Sooooo, Kels. Am I a bad Twilightaholic because i laughed when I found out that Roberto got hit by a taxi? And the right after that I wondered if his junk was ok?

no because right after I saw the Life & Style that said that RPatz and KStew were an official couple my immediate thought when I heard about the cab incident was "insta-karma" for taking someone else's girl.

K good, cause if I had to stop writing because of that... I would cry.

Dude never. Don't even speak such blasphemous words. Or type... as it were.

Well, you know. Can't write this without you, though.

Psh you could write this shit without me, and blindfolded with one hand. It'd just take you longer to type it out :P But hey let's get down to business shall we? Last I checked SMeyer still owns these characters. What say you?

Uh, yeah. Mmk. Read yonder stuff... I heard it was good. Maybe good enough for you to leave a review? :)

BPOV

The alarm on my cell phone startled me awake at the ungodly hour of... 7:30.I groaned and stirred against Edward's chest as I tried to wake up. The grip his arms had on my waist tightened, and I felt his cheek scratch against my hair. He grumbled into my scalp and I tried to nudge myself away. I had an hour and a half to run home, shower, and pretend I hadn't had the best night of sex in my life the night before. I had almost pried all his fingers off my stomach when he reattached them and tugged me closer.

"Edward," I whispered as I turned my head in his direction. "Edward I've got to go home."

He mumbled something and dropped his head down to my chin. I couldn't help it, he looked too cute. I brushed my lips against his lightly. He eyes opened slightly, and I saw a hint of the green that I found myself getting lost in regularly. His lips curved into a tired smile. "Morning." He muffled through a mouth of sleep.

"Morning." I repeated, kissing his nose. He let out a puff of laughter and snuggled me closer to his body. I didn't want to leave, but I couldn't stay... could I? No, of course not. Remember BellaI said to myself, your BOYFRIEND is going to be at your apartment soon. You have to leave, stat.I sighed, arguing with the voice in my head.

"Edward?" I whispered a little more loudly.

"Hm?" He murmured, his eyes back to being fully closed.

"You need to let go; I have to go home."

He murmured, his voice thick with sleep. "You are home."

I felt a tingle run down my spine at his words, and I melted. This man was both destroying the life I knew and making it shine in ways I never thought were possible. "Edward, I have to go back to my apartment."

He pulled me even closer to him and nuzzled my neck. "No. We're comfortable. Go back to sleep."

I laughed softly and sighed. I wascomfortable and I did want to go back to sleep or at least continue enjoying the feel of Edward and I's skin-to-skin contact.

I closed my eyes, wishing what I was about to say wasn't true. "Edward, I have to go meet James."

He groaned and dropped his arms away from me rolling over and curling up to his pillow. "Okay."

It broke my heart, literally made it ache when I felt him pull away from me. And it fucking sucked that I was being pulled in two different directions and the one I wanted to follow wasn't the right decision. I couldn't do that to James, especially since we had been trying to work on things. And apparently cheating on him was part of the healing process. I cursed and berated myself as I gathered my clothes.

I sat in the bathroom, door open, staring at my phone then glancing towards Edward's bedroom.

There was only once choice I could live with.

"Hey babe! Did you want me to get you early?" I heard James' voice greet cheerfully.

"Um, no actually." I said staring at the tile floor. "Something came up, I can't meet you for breakfast."

"Something came up at 9 in the morning on a Sunday?"

"Mhm."

"Like what?" He asked, scoffing in disbelief.

I wanted to tell him then and there. James, I'm leaving you. I found somebody that cares about me and makes me laugh and puts up with my shit and blows my mind in bed.

"Just something, alright?" I snapped back rudely. Yeah, great answer Bella, way to go.

"Jesus Bella, all you had to say was that you got your red baron and that you'd be a nag all day." He replied. What? He thought... he thought me snapping at him was because of PMS? I almost laughed into the phone.

"Yeah, well for working at a hospital you're not very sensitive to it."

"That's because I think PMS is a load of horseshit that women use as an excuse to be bitches." I rolled my eyes. This, thisis what I was ultimately stuck with once Edward and Tanya got married?

I just sighed into the phone. "Anyway, I gotta go. I'm sorry about this morning."

"Don't be." He replied coolly. "Thanks for the heads up. The last thing I need this morning is to put up with you being a hag." Yeah, he was made of gold; cheap, fake gold that turned your finger green.

"I'll talk to you later?"

"Yeah I'll call you in a couple days once I'm back to a normal sleep schedule. Love you."

I hummed into the phone, still staring at the same piece of tile I'd been fixated on all conversation. We hung up and I shut my phone, taking a deep breath and looked up.

Edward.

He was propped up against the door frame, scratching his jaw. "I thought you were leaving."

I shook my head. "I, um... just had to call James... to cancel."

He sniffed as if completely apathetic to my decision. "Oh?"

"Yeah, I decided that the only thing I wanted to do this Sunday, and every Sunday as long as it can happen... is spend the day under the blankets with you."

Before I could argue, his arms wrapped around me, hoisting me up to his chest as we walked back towards the main hallway. "Then come back to bed." He replied, walking us into his bedroom and plopping me down onto his bed as he moved around to the other side and pulled me to him.

Yeah, definitely the better decision. I sighed, turning to face him. His fingers tucked a few strands of hair behind my ear and his thumb gently moved along my cheek, while his other arm wrapped around my hip, pressing me tightly against his body.

"I want you to stay."

"I'm not going anywhere." I responded, looping my arms around his neck and pressing my chest against his. I felt him take in a sharp breath and I softly brushed my lips against his. No, this was definitely the only place I wanted to be.

He swept a few stray strands of hair away from my face and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. "Go back to sleep. It's too fucking early."

I tilted my head up pressed my lips against his decidedly, swiping my tongue along his bottom lip. Despite his request, his mouth responded immediately pulling it in and sucking on it lightly. Our lips moved against each others' effortlessly. It was like my lips were meant to mold against his. After a few moments, he leaned his head back, pulling his lips from mine as his chest heaved up and down. His eyes looked down into mine affectionately as he whispered, "This... is not sleeping."

I raised one of my eyebrows. "So you oppose the action?"

He smirked pulling me closer to his body and rubbing his face into my hair. "No. I've just noticed that it isn't sleep."

"Good observation there, captain obvious." I laughed quietly as my lips kissed along the column of his neck, lightly sucking on his Adam's apple.

"I think... I should keep you till Thursday."

"You do, huh?" I smirked into his skin, kissing his clavicle.

I felt his arms pulse around me as his hands began tracing lines up and down my spine. I shivered from his light touches and mumbled, "mhm. Definitely. I'd miss you too much if you left before then."

My heart melted and I sighed softly, pulling my head away from under his to look at him at eye level. I needed to feel him, not inside me but just... him. I secured my arms around his neck, my hands almost touching my elbows as I moved to press all of my skin against all of his. I hitched my thigh over his hip and pressed my hips into his lower stomach. I felt his arms grip my back tighter and I exhaled slowly as he traced circles soothingly on my back with his thumbs. I buried my face in his neck nuzzling it with my wasn't about fucking him, or how amazing it felt when I came around him. This was about needing him, needing to commit to memory the feel of his skin against mine, because who knew when this would end.

