A/N: I'm so sorry this took so long to update. I lost all inspiration to write once I updated the last chapter and this has been half finished since then. I had to shorten it because if I wrote the whole chapter, you probably wouldn't have gotten it for another month and again, I'm so sorry if you lost faith in me. I hope it wont take this long again but unfortunately, it might. I didn't think I would get this swamped with homework in my first week of school that I actually didn't do my homework this weekend to finish this chapter because I felt so bad. I hope you like it and PLEASE REVIEW! J

PS, if your reading Temptations, I'm so sorry I haven't updated that in forever. Again, I lost ALL inspiration to write once I updated my stories but I promise it'll be up soon.

The travel to the land of heat was a long and annoying one, considering we had to listen to Arashi bitch and complain the entire time. When we finally arrived to the village, we realized why my mom was sent there in the first place. The entire village was a wreak. Most buildings only had a frame up while the rest of them only had an area where a building would go. The only building done was the Kage's mansion in the center of the village.

I just stood at the gateway, looking around at everything that still needed to be done after working for three months already. "Damn, they still have a lot to do." My hands entangled themselves into my hair, allowing me to think clearly. Damn it, I guess my mom won't be coming back anytime soon.

Ayame just plopped down on the grass next to us. "Finally! We made it to the village." She started sighing and closing her eyes, that strawberry blonde hair of hers flying everywhere in the wind.

Shishi walked up next to me, grabbing my hand and smiling at me. "I'm glad we finally made it. Now I can finally meet your mom, but from the looks of the village, I think she's going to be staying here." He leaned down and kissed my headband, his dark brown hair looking almost as light as mine in the sun. "So, maybe later tonight I can meet her."

I set my head on his vest chest pocket. "Of course, but now we need to report to her so we can help her if needed." I heard Arashi groan from behind us, but I didn't care about him right now. After what he did to us back in the village, he's lucky we didn't kill him on the way here.

I held onto Shishi's hand and turned to the rest of the group. "Ok guys, we're heading to the Yamakage's mansion to check in. After that, listen to any instructions you're given by either my mom or a higher up in this village. We'll be here for two days, so during that time, please help out with anything you can."

They all said roger and we all heading into the village and over to the Yamakage mansion. When we arrived, I noticed that it looked very similar to the Hokage mansion back in our village, only instead of red, this one was a dark grey color and had the symbol for heat instead of fire on it.

Hesitantly, I opened the door and walked up the spiral stairs to the Yamakage's main office. Knock, knock.

"Come in." Said a familiar voice and it made my heart skip. I opened the door and saw my mom sitting behind the desk where the Kage should be sitting. Her light brown hair was longer than I remembered and had some streaks of blonde running through it. We shared the same eyes, so right now, they were orange from an overabundance of stress.

I stood there waiting for her to look up at me, but she never took her eyes off the paperwork she was writing. "Excuse me, we're here from the leaf village to check up on the progress."

Suddenly, her hand stopped writing and she looked up at me, her eyes swelling with unshed tears. "Nari…is that you?" She rubbed her eyes and when I saw them again, they were a bright yellow. "Nari, it is you." She darted across the room and gave me a gigantic hug. "I've missed you so much. How did you manage to get this mission?"

I hugged her back, missing my mother's embrace. "Lady Tsunade gave us the mission. I brought almost all of your favorite people, and someone new." I let her go and turned to the rest of the group. "Ready to start the mission everyone?"

They all nodded and my mom smiled at everyone of them. She first went over to Ayame and gave her a hug. "Hey hun, how've ya been?" They chitchatted for a few minutes about useless girl stuff before she went over to Arashi and smiled. "Good to see you again Arashi. Have you been watching out for my son?" He laughed and nodded his head, not wanting to talk to her for a fear of revealing what he actually did. Last but not least, she made it to Shishi and continued smiling. "Hello, my name is Rubi Yamamoto, what's yours?" Her eyes were a dark green, but she wasn't embarrassed. We get green eyes when we're either embarrassed or suspicious of someone.

