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BPOV

We made it home singing to old Journey songs on the radio, and it seemed like Edward's mini rain cloud had lifted a bit, which I was happy about. I just wish me being with him wasn't causing him so much anguish with his brother, and I vowed to ask Alice the next time I saw her, what I could do to help the situation.

He pulled into my apartment complex and found a spot a ways down from my car. After shutting off the ignition he sat there with his hands on the lower part of the steering wheel, looking at them intently.

"Hey, you okay?" I asked turning to face him after I had unbuckled.

"Yeah... I'm okay." He replied, smiling down at the wheel.

I laughed softly and put my hand on his thigh. "So, are you coming home or do you have to go back to Tanya's?"

He shook his head, laughing dryly. "Bella, even if I left you right now there's no way I'd be going back to Tanya's."

I wasn't sure how to take that. I mean, part of me was thrilled that he wouldn't be going back to her place, but he hadn't really answered my question. "So, does that mean you're coming upstairs then?" I asked hopefully.

"Only if you want me to." He smirked, as if already knowing what my answer would be.

"No, I think I want you to go." I deadpanned, biting my lip to hide my smile.

He shrugged aloofly and nodded. "Okay. Love you."

I nodded decidedly and opened the door, stepping out and bending to grab my purse. "Oh by the way," I replied nonchalantly as I bent down to grab my purse from the floor. "You've got 5 minutes to get upstairs and in my shower. I believe we have some cleanup to do." I finished, shutting the door and walking towards my apartment.

As I opened my apartment door, I tossed my purse onto the couch shutting the door behind me... just in case. I really hoped he caught on this time, instead of the breakfast incident a few weeks ago. I stripped down and turned on the shower, staring at my reflection in the mirror and poking at the skin on my body while the water warmed up. Once steam started pouring from the top of the shower I slid the door open and stepped inside. I'd just run my hair under the spray when I heard the bathroom door creak opened, and Edward's torso came into view.

Thank god for clear shower doors.

He threw me his irresistible crooked grin as he lifted his shirt above his head and yanked down his jeans and boxers. His cock was already semi-hard and it thumped against his lower abdomen.

"Took you long enough." I huffed, grinning wildly as he opened the door and stepped inside, sliding it closed.

"Half of my allotted time."

"Felt like longer." I whispered, taking a step closer to him and wrapping one arm around his neck as the other slid between our bodies and wrapped around his shaft. We moved under the shower head and I moved my hand away long enough to lather up soap in it before sliding it up and down his cock. He let out a deep breath, and leaned his forehead against my shoulder, panting against my skin. I twirled my fingers around his length and dropped my hand down to massage his balls. His breath was quickening. "God Bella, that feels so good." He moaned softly against my neck before taking my skin between his teeth and biting down. "Ah, shit.." I whimpered as I picked up its pace and his hips thrusting against my hand. My thumb grazed his tip before making small circles against it and moving back down. "Fuck Bella... mmmm." He continued to groan. "Cum Edward." I murmured into his ear. "I love it when you cum for me baby." He grunted and made a few non-committal sounds before pressing his lips hard against mine, shoving his tongue into my mouth. I moaned at the sudden contact, my hand that was wrapped around his neck pushing his face against mine. I tangled my tongue around his and tugged at the strands of hair at the nape of his neck, groaning into his mouth. I abruptly felt him tense up in my hand and warm cum spurt out onto my wrist and forearm as his nose took in and released heavy breaths, his mouth still firmly planted on my own. I smiled under the kiss and pulled away, catching my own breath as he cleaned me up and we took turns showering.

Once we had finished and wrapped ourselves up in towels we made our way back to the living room and cuddled up, naked under the quilt that was thrown over the back of the sofa.

Edward grabbed the remote while I settled against his back; his free arm snaking around my waist pulling me tighter against him. We settled on reruns of COPS and I tried to pay attention as his lips dragged lazily against my neck and shoulder. "Do you think these criminals like, tell their family to watch COPS once they realize they're being filmed?"

