Tuesday

Today was club day, so I was pretty much a hostess today.

I was in the changing room again getting into my white queen costume. I left my nails black, just for effect.

My outfit was pretty simple but very constricting today. I had a white corset on and white fishnet stockings that connected to my black underwear. It looked a bit lingerie-ish so I slipped on a pair of white shorts before putting on the short poofy white dress, that had one sleeve that had a braid of silk that went around my arm a few times, but was stitched onto a piece of thin lace, so that it seemed sleeve-like. White roses cascaded down my ebony waterfall frenchbraid thanks to about 50 hairpins, and my bangs were decorated with a few white rose petals. Reaching into the box I pulled out a belt that had the brightest white roses in history, connected to each other, forming the humble: belt. I hooked the roses around my waist and smiled.

Oh make up.

I put on some diamond white eyeliner and exaggerated it with black mascara. And just for more face drama I put on some espresso shaded eyeshadow onto of some faded cream eyeshadow. Do I lipstick?

YES!

But-

YES!

I reached into the box and pulled out the liquid lip stain. Dark Raspberry... hmm. Smiling, I put some on.

"ARE YOU DONE YET WOMAN!" Hikaru screeched.

"HEY DON'T YELL AT MY GIRLFRIEND!"

I smirked at my reflection and turned around.

I glanced at my shoes and sighed. Why am I wearing white stilettos? Because you're a queen.

I folded up my clothes and put it next to the box that once held my costume.

"ALMOST! I'M JUST FIGURING OUT HOW I CAN LOOK WHITE EVEN THOUGH MY SKIN IS CLEARLY BROWN." I shouted.

I heard snickers from the other side of the curtains and then Hikaru bursted through them. "LOOK HERE YOU LITTLE- whoa~."

I had just finished putting on my heels. "Just whoa?"

"Ummm. Kaoru!"

His twin came in and collapsed to the floor. "Your highness... you are quite stunning today, but as always you truly are kawaii."

The curtains flew open and my roses fluttered in the gust of air, probably making me appear more lost than found.

Tamaki's rant turned into a compliment."WHA- WOW."

"Is this cute?" I blinked staring down at my shoes nervously.

Renge stood behind Kyoya with a haunting glare. "DON'T ASK SOMETHING YOU KNOW YOU ARE! WHY DON'T YOU ASK IF YOUR SEXY OR SOMETHING?! WE CAN ALL CLEARLY SAY NO TO THAT!"

"Tell that to my 'friend'." Hikaru gulped, crawling across the floor towards the bathroom.

"Mine too." Kaoru whimpered.

"WHEN I APPEARED YOU JACKASSES DID NOTHING!" Renge snapped, stumping them into the floor. "YOU SAID I LOOKED LIKE A BALL OF RED AND BLACK LICORICE IN A HOUSE OF CARDS!"

I giggled at her jealousy. "You look cute too Renge."

She turned around and blushed at my compliment. "I DON'T WANT YOUR COMPLIMENTS!"

"Ok." I smiled innocently.

The theme today was:

Alex in Wonderland.

I mean we couldn't traumatize girls with the idea of Haruhi being a girl so she had to remain a male for the time being. Currently she was changing into her suit.

I panicked when I saw Honey, who was running towards me with open arms.

"Ehehehe. KAWWWWWAAAIII!"

"Nope." I sidestepped him and he crashed into the table behind me.

"WAHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

I sweat dropped and shuffled away from his sobbing form, only to be carried back to my senpai by Mori.

He grunted at my struggling and placed me on the ground next to him. Honey looked up at me with huge puffy eyes, while tears ran down his face. I paled at the nasty bruise forming on his forehead.

"I'm sorry senpai." I pouted, carefully placing a cool finger on the bluish knot.

"Why did Lavi-chan move?" he whimpered.

"I didn't want you to get a stain on my pure white outfit."

He sniffled and cuddled into my arms. "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too."

"I forgive you, but now I'm going to make Haruhi mad at you." he whispered in my ear.

"Uh- how?"

He bounced up in my arms and pulled me in for kiss. Connection of the lips. I went blank for a few seconds and then started freaking out from the foreign contact. Honey was really strong so pushing him away was quite exhausting.

