Chapter 7: Life is more the just the games we are playing.
Dear loved one, please listen, this might be the last chance I get,
I'm sorry I left you, I'm
living in a world of regret, don't cry if you can hear me,
I never meant to hurt you dearly,
I'm so wrong sincerely, don't stop take life seriously.
These are the last words I'm ever gonna get to say to you,
when everything falls away from you
take these words and know the world is not worth leaving .
There's so much I've done wrong, since I've left it hit me so strong,
take my hand and let's
walk through all the times I've lied and hurt you,
those people, please love them, don't hate them,
we're not above them, you can have everything but have nothing.
Listen I've got to tell
you something..
BPOV:
I was least it felt like I was floating, my chest felt like someone was pounding on it and I felt like my lungs were going to combust in on themselves. I slowly tried opening my eyes on to find I wasn't floating anymore, it was white, everything was white. I almost had to close my eyes again from the brightness of the room.
"Baby..wake up." A motherly voice said from in front of me and I felt my eyes shoot open. I almost thought it was Esme, but in front of me was my mother. She had longer hair, it was shoulder length and wavy, with blond highlights and her brown eyes were wide and happy. She looked almost, younger then before and she was dressed in a light purple/white dress and golden wings graced her back. I gasped, my mother was a angel? Or was I imagining this, was I dead.
"Yes baby, your dead..at least for now." She said as if reading my mind. She giggled and helped me up before pulling me into a giant hug.
"Oh how you've grown...even if it was only a year. I heard about the Cullen's...don't worry baby everything will work out in the end. This wasn't supposed to happen though, this wasn't your destiny. He should have never left you...but when he did, he made the fate's change their minds,,,its all so complicated." She said and I smiled. She was still just as hair brained.
"Have you...been.." I didn't know how to phrase my question but she smiled and answered, seeming to know what I wanted to say.
"Been watching you and the twins...Charlie?" She said the last name with a unfounded love I had never heard her speak of before. She laughed at my face and nodded and she led me to a couch also in white that I didn't remember being there before.
"I am so happy with you, so proud. I had never thought this would happen, but everything happens for a reason. I think I had them so they could be your will to live. No," She stopped me from speaking and smiled a tear falling down her face. "I was never meant to raise them, my destiny was to have you, to raise you, Mary and Sarah – by the way I love the names – were always meant to help you. They are your new destiny, not to say the old one has expired, its just being reformed and will meet up with your destiny along the way. Confusing but true." She said and I felt oddly proud, I had never heard my mother speak with such wisdom.
"I don't understand much of that, but I guess I'm not meant to?" I said sounding almost like I was asking a question. She laughed and reach under her dress to pull out a necklace. It was simply a crucifix on a rosary style necklace with moonstone crafted beads. She handed it to me and held my closed fist in her own hand, the crucifix safe inside my closed fist.
"Its blessed, it will protect you...Bella there is something else I need to tell you." She said as she sat up straighter. I blinked and looked at her. What could she possibly need to tell me.
"Baby I always knew Edward was a vampire. Let me explain, your great grandmother was a hunter." She said and I looked at her wide eyed.
"A hunter is simply a human who has means to hunt the supernatural. The best way I can explain it is through the new TV series, Supernatural. There was a reason I laughed every time it came on. The person who wrote that story was obviously from a hunter family himself. He did change things, like the vampire's on the series...but everything else is fact. Remember that and look in the attic at the house in forks....I left a chest with stuff from my grandmother, her old hunting research and what not." She said and I looked at her, I was sure I had stopped breathing, but didn't she say I was dead.
"Why are you telling me this? Aren't I dead?" I asked and she smiled and chuckled before patting my cheek.
"Only for now...have a wonderful life baby, you'll be a wonderful mother to the twins...its in your blood." Renee said and I felt my body jerk, I was floating again, it was black though.
"Time of death : May 20th 2007." I heard a voice say, and I heard crying.