EPOV

Something felt right about being wrapped up in Bella, and that something had me completely scared. As I held her in my arms, and the morning light became harder and harder to ignore, I tried to think that at some point I'd felt this way about Tanya. I had to have. I felt Bella sigh into my skin, forcing her face even farther into the crook of my neck. Tanya never held me like this while we slept. She'd start out in my arms, but travel away from me over the course of the night. Not Bella, though. She clung to me as though I'd leave, were she to loosen her grip. It made me feel like she needed me, like she wanted me to fix the things that were going wrong in her life.

Too bad her problems weren't mine to fix.

I pulled away enough so that I could kiss the top of her head, to which she seem to cling tighter. I smoothed my hands across her bare back, and nuzzled into her hair. "Baby? You up?"

"Mhm."

I smiled into her hair, rubbing her legs against mine. "I'm glad you stayed."

I felt her lips press into the skin on my shoulder. "Me too."

"How come?" I asked, kissing lightly across her forehead.

"The idea of leaving you this morning... I couldn't... it was easier for me walk away from a day with James than a morning with you."

Fuck, that said some shit. She was... into this; into us. What the hell was going to happen when we had to give it up? Fuck. "You're only staying the morning?"

"I hadn't thought about it. I guess I just assumed you had plans today."

"Do you want me to have plans? Do you have to meet him later?" Just the thought of him being near her made my stomach turn.

She shook her head, inadvertently nuzzling into the crook of my neck. "No, he works tonight and tomorrow night."

I squeezed her tighter. "You'll stay then?"

"Til when?"

Forever? Was forever too long? Probably. I kissed a spot just in front of her ear. "Until you absolutely have to leave."

"Well... your studio iscloser to my work. Maybe I'll go grab some clothes later at my place for work tomorrow and stay the night? Is that OK?"

"That's more than alright." I adjusted my grip on her and realized that I was slowly becoming dependent on Bella and her company. Just the mention of her leaving was enough to make my chest hurt all over again. I didn't want to be apart from her, but at the same time I knew that eventually I'd have to be. She wouldn't want me forever, and I probably wouldn't want her either. This would turn into exactly the same thing I had with Tanya, and I really didn't need two of those.

"Favorite romantic comedy?"

"Serendipity. You?"

"Uh, How to lose a Guy in Ten Days. Bra or no bra?"

"No bra whenever possible, which is pretty much only in bed, the shower and at the beach. Favorite actor? dead or alive."

"Steve McQueen. Ultimate bad-ass. Cuddle me or Fuck me."

"Ah, the question of the ages..." She said, laughing softly. "How about either one, as long as I get to feel your skin against mine?"

I smirked and pushed myself into her. "I like being with you, you know. Despite everything, I really do love it when you're around."

She pulled away a little and smiled up at me. "Despite everything? Am I normally a complete 'tard to be around?"

"No, I just meant... with our situation. It could be tough, you know? But somehow, we keep making it back to each other."

"I'd like to think that if it was tough to be around each other, we'd have the sense not to risk as much as we are for a fuck."

I shook my head into her hair, "No, that's not what I meant. I was only saying that the... sneaking around, it could be tough. I really... I like spending time with you Bella, and even if I wasn't getting laid, I'd still want to spend time with you." Fuck, did that sound okay?

She smiled and turned her head so that her lips were hovering over mine. "Then I guess you're just lucky that you get a decent lay on top of good conversation." She said before kissing me.

"No. I'm lucky because I get you."

She laughed and rolled her eyes a little at me. "That's sweet Edward, but you already got me naked and in your bed. You don't have to say that."

I sighed and rubbed my nose to hers. "I don't have to; but I want to."

She leaned in and kissed my upper lip. "So do we get to hide under the blankets all day?"

"If you want."

"Well since I'm intruding on your day, is there anything you needed to do?"

"Hold you. Kiss you. Fuck you." Love you. Wait, what?

"All of which can be done while hiding under the blankets." She said with a wide smile.

I grinned back at her then pushed my face into her shoulder, kissing and licking at the skin there. The more time I spent with Bella, the more I realized that this is what my life had been missing all along: someone to talk to and someone who wanted me for who I was, not just because I looked pretty beside her. I kissed the side of her neck, tracing my nose over the spot. "Baby, thank you."

"For what?" She asked, her voice heavy with impending sleep.

"Being with me."

She sighed and snuggled into me, resting her head on my chest. "Always, Edward. I want to... always."

I rested my cheek on top of her head, and let sleep take over as I began to wonder just how long 'always' might be. "Always could be a long time, love."

BPOV

I twisted my body slightly, slowing waking up. My eyes fluttered open as they adjusted to the bright gray of the Seattle day streaming through the curtains. Somehow during our little post first way up nap, Edward and I had managed to untangle ourselves and readjust with him holding me. Laying there, I really didn't think I could ever grow tired of waking up to him holding me like this. I leaned forward, trying to take a peek at the clock on the nightstand. His arms quickly tightened around my waist, just as a I got a glimpse of the time. "Hey, where are you going?" He mumbled into my hair with a mouth full of sleep. I curled back against him, putting my hands over his on my stomach. "No where, just checking the time." He hummed into my hair, placing a soft kiss on my head. "Okay." I laughed quietly against him, "it's almost 11."

"You got a hot date?"

"Obviously," I breathed out as I felt his lips scrape against my neck.

He smacked his lips together loudly and rolled over, his back facing me. "'Kay. Bye."

My head turned to look at him, staring at the ceiling and smirking. I shrugged. "K, well thanks for last night. I'm gonna go sleep with my other other boyfriend now." I chided, scooting towards the edge of the bed and sitting up.

"lock the door on your way out, baby." He replied chuckling quietly.

I stood up and started dressing, all the while facing him. His face seemed to drop a little more as I layered the clothes on. When I was done, I knelt over on the bed and kissed his cheek because I didn't trust kissing his lips. "OK, I'll see you soon yea?"

"You will?"

"Well, soon-ish. We'll talk in a few days?"

"Wait, what? No, Baby, I didn't--"

I laughed internally. He wanted to start this, it was my job to see it through. "No, it's okay. I should get going. Maybe we can plan to hook up in a week or two?" No joke, my heart dove into my stomach at saying that, even though I was just joking. The idea of not seeing Edward for that long made my skin crawl.

He sat up, propping himself up on his elbows looking confused. "A week or two?"

"Mhm." I confirmed, edging off the bed and walking towards the door.

"But... but... the bed and the blankets... and the fucking..." He said as his eyes shot from me to the bed back to me as if trying to find the disconnect.

The reminder of our plans for the day almost had me turning around. "I'll see you later Edward!" I yelled as I approached the front door. "I'll lock up like you asked!" And with that left his apartment and raced down the stairs to grab us sustenance.

EPOV

Wait... what?

I flopped back down on the bed, and ran my hands over my eyes. She just... left me. For a week or two? What the hell?

