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40. I need you to need me.
He had never figured how hard a relationship could be.
Things were good. It wasn't like they were fighting. But as days turned to weeks, and weeks into months, he found himself feeling resentful.
And not towards her. Not at all, but towards everyone and everything else.
Living with his best friends had sounded fun at first. And well getting to have Nessie so close was really nice too. And of course this was Seth's home to begin with. And he understood Claire was Leah's responsability now. And Sam had a valid reason for popping into the house so frequently, he was the Beta. And well Rachel was best friends with Leah, and she had married a douchebag, so of course she needed someone to vent with.
But couldn't they just understand that he and Leah needed space and the little privacy they could get.
Between the hectic work schedules, patrolling and the parade at the house, it was virtually impossible to get Leah alone. And well he knew once the school was done with, they would get some time together. But it was just not that.
No, it was how she took it. While Jacob found himself snapping at everyone for no reason and barely talking when he was in a crowded room. Leah seemed completely unaffected. On the contrary she looked happy, at ease.
She didn't miss him.
And Jacob knew it was absurd talking about missing someone, when you shared a life together. But he felt like he had faded into the background of her life. Jacob had so willingly made her, his life. He had the pack, the council, Nessie, but still he had fell in love with her and made her his everything, by choice. He was willing to resign to it all if he had to.
His rational side knew it was selfish, but he couldn't help it. He wanted to be her life too. Her everything. But unlike him, Leah was slowly but surely building a life that didn't exactly revolve around him, and it pissed him off.
Maybe Bella had messed him up. Maybe he was just crazy and insecure.
But he was not risking it. Which is why he found himself taking a day off, and driving to Seattle alone.
His feet automatically dragging him to the first jewelery store his eyes spotted, and a large sum of his account was withdrawn as he purchased something he knew could put his uneasy feelings to rest.
He was hers already.
a/N: i can't believe this is chapter 40 and i'm not even at the half of my storyline, i've been really enjoying writting this, and im glad you've been liking it so far....this ride's only begginig and we're getting to the good part... haha i think... well thank you so much for the reviews!!! and i think the glee spell is wearing off hahaha so we'll see once the eclipse trailer comes out, i hope there's wolvess on it!! anyways will try to update later today or tomorrow for sure.