Haruhi came out of her changing room dressed up as the male version of Alice.

I flicked Honey on the forehead and he pulled away with a sharp yelp.

"WHAT WAS THAT!" I squeaked with large eyes.

"As far as I was concerned you seemed to have enjoyed that." he smirked before skipping away.

Demon child.

My attention came back to the now glowering Haruhi. I probably was as white as snow white when she walked away without saying a word.

I looked at Mori for assistance, and he shrugged. "Time to put your love for her and her love for you to the test."

"WHHHHYYYYY?!" I shrieked.

"Calm down." Kyoya sighed. "You guys won't break up. You two are an official couple of true love. It's not like she's going to kick you out of the house or anything."

"Let's not give her any ideas." Haruhi walked past me again, ignoring me."And I think she hates me now." I pouted.

"Well-"

"WELCOME MY WONDERFUL GUEST TO THE HOST CLUB~"

The roses fell around us making me sneeze.

"NYAAAAAAAAH DRAGON IS NOW THE WHITE QUEEN! KAWAII!" they shrieked, bustling through the doors.

"HI HI!" a girl shrieked happily.

Two certain blondes appeared and walked to Haruhi's table, making me even more sick to the stomach.

They were talking and I started serving tea, earning squeals. Tamaki shoved me at the table I had been avoiding and disappeared. "KYAHHHH!"

Haruhi caught me before I could hit the table, moved my titled form away from the table, and released me. "Umph." I grunted, hitting the floor. Once again she ignored me, and I was left to pick myself up and dust myself off.

"Ohhh nice panties White Queen." Mali snorted. "You know Haruhi... I think you should do what I suggested you earlier."

"I'm wearing shorts you-"

Haruhi growled. "I might do that later. Can you stop checking out my girlfriend?"

"Hmmm. Have you even touched her yet?"

I growled at their discussion and pulled my dress down.

"Well of course I have."

"Where are her marks?"

"I don't like leaving marks."

"Boys are too gentle nowadays." Mahi pouted, siping at her cup of tea.

"And when they're too rough girls get upset." Haruhi murmured stirring her tea. I leaned against her leg lazily. "Girls are queens. I believe they should be treated like one, and if they want something else they'll ask for it."

She stroked my cheek, and lifted my chin with a jerk. We stared at each other for a few seconds, before she released me and stared back at her guests.

"Hmmm. But some girls like to see the fire in their man." Mali smirked, jabbing Haruhi in the hand with her cake fork.

Haruhi yanked her hand away and stood up. "Thanks for visiting. I'm leaving early today so... You can go to another host."

The two girls rose up. "No. Stay. We will go." they smiled in sync. "We will return in 48 hours for your answer on the question. But until then, farewell."

They left and I appeared in one of their chairs. "What question?"

Haruhi stared at me with halflidded eyes. "Don't worry."

"Wish I couldn't." I frowned and laid my head down on the table.

"Do you love me?"

I gaped at her question. "Yes."

"No hesitations or second thoughts?"

"None, why? Is this about what happened between Honey and I earlier?"

She ignored my question and headed to the backroom. UGGGGGHHHHHH! TOO MUCH DRAMA! A few girls sat down next to me.

"Your highness?"

"Hmmm?"

"Why are your nails black?"

"I left my nails that shade to remind everyone that there are shadows in the light."

The girls squealed in delight and giggled. "That was so romantic!"

An arrow flashed over my head.

Only brown-skinned person in school.

Talk about being a shadow in a sea of light.

Haruhi came out moments later with a tray of cake and dragged me away from the crowd of squealing girls.

"Haru-"

She leaned next to my ear and growled."You are mine. Do not forget that."

WWHHHOOOOAAAA! Big-slap-in-the-face A.K.A possessive dominance. How unexpected.

I stared up at her innocently. "I won't. I was simply talking to them."

She huffed and strode away. I glanced at her retreating form before heading to the backroom. "I can't believe how oblivious everyone is acting towards the tension in the room." I groaned, and grabbed a cup of tea.

The door locked behind me. I spun around and faced Haruhi.

My mouth opened slowly, but I wasn't sure of what I was going to say. Her glare did not lighten the mood any. "You're mad." I concluded.

