Hey Kels? You know what might be better than this fic?

What?

Dude, you were supposed to have a witty way to say 'nothing'... but then again, you did update 7 yrs. which is chocked full of greatness

Haha. Whatev, this fic is way better than 7 years. I was expecting you to announce that you had started another fic. Now THAT would stand a chance at beating this greatness.

haha... no. I like, can't write two POV's anymore, that's how much I've come to depend on you. But then again, the founder of all things Twi (SMeyer) only did one, too. We have to block Jacob out... we just have to

And we've done a pretty good job so far, not letting him near either of our collaborations. Sooooo... to wrap things up: SMeyer owns, we had Jacob and reviews are almost as good as dating E.C?

ooo... def :)

BPOV

We got cleaned up a bit and walked out of the building hand in hand. It was amazing how just Edward's presence gave me a wave of calm. There could be utter mayhem circling around and as long as Edward was there, I wouldn't feel a single flicker of it. Yeah so maybe I had been a little caught up in the moment when I let him shoot off in me, but it felt amazing; I needed to get on the pill stat so that could become a regular thing.

We walked out the building and down the bustling streets of Friday night Manhattan pressed tightly together. His arm was wrapped around my waist and my head rested against his chest. He hailed a cab after a few minutes of comfortable silence and we headed to the hotel. "Have you had a chance to sight see at all yet?" He asked as he played with my hand in his lap as we rode back to the hotel.

"No, not really. Just a short walk last night. Work has pretty much wiped me out. I'm just glad we get the weekend off; my boss back in Seattle thought I'd be working through it."

"Yea, well we should do something then. Like go on a real date or something." He suggested aloofly, shrugging.

"A real date?"

"Yeah, you know," he began, looking up at me and smirking, "since we don't have to hide here I want to treat you like I should, but can't when we're home..." he said trailing off. He sighed, looking down at our entwined fingers before glancing up. "I want to treat you like I should be treating you all the time if everything wasn't so fucked up."

I cupped his jaw with my free hand and smiled at him softly. "Baby, you treat me like a princess; never think that I don't appreciate everything you do. I mean, you flew across the country for god sakes! Edward if that's not the epitome of a prince charming I don't know what is." My head leaned in towards his, and I swiped my lips across his mouth. "Plus you not only accept, but seemingly encourage my weird eating habits." I murmured against his lips. He laughed quietly and pulled me closer to him, kissing my temple. "I just don't want you to regret this Bella, when everything is said and done." He whispered into my hair.

The only thing I would ever regret would be not asking for one more day, once we finally had to part ways.

We sat curled up in one another until the driver swung around and pulled up in front of the hotel. Edward and I bantered over who should pay, but he ultimately won... by cheating mind you. He kissed me and I lost all sense of time and space, and he snuck the money to the driver while sliding his tongue into my mouth.

See, cheater. Okay, maybe a bad choice of words.

We walked through the lobby and got in the elevator, tapping the 'close doors' button frantically. He sighed, with what sounded like satisfaction as the doors began to shut and turned to face me. His arms wrapped around my waist and he pulled me flush against him. He leaned his forehead against mine and pulse his hands around my body, looking down at me. I stared up at him smiling as my arms hung loosely around his neck. And I don't know if it was the exhaustion of the past couple days at work, my still semi-disbelief that he had flown all the way out here at a moment's notice and had been excited for me at the opportunity I was given, or just from missing him so much and realizing that I hadn't lost him as I thought I had; but in that moment it didn't matter that I'd known him two weeks, what I was feeling felt a lot like love.

And the best part was the way he looked at me made me think that maybe he was feeling the same.

The elevator dinged, sending me back into reality and out of my spaced out happy every after daydream that I'd gotten lost in by getting lost in his eyes.

The doors creaked open but neither of us moved. He opened his mouth as if he were going to say something, but closed it quickly and smiled, kissing my nose. "You ready?"

I wanted to tell him no. That I wanted to stay in this elevator with him, daydreaming as I had been, forever. I wanted to say that I didn't want the reality of our situations, that I wanted to be a petulant child and demand my way; demand that we be allowed a redo and go back in time and meet when we were both single so that this wouldn't ever have to end. Because outside of this elevator, maybe not right that instant but eventually... outside of that elevator it would have to.

But instead I nodded and watched him pull away, grabbing my hand and leading out to the hall and down the carpeted path to our room. He unlocked the door, pushing it open for me to walk through. I stepped inside, immediately kicking my heels off and turning to him as he locked the door.

"So,Bella..."

"Hm?" I asked, moving towards him and wrapping my arms around his torso.