What a tease. She taunts me with beds and blankets and sex and then leaves me. For someone else? For... James? Or really, someone else. I groaned and rolled onto my side, burying my face in her pillow. It never occurred to me that I wasn't the only one, but then again why would I be? Wasn't she just as capable of playing me as I was her?

Yes, definitely.

BPOV

It occurred to me when I was in line at the cozy little brunch place I often visited when Emmett came to visit and I had someone to go to brunch with, that I didn't know anything about Edward really. Did he drink coffee or tea? Pastry or bagel? Bacon or Sausage? Eggs or no eggs? I decided to forgo the eggs when I ordered but I decided to get just about everything else. Bacon, sausage, thick sliced grilled ham, toast, bagel, muffins, pastries... the entire kitchen sink. By the time I left nearly half an hour had passed and I had two very heavy bags full of food. I made my way back up to his place in the elevator, thinking of how amazing Edward was. How could Tanya not see that? I couldn't get enough of him and yet, she seemed to never be around. Or maybe it was him that was evasive and never around her. Maybe I was just a side project to steer him from boredom but still an excuse to duck out from Tanya? I shook my head, trying to clear it as I approached his door and knocked.

None of the 'whys' mattered; the important thing was the 'who'. And when the who began and ended with Edward, nothing else seemed to matter.

EPOV

I opened the door slowly, and was completely shocked to see Bella on the other side with two big bags in her hands. I shook my head and took them from her, tossing them to the side, then pulling her into my arms "Don't ever do that to me again." I whispered into her skin.

Her arms wrapped around my neck and she started kissing lazily across the bare skin of my shoulder. "You really think I could go two weeks without seeing you?"

I sighed and pulled her up a little so that her toes barely grazed the floor. "Maybe. But I know I can't go that long without you."

"Edward," she whispered, her breath hot against my skin. "I don't want to have to go two days without you."

I leaned into her, and kissed her neck. "Then don't."

I held her like that for a little while longer, then set her gently on her feet. "What'd you buy?"

"Breakfast." Her face fell slightly. "But I didn't know if you wanted coffee or tea."

I rolled my eyes, smirking at her and took the bags over to the counter and started unpacking them. "Bella... what the hell did you do? Rob a farm?" She literally had everything you could possibly think of in these bags.

"Well... I just didn't know what you liked. After today I'll know so when I grab breakfast for us next weekend I won't order everything."

I raised an eyebrow and looked up from a plastic container of... grits? "Next weekend?"

She blushed immediately. "I mean... I was hoping.. never mind."

Alright. That was enough of that. I hoisted myself up onto the counter and crawled over to her. I was on my knees in front of her, and I took her face in my hands. I smiled down at her, running my thumbs over her cheek bones, trying to push down her blush. "I just told you not to go, didn't I?"

"For today, yeah."

She could be ridiculously stubborn when she wanted to be. She wanted think that I didn't want her, and nothing I could say would pull her out of it. "Hmm, what can I do to make you see that I never want you to leave?"

"Then just tell me you feel the same way I do." She said, looking down at her lap, but smiling nonetheless.

I smiled down at her, completely in awe of the girl in front of me. It really made me wonder why I'd wasted so much time with Tanya. I leaned it, brushing my lips against hers. "Bella, I'm holding everything I've ever wanted in my hands right now. Don't ever go. Not ever."

She closed the gap and kissed the corner of my mouth. "Edward, don't tell me that you have a King Henry the 8th complex and like your girls best beheaded."

I dropped her face and rolled my eyes. "Oh, God, Bella!"

She laughed then wrapped her arms around my neck, crashing her lips to mine. I smiled into her lips and put my hands back on her face trying to get as close to her as I could, seeing as I was sitting on the counter top. Eventually, I sat on my ass, and pulled her in between my legs so that she could hold onto my waist and move with me. In those moments, I realized that this could end up breaking us before she ever found out about Tanya and James-- if she didn't think I wanted her, we'd never survive.

But wait.

Why did I want us to?

BPOV

I wished I knew how to better express my hesitation when he said things like he wanted me to always stay, never go... etc. It wasn't insecurity on my part; it was the reality of our situations. And the reality was that he was engaged. Not simply in a relationship, but on the brink of committing to a life forever with someone else. So how could he say those things to me too, and mean them?

I pulled my lips away and pressed my forehead against his. "We should eat something before my stomach decides to challenge you to a duel for attention."

He smirked, hopping off the counter as he proclaimed arrogantly. "I'd win."

My arms wrapped around his waist again, looking up at him with a grin. "You're mighty sure of yourself."

He nodded pressing his forehead to mine. "When it comes to you."

I laughed, taking a step back. "Oh yeah? And why's that?"

"Cause I want you." He replied with a shrug as his arms pulled me back to press flatly against him.

"Well... good then." I replied unsure of how to respond to his words. I brushed against his shoulder and walked around the counter to pick at a container full of fresh fruit. "So, coffee or tea?"

"Coffee. Please."

I laughed quietly, looking up at him from where I had been glancing at the vast array of food we had. I did really buy every thing on the menu - except eggs and beverages. "You sound like I have some to offer. I didn't know which you wanted and I didn't have enough hands to carry all the food plus drinks, so I didn't get anything."

He sidestepped around me and walked over to a row of cupboards opening one and motioning to it with his head. "I have some. What would you like, love?"

"Coffee for me too, please." My eyes raked over his boxer-clad form as he went to work making the coffee. He caught me ogling his barely dressed body and chuckled shaking his head. "See something you like?" I nodded, biting my lip. "Should I turn off the coffee then?" He asked, turning the corner of his mouth up into a devilish smirk. I shook my head 'no' but waved him over by flexing my index finger. He pressed the 'on' button for Coffeemate and took two strides towards me, pinning me against the counter top.

His lips were on mine in a flash and I mewed into him as I felt his tongue glide along my lip, begging for entrance to which I quickly complied. My hands roamed up and down his sides tenderly as his hands cupped my face. My fingers wandered down to the edge of his boxers tugging at the waistband and dragging them down until they fell and pooled at his feet. My hand gripped his shaft tightly, squeezing the pre-cum from his tip; my thumb swirled it around his head and down his cock as my hand began pumping up and down on his length. He groaned into my mouth and pushed my back harder against the counter. His lips pulled away from me and he rubbed his nose against mine as his breath became shorter and shorter.

"Baby... I don't have a condom here. We have to go back--"

"Edward, let me please you. Let me do this, just for you. Please." I whispered as I continued to stroke his hard on in a quick, firm motion. He let out a whoosh of air against my shoulder before I felt him nod against it. I smiled and began to pump faster. "Edward, tell me you want to cum for me."

"Baby, you..." I heard him gulp down a mouthful of air before he finished, "you make my dick twitch just by looking at me, and when I cum - when you make mecum, it's always harder than any other time before." He panted into the crook of my neck. My thumb swiped along his tip again, drawing circle firmly against his head.

"Edward, you make me so wet all I want is you buried in me constantly. Thrusting in me with your amazing cock as often as you can because there is no better feeling than when you make me cum and I explode around you." I murmured into his ear as my hand tightened its grip around him.