"Yes. One of my friends kissed my girlfriend, and I'm pissed." she exhaled and stepped towards me, running her hands through her hair anxiously. "Not necessarily with you, of course; I'm more with Honey."

Placing the cup on the counter, I stepped closer to her. "So we're good?"

"Well-"

"Well what?"

"You won't let me fulfill my role."

"Role?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about."

"Do I?"

She groaned at my 'stupidity' and kissed me.

My natural instinct told me to wrap my arms around her waist, but as a consequence I was shoved into a wall.

"Ouch."

"Stop being like that!"

I paled at her rush of rage."I can't prevent myself from appearing intimidating and dominant. My persona and conscience uses masculinity as a defense mechanism; a shield, if you will."

"A shield from what?"

"My nightmares, my enemies- EVERYTHING!"

Haruhi stared at the floor in frustration. "Well why can't you let me be you shield?"

My eyes were saucers. I undid the buckles of my heels and stepped on the floor, so that I was officially three inches shorter than my girlfriend. "Is this better?" I murmured, placing my hands on her shoulders.

"Slightly." she frowned, wrapping her arms around my waist,

I sighed and closed my eyes, inching up on her by standing up on my tippy-toes. "Just kiss me already."

Haruhi obeyed my wish. It was quite an unpleasant kiss. We were both stiff, and I felt uncomfortable giving all of my fierceness away. "That was miserable." she complained. "Give me all of your dominance, and let me... please-"

As awkward as I felt looking up at Haruhi, I pulled her towards me and relaxed. "Here's my shield." I whimpered into her chest.

Smirking, she lifted my chin again. "You're eyes are large."

I frowned at her tease. "Shut up."

"Ah, Ah, Ah. You can't say that anymore."

I glowered at her. "You may have taken my shield but I still have a sword."

The brunette showered me in kisses, before pulling me in for a blood-flow-stopping hug. "I know."

"So we're cool?"

"Well I'm taking you shopping somewhere later... so I suppose we are on good terms."

I batted my eyes and arched into her. "You suppose?"

Haruhi dragged a finger down my throat, down into my dress, until it was pressing firmly into the flesh over my pounding heart. "We are very cool." she winked before lifting up her finger, revealing a red mark. I could still feel her finger on my skin.

"Good."

We strode out of the backroom and entered a guests-free room.

"Were you two doing 'it' in the backroom?!"

Haruhi rolled her eyes and nodded a yes to Tamaki. My screams of no were silenced with her hand, as she dragged me out of the room and to our limo, while carrying our stuff.

All I heard while I was being dragged down the stairs was: "NOOOOOO! NOOOOO! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

She threw me into the vehicle with our uniforms and bags, and hopped in.

"Are we honestly leaving school early?" I gaped. She ignored me and handed the driver an index card. "Why'd you lie to Tamaki-senpai?"

"..." She grabbed her bag and started digging in it. Sighing I leaned against the window and stared at the blurry nature.

Are we cool? Maybe she wanted to see how I'd react if she lied about something as private as that? Our relationship feels strained.

I started humming a song as time passed. It sounded a bit off at first and then the notes fell in place.

Talkin away

I don't know how I'm - I'm to say it

I'll say it anyway

Today isn't my day to find you

Shyin away

I'll be comin for your love okay

One day when the light is glowing

I'll be in my castle golden

But until the gates are open

I just wanna feel this moment!

"What are you humming?"

My song fell apart in my head before I could hum 'In a day or two~' and the catchy beat that everyone knows. "Um it's just a little something..."

She stared at me and I hummed the last part of my little masterpiece.

Whoa whoa whoaaaaaaaaa

I'll be gone... in a day or-

Whoa whoa whoaaaaaaaaa

twooooooooooooooooooo

FEEL. THIS. MOM-ENT.

*hums the chorus beat*

"A little something?"

"Yeah... nothing serious, just fun."

Haruhi started humming the song and I started humming the notes in another octave, creating harmony.

The car stopped and we both got out.

I stared up at the store in awe. Japan Pink.

"Isn't this a 'playgirl' store?"

"Yeah." Haruhi smiled, dragging me towards the building.

"But we still have our costumes on! What about-"

She picked me up bridal style and carried me inside through the automatic doors.

"Hello! Welcome to Japan Pink! My name is Cherri, how may I help you today?"