His arms snaked around my body and he pulled me closer, placing a kiss against my forehead. "I don't think I'm ready to sleep."

I raised my eyebrows. "Oh really? Then what, praytell are you ready for?"

His head dropped to my shoulder and his lips immediately attached to my neck, sucking gently. "You. Please tell me we can sleep in tomorrow?"

I let out a breath as I felt his teeth sink into my skin. "All day, if you want...why?"

His breath was warm against the cool wet spot on my neck as he whispered, "I'm not ready to let you go."

"No one's asking you to baby." I breathed into his ear, running my fingers through his hair and massaging his scalp.

"No one?" He asked, kissing along the curve of my neck and along my shoulder through the fabric of my shirt.

"No, and anyone that does can go fuck themselves. Because I never want to let you go."

EPOV

She was with me, wasn't she?

We were doing this together, and even though we both knew that it would have an end we were going to make the most of it. In the back of my mind, I realized that this was all Bella and I would ever be; we would never get past this point. But really, what did it matter? I was enjoying her and she wanted me here. At this particular moment, there wasn't anything more important than that. I leaned in and kissed her softly.

"Baby, let's just stay here." Impulsive, yes. Well thought out, no.

She laughed a little under my lips. "What?"

I traced my nose along the soft skin just under her eye, keeping my own closed. "Let's not go back. We could just stay here, and... and... be together." Wait... wait. Did I really want that? Did I really want to be with Bella... indefinitely? The answer shocked the hell out of me.

"Okay." She whispered.

My eyes snapped open and I looked at her. I took my face in her hands, pulling away a little. "Really? I mean, you... you would do that with me?"

Bella nodded slowly, her eyes ablaze. "Of course I would Edward." She said, smiling adoringly up at me. I so didn't deserve this girl.

I squeezed her tightly to my chest, tucking her head under my chin. "Then let's do it. Let's run away, and... and... make shit happen." Fuck, what the hell was I talking about? And why wasn't anyone stopping me?

She laughed into my chest, wrapping her arms around my waist. "You sure about this? You sure it's just not the jet lag?"

I shrugged, and focused my eyes on the wall behind her head. "So what if it is?"

She pulled back and I watched her face fall. "Then, it's just your exhausted state and doesn't mean--"

I put two fingers up to her lips and shook my head, "Bella, I want you. That doesn't change-- ever."

She smiled sadly at me. Fuck. "Wanting me is a little different than wanting to run away with me and and leave everything behind."

I leaned in and tried to kiss the sad away. This wasn't supposed to be sad. "If it's you... if I get to have you, and be with you... that's what I want. So let's do it. Let's just... fuck it."'

She left my arms, but took my hand, leading me farther into the suite and toward the bedroom. "Edward you're just exhausted; you admitted it was jet lag. It's okay; wanting me is enough, you don't need to say things you'll wish you could have taken back in the morning." She pulled me closer, cupping my jaw and running her thumb over my cheek. "I want you, for as long as I can, even if it's not forever. Okay?"

"I don't regret us, Bella. Not any of it." I pulled her into me by the waist, furrowing my brow and looking at her intently. "There isn't one fucking thing I would ever want to take back. Well, except for the last four days." I felt myself start to fall apart just thinking of being without Bella. "Baby... Baby, I can't do that shit ever again. I can't. I need to... I need to be with you. If staying here forever gets me that, then that's what I'm gonna do."

She let out a breathy, exhausted laugh. "Edward, you have me. You just do, no stipulations, no requirements, no limitations. You have me, all of me. I don't need you to promise me forever because I already know that I will be yours... that I want to be yours, for that long."

I sighed and looked down at her. "Bella... Bella... you don't seem to understand how much you've come to mean to me." Hell, until that moment, I didn't even realize how much she meant to me. "Bella... I'll give you anything... do anything for you. No questions asked. Name it, and it's yours. That's all." I dropped my hands from her face and pulled her into my arms. "Baby you're all I want... always. All I'll ever want."

"Edward, I don't want anything from you... aside from you. You're perfect." She pressed her lips gently to mine, and I felt myself get lost in her.

I sighed, leaning against her, and trying not to think too hard. I couldn't really be hers if I was still with Tanya. I mean, I was with Bella and I belonged to Bella but when we got home... i would have to pretend. Why was I doing this again?

"Baby, I... Bella... fuck..." What the hell was I trying to say? None of this was coming out right and now we were in this weird like... limbo thing. It fucking sucked. "Bella..."

She smiled and kissed me again. "Edward, don't stress about this. I'm happy; I'm here with you, we're alone and for the next however many days we don't have to pretend or hide. Just let that be enough for now, I'm trying to."