"Fuck, Bella... shit... I'm so close." He moaned, thrusting his hips into my hand. My hand picked up speed around his shaft, and my lips attached to his neck biting down. "Then cum for me Edward, do it... cum for me. I need to feel you cum, please baby. For me." I cooed before sucking the spot on his neck I had just bitten.

"Bella... FUCK!" He groaned pressing his forehead roughly into my shoulder. He let out a few short gasps and thrust his hips up into my hand one last time before I felt his cum spurt out and dribble down my hand and forearm. I smiled into his skin and placed a soft kiss just below his ear. "You're incredible Edward."

EPOV

I was panting into her shoulder like an idiot and she was telling me that I was incredible? Uh, no. "Love... Love, you are. That's... that was... amazing, Bella."

She smirked into my skin and released me, "Yeah, still you."

I looked down at her cum covered arm and quickly cleaned her up. "What did you want to do today?" I asked, tossing the towel as she washed her hands.

"I thought we had a plan... cuddling... fucking..."

I smiled to myself at the mention of our plan. It was the best fucking plan of all time. Literally. I turned back to her, and her eyes went wide as she took me in. "W-why are you looking at me like that?"

I grinned and walked over to her, slowly. "Baby..."

She quirked and eyebrow. "Edward..."

"I'm gonna getcha." With that I lunged for her, quickly hauling her over my shoulder as she squealed and carrying her to the bedroom. I threw her down on the bed and her eyes grew dark. I wanted to play. She was my mouse.

"Bella, you got me off in the kitchen." She gulped and nodded. I leaned over her, pressing my body against hers and traced the tip of my nose along her jaw as I murmured, "So tell me, love: Did that make you wet?"

I moaned and pushed her fingers into my hair. "So... so wet. So wet for you Edward... only you."

Fuck, I loved it when she said that. Only me. Only I could do this for her. I felt my cock desperately attempting to come alive. I leaned back into her, my lips grazing her skin as I spoke: "Then strip, Baby. I want to see."

I backed off of her and she quickly threw off her sweater and bra while I pulled off her underwear and jeans. She was sexier than she ever fucking knew. Her legs were up, bent, and spread as she lay in front of me, her chest rising and falling quickly in anticipation. I think... I think that this might have been my favorite part; just knowing that I was about to make her mine... it was a fucking awesome power. I leaned back into her and kissed the inside of each knee before hiking both of her legs over my shoulders so I was perfectly situated in front of her sopping wet pussy. "Oh, my Bella... so, so wet..."

"Ung.... Edward..." Her hands moved to my hair and she flexed her fingers. I kissed her wet lips softly at first before parting them with my fingers and diving in. I licked my way from her tight entrance to her clit, circling it before cycling back down. I went slowly and surely, making sure I spread around as much of her wetness as I could before moving my mouth to her clit and sucking on it. "Oh.... Edwardddd..." She moaned, bucking off the bed as her nipples hardened.

I smiled into her skin and deftly pushed two fingers into her, starting to thrust once I felt her tight heat relax around me. She was so fucking perfect and she didn't even know it. The way she moaned my name, and moved with me while I was inside her was indescribable-- it was far more powerful and awesome than anything else I had ever experienced.

"Edward... Edward... faster... harder... FUCK!" She wailed as I started pressing my fingers even more fervently into her, curling them as I found her G-Spot and pressed into it. I kept sucking greedily on her clit as she bucked into me even faster. I knew she was close; I could taste it on her.

"Mmm, Bella..." I murmured, replacing my tongue with the fingers from my other hand and pressing down on it. "Baby, I want you to cum on my hand. I want to feel your juices come dripping out of you and down my hand as you moan and scream for me. Please, Baby... give me that. Baby, cum for me."

"SHIT EDWARD FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She screamed, pressing her core into my face as I sucked hard on her clit and pressed my fingers to her G-spot. I loved making her come undone. It was the best. Hands down. I slowed my fingers inside of her, eventually pulling them out completely as I placed light kisses on her quivering lips, then up her stomach to her breasts, then neck. I reached her lips and hovered there, taking in the lust filled gaze she was shooting my way. "You have no idea how much you make me want you."

She leaned up and pressed her lips to mine, and I could feel her tongue licking at my lips. She pulled away, licking her own thoughtfully. "So that's what I taste like..."

I stared at her in disbelief. She just... tasted herself on me. Fuck, that shit was hot. I pushed myself back over to her, smashing her lips to my own hungrily.

"You're perfect, Bella." I whispered after pulling away. "Absolutely perfect."

She rolled her eyes, smiling as she ran her hands through my hair. "We've been over this."

I leaned down and kissed her cheeks, then traced the line of them with my forefinger. "I know. But it's true every time."

She laughed and I let her push me over so that she was straddling my hips and her face was centimeters from mine. "And what makes you the authority?"

I reached up and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear, before I gave in and pulled her to me so that I could feel her heart beating against my chest. "I have you, and you're sheer perfection."

BPOV

I blushed, hiding it by pressing my lips against his. Thiswas what being intimate was supposed to feel like. My body was consistently on fire whenever Edward's skin would touch mine; his lips sending chills down my back from every kiss. "Baby.." he whispered against my lips as he pulled ours apart, "I don't think my dick knows that it needs recovery time when it comes to you." I laughed softly, "oh really?"

He nodded, taking one of my hands that had re-tangled in his hair hair, and moved it down to his cock. Yep, he was right, hard as a rock. His hand moved from where it rested over mine and reached for a condom. "Last one," I said as I watched his hand blindly feel for the wrapper. We'd had sex 12 times in a little over 12 hours, not counting the break time we took for sleep. He groaned as he finally grabbed it. "We'll have to make another run then, because I'm not ready to stop after this." I loved that; it seemed like his body craved mine the way mine did his, it was like we were meant to fit.

He sat up suddenly, resting his back against the headboard and pulling me with him. "I want to try this way, that way I can be closer and feel more of you." He whispered, brushing his lips over my neck. I sighed and nodded, lifting my hips so he could slide the condom onto his shaft. I bent my knees higher up, closer to his lower stomach and wrapped my arms around his neck, my fingers immediately shooting into his hair and tugging. He closed his eyes and let out a quiet growl as his hands roamed my sides and back, finally cupping my ass and lifting me so I hovered just above his cock. One of his hands dropped to his length as I rubbed my lips against his tip, adding lubrication. Even just the slightest feel of him like this had my pussy dripping with anticipation.

"Fuck Bella... so wet." He puffed out, tilting his head back against the bed frame. My lips trailed hot open mouthed kisses up along the column of his neck and across his jaw. "Only for you Edward. Only you make me this wet, only you get me thisturned on. Always for you; this, me... my body is always and only for you." I panted into his ear as I slowly sank onto his pulsating cock. He grunted and thrust his hips up, impaling my pussy and forcing me to take him in hard and deep. I let out a loud moan and felt him still, allowing me time to adjust. Even after our marathon night, he still seemed to stretch me out. "God Bella, you're so tight." He said into my shoulder, lowering his lips to suck on my collar bone. With the new sitting position, I could press my chest against his fully and still hit every one of my sweet spots, so I did.