"I have a feeling they act worse once they realize they're on film. That way they maximize the likelihood of their spot airing. So yeah. That one call they get. "MOM I'M GONNA BE ON COPS!"

"If I ever got arrested on COPS I'd try to hide from the camera not go all 'look it's my 15 minutes!' on the spot. What would you do?"

I felt his hot breath against his shoulder as he puffed out a laugh. "Probably cry."

"Aww, baby. Well, I'd bail you out and try and get that episode erased before the air date for you then." I replied, lacing my fingers around his on my stomach.

His lips pressed against my neck and his nose nuzzled my earlobe."Thanks, love."

"Mhm. Anything for you."

"Jasper got arrested once for running out in front of cars."

I laughed and turned my head, looking up at him. "Really? I didn't realize that was illegal. Stupid yes, illegal... no."

"Well... he wasn't like arrested arrested. More like, he was nine and I dared him and the old lady almost hit him with her buick. So she called the cops and they 'detained' him. And I cried."

"Aww poor baby." I cooed, laughing quietly under my breath. "Did he rat you out?"

He chuckled, shaking his head and smiling at the memory. "No. He held strong. My dad's the one that got it out of me."

"Lame. My dad was always really good at getting anything out of me and Emmett too. Course, I guess he had to be, being a cop and all."

"I'm so screwed, aren't I?" He asked, as I felt his body tense against mine.

I laughed and turned around to place a quick kiss on his lips. "What do you mean?"

"Your dad... he's gonna like... murder me."

"No he won't. He'll love you."

"You think?" He asked, a twinge of hope in his voice.

"Mhm. He'll love you because when you meet him, he'll see how incredibly happy you make me and he won't have any other choice. Plus, if that doesn't work he'll love you because I'm bringing home a guy that isn't James." I paused, scoffing. "He hates James."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. Honestly, I'm not sure who hates James more my brother or my dad. Though, only my brother has acted on the hate - that I know of." I sighed, and turned my back towards him and leaning against his chest. I hated that Emmett didn't even try to tolerate James anymore. At least my father was stoic and seemingly apathetic when James and I went to visit.

"...and this bothers you?"

"Well yeah, I mean, doesn't it bother you that Alice and Tanya don't get along?"

He bit his lip, thinking about it. "It used to. When Tanya mattered."

I nodded against him. "Well when you put it that way I guess it doesn't matter anymore. I mean, it's not like James is ever going to go back to Forks with me again. The next time I go, it'll be with you." My body froze as the words tumbled out. I hadn't been thinking... shit, was that too much? I bit my lip and waited.

"Really?" He whispered, lowly.

I felt a chill go down my spine, and I murmured apprehensively. "I hope so. If you want, that is."

He wiggled, readjusting me in his arms and smiling. "I do."

My body relaxed against his and I nuzzled his neck, turning to kiss it softly. "I love you Edward."

"Love you, Bella."

I kissed his neck again before tossing off the blanket and standing up. He looked at me completely confused. I raised an eyebrow in his direction and moved my hands to my hips. "Well?"

He looked from side to side, even more bewildered. "Well what?"

My lips creased into a bright smile. "Bed?"

He ran a hand through his hair. "Couch?"

I laughed and pointed towards the bedroom. "The condoms are in there."

"And my cock is right here." He mused in the same sarcastic tone. "Plus, I was promised the couch would get a shot. We still have to test it." He grinned.

I sighed and turned around, shaking my head. "Fine." I said feigning exasperation and hiding my smirk as I walked into the bedroom. I looked on the dresser and was about to open up the nightstand drawer when I felt him behind me.

"I was getting the condoms Edward."

"Oh." He chuckled. "I thought you'd changed your mind." I pulled out the box from the drawer and turned to face him, waving them in front of his face. "Yeah, like I'd turn you down."

"You might." He said, his face falling slightly.

I shook my head, lacing my arms around his neck and whispering against his lips. "Never." He closed the gap and pressed his mouth against mine. Before I knew it, I was getting lost in his taste and he was laying us down on the bed.