"No, not my baby girl." This shocked me. Charlie, he had called me baby girl...he hadn't called me that since I was almost 8 years old. I wasn't dead...I felt as someone lifted a sheet up and just as they went to lower it I let my hand twitch, more like forced it to twitch.
"Wait! Doctor she's moving her hand!" I heard my dad call and I heard rushing just as this was happening I jolted forward, gasping for breath my eyes flashing open multiple time before deciding weather to stay closed or opened.
"Its a miracle...she's alive." I opened my eyes once more and looked to my left. I reconsigned the doctor as Dr. Snow, he had been the doctor who cared for me when the Cullen's left. He had graying hair and soft brown eyes, he was at least in his 40's. I looked to my side and saw Charlie and Sue, Seth and Leah as well. Leah had tears running down her cheeks, her russet colored skin a sharp contrast to mine or even Charlie's, and her long black hair and blue eyes. She was one of the most beautiful girls I'd ever met. Seth was just as dark skinned as his sister, with short black hair and though he was only 14 he looked older, like most the pack did. He looked like he had been crying as well.
Sue was almost a older version of Leah, but a inch shorter at 5'8 and her hair was short to her shoulders and her eyes were brown, a almost silver/brown. Standing next to pale Charlie made him and Sue look like a odd couple, but it was easy to see they loved each other.
"Bella, what were you thinking?" Charlie asked and I chuckled and lied through my teeth.
"That I didn't want to be bear food." Charlie's eyes widened and he hugged me. One by one my family members hugged me, Doctor Snow checking me over now and then and putting in a new IV. Finally it was just me and Jake. He knelt on my left side pulling my hands to his lips, kissing the knuckles which were bandaged.
"What happened to Victoria an Laurent?" I asked after being sure everyone was gone. I didn't want Charlie to get involve in this. He frowned then smirked a bit before stroking my hair, my forehead was also bandaged so it was a little awkward.
"Paul an Sam took care of Laurent...he was the darker skinned one right?" I nodded and continued, "The Female, Victoria, she got away." He said and and I could tell it was eating him up inside the fact he had not been able to kill the Red haired bitch.
"Bella...I know this is sudden, feel free to say no..." He trailed off and my stomach ached with butterfly's. What was he doing, I thought as he rummaged in his pockets. He pulled out a small black box and flipped it open. In it was a beautiful white gold diamond ring, the middle diamond almost put me in the mind of a rose, it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
"Isabella Marie Swan will you marry me?" I think I stopped breathing. Could I really get married, it was so soon. I did love Jacob but did I love him enough? I looked at him, his dark brown eyes, his russet skin, his jet black crew cut hair. He was my sun, my love, my new life. I couldn't sit around and wait for Edward to return when I knew he never wanted me to begin with. I had to move on and I wanted to move on with Jacob. I clinched my right fist and then looked down to see the crucifix my mother had put in my hand, so It wasn't a dream.
"Yes, I'll marry you," I began and he smiled and took my hand and slid the engagement ring on my ring finger. "You'll have to tell Charlie and Sue thought." I said and he paled before I burst into laughter.
….........................................................TIME SKIP
June 12th 2007:
Charlie had taken our engagement well, Sue and him had finally had the wedding and it was beautiful, small but beautiful. Billy had been shocked, he was worried about if his son ever imprinted but Jacob was convinced that it would never happen. I wanted to believe him and it was why I didn't show anyone my inner worries, what if he did? I didn't want to make him stay with me, and if he imprinted in the future then I would allow him to go.
Emily who had been married to Sam for two months already was happy for me and Jacob, and she herself was expecting a baby in eight months. We were all exited, and I had brought Mary Alice and Sarah down countless times to help her prepare, she would watch the twins when me and Jacob needed alone time. We had decided before not to wait to have sex, I didn't want to because I didn't want to give Edward any satisfaction knowing I had waited like a good little girl like he had wanted me to when I tried seducing him. Not to mention I loved Jacob, not that he wasn't Igor but I had to pretty much jump him to get him to do it. After a awkward first time we were almost going at like rabbits, or wolves. We of course were careful, I didn't want any children for a long time, I had two babies at the moment as it was.
