Chapter 57

At the cory's Rachel was laying on her bed when mac came in;"What are you doing home so early?"

"I was worried about you."said her husband as he sat down;"You've been through a lot lately."

"I'm fine."answered Rachel hesitating;"I've been thinking,mac,I don't want my kids to see me towards the end and when I can no longer take care of myself and I'm in so much pain that I will be forced to stay in bed the whole time."

"What are you trying to say,Rachel?"asked he worried;"Are you trying to tell me that you want to kill yourself before then or something?"

"No,ofcourse not."said his wife tired;"All I'm saying is that I don't want to put my kids through that or you."

"I'm going to stay with you untill the end,rachel!"started mac softly as he took her hand into his;"I'm not leaving you to deal with this alone and that's that!"

"But what about the kids?"answered she;"I already know that the end is going to be terrible and I don't want them to have to live through that!"

"I can understand that,honey,but there's not much that you can do about that except for killing yourself before then and I hope that you aren't thinking about that!"

"No,I have already told you that I'm not going to kill myself."said Rachel annoyed;"I was thinking about going away in a few months,towards the end,and staying away untill it's over."

"Going away where?"asked her husband surprised;"Where do you want to go?"

"Around the world or something like that,mac,as long as it isn't here and our kids don't have to go through seeing me die!"

"Maybe that isn't such a bad idea."said mac slowly;"That would give us a chance to spend some time together before the end and it won't put the kids through the pain of having to watch you die."

Later that night scott was waiting outside of the e.r. with his mother for the doctor to come back;"What is taking them so long,mom?"

"Sharlene will come as soon as she's finished with dawn."answered she and her her arm around her son;"Let's not get all worked up as long as we don't know anything."

"But what happened?"asked scott irritated;"Dawn was fine when I went back to the office just after lunch."

"I don't know what happened,scott,all I know that she was sitting in our kitchen and we were talking when all of a sudden she was in a lot of pain."started his mother softly;"Then she started bleeding and we called an ambulance."

"I'd just wish that sharlene would come and tell us what is wrong with dawn!"said he worried when all of a sudden dawn's doctor came towards them;"How is my wife,sharlene,what's wrong with her and how is the baby doing?"

"The placenta was coming off again and we had to perform a emergency operation to save dawn's life."answered sharlene;"It was really touch-and-go there."

"How is dawn?"asked scott shocked;"How is the baby?"

"Your wife is still in critical condition,because she has lost a lot of blood and her bloodpressure is pretty low right now,scott,but dawn is strong and I think that she will pull through this."began dawn's doctor hesitating;"We tried our best to save the baby too,but it was just too early."

"No!"yelled he angry and pushed mary away when she tried to put her arms around him to comfort him;"No,this can't be real!"

"I'm sorry,scott,I wish that I had better news for you."said sharlene as she walked away;"I'm really sorry."

"Atleast dawn is still alive,sweetheart!"started mary softly;"You can try to have another baby again in time."

"Didn't you just hear what sharlene said?"asked her son with tears in his eyes;"She isn't sure if dawn's gonna pull through this,mom!"

"Dawn is a strong woman and she will pull through this!"answered she and pulled him into her arms;"She knows that you and eric need her!"

Shane was sitting at the bar at tops,getting waisted,when felica sat down next to him;"Do you think that this will help?"

"I don't know and I don't care!"said he irritated as he asked for another beer from the bartender;"A few days ago I was so happy about Nicole saying yes to me and about becoming a father,felica,and now I have lost everything!"

"Come on,shane,I don't believe that!"answered his friend;"Nicole loves you and that can't just be gone."

"She hates me after what I did to her sister,felica,she never wants to see me again."

"Nicole is angry right now and she's acting out,but I'm sure that once she has calmed down a bit everything will turn out allright again."started she softly and gently touched the bruise on his cheeck;"How did this happen?"

"This is how angry Nicole is at me,felica,she really hates me and even gave back the ring."said shane tired and pulled the ring out of his pocket and placed it on the table;"Guess I won't be needing this anymore."

"I'm sure that things will be better in time,shane."answered felica with a sad smile;"I'm sure that you can get Nicole back again."

"I'm sorry,felica,I shouldn't be laying all my problems on you."started he ashamed;"That was pretty thoughtless of me."

"It's okay,shane,I'm glad to be thinking about something else for a change."said his felica softly;"All I do is think about mitch all day long."

"Is there anything that I can do for you?"asked her friend worried;"Anything at all?"

"Don't give up on your relationship with Nicole!"answered felica;"Just don't give up yet!"

At the hospital m.j. was watching tv when adam came in;"Hi,adam."

"Hi,honey."said he and kissed her;"How was your session with susan today?"

"It went okay."started his girlfriend hesitating;"Kathleen told me that you walked away angry at mary's place earlier."

"She shouldn't have made such a big deal about it,m.j."answered adam irritated;"It was nothing."

"Are you sure that it was nothing?"asked she softly;"Or are you still angry about me keeping the fact that you had a son from you for all this time?"

"I wish that your sister would keep her big mouth shut for once,because she's making you upset for no reason at all!"said her boyfriend;"I thought that we had been through this!"

"No,you went from being furious with me to being in love with me again,adam,so we didn't go through anything at all."

"That's because there's nothing to go through,so I don't see why you and Kathleen are making such a big deal about this!"

"It's kind of strange how we made up,because one minute we're fighting and the next minute we're suddenly making love again after more then two years."started m.j. slowly;"Your anger couldn't have gone away just like that,adam!"

"Why not?"asked he irritated again;"First I was angry with you,but then I realized just how much I love you and that's it."

"So are you trying to tell me that you're not angry with me anymore for not telling you about being pregnant when I left baycity?"

"That's right."said adam and kissed her;"You shouldn't let Kathleen get you all worked up over something as stupid as this!"