BELS BELS BELS... JINGLE BELS. HIIIIIII

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I know, right? We'd be like a/ning less awesome peeps. and omigod we would have never bonded over our agreement about how small RPatz's dick prolly is. Wait... is that crass? :x

A little, but then again, this is smut fic which peeps under 18 prolly shouldn't be reading.

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EPOV

The week dragged and Tanya whined at me. I hated every second of it. I hardly went to the studio so that I could spend as much time with Bella as I could. But it all came at a high price. I slept with my fiancée. I wish I could say that she got me drunk or she seduced me, but it was none of that. She wanted to get laid, and she was bitching about it so I gave in. I felt like I had to. And I literally fucked her dry. I watched her cum two, three, four times before I had to pull out. Tanya asked me what was wrong... what she could do to help. Of course I couldn't tell her the truth. I couldn't tell her that she wasn't Bella and her pussy didn't wrap correctly around my cock. I couldn't tell her I didn't love her the way I used to. I couldn't tell her I wanted to leave. I couldn't tell her... anything. But as I leaned against the volvo outside of the airport I knew that Bella would fix it. Bella could make it better for me... for us.

I was getting fidgety as I waited for her. It had been way too long. If anything, I'd learned that I couldn't go very long without seeing her, which in turn freaked me out. I wasn't supposed to feel this way after only a couple of weeks, right? I wasn't supposed to be as in love with her as I was. All things that had me nervous for our future. I lifted my head again as the doors slid open and I immediately brightened.

Bella.

My baby.

She dropped her bags and ran for me, my arms out stretched to catch her. "Baby... Baby... Baby..." I muttered between kisses, "I love you... I missed you ... I love you..."
She clung to me tightly, her arms and legs wrapped securely. "I love you. God Edward, I didn't think it was possible to miss you as much as I did. I love you."

I buried my face in the crook of her neck and inhaled her scent. "My Bella..." I muttered, kissing her neck and tasting her skin. "Don't go again, okay? Just... just don't fucking leave."

She pushed her hips into mine, and let out a soft groan. "Never Edward. Never again without you."

I laughed and kissed my way to her lips, hovering "Already, love?"
She lent her forehead to mine, breathing heavily. "Edward it's been four days. If you don't get inside me soon my body is going to revolt."

"Then why are we still standing here?"
"Because you wanted to fuck me in baggage claim at SeaTac airport?"

I grinned, "Do you have a condom?"
"There were two left from our little adventure back east. They're in my bag." She nodded toward her suitcase.

I dropped her and took a deep breath, "Parking lot or bathroom?"
She ripped off her hoodie, effectively showing me the black bra she was wearing. "Parking lot."

I laughed and tugged her shirt back down, then headed for her bags, "Easy, Baby, we aren't giving a free show."

She scampered behind me, and I felt her arms go under my shirt, her hands roaming across my skin. "Can we sprint while carrying a suitcase?"

I turned and kissed her before turning and strolling back to the volvo's open trunk. "Patience, my love, is a virtue."
Bella huffed at me. I think she might have even stomped her foot. "How... why... why am I the only one who is sexually frustrated right now?"

I opened the car door and smiled at her, "You're excited now, aren't you?"
She sighed and started grumbling at me. "No, now I just feel like an idiot."

I went around to the other side and got in next to her. "Why's that, love?"

"Because I'm practically throwing myself at you and you're treating me like a child throwing a temper tantrum."

I laughed and threw back my seat, pulling her into my lap effortlessly. I kept my hands on her hips as I leaned up and kissed her. She moaned into my mouth and i pushed her into my hard on. She pulled away, her eyes wide. I smiled and nuzzled her nose with mine. "Hard to get, love."

She kissed me, then pulled away just enough so that her lips grazed mine as she spoke. "Please Edward. Please, I need you."

I kissed her again. "Love you never have to ask."

I slowly unbuttoned her jeans and she began attacking my face with her lips. I ran my hands across her now exposed skin, and when I dipped a little bit deeper I gasped. "Baby, no underwear."

Bella pulled away from me and rolled her eyes, "Sexually frustrated, Edward."

I smiled back at her, but I wondered if she could see the guilt in my eyes when I looked at her. I felt so bad about sleeping with Tanya, but I couldn't bring myself to tell Bella about it. It would seem to me as though she wouldn't care, but then again, what if she did? I couldn't lose her. I just couldn't.