"No reason we can't have fun on the bed and the couch tonight is there?" He hummed against my lips. I shook my head, grinning. "Nope. We still have a handful of these left." I replied shaking the box of condoms I was still gripping. His lips slid to my neck as he buried his face in my shoulder. "Good, because it may be awhile before we leave the bedroom."

EPOV

Kissing Bella had become a religious experience for me. It seemed that every time my lips came in contact with her flesh, a new sound or twitch or moan was established. And this time was no different. I kept her propped up with one hand on the small of her back as I gently lowered us down to the bed. She clung to me as though I would vanish, and not gonna lie, I didn't hate it. Her legs wrapped around my waist, trapping my cock in between our bodies. I groaned as she began to move.

"Fuck, Bella..." I whispered, moving my face to begin an assault on her shoulder. Bella stopped moving abruptly. I winced into her skin and my dick felt like it was going to launch off of my body.

"Baby, I want you to cum in me... not on me."

I lifted my face and pressed my lips to her passionately. I loved her, I really did, and nothing would ever keep me from her or from this. I really couldn't think of one single thing. Even though her lips stayed attached to mine, I felt her pull away a little and roll the condom on. Once she was finished, and her arms were back around my neck, I lifted her slowly and lowered her onto my cock. I watched her carefully as she took me in, her mouth slightly a gape, and her eyes wide. When she was in my lap again, her eyes fluttered closed, "Edward..."

My face was once again buried in her skin as she slowly began rocking over my cock, stretching herself out completely for me. I moved my hands down her back to gently cup her ass and guide her up and down my length. She started slowly at first, taking her time, but then it became too much. Bella began impaling herself on my cock, her tits bouncing in front of me. I leaned in and took one hardened nipple into my mouth, biting and teasing it until Bella began shrieking with desire. "Come on baby... I need you to cum for me... cum all over my cock." I cooed into her ripe flesh, my eyes closing involuntarily as I tried to stave off my own orgasm. I loved it when she came around me and I knew it would be nearly impossible to have that if I went first.

"Oh shit... fuck... E-edward...." Bella moaned, pushing her face into my shoulder as I felt her walls flutter around me before finally clamping down and milking my cock.

"Bella..." I gasped as I thrust into her again and she gripped me, basically holding my cock in place. She drew herself up weakly a few more times, and I blew into the condom, biting down hard on her shoulder. I pushed into her feebly a few more times before finally pulling out. I kissed the now marred flesh of her shoulder, then back up to her lips. She kissed me slowly, as though we had all the time in the world.

It was then, as she pulled away and smiled softly at me that I realized we did.

I wouldn't ever run out of time with my Bella.

Tuesday morning sun came too quickly, and I was out of Bella's bed by seven. I called Tanya on my way to the studio, but I only got her voicemail. Figures. I knew I had to do something about her but I wasn't sure what. There was only so much that could happen when the other party wouldn't talk to you. Wednesday couldn't be duller, and by Thursday the ache in my chest from missing Bella was raw. Going on only text messages and short voice mails wasn't enough to make me forget about how much I needed her. Friday wouldn't be anything but my Bella and me. Oh, and Max.

Minor detail.

I made my way back to Bella's apartment that evening, giddy at the thought of spending the night with the two of them. My heart ached when I remembered what we'd be missing... what we didn't have. But I loved Bella, and if she said that we'd try again, then we would.

We would.

I let myself into her apartment, grinning like an idiot. "Honey! I'm home!"

Bella's head whipped around from where she was sitting on the couch. "Hey, baby."

I laughed and went over to her, crashing down over her and smothering my mouth with hers. "I fucking missed you."

She giggled underneath me, her hands coming up to cup my cheeks. "I fucking missed you too."

I pushed my face into her neck, taking a deep breath. "I would have given my left nut to see you this week."

She laughed, reaching down to grab my junk. "Don't say such things. How are we going to have a baby if your balls have been maimed?"

I shook my head, pushing her legs apart with my knee. "We'd adopt."

She shook her head as her legs came up on either side of me. "No, I want babies with you. Half the fun is making them." She smirked.