His head lifted and he rammed his lips against mine hungrily, not waiting for permission as his tongue dove into my mouth and grasped for my tongue. I began moving on his shaft in quick shallow thrusts, as we alternated moans. My hand fisted his hair, occasionally tugging on it - eliciting a growl from him each time. That was so amazing; that I could do that to him, that I could turn him on like this. His hands slid up to my hips and he shoved me down onto him, taking all of his length. My lips tore from his and I tilted my head back, screaming, "UNGH!! EDWARD!!!" He stilled me there for a moment as I circled my hips, feeling him in every part of me. "Fuck baby, you feel so good... you're perfect." He panted, rubbing my hip bones with his thumbs.

Our lips reconnected and I began bouncing on his shaft hard and fast. I was getting closer and closer to the edge, and I think he sensed it. "Baby, cum for me. Let me feel you squeeze all the cum from my cock. Baby please, I want to go over with you." He breathed between planting featherlight kisses on down my neck. I hummed against his temple. "Baby cum with me, explode in me... I need your cum Edward." His hips started pumping against mine faster. His hand laid flat against my pelvis as his thumb dipped down and rubbed frantic circles against my clit. "SHIT EDWARD! I'm... I'm..... UNGH!!!" I screamed, arching my back as I felt my walls tighten around him. "FUCK BELLA!" He yelled, as he continued to thrust into me. "Shit... I'm... fuck... I'm cumming for you baby. Shit... BELLLLLLA!" He groaned, before devouring my lips and going completely still as he spilled into the condom. That was the best sound in the world. Hearing Edward moan my name, hearing that I could make him cum that hard... it was the best thing ever. I rocked my hips against him methodically, letting both of us come down slowly from our orgasms.

I rolled off of him slowly, finding myself back in his arms in an instant. His lips pressed into my hair and he nuzzled his nose into the top of my scalp. "Are you sure we have to leave the house today?" He murmured. I nodded. "We need condoms, and I need clothes for work tomorrow."

"Well should we make a go of it then? I'm not sure how long I can have you pressed up against me naked, and not have my dick respond." I let out a puff of air and rolled my eyes, turning to face him. "You're ridiculous, you know that?" I smirked. He grinned back and placed a soft kiss on my lips. "Maybe so, but it's only because I can't resist you."

I felt my heart flutter and my cheeks pinken. One of his hands slid up my body and cupped my cheek, rubbing it with his thumb. His bright green eyes stared into mine as he whispered, "god Bella, how did I get this lucky?" I felt my cheeks go a shade darker and his smile grew as his lips lowered to mine and ghosted over them lightly, teasingly, before going back over them and kissing me more fully.

A heavy make out session, two separate showers (both cold) and some time later, we were finally pulling out of his studio's parking garage on the way to my apartment. His right hand was on my thigh, scratching it lightly. I put my hand over his and clasped my fingers between his. His face turned to mine for a moment and he smiled, pulsing his hand. He moved our hands together to turn on his car's stereo which was connected to his ipod. I heard a familiar intro and he slid his hand from mine to skip ahead. I pulled my hand off of his to smack his hand away from the mp3 player.

"Edward, stop. I like that song." He chuckled, seemingly amused. "You like Black Sabbath?"

I nodded. "Yeah I grew up on 70s rock. It's all my dad listens to." When we had reached a red light he turned to look at me, with raised eyebrows. "Really?"

"Mhm. Black Sabbath, Journey, Kiss, Aerosmith... all of it." He laughed to himself and shook his head. "Wow, impressive. Your dad and I should trade collections some day."

I bit my lip and nodded. "If you like 70s rock, then he would definitely love that."

"Would you?" He asked sounding hesitant, as his eyes fixated back on the road and he drove through the green light.

My fingers laced with his again and I brought his hand up to my lips, kissing it tenderly. "I think I would." He glanced at me again for a split second and I saw the relief in his face. "Then it sounds like a date."

"Oh so now you want to date my dad too?" I joked, trying to lift some of the thickness from the conversation and everything it had so far implied.

"If he's just as amazing as you, I might have to." He chided, squeezing my hand and smirking. He reached over pressing play and resuming the song on his iPod.

I once again heard the familiar intro and couldn't help myself. "I feel unhappy, I feel so saaaad, I've lost the best friend... that I'll ever have. She was my woman, I love her so... but it's too late now, I've let her goooooo." I sang, laughing to myself at his visibly shocked expression. "Will you ever stop getting more perfect, Bella?"

I shrugged. "Listening to Black Sabbath hardly makes me perfect."

"You're right, alone it wouldn't. But when combined with who you are and everything I know about you so far, it just adds to my conclusion that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me; and thus, perfect."

I felt the blush reappear on my face, and looked down at my lap where our hands were entwined, smiling to myself. How do you respond to that? I pulsed my hand in his and leaned my head against the window. All of this was getting better and better but at the same time even messier.

The realities hadn't changed; I was still with James and he was still engaged to Tanya. But how much longer could we keep doing this? How much longer before it reached the point where I began to fall in love with this man beside me? It'd just been over a week, and yet it seemed like months or years. Everything seemed to be moving too fast. Why wasn't he slowing us down? Because I sure as hell didn't have the strength (nor desire, if I was being completely honest) to do it myself.

EPOV

She got quiet after I told her she was perfect for the thousandth time. Yeah, it was probably over kill, but at the same time, it was definitely the truth. At least, she was my version of perfect. I pulled into the parking area of her apartment and she tugged my hand to get my attention.

"There's a CVS down the road. Why don't you go grab the condoms while I get my stuff."

I nodded and leaned over to kiss her. I almost said no, I realized. I almost didn't want to let her go anywhere without me. What the hell was happening? She smiled at me one more time before getting out and heading in. I waited until she was out of sight before I pulled away. Part of me was freaking out that I was so dependent on her for things; that I wanted Bella around as often as possible. But the other part-- and I was starting to feel this part becoming more dominant-- felt like this was right. It was almost as though things with Bella were falling into place, and that was exactly the way it should be. As I pulled into the CVS parking lot, I realized that if I didn't do something now and Bella did leave that I wouldn't be able to stay with Tanya. I knew now what being with someone was supposed to be like. I couldn't go back to nothing; not again.

I quickly found my way to the family planning aisle when I felt my phone start to vibrate in my pocket. I pulled it out quickly, thinking it was Bella, but instead I was just confused.

"Jasper?"

He laughed into the phone. "I hope you don't answer the phone like that all the time."

I shook my head and picked up a box of trojans. "No, just when it's you. What's up?"

He sighed, and I could almost see him leaning back. "Not too much. But listen, you up to anything tonight?"

Fucking Bella. "I was going to take my new assistant to dinner or something. She was really excellent yesterday, despite me." I'll say.

Jasper laughed again. "Your assistant, huh? And how does T feel about this?"

It always gave me kind of an uneasy feeling that Jasper and Tanya used to be best friends. That is, until Alice. Alice told me once that she'd seen it, too. That weird chemistry that was between them. It made me wonder for a while if I hadn't been with my brother's sloppy seconds all along. "I'm assuming she doesn't care. She's in Hong Kong."