I nodded into her shoulder, then lent up to kiss her cheek. "Bella, it's always enough. Just you holding me is always enough."

"Good, for me too." She pulled away and began unbuttoning her shirt. "I need to take a bath and get rid of the 12 hour stench of work on my skin. Do you want to join me?"

I leaned in and started kissing the skin on her neck and chest as she worked on her buttons. "Yes."

She laughed a little, but pushed me off. "But you have to bathe, okay? No funny business."

I let her go, laughing after her before I began to strip off my clothes and follow her into the bathroom. My Bella. She would always be my Bella.

BPOV

He filled up the tub, while I finished stripping down and sank into the hot water. He winced, but slid in and took a deep breath. I stepped inside, situating myself between his legs and pressing my back against his chest. I sighed and leaned my head back as his hands shot up to my shoulders and began massaging the flesh there.

"Baby, we... we need to have that conversation. The one we'd otherwise be avoiding the rest of the time I'm here..."

I sighed and nodded a little. "Okay, if we must."

"How are we gonna do this now? I mean, Baby, I love that I'm with you... I want this, but really nothing's changed."

"I think we should see where this goes. I can't lose you again Edward, that's just not an option for me. What do you want, and don't say me, because I don't think wanting each other has ever been the question..." I exhaled slowly turning to look up at him. "I just need a legit answer, with some kind of solution."

"I think... I think you're right. I think that we need to see what's going to happen between us, because I can't be without you, either. But at the same time, you've been with... him for five years for a reason. You've stuck by him for a reason, so I can't... I can't ask you to throw that away for me. I have to... you have to be comfortable. I don't want to push this with you, because I want you. Bella, I can't watch you walk away again." He murmured, pressing his forehead against mine.

Part of me wanted to tell him that maybe I'd been with James for so long because I hadn't know that he existed. I hadn't known that I could feel all of this for one person. And even though I wasn't exactly sure what it was at this very moment, it definitely felt like it could eventually turn into love and that scared the shit out of me. But despite knowing the damage that I'd be causing to myself if I fell in love with him, I couldn't walk away; it was too late, he had me - I was his.

"You aren't pushing anything if I want it too."

"You... you'd want that? Would you want it to be just the two of us?"

Sometimes I wondered if he had selective hearing and completely ignored me constantly telling him I wanted him. I tilted my chin up and brushed my lips against his. "Of course I'd want it to be just the two of us."

"Do you think we'd last?" He asked with a shaky breath, gripping my waist tighter and pulling me impossibly closer to his chest. I looked up at him and his eyes gave away all the insecurity he held and was trying to not show.

"Of course." I replied without the slightest hesitation. My feelings, whatever they wound up being... this wanting him, would never go away; I was sure of it. "Don't you?"

He kissed my cheek and I felt him sigh against it. "Definitely. But I was worried that you might start to realize how boring I am once we aren't sneaking around."

What? I shifted my whole body, spinning it around to face him. A sharp chill making me shiver as my wet skin hit the cool air. "Edward, you're not boring. You're a talented photographer, who is funny, and smart, and romantic and everything a girl could want in a guy. I love that you put up with my weird habits, and seem eager to learn more. I love that your mom bought you a puppy in 3rd grade but you let Jasper name it because he was bummed he didn't get one for his birthday. I love that you downplay your greatness as a photographer when you could be flaunting it and running the industry with your skills. I love...." my heart sped and up and I noticed that his mouth was slightly open as he stared at me. "I love that you flew out here because we missed each other."

EPOV

I just stared at her because I realized then that she was about to tell me she loved me. Not James or some other guy... but me.

"Bella, I know this is kind of dumb, and a little out of left field, but go with me okay? There isn't... anybody else, right?"

She shook her head slowly, and looked confused. I didn't blame her; I was too. "...what?"

I sighed, and shook my head. "You and me... it's just you and me right? There's no... you and Steve... you and Tim. It's just... you and me?"

"No, of course not. Why, are you... are you with other women?" She asked, her voice climbing in pitch as she scooted away from me. I hated it when she did that.

I pulled her back into me and pushed my head into her shoulder. "No, baby, of course not. I just... I've never felt for someone what I'm feeling for you, and" My voice was cracking, but I really wanted to get this out. "I don't think I could take it if there was... someone else."

She let out a deep breath, twisting her fingers in my hair and lightly scratching my scalp. "Edward, why would there be anyone else when everything I'll ever want or need is in this tub with me right now?" Bella added, then she pressed a kiss to my hair.

I smiled into her skin and kissed a line across her shoulder. "Baby, I'm not that great. But... I'm glad you need me. I need you too; always, Bella. You..." I sucked in a breath then whispered, "You're my forever."