I got her jeans off quickly, then pulled mine down just enough for my cock to spring free, thumping Bella in the stomach. I looked up and she had her bottom lip pulled into her mouth and her hips were already rolling against mine. I cupped her cheek with my hand. "Baby, I love you."

She leaned in and kissed me softly. "I love you... now make me cum."

I smiled against her lips and pulled the condom from my pocket and rolled it on. Pretty much the second after I moved my hands, Bella lowered herself onto my cock and I groaned at the feeling. She was so tight, wet and warm... no one else could compare to this; no one. She was absolutely built for me in every way imaginable. I loved her, I loved her. Bella began moving against me, and soon enough I felt my orgasm threaten to ruin this. I reached down and bean rubbing frantic circles on her clit. "Bella? Baby? I'm gonna cum, and I want you to cum with me, okay? Just fucking let go, Baby, I need to feel you cum on my cock. You can do it, Baby. Cum on my cock."

"EDWWARD!" She wailed, her walls clamping down on me and milking my cock. I groaned and lost it, cumming into the condom. I let my head fall to Bella's shoulder, and she began tracing lazy circles on the back of my neck and in my hair. I loved her so much I couldn't stand it sometimes. "Baby? I'm glad you're home." I said, kissing my way back to her lips.

She kissed me passionately, moving her lips fluidly against mine. "Me too."

I smiled up at her, not moving my position, "Welcome home, Baby."

A slow smile crept across her face and she put her forehead against mine, "I love coming home."

i laughed and kissed her again, then down her neck. This was where I belonged, after all. I felt like I'd spent the last four days in some kind of purgatory and now I was home; I was finally home.

It's good to be back.

BPOV

I crawled off his lap and we cleaned up before driving back to my place. Our hands remained entwined over the center console as I rested my head against the cool glass of the window.

"I'm glad you're home." Edward said with a sigh as he pulse his hand around mine. I raised my head off the window and turned to face him, smiling. "Me too baby."

"How was the rest of it?"

"Aside from sucking because you weren't there? It was fine. Francois, the guy who I more or less reported to there... he kept me entertained."

He smirked, lifting his eyebrows into his hairline.

"Yeah him and his boyfriend took me out to dinner a couple nights. I think it was more so to keep me from hoping on a plane and coming home to you early than their actual desire for my company." I replied laughing a little under my breath as I answered his unspoken question.

"I missed you, Baby." He admitted squeezing my hand before raising it up to his lips and kissing the back of it. I melted into the feel of his lips on my skin and sighed contently. "Mmm, me too Edward." There was a brief silence while I reveled in the feel of him being near me again before I continued. "So, how was your week?"

His breath hitched before he let out deep exhale. "Long and boring."

"Really? I'm sorry. How was work?"

"I didn't really go in. I wanted to--" He started, pausing to look at me in his peripheral vision.

"What did you do then?"

He let out a low breath stating vaguely, "Hung around the house, mostly. Saw my mom a little."

I sucked in a breath at his first statement trying not to picture what that meant, but I couldn't help it. Images of him and Tanya flashed in my mind and a twinge of jealousy mixed with anger flooded through me even though I knew I had no reason to be either. After all, Iwas the other woman - not Tanya. "Oh..." I said trying to steady my heart rate. "H-- how is your mom?"

"She's okay. Stressed, but doing well."

"Why is she stressed?"

"Well, her job coupled with Alice's pregnancy and then Tanya..." He shook his head, sighing. "It's a lot for her to keep up with."

"...Tanya? Is she okay?"

"Who?"

"Tanya. You said your mom was stressed because of her job, Alice's pregnancy and Tanya."

"She's a pain in the ass. She doesn't get along with my family-- at all. She makes it hard for me to see them, so I'm not as attentive to my mother as I probably should be." He said rolling his eyes at Tanya's obvious wedge she had created.

"And this upsets your mother...?"

"Well, yeah. Wouldn't you be upset if our son hadn't come to Sunday dinner in almost eight months?"

I bit my lip and tried my best to hide my smile at his mention of 'our son'. "Depends. Has he missed Sunday dinners because he's in the Peace Corps?"

He laughed, shaking his head. "No."

"Hm, then yea. But I would hope that we could ask our daughter to help bring him back to family dinners."

"Do you think he'll listen?"

