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42. Breaking into dust
"Are you fucking kidding me?" Sam had to resist the urge of rolling his eyes at Jacob's apparent pettiness. He hadn't come here to fight. Actually he was doing an exception and trying to help this boy for the first and last time. He had seen Leah's cold stare before coming, and as much as he wanted her. Seeing her like that, scared the hell out of him.
He preferred to see her happy with Jacob while she could, than getting just a broken shell of the woman she was.
"Get the fuck out of here!"And just like that Jacob changed from looking like seventeen year old brat to a forty year old man that was angry and heartbroken. Of course he was neither, he was only twenty years old. A fact that Sam needed to remind him of .
"She's not ready" Sam opened with that, and it was the wrong thing to ssay, because it was like adding fuel to the fire.
"She-"
"I haven't talked to her"Sam said raising his hand "She hasn't talked to anyone but the girls and Seth" Jacob shoulders seemed to relax a little bit. And a part of him was glad that she wasn't talking to anyone either.
He just couldn't wrap his mind around the rejection. It hurt too much thinking about what it really meant.
"Look Jacob"He tried to make his voice more deep yet kind of friendly at the same time. "It's not like she's never going to be ready. And I know I'm the last person you want to hear this from, but the truth is I screwed her up pretty badly" And Jacob knew, but it just wasn't about Sam. Or Nessie. His stomach churmed, remembering the way he had lashed at the girl.
Rosalie was going to kill him
"No shit Sherlock"He muttered but not paying much attention to Sam. It was typical Sam, making everything about him and Leah's failed epic love story.
"Maybe two years ago, she would've practically jumped on the idea"Sam explained " But you shouldn't be trying to make promises you won't be able to keep"
"You were not man enough to fight for her and now I have to pay for your weakness"Jacob barked "This isn't about you Sure you were a grade A-asshole. But she's moved on"
"I'm not saying it's about me"Sam huffed. "Stop being so inmature"
"Stop meddling!"
" I'm not going to fight with you Jacob"Sam said tiredly reverting to the patronizing tone he used when he was the alpha. "Just fix this. I broke her once, but I'm not letting you do it again"
"And it's okay for her to break me?"Jacob let the words slip out and then realized how vulnerable he sounded.
"Yes"Sam said. But there was no gloating or malice in his tone "It's okay if she fucking decides to rip you apart . Because you're holding her heart in your hands. And one false move and it's going to fall. And this time it'll break beyond repair. I don't think dust can be put back together"
a/N: hang on. it's no the end of blackwater...have faith and thanks for the reviews, feel free to ask anything just let me know if you want to be spoiled or if you have any doubts about what's happened so far....