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23. Hope

"If watching you love him is the punishment I deserve for breaking your heart all those years ago I'll take it"Sam says in a pained voice "It's only fair after what you lived through.."

"It doesn't have to be that way"Leah says reaching out for his hand over the cofee table, abandoning the hard facade. "You don't have to sit and watch. You could meet someone else just.."

"Like you did?"Sam laughs squeezing her hand "It's not that easy Leah. Believe me I tried letting you go when I had a reason to. Now that I have no reason-"

"I love him"Leah says letting the knowledge sink in his eyes, as hers mirror it. That's reason enough for her to try to force him to forget her, at least forget the love they once shared, and the love that at different degree they still both feel.

"You love me"Sam accuses her and laughs, when she scoffs but doesn't deny it.

"Leah I know what it's like" He reaches for her other hand "He loves you. I know, and by what I've seen he'll probably do it, even as she grows older." She doesn't need a name. She never does when they talk about her like this "But it might not be enough. He could love you and still leave you for her. You know how hard I tried to fight it for you, for us."

"Maybe you didn't try hard enough"Leah's small voice lets the insecurities come afloat.

"Believe me, I did. Why do you think I'm here still pledging a love that was supposed to be extinguished with the imprint?"Sam asks her" If I hadn't loved you as much as I do, it would've faded and even if the imprint had broken I would've been over you. But I'm not"

"Sam, I...I'm sorry" Leah says extracting her hands from his, and standing to turn away from him. There's a soft bitter laugh, and Sam gets up as well walking over to her,letting her back a couple of inches away from his chest.

"I'm not trying to convince you to leave him"He explains, and Leah can detect the smile in his voice. "I lost. He's won you over. But that doesn't mean I am letting you go."

"Sam.."Leah turns to plead him, but he cuts her off.

"This is the last time I'll say it as long as you two are together" Sam speaks slowly "I love you, I've always have and always will as corny as it sounds" A sad laugh escapes her lips, it starts with a smile, but ends almost teary.

"Sam."

"You can't control this"Sam says placing one of her hands over his heart "I'll do it as long as I live. I'll be here waiting in the wings if you ever need me."

"This is the last time I'll say it"Leah mimicks him punching him lightly in the arm"I love you Sam, but I wished you would move on."

"Fair enough"Sam smiles sadly at her, wiping a tear that has betrayed her. "I honestly hope he's different Lee lee"

"Liar"Leah laughs "But I'm hoping too" And hope is all they can do as she lets him hold her tightly for what she hopes will be the last time.

a/N: so im posting this just as an incentive. tomorrow ill post another chapter and i will apply the same rule if gets more reviews ill post another one, so it'll be like four chapter in two days...hahaha i kno a review im such a review whore right now...hahaha i know i just like knowing what you girls think doubt a guy reads this.