Chapter 3:Sadness and some happiness and more sadness

She's dead. That's all I heard. That's all i heard for 2 weeks. Since Shannon is my next of kin. I go live with him. He wont let me do anything. He wont let me drive because he doesn't like the way i drive. I don't know why he is the one who taught me. He has changed since my mother died. He is more father than brother now. We fight all the time now. The only time I leave the house is when I leave to work and he is with me because he is my completely ruining my life. I am sitting on the couch and Shannon comes in and stands there I am in my room and i hear a knock on my door. I turn up my ipod assuming it is Shannon. I close my eyes and I feel a hand on my thigh. I open my eyes and its Jeff. He takes out one of my ear buds. I give him a weak smile.
Hi..I say quietly.
Hi Lurvergirl. He says playing with a string hanging off my shorts, which aren't very long.
Hi Lurverboy. I say as i look up at him and he is staring in my eyes. I smile
So I think i need to steal you for awhile.
Where's Beth? I ask him
Out with her friends getting their nails done.
Oh. I say trying not to let him see my happiness.

I've never really liked Beth because for the simple fact she thinks she is better than me and how she brags that she is with Jeff because she thinks I like him. He is like my older brother. What she doesn't know.

I need to break out of here. I tell him, and as say it he picks me up and puts me over his shoulder and head out of my room. Shannon sees this.
I'm taking her, she might be back. he tells Shannon.
Hey! don't you think I need shoes. I tell him and Jeff bends down and grabs a pair of my flip flops and we head out the door. He puts me in my car and he gets in on the passenger side and hands me my keys. I start my car and it feels amazing. I start driving and Jeff puts his hand on my thigh. This usually doesn't bother me but this time is different.
So where we going Jeff? I ask him trying to ignore his hand rubbing my thigh.
My house. Beth shouldn't be back anytime soon.
He moves his hand to my waist and just sits there.
Alright Lurverboy what do you want to do while I'm "stolen"?
We will figure it out when we get there.
That scared me. He has never been this way before. Maybe he likes me. I steal a glance at him and he's staring at me. Those green eyes are so intense. I concentrate on the road. When we get to Jeff's house. We get out of the car and head out to Imag-I-Nation. It starts to rain and it gets muddy and he is walking to his garage and I pick up some mud and throw it at Jeff. It hits him in the back. He turns around and I realized that he is really hot. Water dripping down his body. I stare at his body and completely forgot that he was looking at me. I look at his face and I blush and I quickly look away. I walks over to me and puts his hands on face and makes me look at him. I try to talk and he kisses me. I put his arms around my waist and I put my arms around his neck. I don't believe this is happening. For what it seems forever only lasted a few minutes because Jeff had other motives. He tripped me and I landed in a mud puddle. He is standing over me, laughing.
You think this funny? I ask him as I try to stand up.
Yes very funny. He gives me grin
You know what this means right?
What does this mean?
This. I pull him down with me and I put mud all over him. For the next two hours we are laughing and rolling around in the mud, just having fun. I need to feel this, to know I'm still alive because my mom isn't. Jeff is on top of me preventing me from putting mud in his shorts. He is pinning my arms above my head. He is between my legs and all we hear is Beth clearing her throat. Jeff looks and he gets off me,helps me up and we go in the house. Since i don't want to ruin the interior of my car, I need to take a shower.
Um, Beth do you have any clothes i could borrow to take shower? I ask her so sweetly.
Yea sure. She goes upstairs and gets them. She comes back down and hands me the clothes. I go to the bathroom and I take everything out of my shorts and set it on the counter, I peel off my wet muddy clothes and go in the shower.I turn on the water and I start washing my body and start washing my bronzed skin. I wash my hair with Jeff's shampoo. When I'm done, i dry off and put on the jeans Beth gave me and they are a little big but that's OK I'll just steal Jeff's belt. I put on the shirt and i look in the mirror and notice I need a touch up on my dye job,I'll ask Jeff about that. I head out of the bathroom. I round the corner to the living room and I see Jeff and Beth having sex right there on the couch. I run out of the door. I get in my car and I drive home. I get in the door and I see Shannon on the couch but I go straight to my room. I lock my door. I lean againest the door and start crying. What i just seen hurts me, a memory comes to mind.

I had an argument with my mom and I run to Jeff's house. I knock on the door and Beth answers the door.
Hi honey what's up? She looks concerned
Through my tears I mutter out I need Jeff.
She brings me inside and on the couch. She goes and gets Jeff. He comes and takes me to our secret spot, a little shack he built just so we can talk in private. I sit down on one of the bean bag chairs and sits on the other one.
My mom found out Jeff.
My little 15 year old body can't handle the stress of being pregnant. The baby is Jeff's.

I come out of the memory and I hear Shannon arguing with someone. I stand up and unlock the door and I listen.
"What did you do Jeff?"
"Nothing just she caught me and Beth having sex and i guess she freaked out."
"Freaked out? She just lost her mom and you know what?...just leave Jeff."
I hear a door slam and I shut my door and change into my own clothes and I walk into the living room and snuggle up againest Shannon. He puts his arm around me.
It will be alright Jess, I promise. With that I fall asleep in Shannon's arms. I wake up on the couch by myself. I look around and don't see Shannon. I get up and see a note on the computer desk.

Jess - Went to lunch with Matt be back soon. - Shannon

I smile and go to my room and get my phone. I have alot missed alerts. Most of them are from Jeff, probably saying sorry but i don't care. Am I falling for Jeff Hardy? What he did shouldn't have made me that upset. Maybe I am. I need to talk to someone. I dial a oh so familiar number.
Hello?
Hi can we talk? I ask
Yeah, same place?
yeah.
I hang up and i take my keys and go into the living room where Shannon is laying on the couch. He needs a girlfriend. All he does is lay around, being a bum.
Where are you going? he asks
I'm meeting someone. I'll be back before my curfew. I say as i slip on my flip flops and my jacket.
We need to talk about Jeff when you get home. He stands up and hugs me.
Alright thanks Shan. I love you.
I love you too Jess. I let go and I leave. I get to the hotel room. I knock and he opens the door and we kiss and I go in.