"Hong Kong, huh? Well, listen, if you'd like I have two tickets to the Mariners game tonight. Maybe you could take your... assistant."

I grabbed two boxes and headed to the check out. "Uh, yeah, Bella would like that I think."

"Would she now? Interesting. Why don't you come by and pick up the tickets. Say, an hour from now?"

I rolled my eyes and put the boxes on the counter and the kid started cashing me out. "Yeah, sure. See you then."

"Be good, now, little brother."

I hung up on him. I did not need a lecture as I was buying condoms so that I could continue the three day sex-capades I had going on with my... Bella. I paid the kid and realized I had no clue what Bella was. I had a girlfriend, so she wasn't that and it didn't seem right to call her my mistress because she was definitely more than that. But it felt weird calling her my Bella all the time. First off (technically) she wasn't and secondly, not everybody had a Bella. It wasn't like a universal thing.

Honestly it's kind of embarrassing when you can't even spend fifteen fucking minutes away from the other person without thinking about them constantly. But that is what Bella had done to me. I'd grown completely dependent on her company.

I had let myself get in too deep.

I drove back to her apartment, and she was waiting out side, bag in hand. She got in and immediately wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me. "I missed you." She told me as she pulled away.

"I missed you," I countered, turning out onto the street. "Hey, Bella? You wanna go to a baseball game tonight?"

She turned back to me and smiled, "Yeah, sure. How did you get tickets so fast?"

"My brother. He has season tickets, and he can't go tonight so he called and asked if I wanted them."

"Sounds like fun."

I grabbed her hand and kissed the back of it. "Love you'll be there; of course it'll be fun."

BPOV

"So did he leave the tickets at will call?" I asked as I noticed he was hopping on the freeway.

"Not exactly," he began a bit apprehensively. "He wants us to go pick them up at his house." I felt my heart rate double, "Are you sure that's a good idea?"

He paused for a moment, as if rethinking his decision. "Yeah, no... it'll be fine. Like I said, I think you and Jasper will really get along." Not if he knows I'm sleeping with his brother who's engaged to his friend from college, I thought to myself. I mustered up the biggest smile I could and nodded. "Okay then, I trust you."

He smiled and reached for my hand, resting it on the console between us as his thumb drew lazy patterns on the top of my hand. "Are you sure you're okay with this? If you'll e uncomfortable, I'll go by myself."

"No, no. If you think it'll be okay then I'll go. I just don't want to make you uncomfortable." I took a deep breath, relaxing and trying to wrap my head around the fact that I was about to meet his older brother and his family. "So... how much does Jasper know exactly?"

He shrugged as if this was no big deal, me meeting his family. "I told him you were my assistant. So my friend, I would say."

I nodded, trying to ignore the stabbing sensation in my chest. So this was the lie; it was spreading not only to our significant others but friends and family now. "Okay."

His thumb traced calming circles over the back of my hand as he turned to glance at me quickly. "Hey, are you sure you're okay? Cause really, I want you to be okay. That's all I care about. I can call him back and say no, if you want."

"No, no it's okay. I'm good." I replied, smiling faintly as Edward turned into a driveway that was lined with two steel-rod gates. He drove up a ways towards a huge blue-jay colored home, pulling up right to the porch and shut off the car. "You ready?"

I gulped down the vomit that had risen my throat and nodded. "Mhm... your assistance slash friend... got it... I'm ready." He squeezed my hand reassuringly, "good because they're watching you through the window." He commented offhandedly before unlocking the doors and stepping out quickly. He practically hopped to the front door, ringing the bell before I had even had a chance to comment. I got out a bit more slowly and walked up the few steps to the porch to stand a little more than arm's length away. I really wanted to reach for his hand, to seek out that comfort, but I couldn't. Not now that the game had begun.

The door swung open and a petite black haired girl stood in the doorway, holding a baby on her hip. "Edward!" She squealed as her face lit up and she gave him a quick one armed hug, readjusting the baby on her side. He smiled, "hey Alice..." he greeted before turning to the baby boy in her arms. "Hey little man!" He cooed, reaching out for him. Alice lifted the baby with both her arms handing him over to Edward, who cradled him in the arms lovingly. "And who's this?" Alice asked as we stepped through the foyer and her eyes fixated on me. "Alice, um, this is my assistant Bella. Bella this is my sister-in-law Alice." I extended my hand but instead her smile grew and she lunged at me, wrapping me up in a hug. "It's great to meet you Bella." I patted her back awkwardly as she pulled away. "You too Alice. You have a beautiful home."

"Oh god, don't go around complimenting her like that, she'll just give you a full tour and point out all the designers she stole ideas from." A soft voice echoed from a room beside us. All of us turned, though Alice was the first to speak as the tall, curly haired man stepped out into the hall where we had all gathered. "Honey stop, I would not. Though a tour would be great for our guest, don't you think?" She asked looking up at him playfully. He lowered his head, kissing her forehead. "Whatever you want darling." She beamed, and for a moment I wondered if that's how I looked, when it was just Edward and I.

"Bella, it's very nice to meet you. I'm Jasper, Edward's brother. He's told me so much about you." He introduced, extending his hand. I shook it smiling as I nodded. "Likewise. Edward speaks very highly of you. In fact, you were the primary topic of conversation yesterday after Edward wrapped up his shoot."

"Oh, so you really are his assistant then?" He laughed, glancing at Edward and giving him a knowing look. I turned to see Edward who was obviously trying to avoid the conversation and was paying full attention to the baby. "Edward?" Jasper repeated, trying to get his attention. His head shot up and looked over at his brother. "What Jas? Sorry it's just Max has gotten so big since the last time I saw him."

"I know, I can't believe he's almost two!" Alice exclaimed, wrapping her arms around herself. "We're planning a big party for the event. Oh Bella you should come!" I laughed a little bit and smiled. "If it's okay with Edward, and he doesn't have a shoot that day."

"Oh pish! I told Edward the date months ago, and made him promise not to have anything booked for that weekend."

"The entire weekend?" I asked in disbelief. She nodded. "We're going up to our lake house for the weekend for 4th of July and having the big birthday party for Max there. But you should definitely come, especially now that you know Edward won't have any gigs."

I smiled towards her, unsure of what to say. "I don't want to intrude, and I'm not sure how comfortable everyone would be with Edward's assistant hanging around."

"Oh you mean Tanya? Nonsense! She's a bag of sour grapes, but she's fine."

"Alice--" Jasper began, but she interrupted.

"I know, I know Jas but she's seriously just that - sour grapes. I still don't know why either of you put up with her." She replied shaking her head. "ANYWAY! It will be tons of fun, plus you can be my decoy to avoiding Edward's fiancee." She giggled grabbing onto my forearm. I laughed a little, thankful that I wasn't the only one who seemed to want to avoid Tanya. "Plus, you seem lovely. And I need an extra lovely person like yourself to balance out the negative energy from a certain blonde."