"This is true," I countered. "But then again... Lance Armstrong made a baby with one ball. And cancer."

"Yeah, but still; I like you best fully intact. " She cooed, her lips reaching up to mine.

I grinned into her neck, nipping at it playfully. "I love you."

I felt her head tip toward mine as her hands ran affectionately up and down my back. "Love you."

"Sooooo... you think we can cancel on Alice?"

She laughed and shook her head. "I doubt it. She seemed pretty excited to hand him over the other night."

I groaned into Bella's skin. "I can't have my way with you in front of a baby."

"He'll only be here til midnight or so. Alice mentioned her and Jasper going on a date and I quote 'fucking in the backseat like bunnies' then coming to pick Max up." (nips at his bottom lip) "Then I'm all yours."

I sat up and hovered over her, "I thought he was spending the night?"

"No, Alice had a minor freak out and admitted she wasn't ready for him to not be near her when she was asleep. So he's leaving tonight."

I grinned wickedly down at her, "I might need you to check my balls then, love."

She kissed me hard, grinding her hips into mine. "Unfortunately," she sighed, "That'll have to wait til he goes home."

I pouted down at her. "Lame."

She smirked and began palming my semi-hard cock through my jeans. "Fraid so, love."

My head fell back to her shoulder and I moaned. "Do you really want me to answer the door with wood?"

Her breath was hot against my neck. "I just want to do a quick inspection to make sure both balls are there. I can give a more thorough exploration later."

My breath was coming out ragged against her skin, "I'm about to cream my pants."

She laughed softly as she got into my pants and began fisting my cock. "That's okay, you can clean up while I answer the door."

My eyes snapped shut and I knew this was bad. Very, very bad. My sister-in-law and nephew were expected any minute, and my girlfriend was jacking me off on the couch. Before I had another chance to try and restrain myself, my hips were pumping into her hand and I was cumming. Hard. "FUCK!" I wailed, pressing my lips roughly to her skin as she whimpered against me. I leaned up and kissed her again.

"That... was very, very naughty. And, definitely not PG." I said, smirking against her cheek.

She kissed my temple. "Are you complaining Mr. Cullen?"

"No. So, the verdict?"

"Both fully present. In fact," she looked down between our bodies, "You should probably get up so I can change my shirt since it seems like my top caught all of the mess."

I looked down at the cum on her shirt. "You know... I'm fairly adept at removing your clothing."

She puffed out a small laugh. "Really?"

I sat back and pulled her up with me, then tugged her shirt over her head and tossing it aside. "Really."

"Efficient." She nodded, and stood up to head into her bedroom. "So what do you think we should do with Max tonight? I don't want him to be bored."

I tucked my cock away and thought. "We could take him to a movie?"

"Do 2 year olds have the attention span for movies?"

"Yeah. I took him to see umm... what was that one? With the elephant? and that kangaroo thing?"

She walked back out and plopped back down next to me. "No idea. I haven't been to a kids movie since I babysat in high school."

I scoffed at her, "You're missing out, love."

She grabbed the remote and turned on the TV, then wrapped my arm around her. "Evidently." She thought for a moment. "So movie then? Should we look at what's playing?"

"We could just ask Alice. She'd probably know." I said, kissing the top of her head and wrapping my arms around her.

"You're obviously going to be the rational parent. I've spent all day trying to think of things we could do with him to keep him entertained."

I laughed, smoothing her hair off of her forehead. "What'd you come up with?"

"I Googled late night jungle gyms." She huffed, "Nothing age appropriate came up."

"Oh, Bella. He has to sleep, you know. You should have been researching lullabies."

She nuzzled her face into my neck. "Ugh, see I don't even know toddler sleep schedules." She groaned frustratedly, "I'm going to be a horrible mom. Taking our children to parks at 9pm and not letting them see movies til their tweens."

I cuddled her closer, "Bella, you're going to be an amazing mother. The very best. I was only teasing, love."

"Only because you'll be there telling me 'hunny let the kids sleep.' and 'they can see movies starting at age 2.'"She sighed, "We're really doing this, right Edward? Like all of it. You, me ever after with kids and maybe a pet of some sort?"