She pulled back a little and was searching my eyes for something as she whispered: "Do you mean it?"

I looked at her, and knew it was true. I might have said it just to say it, but looking at her in front of me now I knew it was true. "Yes."

BPOV

I leaned forward, brushing my nose against his before my lips reached out for him. His lips reacted to my touch by grazing against my mouth in a perfect rhythm. We took our time, just let our mouths and tongues get reacquainted. He tasted amazing, he always tasted amazing but being able to move slowly and not rush onto more cardiovascular activities allowed me to really take him in. He tasted fresh and sweet like honeydew but intoxicated my mouth like wine. We pulled away after a few moments, our chests heaving as we panted gulping down air. I bit my lower lip as I stared at his half open eyes. He tilted his head and pressed his lips back against mine with a bit more conviction. I moaned into his mouth and his arms tightened around my waist as he moved to stand, pulling me up with him. He lifted me up by my waist, not letting our lips separate as he stepped out of the bath, carrying me and standing on the bath mat. He set my feet down onto the furry rug as he pulled his lips from mine, panting again. His eyes opened a bit more and he brushed a strand of hair behind my ear, tracing my jawline with the back of his finger.

"I need you Bella," he stated softly. "For always. I need you."

"You have me, always Edward. Always." I whispered against his lips. I felt his arms skim down my sides as our lips reconnected and our tongues brushed against one another. His arms tilted and my feet were suddenly off the ground as he held me bridal style and walked through the bathroom to the bed, not letting his lips move from mine. He gently lowered me onto the mattress, crawling over me in the process. His mouth released mine and I felt his nose brush along my cheek and down my jaw to my neck. "Bella, I won't ever get enough of you. I love the way you taste on my lips, and how your skin smells, and the way you feel around me and against me." He murmured into my shoulder, sucking lightly on my skin. I let out a breath and moaned quietly at his touch. "I love the sounds you make when I'm pleasing you. You make my cock so hard it feels like its straining against its skin." He continued. I arched my back up as I felt his lips wrap around one of my nipples as the other was given attention by his hand. He sucked on it and bit down lightly. "Mmm, Edward... god..." I panted arching my chest into him even more. His lips released my breast with a 'pop' and he trailed gentle kisses over to the other. "Your breasts are perfect. They fit perfectly in my hands, not too small not too big, as if they were made for me... like you were made for me Bella. My Bella..." he breathed onto my breast before taking the nipple in his mouth and flicking his tongue over it. I lolled my head back mewing in pleasure at the sensation. His mouth slowly made it's way down my stomach, leaving wet, open mouth kisses in its wake. Each part of me was electrified by his touch and reflexively arched into wherever his lips were. "Edward... please..." I begged breathlessly as my hands tangled in his hair. His lips kissed over my bare mound and just barely dusted over where I needed to feel him most. I whimpered out a moan. "This is one of my favorite parts of you, Bella..." he whispered against my soaking wet lips. "This is the one part of you, aside from your eyes, that can never hide how you feel about me." I lifted my hips towards him, trying to get some kind of contact. He blew cool air over my wet core and I let out a ragged breath. "Baby, do you know how lucky I am... how much I think about you like this? About how I can get you like this...?"

"Only for you," I moaned, trying once again without success to feel his mouth on me. He groaned at my words, and rubbed his nose against the top of my entrance, placing a soft kiss on my clit. I let out relieved sigh as his lips returned and began sucking on my throbbing bundle of nerves. I arched my hips up and pushed them down towards his face. I needed more; I would always need more of Edward, my thirst for him was incalculable. I felt his lips turn into a smirk against my skin as he pulled away, widening his tongue and dragging it slowly between my folds.

"Ohhh... unnngh... Edward..." I panted, gulping down a mouthful of air. His lips returned to my clit as two of his fingers repeated his tongue's actions and slid between my pussy's lips. "Tell me what you need Bella. I want to give you everything you need." He murmured against my core.

"You Edward," I moaned, feeling my wetness seep onto his hand. "I need you.... buried inside me." He moaned against my clit and I almost came undone right there. His mouth moved to my folds sucking on each of them lightly before I felt his body hover over me, and his face was once again aligned with mine. He was on his knees, his amazing cock that made me feel levels of pleasure and wholeness I didn't know I was capable of feeling was at full attention. "Edward please... I need you." I repeated as he gripped his dick with one hand and ran it up and down my lips. "God baby, you're so wet for me. I love how wet you get for me... it's so fucking sexy."

