highschool musicals story and its actors do not in any way belong to me i am just useing them in my awsome kick ass story they belong to the evil empire that is disney etc.

A/N ok i hope you guys liked it and to answer a question that was aksed i was actually going for dedicated when i worte that but it was late at night and i never got around to makeing that corection so yeah i will get to fixing that. anyway here is chapter 2 of my new stroy. and answeing another question the reason why you dont know what brought on troys fears is because unlike my last stroy which i sort of just breezed threw this one is much longer and takes more time to get to things it will all be explained in due time and as far as ryans bitchyness i like to go into the other sides of ryan as a character instead of useing just ryan is weak and needs troy to protect him constantly. so yeah i hope you like this chapter and i hope to get so feedback because from what i have writen i can see this stroy being really good but i cant say i will continue if i dont know that people want me to so just a few words of any type of critisizem would be nice so i can get a feel of weather you like it or not so yeah please review:D

Chapter 2: Didn't we almost have it all

Enter Ryan

As usual I found myself sitting at our upper balcony table in the cafeteria for lunch. Sharpay sat across from me reading how many calories were in the pasta salad she bought for lunch while I forked around my Mac and cheese. I wasn't much of an eater and with the whole golden boy stealing my part thing it just gave me an excuse not to.

"How can there be that many calories in pasta salad?" sharpay said dramatically

"Because it's packed with mayonnaise and mayonnaise if loaded with fat" I suggested.

"Well aren't you just Mr. Encyclopedia" she said crossing her arms glaring at me. "Why aren't you eating?"

"Not hungry" I said shrugging and pushing away my food.

"You barely ate any of it" she said staring down at my plate.

I didn't respond and turned away from sharpay the last thing I needed was another one of her talks about how I need to eat more and that starving myself wasn't good for my performance. But she didn't start in on me which I was thankful for.

"So how was drama club?" she asked sourly

"I still don't understand why you decided not to come" I said shaking my head

"Because Ryan it's called being dramatic if I don't show up people will wonder why and feel sorry for me because I didn't get the part"

Wow I think my sister is the only person in the world that knows she is a drama queen and doesn't really care. "I don't think anyone really noticed" I said

"Oh they noticed all right" she said "just you wait and see"

"Wait and see what shar? You really think that they will just take away Gabriella's part and give it to you just because you are upset and want it"

"Ugh its times like this I wish darbus was a guy it's so much easer to manipulate guys" she said "I mean look at you you're gayer then lance bass and you do everything I want"

"That's because I'm your brother "I said rolling my eyes "and I don't do everything you say"

"Yeah ok" she said unconvinced.

Now normally I tried my hardest not to piss sharpay off. Because usually when sharpay was happy the world was safe and when the world was safe I was safe but there was always that odd time that I would just push her buttons and now was one of those times.

"You can't manipulate troy Bolton" I said folding my arms with a smirk. That's bound to ruffle a few feathers.

Her head snapped towards me in an angry glare "I'll have you know that troy just doesn't know what he is missing"

"Yeah I head ach at best" I mumbled to myself

"What was that?"

"I was just about to tell you I won't be riding home with you after school" I said saving myself from my sisters screaming fit. She looked at me confused.

"What could you possibly be doing after school?" she asked as if she didn't believe a work I spoke.

"I'm teaching troy how to dance" I said

Her eyebrows shot up and her jaw dropped. "What… why are you….I mean why would he come to you?"

"He didn't darbus did she said he needs to learn the all of his steps"

"Ugh why do you always get to have all of the fun" she said pouting and doing an over the top frown.

"ha yeah right like that will be any fun for me the boy has no dancing skills at all I have my work cut out for me" I said " plus the idea of spending the after noon with troy leaves a bad taste in my mouth"

"I don't get how you can be gay and say that you don't like troy" she said laughing

"I don't like troy "I said "there"

"How could you not he is so dreamy"

"He's not my type" I said rolling my eyes at my sister's obsession with the basket ball player.

"Why not?"