"It depends on why he's not coming to dinner." I paused and debated continuing to pry, but he had opened the door right? After taking a deep breath I pressed on. "So why don't you go? I know you said because of Tanya but you're an adult Edward; if you want to see your family, you should."

"Because she throws a bitch fit every time I do. And in the beginning, she'd go but then be in a bitchy mood for almost all of the following week. And then she asked me to stay home more and more often, and I did because I wanted to be with her all the time. " He shrugged, sighing. "It just got easier to give in to her, then fight with her."

I looked at him, wondering for the first time if he was doing the same with me. Being complacently here because it was easier than to fight. Or maybe, it was easier to be here with me because he knew I wouldn't fight with him because I needed him. I bit my lip as I tried to push the thoughts from my head.

We pulled into the parking lot and he swerved int a space across the walkway from the stairs to my apartment. I wasn't sure if I should ask him to come up or wait for him to ask if he could. His words echoed in my head as he shut off the ignition and turned to face me.

And then she asked me to stay home more and more often, and I did because I wanted to be with her all the time... it just got easier to give in to her, then fight with her.

EPOV

Bella looked so lost all of a sudden. She was sitting beside me, biting on her bottom lip and looking out the dash. I leaned over and cupped her cheek. "Baby, you okay?"

She turned to me and nodded. "Mhm."

My eyebrows pulled together. was I supposed to ask to stay? Or just follow her up? Or... or... leave? Fuck. Where was my Bella? I sighed and ran my thumb over her cheek bone. "Bella..."

"Hm?"

"Baby," My voice was barely a whisper as she looked at me impassively. "What is it?"

She shook her head slowly. "Nothing Edward, really."

I withdrew my hand and we sat in silence for a few minutes. I didn't know what to say or do, so I waited on her.

She unbuckled her seat belt and turned to be slowly, keeping her eyes trained on the floor. "I'm not going to ask you to stay because I don't want you to feel obligated to say yes."

I shook my head, "Why would I feel obligated to say yes?" This didn't make sense.

Bella just shrugged and got out, going to the trunk.

I got out to follow her, and watched as she unloaded her stuff. "Bella, answer me. Why would I feel obligated?"

She shrugged again, "I don't know Edward. I just don't want you to feel like you are; like you have to come up just to make me happy or not start a fight or something..."

I sighed, closing my eyes and pinching the bridge of my nose. "Bella, you aren't Tanya."

"I know. I just don't want you to fall into the same patterns with me that you do with her. I want you to tell me if you're unhappy and not go on with this simply because it's easier than walking away."

I went to her and pulled her into my arms. "Baby just the fact that you aren't her changes everything."

She wrapped her arms around my neck, burying her face in my shoulder. "It does?"

"Of course it does. You're a different person, Bella. I couldn't act with her the way I do with you. It's an entirely different circumstance."

She pulled away a little so that she could look up at me. "Edward?"

I kissed her nose. "Hm?"

She took a deep breath, running her hands across my shoulders. "Do you want to come home?" She asked, nodding toward her apartment.

I squeezed her tightly to my chest, then kissed the top of her head. "I am home."

BPOV

We walked upstairs and I sighed as I stepped into my apartment. It felt like eons since I had been here. I leaned my suitcase against the wall as I heard Edward close the door behind him and move closer, wrapping his arms around my waist. I closed my eyes as I felt him rest his chin on my shoulder.

"Why couldn't we have stayed in New York again?"

He kissed my shoulder, nuzzling his nose against the side of my neck. "We're going back, I thought."

"I have to go back in another month or so to wrap everything up..." I turned my head to face him. "Did you want to come with me?"

"If I can. I can't be away from you."

My lips brushed against his as I nodded. "I want you there, but only if you have the time."

"I'll do my best, Baby. But I always have time for you, okay? Doesn't matter when or why; Baby, I'm here."

I nodded and pulled away slowly, tossing off my hoodie. "I smell like airplane. I'm going to go shower really quickly. Make yourself at home okay?"

His brows furrowed with a trace of confusion as he looked over at me. "Okay."

"Unless... you wanted to join me?" I asked, turning around to look at him.

He began moving closer to me, smiling. "Baby, I want to... but I don't want you to feel obligated to fuck me in the shower." He replied sarcastically, giving me a lopsided grin.

My lips curved into a smirk as I unhooked my bra. "Trust me, it's not an obligation it's a need, Edward."