Shishi smiled and shook her hand. "My name is Shishi, short for Shishimaru. It's nice to finally meet you Rubi-sama." His eyes held no sign of nervousness, so I assumed things went very well.

My mother just smiled that impeccable smile of hers. "Likewise. Now, I have some things I need you three to do. Ayame, I need you to go and help the botanists in the greenhouse. Arashi, you're heading to the new academy and helping them build it because it's almost done, then I need you to help the little ninjas in training with thwarting a genjutsu trap. Shishi, um…" she started thinking of something for him to do, "What are your skills?"

He chuckled meekly, "I'm good with Earth, Water, and Mud style jutsus."

She continued thinking until I heard her snap her fingers, meaning she thought of something. "I need you to go down to the river near the west side of the village and help them get it under control. It'll be muddy and wet, your perfect job."

Shishi just smiled, "Got it. I'll be heading out now." Shishi left, followed by Ayame and Arashi bringing up the rear. I just scowled at him, hating the fact that he was even here.

My mom must have noticed my scowl, because when everyone was out of the room, she sat down behind the desk and gave me her I know something happened, now tell me look. I sat down in the chair across from her and took a deep breath. "You've miss a lot while you were away mom."

She just continued writing where she left off, but I could tell she was thinking. "Then why don't you explain everything to me. The tension in the room was so thick I don't even think a kunai could cut it."

I sighed, not really wanting to admit to my mother that I wasn't her little boy anymore. "Well, you see, I did something with Arashi a few days ago and he did something after that and I haven't forgiven him. After that, I meet Shishi and we started dating. Two nights ago, Shishi and I did something and Arashi found out about it. He tried to break us up and it almost worked, but Shishi gave me one more chance."

She looked up from her document, her eyes green again. "What did you do with Arashi and Shishi, and what do you mean Shishi gave you one more chance?" The irritation in her voice was slight, but it was still there.

"I…we," I swallowed hard, trying to get rid of the lump in my throat. "kinda…had sex." I closed my eyes, not wanting to look at my mom right now. I knew what her expression would be; either shame of furry. I waited for her to start screaming but I heard something much more ominous. I heard the pen she was holding crack and fall onto the floor, the ink bottle following not long after. I cracked my eyes open, glancing at my mom's eyes. They were fluctuating between orange and black; orange meaning surprise and black meaning anger.

Not long after, the orange never came back and I knew I was in trouble. "Excuse me. You did what? I thought I raised you better than that! How could you just give up something that important?" She slammed her fist down on the table, causing some of the papers to go flying around the room.

I winced when she did that, never liking loud noises to begin with. "I know it was a bad decision, but he had just broken up with his girlfriend and he came over for guy time. He turned on some nice music and started messaging my back. One thing lead to another and he just got me in the mood." I didn't tell her about the alcohol because let's be honest, it was still illegal to drink alcohol if you were under the age of 18 in the village. Everything else really happened, but the alcohol was the main reason why I did it.

She just breathed hard out her nose, her fists unclenching slightly. "I know you've been crushing on Arashi for a few years now, ever since you came out at your chuunin promotion, but I never thought you two would end up doing that. Now, what did he do to you before you met Shishi?" She must have finally accepted that I wasn't a virgin because her eyes were back to some shade of green.

I looked down at the floor, a tear sliding down my cheek and onto the ground. "He wasn't there when I woke up in the morning, and he left me a note saying 'Thanks for the sex, see you whenever.' I was devastated that I gave him something that important and he didn't have the decency to be there when I woke up. I had to deal with the pain all by myself in the morning." I just unintentionally told my mom I bottomed, but she was going to find out eventually.

Her eyes widened slightly but soon changed back to normal, but her eyes turned to a light orange shade. "I see, I'm surprised he did that to you, but then again, his family life isn't that great and if his dad ever found out he had sex with another man, he'd be killed. I feel sorry for you baby, but you're not with him anymore right?" I shook my head and she smiled brightly. "Good, now, tell me about Shishi. Is he nice, smart, funny, details."