"Mmm.. Edward, god please just--"

He cut me off, as he slid into me slowly, filling me to the hilt. "Unnngg Bella..." He groaned as he moved his hips around letting me feel every inch of him. I lolled my head back at the sensation. Nothing could possibly ever feel as good as Edward inside me, it just wasn't possible. I felt his body drop, as one arm moved to the side of me to prop him up. His lips placing soft, lingering open mouth kisses along the column of my neck. His hips began rocking back and forth slowly as he thrust against me. "Fuck Bella... you're so warm and tight." He hissed into my ear before placing a gentle kiss just below my earlobe. My hands slid to his back as I ran my fingernails up and down. I lifted my knees up crossing them at my ankles as they hovered above his back. "God Edward... please, fuck me... please, I need you." He growled, moving his head above mine and looking directly into my eyes. "Baby, I could never deny you what you want or need... know that." He whispered before lowering his lips and pressing them against mine firmly. He exhaled noisily through his nose as his lips never left mine and his hips began to buck wildly against me. I released my lips from his, as he began slamming right into my sweet spot. My head lashed back into the pillowed. "OH FUCK EDWARD!! GOD!! OH GOD!" I screamed as his free hand gripped my hip even tighter and he drilled into me. "That's it baby, cum... cum for me, all over my cock." He murmured into the valley between my breast. Fuck, he was amazing. I needed to feel him cum too. "Baby, cum with me, please."

"I--I can't," he panted "I didn't wear anything baby." Fuck, I really needed to get on the pill asap. I needed to feel him fill me, because earlier when I let myself get lost in the moment and begged him to let go inside me? That was fucking amazing. I felt his hand trail along my hip and over my mound. I knew what was coming and it was going to be me in two seconds. My breath hitched as I felt his thumb press against my swollen clit and rub circles over it. "UNGH EDWARD!!" I moaned loudly, shooting my hands into his hair and fisting his strands tightly. He groaned into my shoulder and nipped at my neck. "Baby, are you going to cum, I need you to cum, all over my cock. Please baby, please.. milk my dick." At his command, I arched my back into him and let go. Wave after wave of euphoria rolled through me and I felt his teeth sink even harder into me. I groaned at the feel of it as he slowed his thrusts to a stop.

"Baby," I whispered, panting into his ear. "Baby, fuck my mouth. I want to feel you cum down my throat... please baby?"

His breath was labored as it fanned over my face. "Bella..." He lifted his head, looking down at me. My eyes went wide and I pouted a little. "Please baby, please let me suck you off?"

He groaned, shutting his eyes and nodding. I felt him slide out of me and move off the mattress. I sat up, my eyes raking over his body as he stood at the foot of the bed. I crawled to the edge of the bed and moved down, onto the floor. I sat up, kneeling in front of him. His body smelled like sex and his dick glistened with my cum. My tongue dragged from the base of his shaft up to just below his tip, repeating the action around him. His hands flew into my hair and weaved through my strands, pulling lightly. God we tasted good. When I was done licking myself off his length my lips wrapped around his tip pulling it into my mouth and sucking it hard. "Ungh! Fuck Bella.." He moaned as his hips began rocking his cock in and out of my mouth. I took a breath and relaxed my throat as my lips wrapped around more of him. One of my hands slid up the back of his leg and grabbed his ass, thrusting him into me deeper. "Baby... ungh.... shit... I'm so close." I pushed my mouth further down on him, feeling his tip bounce on the back of my throat. I let out an audible breath through my nose and relaxed a bit more as his cock went down my throat. His hips thrust faster against me and my free hand reached up to massage his sac. I wanted him to cum, I wanted to taste him and show him how much I appreciated everything we were despite everything. "Shit baby... fuck... god, your mouth... it's.... fuck.... I'm going to... Belllla!" He groaned as his hands pulled on my hair and I felt him shoot off his cum down my throat. I hummed against him and he groaned again, slowly moving against my mouth as he continued his release. He was panting loudly, and ran his fingers through my hair affectionately as he pulled out. I wrapped a hand around his shaft and licked him clean. When I was done, I looked up at him smiling brightly. "I think I like the way I taste better on your cock than your lips."

EPOV

I looked down at her smiling face, and I couldn't even comprehend what she had just said. Better on my... oh god. I stood her up, and pressed my lips to hers, tasting Bella, me and sex all over her lips. Good fucking lord. I scooped her up quickly and brought her to bed, where I cradled her to my chest. I pushed the hair back from her forehead, smiling down at her.

"I missed you, Bella."

She laughed and snuggled into me, "I missed you."

I sighed and began rubbing circles on her back. "So... what have you been up to the last few days?"