He let out an exaggerated sigh. "Well, I think I can fulfill that need, Miss Swan."

I laughed a little. "No pressure Edward. I mean, you don't haveto touch me in there." I replied, shimmying out of my jeans and turning my back towards him. "I'll leave the door open if you'd like to help me get wet." My hips swayed dramatically as I turned down the hall and walked into the bathroom.

EPOV

Yeah, I didn't have to touch her. But I definitely would.

I pushed the bathroom door closed behind me, and eyed Bella carefully from across the room. "Baby, you better be wet for me already."

She sucked her bottom lip into her mouth as her fingers hooked into her underwear and tossed them to the floor. I went to her slowly and pushed her up against the opposite wall, nudging her legs apart with my knee. Bella moaned softly and her eyes fluttered shut as my mouth began moving over the skin of her neck. I paused, sucking again on the spot I'd made before I left her on tuesday. It needed to stay. It made me feel like I was with her, even though I knew I wasn't. Maybe she thought of me?

I kept working her neck as my hand slid down her body and dipped into her throughly wet pussy. "Fuck, Baby," I murmured into her skin. "So fucking wet for me."

I felt her nod against the top of my head as I moved down to the unattended flesh of her breast. I leaned in, pulling one nipple into my mouth and cupping the other with one hand. Bella gasped and arched into me and began thrusting her body up into mine slowly. She was ready. I couldn't deny her. I wasn't sure I knew how. I switched sides for a few more moments, before I felt her hands come down and undo the button and zipper on my jeans, then forcefully push them to the floor. Ready and willing, that's for sure. I kissed my way back up her body until I reached her cheeks. "Baby, Condom?"

She hesitated slightly before pointing to a drawer on the vanity. I kept her firmly ensconced in my arms as I reached over to get it, and rolled it on with one hand. I reached for one of her legs, putting it up on the edge of the tub and taking the other to hitch over my hip. I leaned into her and nuzzled her face with my nose. "I love you," I whispered.

"I love you, Edward." Bella mumbled, her hips trying to push down onto me.

I buried my face in the crook of her neck before I pushed into her. "Shit, Baby... you're so fucking tight."

I couldn't get over it; just how perfectly she fit around me, and just how much I needed her to be here with me. Nothing else seemed right anymore. It was funny how one girl could completely turn my life around the way she had. It was also funny how much I wanted it. I started thrusting up into her slowly, letting her get used to me again, before I was able to pick up pace. Bella moved perfectly in time with me, her hips meeting my every thrust as she moaned and panted against me. I felt her begin to flutter and grip around my cock, and I knew she was getting there. Her hands twisted and tugged at my hair, as I became obsessed with sucking on her neck. I loved that.

Soon enough, I knew that I was in for it. And I wanted her with me. "Bella? Baby? Baby... please come for me? Will you? Baby, please? Cum on my cock."

She came silently and hard. Her body clamped down on mine and it almost felt like she was sucking the cum from from me. So I gave it to her. I pushed myself inside of her as far as I could as I shot off into the condom, with her name coming from my lips like a chant.

This would never get old.

Bella and I collapsed onto her bed, and she immediately curled into my side. "Did you know I haven't been here since the night you made me dinner?"

Her legs tangled with mine as she snuggled deeper into me. "really?"

I laughed and kissed the top of her head. "Really."

"Hm... you should come over more then. This place doesn't feel like home without you."

I sighed and snuggled into her, almost trying to absorb her. "I wanna stay with you." Shit. I hadn't meant to say that... it just kinda came out. Shit.

Bella hummed happily, "So stay."

I dropped my head to her shoulder and kissed over her skin. "You'd get tired of me."

She placed a soft kiss on my chest. "Never. Not in a million lifetimes."

I nuzzled farther into her skin, "You think?"

Bella nodded, "I know." She shifted up and began to nuzzle my neck. "So you should definitely stay."

"I should, shouldn't I?" I mused, mostly to myself.

"Mhm." She murmured absent mindedly, "I want to wake up to you every morning Edward."

I sighed and ran my hands over her back, "Baby, I want that too. You have no idea how much I want that."

I said it because it was true. Bella was the only person that I wanted in bed with me at any given time. I wanted her with me as much as she could be, but I knew she would turn away from me as soon as she discovered the truth. I just hoped that when she did, she would remember that I loved her.