"We're just looking." Haruhi smiled. The girl reddened and nodded.

"Ok. Just let me know if you need anything."

I appeared doll-like in Haruhi's arms. People stared and oogled at us as we went up down each isle. Our costumes appeared wacky enough to be Alice in Wonderland wack, but still gave off that Nutcracker christmassy feel, so people felt even more obliged to stare.

I huffed miserably in her arms as she walked down another isle.

"What are we looking for? All I see is clothing the color of Valentine's day."

"Valentine's day?"

"It's an American thing... I guess."

"Hmmm. Anyways... cute stuff for you."

My cheeks ignited at her words. "F-For me? What? This place doesn't have my taste in clothing... and this place is expensive!" I reddened. "You don't need to-"

"Yes for you. I want an idea of what I'm looking for, but sadly I can't picture any of this clothing on you... could you try some on?"

"Could I? Erm-" Those brown eyes shredded all other emotions. Why did I give my shield away? "Alright. Only three things. It's hard getting dressed up like the white queen."

"Good. Three was all I needed." she grabbed three things and pushed me to a dressing stall. "Go try it on."

I went into the stall and stripped down to my undergarments. I looked at what she handed me. A hot pink, frilly, ruffled lace bra with a matching thong. My face burned at the idea of Haruhi seeing me in this. How scary. It's so revealing yet so innocent that I don't even think I can rock this.

Sigh. I shrugged and put them on over my own underclothes. Unlocking the door, I peeked around the corner to see if Haruhi was there. She was texting someone on her phone.

"Haru-chan." I chirped. She looked up and approached me curiously. "Ummm. Why am I wearing this?" I asked, opening the door only wide enough for her to see. Ignoring me again, she began to examine me, occasionally poking or squeezing me. "Do you like this?"

"Is it comfortable?"

I stretched and bent over. "Yeah..." Haruhi dragged a finger in-between my legs slowly and walked out.

"Next."

I closed the door quickly. She just- while I was- HUH? I sat down on the little bench and tried to block out the sudden rush of excitement. It's kinda hard fighting a sea of emotion when you give away your shield.

After calming down my arousal I took of the clothes and picked up something else. My jaw dropped at the sleeping attire. It was technically a one piece bathing suit that had magically evolved into a pajama. I slipped on and swooned at how good it fit me, unlike that bra and thong. The one piece silk pajama was frosting pink with rips and tears all over it. Fitting yet very revealing. I was basically wearing a scrap of clothing.

Opening the door, Haruhi came in again to check me out. "Haruhi... this shows too much." I whined, covering up where my flashing nipples would be with my hands and squeezed my legs shut to hide 'there'.

"Uncomfortable?"

"Yess..." I paled. She stepped into the stall and closed the door behind her. "Wh-"

Her lips were glued to mine and eventually I was pinned to the mirror. I pulled away and whined.

"N-no."

"I thought you wanted it public."

I was officially scarlet. "Uh-"

She placed her knee between my legs and tilted me back. "You're mine, and today I will show you what happens when your mine."

Wham. S-and-M-er. How unexpected. I guess once you see your girlfriend getting kissed by your best friend the whole table of romance automatically turns into a torture chamber. "Mine?" I repeated, slowly. I pushed her back and cocked an eyebrow. "Did I miss something?"

"Yup." Haruhi dropped her pants and my eyes nearly popped out of my head.

"WHERE DID YOU GET THAT?" I screeched at the giant toy she had strapped on.

"You mean these 20 inches of pure joy?" she smirked darkly, stroking the long and thick black toy. "With the circumference of 5, just in case you were wondering."

My mouth was dry and as of now I couldn't even talk. It was all too much. I exhaled and looked into her eyes. I could feel the love radiating off of her, but overall I could see how uneasy she was. No... let's not kill the mood. "That sounds like it's going to be painful." I said, chewing on my bottom lip.

Just now, I had just either killed the mood or made it even more romantic.

"I assure you that it won't hurt and if it does I'll stop." she smiled, pushing me up on the bench so that her face was in between my legs. I yelped at the weird feeling of her hot breath heating up my insides. "Am I allowed to eat out the white queen?"

"Why yes Alice you are allowed." I smiled softly.

