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I cry for Dolly most of the night as Daddy grumbles and Taddy tries to make it better.

Then Taddy starts to cry and I feel bad, after all she was just a stupid doll.

I tell Taddy it's OK and I would rather cuddle him anyway and it only makes him cry worse.

Grady is there and he wants to take me but Taddy is angry now and won't let him take me.

Now Grandy has the silly new doll that is more hateful than Dolly.

Is he mad?

I could just throw myself back and go rigid in what Daddy calls my starfish but I know Taddy is sad for me so I cuddle into him and sob a little, surprised when he hugs me back and cries too.

Daddy has left the bed and the whole house is alive with shouting and light and noise.

Jax is angry and he stomps off to the nursery and his own bed so I can be alone with Taddy.

Poor Taddy, so sad.

I snuggle extra close and let my face squish against his neck so I can smell his lovely smell.

I love my Taddy.

Even if his tummy is getting in the way a bit.

Daddy is back and it's early morning. I know coz the silly rooster is doing his screaming.

Daddy looks mega pleased with himself as he shows me what he found in the horse's bed.

DOLLY

I resist the urge to snatch her up and I make a little noise as I clutch Taddy and say it isn't her.

Of course it is. I know it is, Daddy knows it is but still I refuse to accept her.

I decide to ignore her.

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Next day I ignore her while crying for her like my heart is breaking.

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I decide to carry new doll around today and 'look' for Dolly under chairs and inside cupboards.

Daddy is getting the look he gets right before one of his screaming tantrums.

I cry myself to sleep as I bemoan the loss of my Dolly.

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Today I decide that I don't like new doll either so I lie on the floor and cling to Taddy as he walks past.

I didn't mean to make him fall over.

Must be coz he's fat now.

I find myself in the nursery and even though I cry for my Taddy he doesn't come.

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Taddy is in the bed and he looks really tired, poor Taddy. I climb up and offer him a cuddle as he rests.

The belly is quite hard now and I lay my head against it while I sing for Taddy, it always makes me feel better.

It moved!

Honestly, the belly moved and it was really strange.

Taddy laughed and told me that the baby was saying hi.

Taddy ate a baby?

Taddy laughs and tells me he is growing a baby in there and that's where I grew with Jax too.

It boggles the mind to think I fitted in there, let alone with super turd.

I decide I want Dolly again and see how happy Taddy is when he sees me cuddle her again.

Poor Taddy.

I decide to like Dolly for a few days, just for Taddy.