"Alice!" Edward scolded. "That's enough about Tanya." She turned to him and shrugged. "Edward you know how I feel about her. That hasn't changed in the 5 years I've known you and her nor despite Jasper's protest for me to change my opinion." She stated firmly. "Now Bella," she said turning to me once again, "let me give you a tour of the house, then I'll show you photos of the lake house and you can decide which guest room you want to stay in." I tried to argue, but quickly realized there was no use. This peppy little mother of one and almost number two, as I saw looking down at her belly, was a fighter and there would be no point in wasting my breath to disagree. Instead I shrugged and nodded, smiling. "Sounds good, lead the way."

EPOV

I was still holding my nephew as I felt Jasper's eyes boring into me from across the room. When I finally looked over at him, he was grinning at me. "So how long have you been sleeping with her?"

I almost dropped Max. I came this close. How the fuck did he know? As I felt my mouth begin to move, an attempt in vain to form a response, Jasper laughed and ran a hand through his hair. "Edward, you're my brother. I can read you like a book. You're into that girl, and you're either boning her or whacking off to her."

Both.

"Jas, I--"

He sighed, and came over to me, lowering his voice. "Listen, Tanya was my best friend for a while, but Edward, you're my brother. Your happiness is more important to me. SO what happened?"

I sighed and shook my head. "Tanya's cheating on me."

"What?" He asked, his eyebrows shooting into his hairline.

"With Bella's boyfriend. I caught them in our bed." He gave a low whistle, shoving his hands in his pockets.

"So you and Tanya are--"

"Still together." I said, shifting Max in my arms. "She doesn't know I know."

He cocked his head to the side. "Why not tell her? Break up with her? I'm sure once you told Bella, she--"

"I haven't told Bella." I said, ashamed.

"What the hell do you mean you haven't told her? She has the right to know, Edward! You're making her feel guilty about sneaking around with you! Can you just... even for a second, imagine what you're putting her through?"

I sighed, "It was only supposed to be a one night stand, but Jasper... there's something between us. Something more. I don't know what to do anymore."

I looked into his cold eyes as he spoke. "Edward, I don't care what you do. Be with Bella, be with Tanya, but you have to tell Bella. She deserves to know."

I nodded and sighed. I'd completely fucked up, and each passing second made it harder and harder to tell Bella. "I'm sorry."

Jasper, scoffed and put a hand on my shoulder. "It's fine, short stack. If she makes you happy, then be with her. It's your life. Don't let Rose or Tanya talk you into anything. Do what you want."

I nodded, "Thanks, Jas. It means a lot."

He smiled back at me, "It's my job. If you need to talk, you know where I am okay?" He moved his hand and reached into his back pocket. "Tickets. Great seats."

I rolled my eyes and took them from him. "you have the same seats every year."

"I know. But that doesn't make them any less great."

I rolled my eyes, just as Alice and Bella came back into the foyer. Thank god she was still in one piece. She smiled at me and I handed Max to Jasper. "You ready?"

She nodded and said a quick thank you before I ushered her out the door and into the car. Once we were in and a safe distance away, I grabbed her hand and kissed it all over. "You okay?" I murmured into her skin.

"I'm fine Edward. Alice is really sweet, thank you for letting me come along."

I dropped her hand, and looked at her out of the corner of my eye. "What's wrong?" My heart skipped a beat. Had she heard?

She laughed a little and rolled her eyes, "Nothing, I swear. Are youokay, though? You seem a bit frazzled."

I sighed and took her hand back, playing with her fingers in my lap. "I'm fine. I just thought I lost you for a sec."

I felt her fingers scrape across my palm before she turned to me, "Nope, if anything I think I like you more. Alice wouldn't stop gushing about you. It was really cute."

I laughed a little, and turned back onto the highway. "What'd she say?"

"Just how you were really passionate about photography and how Tanya didn't understand the first thing about passion, and that why she didn't like her. She said that you'd stick with Tanya til the very end even if you were unhappy, if it meant Tanya would be. She said you've always been selfless like that, and all you wanted was for people to understand why you lived as you did. Maybe not approve but accept; she said that Tanya didn't but you loved her regardless - even if she couldn't give you what was so obvious you wanted." She squeezed my hand, "Oh and she said she saw you naked once and you had a nice package." Then she added, with a laugh: "I'd have to agree, completely."

I laughed at the last part, but felt my heart clench with everything that came before. Was that really me? Would I really put Tanya's happiness before my own? Not anymore. I had Bella, and knowing about Bella would make her unhappy. I sighed, and pulled the back of her hand to my lips. "I have another passion, you know."

"Oh?"

I laughed, not moving her hand from my lips. "Isn't it obvious?"

"Obviously not."

I rolled my eyes, then kissed the back of her hand again. "You, obviously."

She shook her head and laughed, "I didn't realize a person could be a passion."

"Passion for a person; that's possible." I exited and we were stopped at the light at the bottom, so I leaned over and brushed my lips against her cheek. "I have a passion for making you cum... making you laugh... making you smile... and even for making you blush." I laughed to myself as I saw the familiar red pigment travel across her skin and pulled away.

BPOV

We drove the rest of the way to the stadium with our hands clapsed together in his lap. We pulled into the parking garage and Edward showed the lot attendant the parking pass he'd picked up from Jasper with the tickets. The lot was nearly full and it seemed that everyone had already arrived for the game. "What time does the game start?" I asked glancing at the clock on his dashboard.

"Oh about 5 minutes ago." He said circling around, looking for an available spot to park. "Hm," I said thoughtfully, as I moved our hands that were resting on his lap, further up his thigh, rubbing against his crotch.

"Plans, love?" He asked whipping into a spot between two parked cars at the opposite end of the stairwell that we need to go through. He turned off the ignition and looked over at me, smiling.

"Scoot the seat back a bit?" I asked, tearing my hand from his so I could wrap my hand around his shaft through his pants. He let out of a deep breath and reached under his seat, moving the chair. I undid my pants and slid them off, before crawling over the console and straddling him. His hands slid up under my sweater massaging my back as I ground into his pants, creating friction. His eyed burned into mine, darting their gaze towards my lips as I felt his mouth envelop mine. I kissed him passionately, threading my fingers through his hair as everything around us faded to black...

We didn't make it to our seats until the bottom of the 5th. The Mariners were leading Oakland 3-1 with a runner on first and 2 outs. Edward guided me down the steps with one hand on the small of my back as we inched our way towards the first base line. "Lower box?" I asked, turning my head slightly, keeping my eyes on the steps in front of me. "Yeah, Jas has had these season tickets for a few years now. They're fantastic."

We took our seats and huddled under the jacket Edward had brought with him as the wind began to pick up. My head rested against him as we sat, cheering for the players and booing at the umpires for bad calls as the game continued. During the 7th inning stretch we stood, stretching with the rest of the stadium. Edward poked my midsection as my sweater rose and I lifted my arms, showing off a sliver of skin. I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Good job Edward, thanks."

"Well it was either my finger or my lips." I felt his words hit directly between my legs and I smirked. "Next time go for the latter."