"Mostly work. It saved me at the time I needed it. I wasn't sure how I was going to get through this week missing you as much as I did, so when this New York project came up it was perfect. Plus I'm doing pretty well there. I think they might try and steal me away from my current employer and ask me work with them exclusively."

I pulled her closer into my chest, tangling our legs as she wrapped her arms around my neck. "Would you want that?" I hoped not. I wanted Bella to do well; really, I did. But I didn't want her so far away from me. What would i do then?

"I'd want that eventually, I think. Either when you and Tanya get married or when I finally decide it's ridiculous to be with James anymore and take the initiative and leave him."

I sighed at the thought of not seeing her again, burying my face in her hair. "Bella... I... don't want to think about you leaving me anymore. I hate that, Baby. It makes my heart hurt."

She placed a small kiss to my chest, then nuzzled the spot with her cheek. "I'm sorry; I'll drop it. So... what about you? How was your week?"

"Horrible," I groaned. "I missed you so fucking much. It was absolute hell not being able to see you."

She lifted her head, looking up at me with clear brown eyes. "I'm really glad you called me last night, Edward. I haven't slept well since Sunday. My body is like... unable to rest without you."

I curled into her, "If I had my way, you wouldn't have to." Okay, where the fuck did I get off saying shit like that to her? That... that... oddly enough, that was the truth.

"Your way? Edward, I don't see you leaving Tanya ever... so how is what you just said true, at all?"

"Bella, I--"

"Exactly Edward." She said, her face falling as she rolled away from me and curled up in a ball. "Just... don't lie to me, okay? You saying that if you had it 'your way' things would be different... just don't give me false hope."

I sat up and looked over her. "Do you want me to do it? Because I want you to be happy, and if breaking up with her and being with you will make that happen, then that's what I'll do. Bella, I've been with her for seven years. I've never done anything like this ever. I don't know what to say or not to say; all I know is what I'm feeling. Bella, I'm so completely torn because for seven fucking years, I've only wanted one girl... just the one. But then you happened, and Bella you lit my world on fire. You showed me what being with someone really is; and... and I'm coming to find that I can live without her, but not without you. Never without you, Bella."

"Edward," she sighed, "I can't be the one to tell you to end it with her. You need to want to do it, because I don't want you in 10 or 20 or 40 years regretting the decision you made. So I can't tell you what to do. I want what you want, and if what you want is to stay with her and have me on the side until you get married then I will be here."

I hated it when she talked about herself that way. But... that's what I turned her into; I'd made her into my... something on the side. I turned away from her and pulled on my boxers as I stood up. "If I'm having something on the side, how happy could I possibly be?"

She rolled over onto her back, "You're the only--"

"No, no. I mean, really; think about it. It absolutely disgusts me when I think of cheating on you. I literally want to vomit when I think that I could do that to you. But here I am, doing that to her and I'm not even batting an eyelash. But, Bella, what if you don't want me? What will I do then?" My breath caught in my throat when I realized that I could just be something on the side to her.

She sat up, wrapping the sheet around her body and leaning against the headboard. "Edward, I will never not want you. I don't... that's like... not even a possibility. I've wanted you more since that first kiss, hell that first dinnerthan I've wanted anyone else, including James... ever."

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. "Then what the hell are we doing? Why didn't we break up with them ages ago? What's stopping me from calling her right now and ending it?"

She shrugged. "Because you love her and you don't want to leave someone you do love for someone you don't?"

I furrowed my brow and looked at her. No, I didn't love her yet; at least I didn't think so. But she actually thought that... she thought that I cared more for Tanya than I did for her? Shit... I'd let this go too far, and now I was paying. I walked to the edge of the bed slowly and took a pillow. "If that's what you think, then I probably shouldn't be here."

"That's not the case then, Edward?" She asked, her voice defiant. "You love me?"

I looked down at the pillow in my hand and shifted my weight. I felt like I was six again. "I... I'm about to."

She sat up on her knees, moving toward me on the bed. "What do you mean?"

"Just what I said. Do I love you right now? No, I don't think so. But I will, Bella. I can feel it. This... you and I... I'm going to love you." I took a deep breath and watched her. "It's inevitable."

She put one hand on the pillow and tried to gently tug it from my hand. "Then why were you going to go sleep somewhere else?" She asked, then looked down at the mattress. "Edward, me too. Know that... me too." She looked up at me, giving her most adorable smile. "come to bed Edward; it's late."

"But... Bella, you have to believe me. You... you have to. I don't know what I'm doing, and I'm going to do stupid shit. But I do need you... and want you. That's not a lie, Bella. None of it is a lie. At least for me."