She planted a firm kiss on my neck. "I love you Edward. This is forever for me, I think you should know that now."

"I love you, too." I cooed into her ear, kissing her neck. "Forever forever?"

She smiled warmly up at me, "As Buzz Lightyear would say, 'to infinity and beyond'; that's how long I'll love you."

"Good." I needed for that to be true. I really, really needed it because I couldn't be without her. I just couldn't lose her. "Me, too okay? There isn't anything that could happen between us that could make me stop loving you. Nothing."

Bella sighed, "I kinda figure if we can make it through this patch we can make it through anything."

I breathed against her skin, taking in her scent. "We can make it through anything. Period."

"I know. We just always have to be open. We can't hide anything from each other like we are now to James and Tanya. Promise me we won't?"

I wanted to tell her. I had to tell her. More than anything, Bella deserved to know. I should've told her. But I didn't. "From now on, we have no secrets."

A lie by omission.

BPOV

My fingers lazily scratched at his chest with my other hand tangled in his hair. I needed a job that required me to do nothing but lay in bed with Edward naked. That wasn't porn.

My lips pressed against his neck. "Edward?"

He pulled away, chuckling as he pushed his index finger against the tip of my nose. "Bella!"

I laughed a little and kissed his lips quickly. "I just realized, I don't know your last name. I'm in love with a phantom person with only one name. Like Madonna. And I really don't want to love Madonna."

"Cullen."

I smiled and pressed my lips against his again, his name floating through my head. Edward Cullen... Edward and Bella Cullen... Mrs. Edward Cullen... Bella Cullen... I sighed and slowly pulled away. I moved my face into the crook of his neck as my hand that was on his chest wandered down to his happy trail playing with the whisps of hair there. "Edward Cullen..." I whispered into his ear.

"Yes, Bella Swan?"

"Thank you for picking me up at the airport tonight."

He laughed, kissing my forehead tenderly."It's no problem. Really."

"Well it meant a lot to me to have you be there. I somehow managed to miss you even more than I thought I would. I almost left last night instead..." I admitted, bashfully.

"Why, baby? What happened? Why didn't you call?"

"Because it wouldn't have helped. I just needed you. I can't explain it... I just crave you. Like all the time, and I think part of it is knowing that you're not really mine at the end of the day that makes the craving that much stronger. Like I need you all the time but knowing that you always have one foot out the door anyway makes my body cling to you that much more to try and convince you that I need all of you... here."

He sprinkled random kisses against my scalp, rubbing his cheek against my hair. "I need you, Bella. Always. There isn't a moment that goes by that I'm not thinking of you, no matter where I am or who I'm with. If that doesn't make me yours I don't know what does."

I sighed, I knew it should be enough. We'd talkedabout it being enough. But was it? "Not being with someone else would." I answered sadly, sighing into his shoulder.

"Bella, I'm sorry that I met you when I did, but I can't regret what we've become. The timing wasn't ideal, but I couldn't imagine life without you anymore."

I looked up at him baffled. "No, I wasn't saying that I regretted it. I just..." I sighed and rested my head back on his shoulder. "I just wish I was the only girl you went home to. It's selfish I know, and it's probably the jet lag that's making me spill all this considering the hour, but I do. I want everything you have with Tanya but... us. I want us to have ourplace and one day I want us to be legitimately planning a wedding and I want to meet the rest of your family and go to Sunday dinners and if we decide on kids, watch them grow up in our home. I just... it feels like we're never going to get past heresometimes, and that scares me because of everything else that I want with you."

His arms tightened around me protectively, pulling me into his chest. "We'll have all of those things. I promise. We'll get through this, remember? It'll be fine. We'll fix things and have babies and houses and dinners... Baby, none of that will ever change because I want a life with you. His voice dropped and I barely heard him mumble, "I don't have much of one with out you."

I relaxed into him and nodded. "I know, and i'm sorry for bringing it up again; I'm just ready for my forever to start now that I've found it."

"It's happening Bella. As long as you're in my arms and we're together, it's happening. Everything works when we're together."

My lips grazed slowly up his neck, lightly sucking the spot just under his earlobe. "Are you mine for the weekend then?"

"Yeah... but I have to go out tomorrow night. An old friend just got back to town and we're grabbing dinner."

I yawned and nodded against his shoulder. "Will you come here after? I'll give you my spare key." I offered. My inner Bella was laughing hysterically at the irony that I hadn't so much as offered to lend James my key once in 5 years and yet here I was after 6 weeks, practically begging Edward to take it.