I couldn't help but laugh at my mom's attempt at acting young. She had started doing that once I started admitting my crushes. "Well, he's a new chuunin, only a few months in fact. He became a ninja about 5 months ago. He loves my cooking and he really seems to like me a lot. I already met his mom and little sister, and they seem to like me. There are a few other things I like about him, but those are more private things that you don't really need to know." I giggled softly, showing my now green eyes to my mother.

She nodded, understanding what I meant and shifting uncomfortably in her seat. "Well then, I guess that means you've really fallen for him. I'm glad, but you said that he gave you another chance. What did you do?"

Here came the hard part, admitting to my mom that I cheated on my first boyfriend with my ex lover. "I, um, cheated on him, but not completely. It happened right before we left for the mission here. Arashi came over after he was done packing and he apologized for what he did to me. He asked to come in and I told him he could and he suddenly kissed me. At first, I was in shock that he did that, but then I started kissing him back. He asked me if I wanted to have sex again, but I told him no because I had Shishi. When I told Shishi what I did, he almost broke up with me until Arashi came over and confessed that he kissed me on purpose. I was so mad that I almost killed him but Shishi held me back and told me that he forgave me as long as it didn't happen again."

She looked down at the desk, obviously disappointed in me. "Ah, I see. Nari, I never thought you'd pull something like that, especially after how I raised you, but I can see how you could have just gotten caught up in the moment, so I'm not mad at you. Did he know you were not a virgin when you two had…sex?" I nodded, a somber look still on my face. "I see, then Shishi must be an amazing man to stay with you after that." She began shifting through all the papers that went flying a few minutes ago, her face becoming more and more uneasy. "I need you to start working on some things around the village."

"Of course, where should I go?"

She put all the papers in a neat pile on her desk before speaking again. "I need you down at the school with Arashi. I'm sorry Nari but I knew you two were coming on this mission and I paired you up to work together thinking you two were still close friends. They need you down there to help cut the wood for the buildings and to entertain the kids with bubbles."

"But mom, that's not a good idea. Do you know what he'll do to me down there? Can't I go down to the river to help Shishi?" I was almost on the floor begging not to go to Arashi.

She looked down, knowing that her answer would make me upset. "I'm sorry Nari, but they need you down there. I promise that today will be the only day you need to be with him. After this job, I promise you'll be with Shishi." She began writing her paper work again, not wanting to see the despair on my face.

I sighed in defeat, "Alright, I'll go down there, but just for today. After that, I don't plan on working anywhere near him for the rest of this trip." She nodded her head and I left, on my way to go see Arashi.

I arrived at the school much later than I was supposed to on account of my feelings toward Arashi. I really didn't want to see him again, but I had to deal with it just for today.

I walked over to him and put on my best fake smile. "I guess I'm with you for today."

He looked up from his snack, that demented smile of his on his face. "Well, I guess this is my lucky day after all."

"Don't get any bright ideas." I looked away from him, my stomach felt like I was about to vomit just looking at him.

"Why are you here then? I never would have thought you'd be here alone with me after what happened."

"Orders, and we're not alone Arashi. There are plenty of other people here for me to feel safe around you." I felt like hundreds of butterflies were flapping their wings around in my stomach. Damn it, why wont these stupid stomach problems just go away.

He stood up slowly, setting his water canteen on the rock he was sitting on. "Why do I feel like you're lying to me." he said in almost a whisper.

I shivered as familiar sensation ran up my spine. "Th…then maybe you need to stop thinking about me." My words came out even softer then his.

His smile sent me to a uncomfortable place in my mind. I couldn't even look at him without feeling like someone was staring a hole through me. "So, um, why don't you tell me what's still to be done with the school. I want to get this over with as soon as possible."

He placed his hand on my cheek, running his fingers along my jaw line. "Then only thing left to do is to get rid of some extra wood. They ordered too much for the building so we're going to be taking it over to a building near the river where Shishi will be. After that, we're done." He flicked his finger off my chin, placing it in his mouth as soon as it left my face.