"Because he is cocky arrogant and thinks the sun shines out of his ass" I said smirking "your right sis you guys are perfect for each other"

"Ha" she said "sometimes I think you were born to another family and given to us by mistake you are the only one in our family who doesn't think the sun shines out of there ass"

"That's a bad thing?" I asked

"No" she said smiling genuinely at me "it keeps me down to earth enough to not turn out like mom and dad"

For the next few seconds me and sharpay shared sympathetic looks as we thought about are our parents neglect before sharpay went back to her guarded confident tone.

The whole school knows my sister is a diva and some would go so far as to call her a complete bitch but I knew better and it was times like just then that I knew my sister the real sharpay was still in there. She's not half as bad as the front she puts up I just wish she would let it show a little more often maybe people would liker and then by association me a little bit better. But she says that vulnerability has no place in the theater and I guess she is right in so many words.

I was zapped out of my lingering thoughts by a bag being dropped onto the table. I looked towards the sound to find Kelsey dropping into a chair.

"Well if it's not Benedict Nielsen" sharpay said. Kelsey did a quick eye roll before Turing to her.

"Sharpay I didn't betray you" she said sighing

"So conspiring with someone else to steal our parts was what?"

"Well technically anyone is aloud to try out you just got outdone" she said

"Yeah well I guess it doesn't mater how we feel as long as troy and Gabriella get what they want" I said. Kelsey knew me better then most people and growing up together had shown her that I was not my sister like everyone else thought. So the look she gave me was one that said she was at least sorry to me.

"That's not how it is at all Ryan" she said "it's just…"

"Just what?"Sharpay said "just thought that they deserved it more then us why because you like them better?"

"Not at all" she said

" we practiced for those parts for so long Kelsey and frankly I don't believe they did all that much better then us but you can think whatever you want I don't even want to here it" sharpay said dramatically getting up and walking away.

Kelsey sighed and shook her head.

"I may be mad at you right now but don't let sharpay get to you she's just trying to make you feel bad" I said seeing how upset it seemed to make Kelsey. I was never one for holding a grudge.

"Oh Ryan" she said holding me in a hug " I'm so sorry I did this its just they were so nice to me and no one is ever nice to me… well besides you and Mrs. darbus but they were so nice and I just I wanted to help them"

"Its ok" I said patting her on the back "I'm sure I'll get over it by the spring musical" I said. "Which I hope this time you won't be jumping ship on me"

"I'm faithfully yours" she said putting her hand over her heart "no troy or Gabi for that one"

"Oh by all means help Gabi just not that pompous troy Bolton"

"Ryan do you have a crush?" she asked playfully

"Hardly I would actually go so far to say he is an unwanted rival." I spat. "He is in no way shape or form my type at all"

"Well I guess it sucks that you have to teach him to dance later" she said beginning to eat her sandwich.

"I wouldn't have to if maybe you would maybe do it for me?" I asked pouting and putting my hands together in a begging motion.

"Ry I can't" she said

"Pwitty pwitty pwese" I said

"Ryan no I cant I have… I have plans" she said crossing her arms

"You have plans?" I asked smirking "doing what?"

"Hey I have plans all the time Ryan don't doubt me" she said offended.

"Who do you think you're talking to here kels?" I asked "what's the scoop?"

"Ok fine…" she said sighing "I have a date… with Jason cross"

If I was drinking something I would have spat it out at hearing that. Kelsey my Kelsey was going on a date with Jason cross. God that kid was like the poster child for dumb jock. "Awe Kelsey even you can do better then that" I said disappointed.

Kelsey just blushed before taking another bite of her sandwich. "Ryan he is really cute and he asked me out" she said "and I don't know if I could do better the last time I did that I ended up disappointed"

My face went red in memory of me and Kelsey's little experiment that confirmed my fears of being gay. I would always be in dept to her for causing the embarrassment of not only taking her virginity but then coming out to her in the same day.

"Yeah I'm sorry about that" I said

"I know Ryan you can't help how you feel when are you going to get that I understand?" she asked

"When scientists find a way to un deflower someone"

"I don't want to be un deflowered"

"Ok so say you do go out with cross…what if you two get serious?" I asked

Kelsey looked at me as if she didn't get it and shrugged "so…. What if we do?"