I kissed her part, smiling into her hair. 'Of course, love. I can't think of anyone I'd rather have be the mother of my children than you." I kissed her again, just because I could. "And who knows? You could be protecting their brains by not letting them see movies till... eleven."

She laughed, shaking her head to look up at me when we heard the doorbell ring. As wonderful as my nephew was, I wasn't sure I was ready for him right yet. I sighed, kissing her forehead one more time. "Show time."

She nodded, and pulled her lip into her mouth as she moved toward the door.

Here goes nothing.

BPOV

I wondered if Edward had seen me jump a bit when the doorbell rang. If he had, he didn't mention it as we walked over to the door together. His arms wrapped around me from behind, as I opened the door.

"BELLA!" Alice squealed wrapping her arms around me tightly as I was briefly a Bella sandwich between her and Edward. She pulled away, looking up at Edward. "Are you lovebirds ready for a introductory crash course in parenting?" She giggled turning towards Jasper who had a very sleepy looking Max in his arms.

Edward dropped his hold on me and reached out towards Jasper. "Gimme."

Alice and I laughed, as she handed me a small duffel bag full of things for him. "His blanket, a few toys and a few other things are in there that you might need. We shouldn't be more than 4 or 5 hours. Jasper tried to tire him out this afternoon so he wouldn't be too fussy with you guys." She informed us, stepping back to wrap her arms around her husband. Edward bounced Max in his arms lightly, while exchanging an uncomfortable-to-witness glare with Jasper.

Seeming to notice it too, Alice took a breath and moved towards her son, kissing the top of his head softly. "Momma loves you." She whispered before turning to look at Jasper. "You ready?" He nodded, still staring down Edward. "Yea Al, let's get going." He looked at me and back at Edward, pointedly. "We'll be back soon. Call if anything comes up."

Edward nodded and I waved towards Jasper realizing neither of us had even greeted each other. Ugh, my stomach churned at the idea of me being just another girl in Edward's life that didn't get along with his family. I closed the door and followed Edward into the living room. "Can I hold him?" I asked meekly. Edward smiled and nodded, gently putting Max in my arms.

"Hey Sweetie. Remember me?" I asked, after watching the cutest thing ever - him yawning. He didn't motion that he acknowledged what I said, but buried his head in the crook of my neck and I mimicked the light bouncing motion Edward had done with him earlier as I sat down on the sofa.

"I noticed you didn't break him yet." He noted, grinning devilishly.

I puffed out a laugh and felt one of Max's hands grab my hair. "Ow! Ow! Ow!" I exclaimed as quietly as I could. I adjusted him against my side and slowly pried his hand off me. He readjusted his body against me and he looked up at me with the bright green eyes that must be a family trait. "He's definitely a Cullen." I mused to myself as I felt him rest the weight of his head against my shoulder, looking up at me, grinning and cooing.

Edward moved to sit next to me, gently rubbing Max's head. "Why's that love?"

"He has the Cullen eyes." I smirked, glancing from Max up to Edward. "He's gonna be a heart breaker; I can tell."

He leaned towards me pressing a kiss to my shoulder. "I love you. I want this with you." He murmured quietly

I sighed. It hadn't slipped my attention that we were talking about having a family, and being together forever but neither of us had managed to break up with our significant others yet. "When?" I asked, feeling Max squirm out of my arms.

Edward reached out, pulling Max into his arms and craddling him. He looked like such a natural with him. "As soon as I can get a hold of her."

Max was reaching for the TV controller to the left of Edward and I laughed, moving to take it and give it to him. Max settled on Edward's lap and began pushing all of the buttons, making cute little sound effects with each motion. "Okay."

Edward's eyes focused on mine and he nodded. We spent the next couple of hours watching and playing with Max. Turns out he loved remotes, highlighters and using the highlighters to draw on my carpet. Around 8:30, he started getting a little grumpy so I picked him up and started rocking him gently in my arms. "Edward.. help?" I asked a little frantically when Max still wasn't calming down.

