I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING. I WILL FINISH THIS STORY

Chapter 23: Right Here, Right Now

BPOV

"Hi" I told him barely whispering.

We both were in Emmett's man cave, it's the only place where we could have our conversation that we needed.

"Hi." Edward said running his hand through his hair. "Where's Jamie?" He asked

"He just dropped me off then left." I told him.

Edward gave me a look wanting me to continue. When I didn't he had a look of concern on his face that quickly changed to hope.

"Sorry to hear that. Is he coming back late.."

"We broke up Edward!" I interrupted. "He's not here because he and I are no longer together."

Edward just stared not saying anything while I paced back and forth in the room. It's probably a good thing since I was upset but we still needed to have our "talk".

I took a seat on the sofa. Not really sure where to start. After what felt like hours but it was only 10 minutes Edward finally spoke.

"Why?" Edward whispered so low I barely heard it.

"Why? What?"

"Why did you give up on us? On me?" He said with so much hurt in his voice.

"I'm sorry" I said wiping the tears that escaped.

"I can't live without you." Edward said facing away from me, his hands in his pockets.

"You had Tanya."

Right when I said that I regretted immediately. The look on his face was all anger.

"Bella did you honestly think I could love anyone as much as I love you?"

"You asked her to move in Edward, what am I suppose to think. You shared at bed with her! A bed! Don't give me this bullshit that you didn't never touched her. You're a man damn it! I want the honest truth." I shouted.

"Okay. First, it was stupid of me to ask her to move in. I just felt sorry for her, she had nowhere else to go. Second, the whole time she and I dated all we did was kiss. I swear. Third, yes I am a man but I am also too much of a gentlemen to rush into anything physical. Last but not least, I promised myself that it would be you and I forever. Only you would be the one that I share my heart, body and soul with. How many times do I have to tell you this before you believe me."

I sat there speechless. If what he's saying is true then why didn't he fight harder for us?

"You asked me why I gave up on us. But what I want to know is, why didn't you fight to save our marriage. Instead you went along with signing the papers. Why?"

"Because you've given me no choice! Bella, you decided this on your own. You've decided to leave me." Edward was standing over me with his face red.

I stood up facing him.

"I wanted you to fight! I wanted you to beg me to stay. I wanted you to stay fuck it, my family comes first. Any indication that you wanted us to be together, instead of shutting me out and disappearing in your office." I told him with so much anguish in my voice.

"It wouldn't have mattered. It felt like I was losing you already. Everything I did, I did for you, Libby and Masen. I wanted our kids to want for nothing. I wanted to take you to so many tropical vacations, take the kids to Disney World. But in order to do that I needed to bust my ass at work."

"I did see it that way." I mumbled, feeling ashamed.

"Now I've lost you. I never wanted to but I did" Edward said with so much hurt in his voice that I wanted to break down and cry.

"Don't see it that way." I choked out.

"I have no other way to see it. The papers have been filed, now all we're doing is waiting for them to be finalized." He said as he started to walk to the door.

"I didn't choose to lose you and I don't want to lose you."

I was shocked after Edward's confession, he made me realize something.

If it wasn't for me, we'd still be together.