"Well can you remove the one piece?"

I flung it into the basket, and glanced down at her shyly.

At first she just started jabbing her tongue into me through my underwear.

"Haruhi." I growled, tightening my grip on the bench.

"My name is Alice." she winked. "And you haven't even soaked your underwear yet." she purred, planting kisses all over my inner thigh. I squirmed as a weird heat filled my stomach. "Not wet enough, your highness." she started stroking my folds again randomly rubbing me.

"Har- Alice... stop. Pl-Please." my eyes were teary from how much pleasure I was feeling. The fire within my body scorched and arroused me terribly. I didn't want to feel like this in such a place, but 'Alice' kept pulling me back into Wonderland.

"Hnmm. Wet enough." Smirking she removed my panty slowly, using only her tongue.

"Haruhi..." I groaned.

"Alice."

"Alice... I-I can't... I can't do this."

"Huh?"

"I can't have sex with you."

Haruhi deadpanned at my 'nuke' of a sentence that had just killed the mood. "Once I put these pants on I will never touch you again." she hissed coldly.

I grabbed her hand and whined. "Don't be upset. Please. Haruhi-"

"No. I'm not upset. Just get dressed."

We are no longer cool. Wahhhhhhh.

"Haruhi." I growled, pulling her towards me. "Stop being so cold to me."

She threw my clothes in my face and started getting dressed. Frowning I latched onto her leg.

"Let go."

"No!"

"Lavender. Let. Go."

"Stop talking to me like that."

Her eyes were now swords, as they scanned my body. "Now." I released her leg as she said 'Now.'. "I'll wait for you in the car." she muttered and left the dressing room. Haruhi! I want you, but I don't want you like this. I miss the old you. I want my shield back.

I began to cry as I got dressed, messing up my make up. My tears were white as they fell down my soft brown skin.

Thank you white eyeliner.

Rubbing my eyes I glanced into the basket. Haruhi said she only wanted me to try on three things. I only tried on two. A small smile appeared as my eyes landed on the article of clothing that I hadn't tried on.

BINGO.

Haruhi's POV.

I sat in the limo waiting impatiently. I was upset, hurt, sad, and lost. Why did she turn me down... was it too much? too fast? Should I have done things differently? I heard her start crying before I had left the dressing area and headed out to the main store area. Maybe she was scared.

I hopped into the car and growled.

Oh I'm terrible. The guilt was shredding me apart with each thought.

Click.

Woop.

Slam.

My eyes landed on the Queen of White next to me. She seemed tense and nervous as she shifted in her seat. I should say something. Like what? I'm sorry for nearly making love with you? Ermmm I'm clearly unapologetic on that.

"I'm sorry if I upset you. I just couldn't... My first time... I want it to be private... and special. I've always thought about it after our discussion yesterday..."

My eyes gazed at into hers. Who's gonna crack first?

A tear raced down my cheek until it fell onto my shirt.

Me.

"I'm sorry for being cold... it's just I want to be in control. I want to be the lover of your dreams. It's so unfair how dominant you naturally are."

She reddened at my apology. "Well you're in control now. I won't go back to being a bitter shadow who's always in control, because I gave you my shield. You're my shield now, so I don't expect you to be exactly the same... but your cold attitude around me will no longer be acceptable, are we clear?"

I nodded at her and looked out the window. Ignoring her for the rest of the ride was easy. When the limo had stopped we both grabbed out things and walked into the house silently.

She headed to the kitchen and I headed up stairs. Pulling out my phone I started texting the twins about the designs of lingerie and stuff I needed made for Lavender.

Hikaru: Did you sketch out the designs and color them?

Me: I've done a few. I'll show em

to yah tomorrow.

Kaoru: Okay.

Sighing I laid on my bed and ran my thoughts over today. The blondes were a bit right. I really do need to step up to my plate, and fulfill my role or else someone else will.

After I saw Honey kissing Laves my whole train of thought on waiting longer before officially claiming her had officially blown up. I felt moody and territorial. She was mine and I felt like people liked testing me. If he hadn't kissed her I wouldn't have realized how everyone else was looking at her.

And I only have 48 hours to respond on the question.

Is Lavender truly mine and truly in love with me?

I-I don't know.

Anymore.