He took Max in his arms, bouncing him delicately and cooing softly into his ear. "It's okay, buddy... it's okay..."

Max's whimpers turned into wailing and I looked at him, bug eyed. "Um... maybe? Uh... does he use a pacifier? food? is he hungry?" I was trying to think of what I'd read online through random websites about caring for toddlers.

"There should be a bottle in his diaper bag. Get him some water?"

I nodded and sprinted to where the bag was slumped over the recliner, grabbing the bottle and running to fill it with water. I suddenly felt like I was on a bad episode of Double Dare and I had to beat the clock. I raced back into the living room handing him the bottle and watched as he shook the powder formula with the water before giving it to Max who took it gladly, gulping down the mixture. I heaved a sigh of relief and flopped onto the couch. "Maybe we should just have pets."

He moved the bottle onto the table once Max moved his head and yawned, signaling he was done for now. "Love, it's fine. This is parenthood."

"Yeah... I see that. I'm not sure I can handle it." I looked up at him. "That was just a minor thing. What happens with the big ones? Especially if you're not around to diffuse the situation."

He plopped down next me, rubbing Max's back gently. "There's ups and downs, but I know you can do this. Sure, it's scary as hell but we can get through this because we're doing it together. Right?"

I nodded, watching Edward take the bottle from a tired looking Max. "Looks like he tired himself out." I replied, brushing the hair lightly away from his eyes.

His eyes flickered from me down to the worn out baby. "Guess so." He agreed, leaning over to place a soft kiss on my forehead. "Don't be afraid, Love. I've got you, okay?"

We put him down and watched him sleep for the next couple of hours, while curled up on the couch with one eye on the TV. Just like they said, around 11, Alice and Jasper rang the doorbell and Edward went to answer it as I gingerly picked up Max and carried him over to his parents.

"How was he?" Alice asked Edward as I approached them.

"Fine. Nothing major. He loved Bella's carpets."

I laughed, adjusting him against my hip. "Did you like Auntie Bella's carpet Max?" Alice cooed leaning in towards her son. "Bewwa." He said, rubbing his eyes as he slowly woke up. My heart fucking broke. I looked up at Edward and beamed.

He did remember me. Maybe.

Alice took him from my arms and went to help Edward gather Max's things.

"I want you to know, this isn't about you." Jasper stated glancing behind me at Edward and Alice before back at me. "I just don't like that he can't just sever the ties and he needs to hurt Tanya like this."

Immediately my blood ran hot and I took a deep breath, trying my best to stay calm. "Because she didn't hurt him when she started messing around with the guy she's been sleeping with behind his back?"

He pursed his lips and shrugged. "I just don't think it's fair."

"To Edward you mean."

"To either of them. To you or your boyfriend for that matter. If you and Edward stand a chance you have to really try being together, instead of each other's fuck buddies."

"Who's a fuck buddy?" He asked. His eyes darted from Jasper to me and back to Jasper, waiting for a response.

I sighed and looked at Jasper. "You two are." He said bluntly. "Without being crass, that's essentially what you are. You two aren't really together as much as you say otherwise because you're both committed to other people."

"That's enough." I heard Alice pipe up behind me. "Jasper Cullen these two are in love and how dare you try and belittle that. When was the last time you saw your brother so happy? And when was the last time you saw me taking an active interest in anything he and his girlfriend were up to? Hm?"

He just stood there frozen.

"Exactly. She said beaming. Now let them be, we have to get home. We have a busy day with your mom and Max tomorrow." He grabbed the duffel bag from Edward's hands not saying a word and turned on his heels walking away without saying goodbye. Alice sighed and shifted Max in her arms. "Don't mind him, he's just being sensitive. He really does think you're lovely Bella. He, just like myself, just wish that Edward would get off his ass and end the relationship so that you two can really be together; he just has a funny way of showing it."

I smiled and heard Edward scoff beside me. She looked up at him smiling sadly. "Really." She drilled in before waving and walking towards the staircase.

Edward closed the door and I sighed, facing him. "Is he ever going to like me?"