"We're both going to fuck up, we're in a fucked up situation. We're both going to hit a point where it's going to be make or break, but I hope we get a little more time where this is just... good, before that happens. But I know you want me, and you have to know that I want and need you too Edward. That way if and when this does wind up coming to the fork in the road where we can either decide to be together or to part ways, we'll have always had this - New York and office introductions... firework-inducing kisses at the docks... sex in Italian restaurants, and lazy Sunday mornings under the covers. And none of it would have meant anything it, if it hadn't been with you."

I sighed and walked back to the edge of the bed and put the pillow back in place. "I want you to be happy, Bella. No matter what that means."

"Edward, I am happy. I have a job I love, a great family, and for the next few days I get to pretend that the one man I want to be with forever is all mine and only mine."

I put my hands on my hips and looked at her. "Baby, I... I don't know what to do."

"Be with me."

I cupped her face in my hands. "I'm always with you."

"Then that's all you have to do." She said with a smile.

I leaned in and kissed her, wishing that was true. There was so much more that i had to do... so much more that she deserved. But could I give it to her? How could I promise her something that I'm already supposed to have given away?

BPOV

I woke up surrounded by Edwards arms. I smiled and sighed contently as I felt him nuzzled my neck. "Morning sunshine." He murmured into my hair. "Mmm.. you're awake?" I asked, scratching his forearm with my fingertips. "Yeah, for a few minutes. You're the cutest sleeper ever. You mumble in your sleep, did you know that?" I laughed quietly, hoping I hadn't said anything too embarrassing. "Yeah, I used to full on talk in my sleep as a kid." His lips pressed against my temple, as his whispered. "Well, it's adorable."

My body twisted and I rolled over so I could face him. His arms repositioned around my waist and I looped my arms around his neck. "Hi." I said, smiling brightly. He grinned and kissed my forehead softly. "Hey."

"What did you want to do today?"

He yawned, laughing sleepily. "Get some clothes."

I laughed, kissing his chin. "You didn't bring any?"

"No time. You needed me, so I came as soon as I could."

"Edward..."

"Baby..."

I closed my eyes and sighed, pressing my lips against his. "Thank you."

His lips brushed over my eyelids feather-lightly. "For what? You'd do it for me."

"Yeah but, we hadn't talked and --"

"Baby, you needed me. I'll always come when you need me."

I loved him. It was that simple and that complicated. I opened my eyes and looked at him for a moment before closing them and kissing his lips tenderly. I loved him and I couldn't do a damn thing about it.

EPOV

Some how I managed to pry myself out of bed, and after a quick shower we were on the street, trying to buy some clothes.

"Where do you want to go?" Bella asked, wrapping her arms around my waist.

"Anywhere. I just need... clean underwear or something." I said with a laugh, kissing the top of her head.

"Well, being naked in bed with me doesn't require any underwear." She murmured, kissing my chest through my tee shirt.

I ran my hand up and down her side. "Speaking of which, we should probably get some condoms while we're out. As unromantic as it is."

"It's not about romance Edward. I just love how it feels when you cum inside me."

"Baby, I love it too. Trust me, I love it. But we can't risk it... not now, any way." Shit, what the hell was I saying? Not yet? Would we be trying anytime soon? Was this something that we were thinking about? Were Bella and I really a we? I looked down at her and knew immediately that it was true. Bella and I were a we. I leaned down and kissed the top of her head, and sighed as that familiar warm tingle rolled through my body. Maybe I... maybe I did love her. I really loved her. Not the way I loved Tanya. Something was different between Bella and I, and it was definitely stronger than anything I had ever felt before. I spotted a Lord & Taylor and pulled her inside.

"I've never been here before." She said, clinging tightly to my hand and looking around wide eyed.

I laughed and pulled her toward the men's department. "Bella, it's a department store. You'll be fine."

"I know, but I mean--"

I pulled her back into my side and kissed the side of her head. "Lighten up, kid. Help me pick out some clothes."

I grabbed a black tee shirt, but Bella wanted me to get green, so I did. Then I got a dress shirt and pants for later. "You never told me where we're going." Bella said as I grabbed some shoes.

"That's because it's a surprise, Love." I replied with a grin.

She rolled her eyes, and cocked her hip to the side. "You have to tell me, Edward."

I leaned in and kissed her on the nose. "I don't have to do anything, Bella."

"Yeah you do." She said with a smirk.

"Hmm, no. Just enjoy it. You'll have fun I promise." I looped my arm through hers and headed for the check out.

"Well... can you at least give me a hint? I need to know if I should be picking up something here too or if I can wear jeans."

"You should probably grab one. I can say that much."

"Grab one what? A pair of jeans?"