He laughed into my hair and nodded against me. "Of course, Baby. You'll be here, right?"

"Mhm, but just in case it's late and I'm in bed already. Remind me to give it to you tomorrow before you leave."

"Okay. Love you, Baby." He murmured, snuggling me in closer to his body.

I wrapped my arms and legs around him to get as close as I could. Skin on skin, Edward and I.

This was my forever and all I would ever need.

EPOV

I woke up the next morning with Bella's lips attached to my collar bone. I laughed sleepily, running my hands over her bare back. "Morning, Baby."

Bella nuzzled into my neck, wrapping her arms and me. "Hey."

I kissed the top of her head. "What should we do today?"

"Um... each other?" She suggested, wiggling her eyebrows.

I laughed, smoothing her hair back. "Yeah? Anything else?"

"I think food would be good." She mumbled as she stretched out, "And maybe coffee too."

"Okay." I said, standing and grabbing my boxers. "Where did you want to go, love?"

I started to walk away, but I felt her fingers dip into the elastic and tug me back toward her. "I didn't say I was ready yet."

I smirked down at her. "Oh?"

She shook her head, "Nope."

I sighed and crawled back under the covers with her, pulling her into my chest. "Favorite pastime?"

"Spending hot summer days at La Push beach. Favorite board game?"

"Life. Favorite movie of all time?" I kissed her forehead.

"Toss up between Scarface and Office Space. Favorite vacation spot?"

"Wait, which Scarface? The original or Pacino?"

"Pacino."

"Oh." I sighed into her hair, "Um, probably Cape Town. Favorite month?"

"August. I love back to school shopping... even if I'm not in school anymore. What did you want to be when you were little?"

"A doctor. You?"

"A teacher. What's yourfavorite movie?"

"Jurassic Park. Favorite position?"

"Anything that involves you pounding me."

I smirked into her hair, "Anything?"

"As long as it's you buried inside me, I'll take it anyway you'll have me."

I leaned in and kissed her properly. I felt that for her, too. I loved being inside her, and feeling her come undone because of me. That made me feel better than anything else in the world. "Bella, I love you."

She sighed against my lips, nuzzling my nose with hers. "I love you too Edward."

"You're the best part of me."

Bella blushed, reaching up to kiss me, "Favorite kind of cheese?" She asked with a smirk.

I rolled my eyes, "Gouda. Live in a cave with me, or under a bridge with James?" Low, but, I felt like it.

"Caves are pretty awesome..." She whispered as her lips moved across my jaw.

I closed my eyes and leaned into her touch, "I knew a girl once... moved to a cave."

"Oh?" She wondered as her lips continued their assault on my neck.

"Mhm, she was like... a reject or something."

Her lips had now found their way over my shoulder and collar bone. "What happened to her?"

"Dunno. The last time I saw her, she was saying good bye to me. I think she was joking about the cave, though."

"You think or you hope?" She asked, moving down my chest and stomach.

"Both. Caves can be tough. Especially alone."

She lifted the waist band of my boxers and licked along the skin there. "That's why you need me in your cave."

I laughed, "I love it when you're in my cave."

She hooked her fingers in the elastic of my boxers and wiggled them down a little. "Funny, we both love it when the other is in something of the others." She said, smirking up at me.

I smiled down at her, "You really have a one track mind, don't you?"

She rolled off of me and shrugged, "No not particularly. She gave me a quick kiss. "So breakfast?" She asked with a grin.

"Uh huh. Where to love?"

Bella got out of bed, "Wherever you want."

I grabbed her wrist and kissed up to her elbow, the back down to suck on her finger tips. "Wherever you want."

She sighed. "Doesn't matter. I either need you in this bed now, or caffeine. Your choice."

I pulled her back down and got up almost as quickly, pulling on my jeans. "What do you want?"

"Well you're getting dressed so it's obvious you'd prefer caffeine right now." She said, smirking.

I grinned, putting one hand to her stomach and pushing her back down. "Baby, let me rephrase. What can I get for you?"

"Am I not allowed to go?" She asked, raising her eyebrows as she propped herself up on her elbows.

I pulled my shirt over my head, "You went last time."

"So? Why can't I go this time? We could do breakfast out somewhere.."

I stopped and looked at her, "Did you want that?"

