I was staring at my reflection.

Hello.

I smiled at my reflection, but it simply stared back.

Hi.

Do you like my scars?

I have them too. I don't like them... but I'm okay with them.

My reflection smiled and a hammer appeared in front of me.

I like them. They show our pain.

Our?

We are the same people. Except that they broke me.

They?

The blondes. Remember?

The pain and memories came swarming back, and I watched the mirror shatter. The glass sliced up my skin, shards got stuck, and each cry that fell from my lips were answered by a splash of my blood.

I remember that day perfectly.

I laid on the bathroom floor covered in broken glass from the mirrors, unconscious next to the sink. A red liquid spilled across the black and white tile.

I hate people.

Haruhi walked into the bathroom and pulled me out of my pool of crimson. I'll be your light when things seem dark.

I became teary at her words and sobbed into her chest.

I sat up on the couch to the sound of my watch beeping and quickly turned off the stove. I stirred the stew and smiled at the perfection I had created.

That nightmare... I remember when that happened.

I remember the pain perfectly.

I remember my screams and my cries.

I shivered at the thought and crumpled to the floor weakly.

But Haruhi made it all better.

"That felt good." I sniffed. "Haruhi makes everything much better, regardless of how terrifying things appear." I whispered.

"What?"

"Nothing. Just looking for a contact I dropped." I said quickly, getting up off of the ground.

"You don't wear contacts..." she frowned.

"Dinner is ready." I changed the subject and quickly washed my hands.

Haruhi sighed before she dropped the subject and took a different approach. "Were you sleeping?"

"Was."

"Nightmare?"

"Yeah. Now let's eat."

The brunette pulled me in for a hug before kissing away all of my worries. It was such a passionate kiss I went blank, so blank that I couldn't remember how to breathe, blink, or speak. She pulled away and started dishing herself up.

"Lavender... I won't force you to talk, but I just want you to know that I want to know everything about you. Your worries, what angers you, what your feeling, and all of that. I won't always be able to figure things out."

I remembered how to do the 3 essentials of life again and started dishing myself up as well. "Okay."

We sat down on the couch and started eating.

Maybe I should tell her? No! That's what she wants. I gotta be able to communicate in a relationship. No! She's not stupid. She knows that it's about the blondes and I. Just tell her, geez. Okay...uh... here I go. Do it already! FINE.

"The nightmare was about the time I went to the hospital because of them." I said shyly.

Haruhi looked at me curiously. "Were you in a hospital or heading to a hospital?"

"The ambulance was coming to get me."

"Huh?"

"I nearly died because of the amount of blood I lost and I had a lot of glass in me from getting smashed into a few mirrors."

I stopped eating and out the bowl on the coffee table. "Every time I see those girls or even think of them my appetite shreds."

Haruhi put her bowl down as well and kissed me again. "I love you." she mumbled into my neck, before biting my bottom lip gently. I reddened at her actions and hugged her.

"I love you too."

"Let's change the subject and mood of the evening."

"I'm not doing it today."

"Who said we were doing anything in that mind set?"

"You've been implying all day with all of the spontaneous kisses."

She laughed at my accusation and snuggled into my chest sleepily. "It did cross my mind a few times."

"Uh-huh."

"But I'm not really feeling it right now."

"Do you have anything to study for?"

"No."

I yawned and wrapped my legs around her waist. "Hmmm."

"You're sleepy?"

"Yea... I was wondering if you could carry me upstairs?"

"Sure thing, Laves."

"Laves?"

"You're name is long."

I was going to say something perverted but closed my mouth. "Oh."

"I feel like you were going to say something else."

"No. I wasn't."

"Oh okay."

I pulled myself closer to her and purred. "I mean what was I going to say? Long like you fingers or tongue?"

"Either one would work fine."

I snickered at her. "Carry me up the stairs prince!"

"Yes Dragon!"She got up and carried me up the stairs. "You know I've been wondering... when are you going to carry me places?"

"As soon as you label me as the Seme."

"Ahahahaha I guess I'll carry you forever."

"You know, I thought I weighed more... but you're making me feel feathery light."

"That's because you are."

She walked into our room and threw me on the bed.

I laid on the bed sprawled out. "I've given you my all..." I pouted.

"Well actually, you're still a virgin... all I did was tease you. We didn't actually do anything."

"Oh. So is that why you've been extra kissy?"

"Yes and no. I want your moment to be special. I don't want it to be pop and a go. I want it to be something spontaneous and sensual."

"Like what?"

Haruhi laid down next to me and thought. "What's your number one fantasy?"

"Ummm. That's a bit personal."

"Aww come on I'll tell you mine!"

"Okay, do tell."

"Fine. I've always had a soft spot for chocolate, so I wanted to play with my partner in a indoor chocolate pool, after being cleaned and pampered."

A montage floated into my head.

Haruhi was floating in the silky pool of chocolate. I sat on a white chocolate floatie with a bikini made out of whipped cream, while floating around her.

"Ah Lavender." she purred, yanking me into the warm chocolate. I shrieked at the sudden action and clutched onto her nervously.

"Haruhi! Oh my goodness! You got chocolate all over me!"

She rolled her eyes and started licking it off of my skin. "I think you look delicious like this." She sunk her teeth into my shoulder and fondled my chest with her left hand. I mewed happily at how hands-on she was getting.

"Lavender."

"Yes." I moaned, biting my thumb.

"Lavender!

My montage vanished and reality appeared. "Huh?"

"You're biting yourself."

I released my hand from my mouth and blushed. "Oh. Thanks."

"Welcome. So what's your fantasy?"

"Well I've always wanted to do it publicly without a care, and have people walking away or staring. I kinda want to do it at school in the girls bathroom or in the rose garden or somewhere... but it has to be snowing if we do it outside."

Haruhi was scarlet at my fantasy. "Public? Why?"

"Well it would be exciting and different. I thought you'd be up for it."

"Sure, but public sex can be a bit bold. Maybe something simpler like a janitors closet, girl's bathroom, or even at the host club?"

I shrugged. "Stay spontaneous Seme."

"Alliteration." she pointed out.

"Ahahaha, school."