I also made sure too return back to the house in forks before it was sold and retrieved my great grandmother Cynthia's trunk from the attic. I also bought the complete box sets of the TV series supernatural as I remembered mom saying most of it was based on fact. I had greatly enjoyed Dean's wit and sarcasm, and Sam wasn't bad to look at. Over all I had learned a lot. Rock salt repelled evil, Dead mans blood was deadly to vampire's and demons and spirits were real.
My mother wasn't crazy after all, and it appeared Danger magnetism was hereditary. All in all I learned something in the days I studied up my heritage; House rules buddy, driver picks the music, Shotgun shuts his cake-whole. I found in the last month and a half I was watching TV a lot more and enjoying the brighter side of life, I was finally acting like a 18 year old. Though I didn't ditch my responsibilities, when I was with the twins I was their mother and I left crazy Bella in the background.
I had started wearing the crucifix everywhere, and had placed a ring of rock salt around our new house, I didn't think it would keep out Victoria but the small spell, yes I said spell, would. It wasn't until June I told the pack about what I had found out when I was dead for those...two minutes give or take. To put it lightly I had to show them my grams' diary and findings. The process of getting some things, like dead mans blood was not easy, and it consisted of homeless men who had died recently. After trying an failing to get it myself Sam and Jake had taken over.
I kept it in container's in a small fridge that was locked with a code only I knew. I had used the last of the money from phoenix to get it installed. Though I had no interest in actual hunting, these things seemed to find me so I learnt all I could. It seemed that though Hunters were human, we were smarter, wiser, and had better use of our senses then normal humans. We also aged very slowly, so I could be 35 and look 25-30 counting on our genes. Though we were by no way immortal, the extra strength though was nice, I was slightly worried though. I had more strength I found then any hunter ever recorded, and my grams' did record that kind of thing.
I could hold my own against Sam, a werewolf who was training me in combat. I needed to learn to fight and he and Leah had volunteered. I came out of my thoughts as my name was called. I looked up to the podium and smile before going up to get my diploma and then walked off. Leah and Charlie and everyone all hugged me an I took Mary Alice and Sarah into my arms and cuddled them, kissing their heads.
"Did you like seeing momma get her diploma?" I asked softly and they giggled. Every laughed an we headed home. Looking back on the year I have had, I was surprised I wasn't insane.
Last words I'll ever really get to say to you
So listen very carefully to what I'm saying
Life is more than just the games you're playing
If there was ever one thing
I could ever get across to you
I'd tell you not to say the things you do
And tell my mother that I love her too
And no matter what life pulls ya through (no!)
You've got what it takes to make it through
And if I was you, I'd get on my knees and pray
Thank God in the morning for another day
coz these are the last words
I'm ever gonna get to say to you
When everything falls away from you
Take these words
And know the world is not worth leaving
Last words I'll ever really get to say to you
So listen very carefully to what I'm saying
Life is more than just the games you're playing
Life is more than just the games you're playing
A/N: Well here is chapter 7, it didn't exactly turn out as I hoped but my little sister has fallen for this story and she may murder me if I don't post it soon. Since I live with the little Bella Clone with a backbone – ironically where this Bella gets her OOC personality from – I am afraid of her more then you guys, lol. Anyways the next chapter may not be very long...more of a filler chapter. Book 1 is almost to a end, and this is NOT a Supernatural Cross, I just needed some way to help Bella fend off the Vampire's after her, especially once Jake leaves her.
Bella is also HUMAN, just with perks from having Hunter heritage. I will be doing lots of research on myths and stuff so don't be surprised if I mess with SM's Vampire's. Until next time, Au Revvior -I think I spelled that wrong...oh well you get the point.