Like I never existed Chapter 16, a twilight fanfic

Like I Never Existed Book II

Chapter 2: Halo

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

Haaaa ha-ha halo

Haaaa ha-ha halo.

Harvard Campus:

Wednesday, June 29th 2011:

BPOV:

I could hardly believe I was graduating. I had thought it would take me years, almost five, to complete my collage education but I had pushed myself to my limits to finish before three years and here I was, hardly two years latter, graduating with top honors. It didn't surprise Leah or Emily who sat in the crowd with their husbands and children, as well as Seth. Dean sat next to them as well with the twins. Every now and then I'd see Dean conversing with the two females whom I thought of as sisters. Paul and Sam were weary of him, being very protective of me since my failed wedding two years ago. I had since moved on, as had Jacob who married...Selena five months after he left me. They had a hard time getting pregnant and staying pregnant, Selena would miscarry before the third months was over. I didn't like the blond tart but I'd never wish that on anyone. Luckily for them last year they were blessed with a bouncing baby boy who they named William. I had heard this all from Billy, I had been insistent the man contact his son formally and get to know his new grandchild. Jared and Rachel had given him a granddaughter – Sarai – almost two years ago and Rebecca had two children, both boys but Billy didn't see them often because of her living in Hawaii.

"Now we welcome this years top student, one who had wowed the professors of this collage time and time again as she fought to graduate early. The one and only, Isabella Swan!" The Dean of the school called. I took a deep breath and smoothed out my gown and adjusted my cap before walking up to the podium. I smiled and bowed slightly as I accepted my degree and I was motioned to stand in front of the microphone. I didn't like the fact I was supposed to give a speech, public speaking had never been a strong suit, but being a teacher I'd have to learn to get over my shy behavior. I had come a long way, two years ago I'd have froze and most likely puked over the stand.

"Hello class of 2011, some of you may not know me, actually a lot of you wont know me, but that is neither there nor here. I was asked to give a small speech, but I really don't know much of what to say. Some of you wont care anyway, I know I never really listened to the speech give at my high school graduation. The fact remains though that I was asked to stand here and speak and I am doing just that. I came to this school hopping to get a education, so that I could earn a good income for my children, and for myself. I have now come to find, I have done just that but what I thought would take me five years has taken me barely two. If I can do that, then there isn't anything anyone can not do. You're all here because you've been given the chance to graduate, and that is a great honor no matter if it has taken you one year of six years. Just knowing your done with school and homework is reward enough. So I say, it's over. Congratulations class of 2011!" I finished. It wasn't the best and probably not everything my professors or The Dean thought I would say but the students seemed to really like it as they all stood up and tossed their caps.

-TIME SKIP:

"That was brilliant baby."Dean said, wrapping a arm around my waist. We had all gone home nearly a hour after the graduation and to my surprise Jared, Rachel and Billy stood in the living room with party supplies put around and a big cake and food on a folding table. I had been shocked but for some reason I knew I shouldn't have been. I finally took the time to take in the children while they were playing. Sarah and Mary were of course the oldest. Harry and Isa were the next eldest at three years of age. Isabella, my little name sake was growing like a weed, and she did look a lot like her mommy. Her hair was silky black and straight down her back, stopping at her shoulder blades and Emily had put it in braided pigtails. Her eyes were wide and nearly black, just like her Daddy's. Her skin was dark, darker then Emily's, like her fathers, and besides my girls, Harrison was the lightest complected.

Harry looked like my dad, it was obviously there in his black curls and pale skin - even if his pale skin had a sun kissed glow and wasn't near as pale as mine – but then besides a Vampire no ones skin was paler then mine. He had Sue's eyes, the silver/brown, unlike Leah's blue which she had inherited from her father. I had to wonder if he'd get the werewolf gene?

The Twins, Leah and Paul's, were the youngest besides Rachel's baby. Susan and Marie – Marie having been named after me and Susan being named for Leah's mom – were crawling around playing building blocks. They were only a year and half, their birthdays not being until October. Susan looked just like her mommy, and in effect so did Marie, only were as Marie had her mommy's blue eyes, Susan had her daddy's dark brown. Both had black hair, but both Leah and Paul had black hair as well. Sarai – Rachel and Jared's baby - was almost two, her birthday being in November, so she was the same age as Susan and Marie. She had dark skin of the Quileute and dark brown eyes but her hair was a dark brown, which Billy said was the same hair color as his late wife. My girls were of course the only pale – as pale as me – skinned, blonde haired identical twins - if you didn't count the eye color, around.

"He's absolutely wright! I thought I was going to cry, little sister is growing up Em!" Leah laughed, whipping away fake tears. Emily laughed her hand resting on her stomach, which I had seemed to over look upon first seeing her. It was probably because of the big jacket she had on before. She seemed to be at least six months pregnant. I smiled and asked, "When you gonna pop Emily? I didn't notice until now, you look lovely." Emily smiled, even with her scars she was beautiful.

"Sorry, I wanted it to be a surprise. I'm going into my sixth month. Sam and I are expecting a boy this time."She replied.

"Congratulations, I'm sure Isa is very exited." Emily laughed.

"She is, though she only really knows she is getting a brother. She seems to think mommy is just getting a little fat." She explained. I laughed as well and Leah joined up.

"Girls! Come join us, Dean here was just explaining to us how he met Bella!" Paul called, raising a cup which had a golden liquid in it. We all knew it wasn't ginger ale, or something kids would be drinking, but of course that was why they had a choice of apple juice or Sunny D.