"Yeah, why would you think I wouldn't?"

I shrugged, "Cause we were gonna fuck."

She had this oddly surprised look on her face."We were?" She sucked her bottom lip into her mouth. "Does this mean if we go out, we can't when we get back?"

"No, it just means you have to wait longer. Why do you look so surprised? Did you not want to?" My heart sunk to my feet.

"No, I just thought... with the whole" Her fingers floated over the bed. "you rejecting me before we even got started that it wasn't on the table."

I looked at her closely. "When did I reject you?"

"Um... right when I was about to stick your dick in my mouth." She said, looking at me like I was insane.

I furrowed my brow. "You were? I don't remember opposing that action." I would never say no to Bella's mouth... or Bella's anything, really.

"Caves... you asking me if that's all I thought about..." She replied, scooting out of bed and grabbing her underwear.

"And then what?" Seriously, did I have a mental lapse? Why do I not recall asking her to stop?

"Well, I just thought you were saying by asking me that I thought about it too much." She shrugged, looking down. "So I stopped."

Wait... so I hadn't told her to stop. "Bella, I was only making an observation. That doesn't mean I didn't want you to. In fact, I believe I was hard at the time."

She shrugged it off and pulled on her jeans. "I'm just not used to wanting someone so much I guess; I misread signals."

I pulled her into my arms. "Baby, I always want you. You know that, right? It's a constant struggle to keep myself clothed and not on top of you when we're not in private or in bed. It was just a question, love. Nothing more. I wasn't saying I didn't want you."

She smiled up at me, "Would you mind being a littlemore perverted then? Because really Edward, I'm putting you to shame."

"Yes, Bella. I promise to be more perverted." I smiled down at her.


She laughed, reaching for her shirt and bra. "Good."

"So do you want me to go down on you as we walk down the street? Or is that only appropriate at intersections?" I asked, smirking as I slid on my shoes.

"No, but I do expect you to pin me against stoplight poles and fuck me." Bella countered, throwing her hair up into a messy pony tail.

"Grab a rubber, then Baby?" I said, opening the front door for her.

"Fresh out. We should stop and get some on our way."

I pouted as she locked up, "Then how am I supposed to fuck you when we get outside?"

"We could always forget the condom and hope for the best." She shrugged, walking down the stairs.

I grabbed her hand, "Baby, trust me a little Cullen is probably the worst thing that could happen to you."

"I hardly believe that. Though right now it probably wouldn't be the best time. Someday, maybe."

I sighed, as we turned down the block. "Trust me. Anything that comes from me will be... not so good."

"That's crap Edward. You're amazing. I would be ecstatic to have a baby with you one day." She was looking both ways down the street, hardly paying attention to be as she told me she wanted to have my baby. She started to cross while I watched the back of her head. She tugged my hand, "C'mon."

I nodded and let her lead me down the street. She... my... baby... have... what? How had it gotten this far? Oh, right. She was perfect for me.

BPOV

After waiting for a table for almost twenty minutes Edward and I had a leisure breakfast of french toast and an omlette. "Did you want to stop by Walgreens and grab some condoms for later?" I asked as we rounded the corner back to the main road.

"No, Bella. Don't you have cling wrap?" He smirked, nudging me with his shoulder. I scrunched up my nose. "Ew, Edward. Just... ew." I replied laughing quietly. He kissed the tip of my nose and shook his head. "Kidding, love."

We looped around my apartment complex and walked into the Walgreens hand in hand. "Can you grab the condoms? I'm just gonna go grab something real quick." I replied as I pulled away from his hand and looked down at my phone noticing a missed call from James. My eyes focused back up to his and he was looking at me bewildered. "Um... sure? Should I meet you at the register?" I nodded and turned to walk down the magazine aisle staring at the latest tabloids while James' phone rang.

"Babe?" I heard him reply into the received.

"Hey James, sorry I missed your call. What's up?" I heard him laugh on the other end. "Bells, I was just making sure you got home okay last night. I didn't hear from you after you sent me the text saying you landed. I thought you might've wanted some company after being gone all week."

I did have company. And a couple good fucks if you must know.

"Oh, no. I was pretty exhausted from my flight. Just came home and crashed."

"Well I work tonight..." he said trailing off. "Seems like our schedules are polar opposites nowadays, huh?" I laughed a little and nodded even though I knew he couldn't see me. "Yeah, a little bit."