His arms looped around my hips and pulled me close against his chest. "He does like you. It's me.. and him and this whole fucked up thing we have going on."

I nodded and wrapped my arms around him. "I can't wait for some cute little baby to call me mommy. I mean it gets me every time Max just says my name."

He laughed pulling away and poking the tip of my nose with his index finger. "A minute ago you were rethinking the whole thing."

"Yeah, but I like the idea of having another set of green eyes in the home." I pulled away a bit more and grabbed his hand, leading him towards the bedroom.

"Where are we going?" He asked feigning ignorance.

"To practice." I grinned, turning to press my lips against his firmly. I loved this. I loved him.

I knew I would love everything that resembled this moment, forever.

EPOV

I woke up the next morning curled around Bella with the rain rapping lightly on her window. I pushed my face into her hair as I felt her shift beside me.

"It's after ten." She mumbled, twisting her legs with mine.

I kissed the top of her head, running my hands over her bare back. "So? Do you have plans?"

"Nope. You?"

I flattened my cheek to her hair, closing my eyes again. "No. I need to get some work done for a few hours this afternoon though. I've been backed up for some reason."

Bella placed a trail of soft kisses on my chest. "That's good, though. Means I'm not the only one who thinks you work wonders behind the lens."

I rolled my eyes. "Bella, it's not like I'm curing cancer."

"No, but close."

I laughed, squeezing her closer. "Hardly."

She curled more tightly into me. "Did you want to meet up after you're done tonight then?"

"Yeah. Come by and we'll stay over there. That place isn't the same without you. And we've probably worn out your bed."

"Plus, since we tried my couch last night I think it's your couch's turn."

I kissed her forehead decisively. "Definitely."

A while later, we hopped in the shower together and I was out the door before one. All in all, I'd say not so bad considering the fact that being away from Bella made me what to shrivel up like a prune. Somehow, though, I had managed to do it. It felt good to be back in my own space with my stuff as I walked into the dark room to start prepping the film. This was why I loved doing what I was doing. I loved being able to see and relive moments that had passed. Who cares if I wasn't in the picture itself? I was still there.

I was getting through my third roll of film when I heard the door bell ring. Nothing, however, prepared me for who was on the other side.

"Tanya?" I asked, confused.

She smiled softly, "Hey baby."

I sighed, stepping aside to let her pass. "What's up?"

"Nothing," She said, "I just wanted to see you."

I shut the door behind me, moving toward her. "You okay?"

She turned, shaking her head as her eyes filled with tears. In an instant she was in my arms. "Edward... it's all just so fucked up, you know? I miss you. I miss us. I miss the way we used to be. We don't fuck, we don't kiss, we don't laugh." She sobbed harder into my skin. "I love you, and I want you. But it seems like we're so screwed up."

I hated seeing her like this; so vulnerable and alone. It made me want to protect her, comfort her... love her. I sighed as I kissed the top of her head and tired to think. I cared for her but did I really still love her? Not the way I used to, I decided. I loved her like you love someone you've known for ever; like a friend. I would always love her, but not to the degree nor the necessity to which I loved Bella. Bella was everything. Tanya was a place holder.

"Babes,we are screwed up. But it doesn't matter. If we're meant to work out, we will."

Her voice was quiet as she responded. "Do you think we will?"

I rubbed her back, saying the one thing that came to mind, "Maybe."

I held her for a little while longer until she pulled away, looking at the huge wet spot on the front of my shirt. She laughed a little, scraping her hands down my chest. "I'm sorry I got you wet."

I smirked, "I bet you are."

She smiled wickedly back up and me, then gently pressed her lips to mine. I moaned into her mouth and fisted her blouse, but at the same time I couldn't help but notice how generic she felt. Yeah, I was definitely over her. She pulled away again, tugging on the hem of my shirt. "Let's change."

I nodded, pulling off my shirt and tossing it aside as I went to grab another. I was just coming back out, shirt in hand when the doorbell rang and I saw Tanya go to answer it. My heart went into over drive once I realized who it could be... and evidently, who it was.