Like I never Existed

Chapter 10: Sparkling Angel

Sparkling angel I believed
You are my savior in my time of need
Blinded by faith, I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear

I see the angels, I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now, no mercy no more
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

You took my heart, deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams, I wished they turn into real
You broke the promise and made me realize
It was all just a lie

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me
Fallen angel, tell me why
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?

I see the angels, I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now, no mercy no more
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

You took my heart, deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams, I wished they turn into real
You broke the promise and made me realize
It was all just a lie

Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

Sparkling Angels: Within Temptation

EPOV:

'You don't...want me?' I stared off into the darkness of the cramped attic in Wisconsin. The look on her beautiful face as I told her the blackest of lies. She'd believed me and I couldn't be sure if this was what hurt the most or if it was seeing her broken soul behind her eyes. I was all the things I had always feared in that moment, but it had to be done. Seeing Jasper, my own brother, attacking the love of my unlife was just too much. How could I protect her if my own brother was trying to kill her? She wasn't safe with me or my family, we only brought her death closer. This way, this was the only way she could live a full life.

I breathed in unessesary breath as I pictured my angel, my Bella. She would be even more beautiful as she grew older, maybe she'd let her beautiful chocolate colored hair grow down to her waist, her natural curl being inhanced. Her face would mature and she'd be a goddess. I smiled slightly, but then the pictured ended and turned into a nightmare. She walked over to a man, I couldnt see feautures only the outline. he was built sort of like Emmett or Jasper, his hair was longer, shoulder length maybe it was lighter, brown or blonde and his eyes were filled with love, possibly hazel. Three little kids ran around them and the man had his arm around her very pregnant waist. I opened my eyes and screamed, it was tortured, pain filled and if anyone was within miles they'd think soeone was dying.

As I calmed down I wished I could cry, wasnt that what I had wanted? For her to move on with man who could love her, could give her what I could not? Her children would be beautifl I was sure, and though I knew I shouldnt I pictures what they could look like, in my fantasy all her children had her brown hair and eyes, something told her children would be just like her but then agian who was I to know. I had left her.

RING RING RING...

PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE AFTER THE BEEP!

"Edward answer the phone! Edward its Alice and if you don't answer this phone say goodbye to your Volvo and Piano." Alice's angry yet calm voice came over my phone. I smirked, my Volvo and Piano, what was the use of having those if I didnt have my Angel, my Bella.

"Edward you shouldnt be doing this, so you left the Human, its what was supposed to happen..." Rose said and he gritted his teeth, how dare she insult Bella even now.

"give me the phone Rosalie! Edward Anthony Mason Cullen you come home right now. I miss you, I can't lose another child, not another one Edward." This time it was Esme and he looked at the phone ashamed. Was he really hurting his family that badly?

"Son please pick up your phone...Bella wouldn't want you to hurt like this." Carlisle's compassionate voice came over the speaker and then he reached to pick it up. They were all right, even Rose. He swallowed, not really needing to and he spoke for the first time since he had left his family, and Bella.

"I'm coming home." Then he hung up.

When you can live forever,

What do you live for?

APOV (ALICE!)

I know I promised Edward I wouldn't check on Bella, and for all he knew I never did, but she was...is my sister. The little sister I don't remember having, since we had left I had been with Jasper looking for my past. We found it a week ago, In Biloxi, Mississippi. Funny I never pictured myself to be from a southern place, I always thought I was more of a northern gal, from California or New york. I found my grave, it was a little unsettling to see the grave stone, in big script it read,

MARY ALICE BRANDON

1901-1918

BORN IN FIRE, KILLED BY FLAME.

it was a funny thing to be written on my grave, but also my true, I was killed by fire in a since, as the venom felt like fire, and I was reborn in fire. I found latter that although my death date was 1918, I hadn't been changed until 1920, so I was eternally 19 years old. It was nice to know, I had always thought I was around Edward's age when turned, and now I knew that even though I was the same age as Edward, I was two years older, physically. I also found out I had a younger sister, Cynthia, I also found a picture of me and my family. I looked more like my mother then Cynthia who had chocolate brown hair, in curls and dark eyes, maybe hazel, she reminded me of Bella, which hurt me more then knowing I was in a Asylum, put there because my Parents thought my gift was from the Devil, it also explained the hidden message in my gravestone, they had thought me of the Devil, and had told Cynthia I had died in a fire. Cynthia had married and had children, I had a neice somewhere.

Sighing I looked out my window, at the full moon. Bella would be 19 now, it had been a full year since we had left her, since my sister was left alone. I hadn't meant to look the first time, and I didnt see much, just Bella looking into a mirror, in a hotel maybe, her hair was the same but her eyes, they appeared green. They wore beautiful, I would not have known it was really her if Charlie had not come into the room, but even he looked different, younger, almost 10 years so with his new shave and cloths. I was never the more thankful Edward was not home then at that time. I didnt speak a word, the next vision I had was Bella in a Halloween Dress, it was beautiful, she made a lovely cinderella, I had enough time to see someone come in before it went black. i was scared, but I trusted Bella to take care of herself, not to mention I had no right to look, I had left without so much as a goodbye. She couldnt forgive me for that, no matter how forgiving she was.

"I'm coming home." It was what brought me out of my thoughts, I had left the room after Rose took the phone from me and I gasped, that was Edwards voice. Cracked with disuse, but still it was his.

"He's coming back!" I almost screamed, it was about damn time. The man could not mope around like this, he was the one who left Bella, not the other way around.

A/N: Well here it is, I also gave you a look into Alice's mind. It is short but I promise the next chapter will be longer, I am happy to say, Jake is being booted out next chapter. Bella will have a love interest latter on, but in the end this will be a Bella/Edward.