I shuddered slightly, my mind not wanting to comprehend what just happened. "Ok, where is the extra wood. I wanna get this over with ASAP."

He pointed over to a large pile of lumber near the completed school. "That's it. Once those are moved across the village, you can go back to your Shishi." He walked over to the pile and grabbed almost the entire pile, leaving me only one board to carry. "Come on, I don't have all day."

His sudden change in attitude confused me, but I just let it go. Maybe he's tired and doesn't feel like badgering me right now. I'm sure I'll hear from him tomorrow. I picked up the one board and followed Arashi through the village. After a few minutes, I started to hear the sound of a river and I felt more at ease.

I could tell we were almost at the river, but we needed to pass through about a mile of forest terrain before we made it there. I kept my eyes on Arashi, not completely trusting him but he wasn't giving me enough of a reason to distrust him right now. About halfway through the woods, he stopped, "Nari, can we take a quick break? I can't carry these columns anymore. I promise it'll be quick."

I smiled and set down my one piece of lumber. "Sure, I could use a quick break to freshen up." I tried to move my feet, but when I looked down, I noticed they were trapped in the earth. "Hey, my feet are stuck." No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get my feet out.

Arashi set down his planks and grabbed my arm, pulling me out from my earthy prison. "You should really be more careful and watch where you step." He laughed as he backed away and brushed himself off.

"I will, don't worry." My laugh was much softer, but it was still full of joy. What the hell is up with him? He tries to break Shishi and I up before we get here, and now he helping me out so I could see him soon. Maybe he isn't that bad after all. I continued walking and sat down at the base of a large tree where Arashi had placed his timber. I closed my eyes and tried to relax, knowing that I would soon be seeing my Shishi. The sun shining on my eyes was suddenly blocked by something, so I opened them and noticed Arashi standing in front of me. "Yes?"

He crouched down and looked my in the eyes, scaring me slightly. "You looked so adorable just then, I couldn't help myself." He leaned in and kissed me on the lips again, but he was using much more force then the last time.

My head slammed against the tree, causing me to wince on impacted. His hands gripped my wrists and held them to the ground while he continued kissing me. He tried to force his tongue into my mouth, but my had my teeth clenched together to where he couldn't get in. He was sitting on my legs so I couldn't kick him off me either.

He pulled away from me and smiled that evil smile of his. "You owe me Nari, and I'm here to collect." He lifted his hands off my wrists but when I tried to push him off, I noticed that my wrists were encased in stone handcuffs. "Oh, and don't try to push or kick me, because you cant. Your feet and wrists are bound with an earth style jutsu and they will only be unbound for a few seconds each while I disrobe you." He leaned down and started nibbling on my neck.

I tried to scream, but my voice was gone, as if it too was being held against it's will. A few tears slowly slid down my cheek. I couldn't believe this was happening to me. Why? Why couldn't he just leave me alone. I closed my eyes once I felt him start to unzip my vest. Maybe he'll just go away if he sees I'm not enjoying what he's doing. Those were the only words that went through my mind for the rest of the experience.

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I woke up to someone shaking me violently. I looked to see Ayame was hovering over me. I quickly sat up and covered my lower half with my hands, but noticed that I was completely clothed again. The sudden jerk of sitting up stirred up pains in my lower back and I quickly remembered what happened. I…was just raped, wasn't I? A tear fell from my eyes and landed on the ground.

Ayame wrapped her arms around me and let out a deep sigh. "Thank goodness you're alright. We've been looking for you for over two hours. You went missing and when we found Arashi at the river, he said you must have gotten lost in the woods. We were all so worried." She continued strangling my neck for a few more minutes before I heard more voices yelling in the distance.

"How many people are out looking for me?" I asked weakly, not realizing how raspy my voice had become.

"Shishi, your mom and I all went looking for you after an hour passed and you never made it out of the woods. Have you been here all this time?" She studied my surroundings but didn't notice anything that would tip her off to what had just happened.

