Let's go mend Jack's broken heart shall we xx

As Jack drove he knew he had three options, go home, get drunk or go back to work. He had contemplated the idea of going back to the office and drowning himself in paperwork, but the thought of having Tara and Lucy fussing over him all afternoon pretty much killed that idea.

There was also the second option of going out and getting completely wasted he toyed back and forth with that idea 'but what if she calls Jack, do you really want to talk to her in a drunken state?' his mind pointed out. That pretty much killed that idea as well he was convinced she was going to call him or at least he hoped she would

He decided on the third option, he was going home, he needed time alone. Entering his apartment Jack, threw his coat and tie on the chair, before flopping on his bed tear stains on his face. At this moment he was feeling so many emotions anger at himself, sadness at her leaving, heartbroken but more importantly love, intense love for Sue, his Sue.

He lay there thinking about her and his missed chances needing to release the anger he began thumping his pillow in frustration wanting this whole week to be dream, but as he missed the pillow and hit his hand on the bedside table the throbbing pain was enough to convince him he wasn't dreaming.

Walking into his kitchen he kicked off his shoes, not really caring where they landed, and grabbed a bag of ice from the freezer in an attempt to soothe the pain in his hand. His stomach growled almost as sad and angry as he was as it demanded food.

He made himself a ham sandwich and walked back into his living room, which was a mistake for there staring at him, was the woman he loved in the picture from one of their many nights playing pool.

The hammering in his chest was becoming intense, he needed to get out of this apartment and he felt as if the walls were closing in on him, he needed air. Going back into the bedroom his pulled on his running clothes and shoes, bandaged his hand and headed off for run, a good run was just what he needed right now.

Running through the streets of DC his breathing started to slow to a more regular pace. He was alone with his thoughts, there was just him and the pounding of his heart in his chest and his feet thumped the floor with every stride.

Standing at the gates of the park, he smiled, he loved it here, the paths were long, the fountain would somehow send mists of water towards you as you run but more importantly it was Sue's favourite place and that was just what he needed right now, to be closer to her in order to think. His phone ringing in his pocket delayed his start but as he saw the words 'Sue, Lucy home' he knew it could only be Lucy and cancelled it, before starting his run.

His run started gentle but as he thought of the countless number of stupid things he had or hadn't done over the last three years the strides got harder and faster. He was mentally cursing himself with each pound of his foot on the ground

'why couldn't I have told her when I had the countless chances, why did I leave it until five minutes before she had to board the plane, why did I leave it so long to ask Lucy which airport, why didn't I insist on taking her to the airport, why! Why! Why!'

The ringing again of his phone interrupted his thoughts for a second time; he rapidly hit the cancel button again when he saw the ID and continued his run

'Think Jack', he thought to himself, 'there has to be a way for all this to be put right, you just need to think logically.'

As he rounded the corner he was at the place where he met her after Tony put her life in danger and it hit him, he knew what he had to do and a plan began formulating in his head

'I need to go to New York; I need to be with her, talk to her some more before I do indeed drive myself crazy. I have a few days holiday saved up, I'll go see Ted in the morning, tell him I need to talk to her some more'

"ARGH! This phone" he yelled as he heard the ringing again for the third time, "Doesn't she get it I just need time"

Turning another corner his thoughts continued 'what if she then tells me she's willing to give us a try, I couldn't handle not being able to see her every-day, so when I talk to Ted I'll tell him that we may need to start transfer requests when I get back, but that brings back the whole no dating within the same unit problem, so I'll quit the FBI, I'm a qualified lawyer, heck James is always trying to convince me to come back to law, as long as I'm with Sue I could live my life doing any job'

Slowing his strides to a gentler jog Jack began to relax, he knew what he needed to do, talk to her, talk to Ted, talk to James and hopefully change his life for the better. The ringing from his phone stopped all thoughts for a fourth time and again he hit cancel; he still wasn't in the mood for pity

'But what if she doesn't feel the same way' suddenly these words were going around his head and scared him, scared him so much the speed intensified again. He hated these words and wanted them gone from his head. He was determined to run them out. The strides got fasters, the pounding of his feet got harder, the hammering of his chest got louder, the drumming noise in his ears got harder and louder with each stride.

He was just about to start his fifth circuit when the phone rang again, he was tempted to answer it and yell at her before hanging up, but he knew if he did that Lucy would continue to bombard him with phone calls, so he ignored it in the hope she would give up

He completed his fifth circuit happy that the phone had indeed stopped ringing and he was left to think of Sue and enjoy his run. A further two circuits later all negative thoughts had gone from his head and he was feeling positive again. He was coming past the trees on the side of the path just past the entrance when he heard a voice

"Hudson, why are you ignoring my calls?" it said,

He stopped suddenly in his tracks, so suddenly he nearly fell forward, he knew that voice! He loved that voice!

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