Chapter 16: She Will Be Loved
EPOV
It was time to have the "talk" that we have been avoiding for almost a year. Seeing Bella get comfortable with someone other than me was like a knife to my heart and a wake up call. If I wanted my family back I'm going to have to fight like hell to get her back.
"What is their to talk about?" Bella asked. Why is she so stubborn?
"I don't know, how about the fact you and Jamie seem to be getting close." Once I said that I immediately regretted it.
"Oh my god! You seriously have some nerve since you were the one who began dating Tanya months after we separated and the fact that you asked her to move in with you. So don't give me that shit about Jamie and I being together because honestly it's none of your damn business." Bella said getting defensive.
"I'm sorry I said that, but you need to know that my relationship with Tanya was a huge mistake one that I regret."
"Then why were you with her?"
"I don't know. Probably because you were so quick to ask for the divorce that I felt so low that I needed someone to be there for me I guess." I said staring down at the floor. When I looked up at Bella I saw that she was pissed.
"So you're saying that because of me you needed someone to fill that void? Wow unbelievable." She started pacing. "Did you know that I already felt like a single parent every time you're at work since you were rarely home?" I shook my head no. "Yeah I did, even when you got home. All you ever did was say hi, kiss the kids and go to bed. What kind of marriage is that?" I honestly didn't know what to say to that. There was no excuse for my actions and I was the one who volunteered for extra hours at work.
"You should've said something, at least let me know my hours were the problem." Now I was the one pacing. "I can't read minds Bella, you need to open up to me instead of taking the easy way out."
"Even if I did it wouldn't matter anyways. I felt you slipping away and I was the cause of it." I was about to interrupt. "Hear me out, you chose to work longer than necessary to avoid being with me. When you're not working all your time is spent with the kids, which I'm not complaining because they need their father. But there was never a time when it was just us." Bella said getting choked up at the end of her sentence.
"I wasn't slipping away." I said reaching for her hands "I was doing what I thought was right, you know making enough money for us to live on." I gave each hand a kiss. "I love you so much, and when you asked for the divorce it killed me inside. Baby give us another chance. Let me make this right."
"I can't."