Irolled my eyes and let her go. "A dress, Love. A dress."
She leaned up and kissed my cheek, smiling brightly at me. "Alright. I'm going to run up then and look around. Did you want me to meet you here?"

"Sure."

I plopped down in a chair to wait for her. An hour and a half later, She finally reappeared. "Ready?" She asked brightly.

I stood and cocked and eyebrow. "Mhm." I held out my hand to take the dress from her, but she pulled it away. "Let me pay."

I laughed and went for it again. "Uh, no. My treat."

She laughed right back at me. "Nope. Not this time, Mister."

"Bella..."

"Edward..."

"Gimme."

"You give me!"

"Seriously?"

"Seriously."

I groaned and she grabbed my hand, taking me over to the cash wrap. The woman behind the counter smiled at us, and Bella put her dress there. "Edward, now."

"You aren't buying my stuff, too."

"Sure I am."

"Why?"

"Why not?"

"I have money."

She grinned then pretended to look through her bag, pulling out her wallet. "Ohmigod, me too!"

I rolled my eyes at her and the sales lady laughed. "I'd listen to your wife, sir. She doesn't seem like she's going to back down."

I smiled at Bella, and I swear I don't know what the fuck was happening to me as I said, "No. She can be pretty stubborn when she wants to be." And I handed her my shit. So just to recap: Bella was MY WIFE and she bought my Calvin Klein boxers. I'm not sure which one made me more uneasy. But... I'm pretty sure it was the boxers. I grumbled as Bella paid, and I grabbed her hand as we walked out of the store.

"Thank you." I whispered, kissing the back of her hand.

"Thank you as well... for conceding defeat." She grinned and looked at me out of the corner of her eye.

I shook my head and wrapped my arm around her pulling he into my side. "I'll get you back. Don't worry about it."

"You can tryat least. I'm impressed with your ambition." She leaned over and kissed my neck.

"And why is that, love?"
"Because you actually think I'll let you win. It's endearing." She laughed.

"Love, I always win." I said, giving her a small squeeze. She didn't know I couldn't say no to her. Well, at least I thought she didn't.

She nipped a little at my ear lobe, then sucked gently on my neck. "Please baby, let me win..."

Shit. "Baby... play fair."

She kissed my pulse point and whispered against my skin. "what are you talking about... I am" She said as she bit the spot she just kissed.

I led her into the elevator, and wrapped my arms around her. "that is not fair and you know it."

She wrapped her arms around my neck, smirking at me. "I think it's perfectly fair."

I rolled my eyes and kissed her. "You would, Baby."

I leaned down and kissed her neck as she tossed her head back and moaned. "See? Not fair."

"Who cares about fair..." she murmured, "don't stop.."

I smirked into her skin and plotted a course across her neck and jaw until the elevator came to a stop and I pulled away. "What should we do now?" I asked, giving her a crooked smile.

She looked up at me, her eyes hooded with lust as she panted slightly. I loved doing that to her; she never looked sexier than when I'd just gotten done with her. She was about to open her mouth when her cell phone started to ring noisily. She groaned and pulled it out, as I put my hand on the small of her back and led her down the hallway. She stopped suddenly, and I looked down at her. "What's wrong?"

My first thought was that it was James. I didn't want him messing us up. We were happy, she and I. We didn't need anymore of everybody else.

"It's work. I can't believe that--"

"Baby, it's fine. You deal with it, and I'll take care of tonight."

"You sure?" She asked, looking at me like I was going to scream at her.

I laughed a little and kissed her forehead. "Yeah, of course. I'll meet you back here in a few hours, okay? Do what you need to do, love."

"I hope that this doesn't take that long, but okay." She leaned up, pressing her lips softly to mine.

I pulled away, and looked down at her. "I'll see you later, okay? Call if you need me."

She nodded. "Come home soon, ok?"

I put my hand on the back of her neck and kissed her softly. "Always."

She pulled her bottom lip into her mouth and nodded, so I kissed her forehead before I turned away. That would have been a good moment to tell her I loved her; that home was where ever she was. That I needed her more than anything, that I wanted to be with her-- really be with her. But something stopped me. Something kept me from really saying what I felt. Something tall, skinny, and blonde. Someone I was pretty sure wouldn't care when I came home. Someone who probably wasn't missing me at all, even though we were 3,000 miles apart. I was fairly certain that the moment I saw Bella again, she would launch herself into my arms and kiss me where ever she could, and that was the minute that I realized that this game I'd been playing had officially come to an end. You don't fly across the country for someone who doesn't mean anything to you; you only do that shit for people you loved.

I was coming to realize... that I loved Bella Swan.