaned up, his hair was more healthy looking, and shorter...more brown but gray at the same time. The mustache he sported before was gone and he was clean shaven, all in all he looked 10 years younger.
"Sure Bells....go get ready yourself." He said and I nodded, kissed both the twins heads and left to the other bathroom to take a quick shower. I stayed under the hot water for no longer then 9 minutes before getting out, wrapping a towel around myself and looking at myself in the mirror.
I looked better then ever before. I had cut my hair a bit, in the months I had been like a zombie it had grown to my butt, and while here I had decided to get a hair cut. It now fell top the middle of my back in waves. It looked healthier now as well, my face wasn't a sad and my eyes held more light then before. The doctor had been wright about my eye color, I had started calling them Hazel, since they changed daily from a soft brown to a olive emerald green color. Though I had gotten multiple compliments about them. I was growing fond of the green/brown eyes....it made me all the more different from who I once was. Week...and defenseless.
I dropped the towel after sighing and pulled on my strapless black bra and my black panties before pulling on my little black spaghetti strapped dress. It was tight around the chest, was a scooped neck and showed off my chest and half my back as the straps crossed over each other in the back. It fell like a waterfall to just above my knees and was a contrast against my alabaster skin.
I Pulled on a pair of black patent bow ballet shoes, a silver heart locket with a big round emerald in the center. A pair of diamond stud earrings and a H&M Marine Blazer that I left unbuttoned for now..it was raining in phoenix, a rare occasion. I sprayed spritz of perfume my mother loved; a mix of flowers and fruits with stones like Amber. I dried my long hair and curled the ends before walking out of the bathroom and back into my room. I pulled out a little purse that once belonged to my mother. A gold chain like strap and a jean fabric. I slipped inside that a clip of money, about 20 fifty dollar bills, and a wallet that was black and had a key hole design, it housed my ID and credit card. I also placed a butterfly mirror inside that had once been my mothers.
I walked into the bathroom connected to my room and saw Charlie was finishing up with Sarah. I chuckled at his goofy face and he turned to look at me, both babies now secured in his arms. "You look nice Bella." He said and I smiled and pointed to the room.
"Out, I'll be ready in a moment. He obliged and left with Mary and Sarah before I walked over to the mirror and got out some make up. I slipped on some black liquid eye liner, some smokey Purple, silver and black eye makeup and a bit of dark pink lip gloss, called Twilight something. I finished in under 6 minutes and smacked my lips before smiling into the mirror.
"Its as good as its gonna get." I said and left the room.
----------------------------------------------------TIME SKIP
"We gather here today to lay to rest a wonderful women. She was a mother, a daughter, and wife and a friend...." I felt tears try to break free from my eyes and I closed them no longer listening to the priest. My father was trying to keep his tears in as well, and Mary and Sarah were asleep. I was thankful for this, I didn't really want them seeing our mother's pale face in her casket.
"She wouldn't want us to be sad." I heard him say and I leaned my head onto his shoulder. Everyone else was crying into handkerchiefs, or trying to make fake tears. I reconsigned a women, fake boobs the size of her head, and bleached blond hair in a dress better suited for a prom, bright blue with a pink and black boa. Bitch, I Thought as I rained my emotions in.
"Nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive." I said, a quote from my mother's favorite rock song...the only one she ever listened to.
Charlie nodded and chuckled.
"Will you swear on your life, That no one will cry at my funeral?" He quoted again and I chucked this time touching the twins' cheeks as they moved and made a odd sound.
"I swear." I didn't realize how soon those words would be brought into reality.
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?
A/N: Just so y'all know Bella and Jacob are close before she moved back to forks unlike in the movies and books. Though she did ditch him for the Cullen's which means they have to rekindle there friendship and latter romance. I am NOT a Jacob/Bella fan, Team Edward or Jasper or oh hell I enjoy reading about Bella being with each the Cullen men...that does include Carlisle..just not at the same time.
Anyways Charlie will be killed...I just don't know when...after Jake leaves her or before....I'll have to think that over. Those who love Charlie...please don't kill me...I love him too, but sometimes ya have to kill who ya have to kill.
The song was Life is Beautiful by SIXX A.M.
The one Bella was Singing to The twins was Hallelujah by Kate Voegele.
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