"This is bound to be good. I bet she hit him with her car or something." Leah said as they turned to were our men were. I blushed as we walked over, I was going to skin that man alive for telling them this! I thought as I nervously smoothed out the wrinkles in my purple silk dress.

-TIME SKIP:

I smiled as I walked into my bedroom that night. Emily and the others had all left around nine and I had put the twins to bed at nine-thirty, way past their usual bedtime but I made a exception this time. I had on a seamed basque and thong set that was black and had a hot pink bow in the middle of the corset and the thong. It was at the moment covered by a flower embroidered silk white robe. I smiled as I saw Dean on my bed, his shirt off revealing his abs, which were very impressive if I do say so myself, and clad only in boxers.

"Wow, trying to give me a heart attack, Bell?" Dean asked, putting his hand over his heart. I giggled and sauntered over, swinging my hips as I did so. I stood in front of him, well to the side and slowly with a coy smile I undid the belt and with agonizing slow pace I opened it to revel the black lingerie. I giggled at his shocked lust filled gaze. It was not like we had not consummated our relationship, we had been dating for almost three full months, but this would be the first time I had worn something so...sexy for lack of better word.

"Damn Darlin', I didn't know you owned something like that." He muttered, never taking his eyes off me. I smiled and let the robe drop to the floor before climbing onto of him, straddling his stomach.

"You never asked, cowboy," I began, sliding my hands up and down his chest. I then leaned down, and whispered in his ear, "Though I've been saving this for a special occasion. You up for it?" I squealed as I was rolled over. I smiled up at Dean, his blue eyes had darkened eve so slightly with lust and love. It made my heart skip multiple beats seeing those emotions in his lovely eyes.

"Do you even have to ask, my little southern Belle?" He whispered in a husky voice. I loved it when he called me his southern belle, even though I wasn't exactly sure if me being from Phoenix made me a southern belle exactly, but Dean was insistent it didn't matter. I was so deep in thought I was shocked when his lips crashed into mine, I tried to wrap my arms around his neck but to my surprise they were restrained above my head. I pushed up into the kiss, throwing all the love and heat I could into it. I moaned as he trailed kisses down my jaw bone and to my collarbone. He began sucking the skin there, lighting a fire on my skin that moved down, I moaned and rotated my hips into his, causing him to moan, almost growl.

"Now cowboy we've got to be quiet, we don't want the girls to wake up do we?" I teased as he moved back up my neck to my lips. He smirked and rolled us back over so I was on top. He pulled back down into a kiss, and trails his hands down my stomach and up it to under my breast. I moaned but groaned in frustration, Dean loved the slow torture.

"Don't tease me!" I growled out. He chuckled before scooting up to sit against the headboard, kissing me harshly as he did. He wound his hands in my brown hair, pulling on it slightly, as I did the same to his blond hair, which was harder to do since he had cut it, so instead of curls it alternated between sticking up and around and curling.

"A dose of your own medicine lover." He muttered. I gritted my teeth and rocked my hips into his growing erection.

He gasped and I chuckled, "A dose of your own medicine lover." I mocked. He gripped my arms tightly, forcing them to my side and kissed me from my lips to my collarbone and into my bust line, kissing them through he fabric but never lingering. I moaned, as quietly as I could, and through my head back as he sucked the left one through the fabric. It didn't last long and he let go, I felt his hands wonder and then the fabric of the corset disappeared leaving me only in my thong.

"That's better, don't you agree?" Dean asked as he planted kissing on the exposed flesh. I groaned and he flipped us over. You know how in those movies, and sex scenes you can see the top half of their bodies and the fact that something is happening under the covers, but you never get the full view? That was what ended up happening, but to give you all a better idea I was quickly relieved of my thong, and was moaning as his ruff hands touched the very sensitive flesh down there.

"Oh, Dean...Dean baby, wait, stop.." I breathed out as he ran his member over my slit. He groaned but didn't move from his position.

"Top drew, under the bible, condoms." I muttered through his kisses over my chest. He stopped and looked at me with a raised eyebrow.

"Under the bible? Really, Bella?" He asked, humor in his eyes. I rolled my eyes, I hadn't bothered making him use them the first time we had made love or even the second but I was on birth control, and had complete trust in him and he had pulled out the second time. I just wanted to be safe this time, the birth control was only 98. something present dependable. None the less he didn't argue as he reached over and grabbed one...the rest of the night was magic.

A/N: Well here is chapter 16, I don't know much about collage or graduation being only 17 myself so I just winged it. As for the lime, boarder line lemon at the end...I'm not that confident about it, and that probably the closest to a lemon I'll write until next year or the year before because as it is I was a little embarrassed. I've never done anything like this before - yes I am a virgin – so I don't know how realistic it is or if I named all the proper parts, lol. I think I may have to up the rating?

Also people had made it known how much they like Dean and want Bella to stay with him. I am liking him more and more each time I write him as well, and I have come to a compromise. I shall write two endings, one with Edward/Bella and one with Bella/Dean. In the end Bella and Dean will probably both be Vampires in the Bella/Dean alternate ending. Also someone asked me why Bella keeps telling strangers her life story, that is simple. Crystal and her husband are Dean's family and as such they will probably know before long any way. So the way she sees it better to get everything out in the open now and save herself the trouble latter. Not mention Bella is a honest person, and she trust Dean's family not to go around telling others of her plites.