"I…guess so. All I remember is sitting down right here, then nothing." I didn't want to tell her about what happened to me because I didn't want to believe it myself.

I was still in shock that I didn't even notice Shishi run up next to Ayame with tear-filled eyes. "Nari, there you are. I got worried for a minute." He opened his arms to hug me, but for some reason, I flinched when he tired to hug me but not when Ayame did it. He noticed my hesitation and seemed to become upset. "What's wrong?"

I shook my head and forced myself to smile. "Nothing. Why do you ask?"

His eyebrows furrowed and he looked me over again. "You just seemed hesitant to hug me just now. You've never done that before and it stuck me as odd, but never mind, let's just go back so we can have dinner with your mom." He stood up and held out his hand.

I looked at it for a few minutes, trying to think of a reason as to why I didn't just automatically grab it and stand up. When I eventually took it, the movement in my lower back caused a surge of pain to shoot up my spine and make me cringe. Shishi noticed my cringe and looked at me with a skeptical face. "What's wrong Nari?"

I stood straight up and smiled, "I'll tell you when we're alone." I tried so hard to play it off for now, not wanting to cause a scene, but what he did next shattered that hope.

"Ayame, could you go back to Rubi and tell her we found him and that we'll be back in a few minutes." She nodded and ran off towards the sound of a river. He looked back at me with a stern face. "Well, we're alone. Why don't you tell me why your lower back is in pain."

My face dropped and the tears started flowing. "I…I was r…ra," I couldn't say the word. It kept getting caught in my throat.

He tried to wrap his arms around me again but when I saw him try, my body stiffened and I hobbled awkwardly out of it. He looked at me, but now he seemed to be pissed off. "You were what Nari? Just tell me."

"I'm trying, but I can't seem to say the word. I was just ra…raaa, damn it, it won't come out." I brought my hands up to my face and wiped the tears away.

Shishi's face suddenly dropped when he finally figured out what I was trying to say. "Nari, did Arashi rape you?" I nodded and fell to my knees, my face still buried in my palms. He knelt down and rested his hand lightly on my shoulder, causing me to flinch slightly. "Nari, I'm so sorry we couldn't find you in time. Trust me, when I find him, he's not gonna know what…" he stopped mid sentence when he noticed the red marks on my wrists. "Did he handcuff you?"

I nodded, looking at my wrists and noticing the bright red marks on them. "That was how he kept me from escaping." I lifted up my pants and sure enough, there were the exact same red marks on my ankles as there were on my wrists. "Shishi, I'm so sorry, I should have been more careful around him." My voice was so weak that it came out as a dull whisper.

He took my hands in his and looked me in the eyes. "Don't be upset Nari. It's not your fault he did this to you. Trust me, when your mom finds out, he'll be lucky to end up with life in prison."

The thought of other people knowing caused me to start crying again. "Shishi, I don't want to tell anyone about this. This is our secret for now, at least until the hell that comes after a rape passes." I stood up again and started healing my lower back, trying to fix it just enough to where I could walk without a limp.

"But why wouldn't you tell your mom? I'd think that would be the first person you'd tell after your partner." He walked over to me and I could tell he was resisting the urge to comfort me. His hands were in his pockets and he had watery eyes.

"I just don't want her to know." I didn't want to talk much. I just wanted to go home and take a nice, long, hot shower to try and clean off.

He stood next to me and nodded, "I understand, but please tell her eventually. It doesn't have to be right now, but she needs to know. Now, let's go home so you can relax. You've had a long day." He started walking and I followed him, knowing explaining myself to my mother was going to be harder than telling Shishi I kissed arashi back in the leaf village.

E/N: So, I hope you're not mad at me for adding one of these to the storyline. I've actually been planning this since I started the story and I knew this would be a pivotal point in Nari and Shishi's relationship. The next chapter will probably be short, forewarning, because I plan on it being an emo Nari chapter and I don't want it to be that long. Also, there might be a lemon in about 3 chapters, another forewarning if you've been looking forward to one but good news, it'll be nice and lemony for you ;).