During one of the field changes, Edward got up to scour for some food for us since we hadn't eaten anything except for the fruit and coffee this morning. I watched the game some, but mostly people watched. There was a couple one row in front of us and a few seats over that seemed like they were crazy in love. He kept kissing some part of her every few sections and I saw him mouth "I love you" at least three times in the span of 5 minutes. She would lean in and kiss him after every time, and he would pull her hopelessly closer as if he could break the armrest between them if he tried hard enough. I wanted that; I wanted that with someone, with Edward. The realization nearly knocked the wind out of me. I didn't want that with James, he hadn't been the first person to pop into my head as I watched the lovebirds. Shit, we couldn't keep doing this. I couldn't and wouldn't be what tore Edward and I's relationships apart. My feelings had to take a step back. After all, James and I, Edward and Tanya... all of us were trying to work on our relationships in therapy. What good was any of that if we continued to do all of this? Especially Edward and Tanya who were engaged and probably in the process of planning their wedding day. I sank into my seat, disgusted with the person I had turned into. Edward returned just after the top of the 8th started, carrying a soda and a box of nachos. "Food or beverage?" he asked weighing the two items in his hand as he stood beside me. I took the cup from his hand and sipped on the cola, watching him sit down. I put the cup in the holder in front of us and he put the box of nachos below it on the floor. His arm looped around my shoulders and pulled me in, just as the boyfriend had done with his girlfriend. I sighed into him, my eyes focused on the game but my head and heart were fixated on the man leaning into me and pressing his lips into my hair.

This was the only place I would ever want to be, but what do you do where it's the last place you're allowed to stay?

EPOV

Something was off. Something was not right. I pushed my nose into her hair and ran my hand up and down her arm. "You okay, love?"

"Mhm, just getting cold."

She pulled herself tighter against me, and I reached up running the back of my hand over her cheek. "Are you tired? Do you want to head back?"

"No, not unless you want to."

"I'm ready when you are." I didn't care. Something was up with her. I wanted to fix it. At this point, she could have told me she wanted to play in the god damn game, and I would have found a way.

She kissed my shoulder before putting her cheek on it. "Let's just stay then."

"Okay," I said, sighing into her hair and settling even closer to her. As we watched the rest of the game, I started thinking about the times when I would come here with Tanya. Jasper and Alice were expecting Max, so they weren't using them. In the beginning, the first few times, we'd had a blast. She would get so into it... it was so much fun to watch her get excited about things. She and I used to have so much fun. But now, here I was with Bella, cheating on her. How the hell did I get to this point? How had I let it get this far? This was supposed to be... a one night stand, but now I was feeling things for and about Bella that were just... too much. But the thing was, I didn't know what to do.

We ended up watching the Mariners win in the twelfth, and I decided to take the back roads home to avoid the crowds. Somehow, we ended up at the docks again.

"Pull over." Bella asked, her voice small and her eyes trained on the water.

"Baby, you okay? Are you going to be sick?" I asked, pulling into a spot and then turning to her.

I stopped the car, then she unbuckled her seat belt and turned to me. "What are we doing?"

I furrowed my brow and looked at her. "Going home?"

She shook her head and looked down at her lap. "No, I mean this... us. Edward, you love Tanya. You're going to marryTanya. And I'm jeopardizing that for you."

This is true, she was. But then again, I was too. It wasn't just Bella, after all. I'm the one who came back for her that night. It all started because of me. "Bella, it's not just you. It's me, too. I can't... I can't let you take it all. But you're right."

She nodded decisively and took a deep breath. "Then, we need to stop. I'm already... I feel... I can't keep doing this, like this. We should stop before it gets any messier." She said, pulling her bottom lip into her mouth and avoiding my gaze.

I looked straight ahead, my eyes trained on the horizon. I didn't know what I was supposed to say. She was right. Of course she was right. But... is it weird that that was exactly what I didn't want? I sighed and leaned my forehead to the steering wheel. "You're right. I don't want to hurt you, Bella."

"Don't worry about me Edward. Think of Tanya. She's off in Hong Kong thinking that you're slaving away at work while in reality you're off fucking some girl you met at a restaurant. Just like James is working his 4 night on 3 off shift thinking that I'm hanging out with my friend and not sleeping with someone else."

"You're right... we should... It's the right thing to do." Why did I feel like shit then? "We can... we can be friends?"

She laughed sadly. She sounded so broken it made my heart hurt. "Edward, we can't... I can't... I can't be around you and not want to touch you. I don't know if we can be friends, at least not yet."

I lifted my head, and turned to her. "yeah... yeah. Okay. I understand."

She heaved a great sigh, then spoke: "Right... yeah... this is good. Right?" She asked, turning to look at me for confirmation.

I sighed, and nodded. "Yeah... this is... yeah." I knew that this was what I was supposed to be doing; I knew that Bella and I couldn't continue the way we had been. But I couldn't voice it, for some reason. I turned the car back on and started driving back toward my studio.

"You're gonna go then?"

"Uh, yeah. I'll just get my car, and--"

"Right." I said, not taking my eyes off the road and pushing the volvo faster. We were at her car in no time. I got out slowly, twirling my keys around my finger and watching as she got her things and put them in her car. Once she was finished, she turned back to me and eyed me nervously.

Bella took a few steps over to me, her voice hardly a whisper. "Would you mind if I..." She put her finger to my lips, chewing on her own.

I sighed and pulled her hand from my lips, before crashing them to hers. They were moving feverishly against each other, as if we were both trying to pull as much feeling out of this last kiss as we could. This would be it. My game had come to an end. I pulled away slowly, resting my forehead to hers.

"This is it then." She said in a hushed whisper.

"This is it."

She nodded slowly against my forehead and kissed me one last time before pulling away. She turned quickly, but walked slowly to her car, head hung and her shoulders slumped. It took all of my will power not to stop her. I watched her pull out and I stood in the same spot for a minute before I finally gave in and did something I hadn't in nearly four nights.

I went home.

Surprisingly enough, I saw Tanya's car in the drive way when I got there. She was supposed to be in Hong Kong. I sighed, and prepared myself. I pushed open the front door and followed the lights to the kitchen, where she was in a silk bathrobe and some fancy underwear. Bella's were all cotton. "Expecting someone?" I asked, putting my keys on the counter as she stared at me like a deer in headlights.

"Uh, no... just you, Baby." She seemed to smile almost instantly, wrapping the robe over herself before coming over to me.

"You're home early?" I asked, wrapping her in my arms and almost clinging.

"Yeah, it got cancelled. But by the time I got the news, I was all the way at the airport and it was late so I spent the night at a hotel. Sorry, Babe, I should have called."

I kissed the top of her head. It was hard to call when you were all wrapped up in your lover. I should know. "it's okay. You almost ready for bed?"

"Yeah, let's go. You okay?"

"Mhm. I'm fine. Just tired. I had a long weekend."

She pulled away from me and took my hand, leading me up stairs. "C'mon then. Let's put you to bed."

I let her take me upstairs, and after I'd undressed and gotten into bed, Tanya crawled in beside me. I pulled her into my arms and she started to pepper kisses across my collar bone and shoulders. "I really have missed you, Eddie. A lot."

I kissed her forehead, and gave her a squeeze. "Well, I'm all yours, baby." And I was. For the first time in what felt like an eternity, I was all hers.

What the fuck was I supposed to do now?