"So how was the big apple?" He asked as I heard his car door shut. "Oh, um. It was good.. great actually. I'm going to have the opportunity to go back in another month or so to wrap everything up."

"What? You have to go back? I thought you took care of everything."

"Yeah, I did - for this part of the project. They want me out there to wrap everything up and be there for the launch."

"For how long?" He asked, tension in his voice.

"Um... probably another week or two at least. I'll know more as it gets closer."

"Bella is your job more important than our relationship? Because from where I'm sitting it looks like it is." Wait... what the fuck? What?

"What?" I snapped into the phone. "James, I was gone tendays. Ten. Not ten weeks or months, days."

"Yeah, and next time you'll be gone even longer Bella. So I just need to know where I rank about now. Because I won't be second fiddle to your career."

"What the fuck James?" I scolded into the phone. "You have an insane schedule that I've worked with for three yearsand you can't give me a break on one project that has me traveling twice in three months?"

"It's not the same. I save lives. You what, save commercials? Everyone hatescommercials Bella." I took a deep breath into the phone and shook my head. It wasn't even fucking worth explaining it to him that I didn't work on commercials. It was just nerve wracking being with the same company, more or less doing the same kind of work for three years and not having a boyfriend who understands what you do or even tries to understand it when you explain it. "James, I get it. You're a hero. I'm proud of you. But I love what I do to and it may not affect people as directly as your line of work does, but I take pride in it."

"I don't know why." He said offhandedly. I took another deep breath. "James, I can't deal with this fight right now, I'm in Walgreen's and I'm not going to fight with you on the phone about my job -especially at a convenience store."

"Fine Bella, whatever. I'll call you in a few days when I'm off my shift." And with that he hung up abruptly not giving me time to say good bye. I took a deep breath and grabbed the first trashy female-geared magazine I saw as the words "69 hot sex positions you've GOT to try" popped out to me from the cover. I hoped Edward bought a big box.

After picking up a bottle of water I walked over to the register where Edward was waiting in line with three boxes of condoms. He held out his free hand to reach for my magazine and water. I shook my head. "Nope, I got it." He looked at me incredulously. "Bella I'm in line already, just give them to me."

"Nope."

"Love, stop being stubborn." He said as he took a step closer to the front. I shook my head again and moved to the back of the line. He looked frustrated as I paid the cashier and made my way over to him, looping my arm through his. "So three boxes huh?" I said, grinning over at him.

"Mhm."

I laughed a little. "And you plan to use them all in me?"

"Mhm."

We turned the corner into my apartment complex and I pulled out the magazine. "Good, because I think we just might have enough to try each of these positions once." I replied handing him the booklet.

He shifted his bag further up his arm as he leafed through the magazine. "You think?"

"Well, you asked me what my favorite position was earlier. I figure this way we have more to try and decide which ones we like best."

"Sounds like a plan. I have to be out of here by six, but I should be back by midnight. That okay, love?"

I opened the door to my apartment and we both moved inside. I threw the paper bag into the sofa as I walked around the kitchen counter pulling out the spare keys from a drawer. "Mhm."

"For me?"

I nodded, handing him the two keys. "The gold one is for the main deadbolt and the silver one is for the bottom lock."

He grinned, leaning his elbows on the counter top "Do I get to keep them?"

My heart sped up immediately to his question. "Do you want to?" He rolled his eyes and didn't say anything.

My heart fell into the pit of my stomach at his sarcastic nonverbal response. I walked back around the counter and flopped onto the couch turning on the TV not saying a word and I took a series of quiet deep breaths trying not to be disappointed in his answer. "It's already almost two. Did you have to go back home to change?"

"Yeah, but I should be okay." He answered walking over and sitting down on the cushions beside me. "We aren't... I mean, I thought we were..."

My body turned to face him on the sofa. "We aren't what?"

He looked to the side where the paper bag of condoms where and back to me, seemingly confused. "Uh, condoms? Or did you want to do something else?"

I took another deep breath thinking about it. I couldn't be upset that he didn't want my spare keys. I mean hell, let's face it. I was the other woman. He had a fiancee at home. At the end of the day it didn't really matter whathe said to me because he went home to her. I needed to remember that; to remember that this could all be a lie from him. I stood up smiling softly and nodded. My hand reached for his as I kissed him softly, tangling my fingers in his hair.