I actually didn't really know the answer to that question myself but thought it would be something I needed to ask as her best friend any way. "I don't know like what do you say if he asks you if you lost you're virginity"

"I tell him yes "she said "I don't get it Ryan you sound jealous or something which is kind of unfair seeing as how you are gay"

My head shot up to look at her "I'm not jealous" I snapped "it's just …. What if he hurts you…? I mean I'm you're best friend but even I don't think there is much I can do against him and the wildcats".

She put a reassuring hand on my shoulder and smiled at me "don't worry Ryan I have thicker skin then you think I can handle it not working out"

"Yeah I know"

We didn't talk a lot after that I mean what was there to say. Even though I would like to say that me and her shared everything that would be a lie there are things that I didn't even tell my sister for fear of it getting blown out of proportion. And telling Kelsey that Jason is one of many who enjoys throwing around the word fag is something I feel can go left unsaid. I have taken way too much from Kelsey in the past and I am not about to be the reason for her not getting yet another thing she wanted. I would let fate do it for me.

Enter Troy

I don't think I have ever been so out of it in lunch time scrimmage as I was today. I don't know what it was but the idea of trying to do anything felt draining. Maybe I was tired I mean with all if this play stuff and basketball I do feel kind of spent. Maybe I should quit the play I thought to myself… no I couldn't do that to Gabi plus I actually liked singing. And hell if I even considered quitting basketball. Basketball was my life theater was just a hobby one that caught some heat from my friends though.

"Hey hoops after school?" Chad asked as he pulled off his towel. I don't know what it is but I think I am the only one on the team who thinks it's awkward to see other guys naked. Chad has no problem with it but I was a little creped out every time I had to change in front of them or they had to change in front of me.

"Naw I cant" I said leaving out what it was I was doing. Not that I didn't like Ryan or anything but he was gay and I did I have a rep to protect.

"Oh is troy finally getting lucky" Chad asked

"He wishes" Jason said laughing "he is getting dance lessons from Ryan Evans for the play"

"Twinkie town?" Chad said laughing "poor troy"

I couldn't help but grimace about how vulgar Chad was on the subject of being gay. I mean I won't deny that I have on occasion used the word queer and fag but it was usually completely out of context. I knew better then that though but kids are kids. But it made me wonder what my parents would say if they heard Chad talk like that about an actual gay person. It actually made me wonder how they would feel if they knew I was hanging out with Ryan. I mean sure they say they don't want me to be closed minded but would they feel the same if I actually had a gay friend? I know my mom would say the same but I feel like my dad would have a few choice words.

"Just try not to go fag on us troy" he said patting him on the back.

"Don't worry" I said not really paying attentio0n to what was going on around me.

"What about you Jason?" Chad asked "you down to play?"

"Nope I have a date" he said smiling ear to ear

"With whom?" he spat looking at Jason skeptically.

"With that cute little composer Kelsey" he said

I smiled at him "good for you Jason" I said genuinely

"Thanks troy" he said back just as genuinely

It made me happy to see Jason get a date. Its common knowledge that he is not the sharpest knife in the block but to know that two of his friends might find what me and Gabi have is something to be proud of.

"Yeah and you know what they say about them theater chicks" Chad said miming a blow job

"Dude" I said turning to Chad "shut the fuck up"

"Dude it's just a joke what do you care anyway?" he said shoving me into my locker. I was not about to get into a fight with Chad but lately I have had enough of his shit it's like he was constantly going on about sex or being a perv or a homophobic ass whole.

"Kelsey is a friend" I said "why do you always have to be a dick about stuff?"

"Sorry I won't say anything about your posy of dancing dorks anymore" he said storming out of the locker room after he finished dressing

"What do you think his problem is?" Jason asked

I was actually wondering that my self but I think I knew what it was and it was something I couldn't share with Jason.

"I have no idea" I said also leaving the locker room

But the truth is I did know what brought on this new Chad and that was Taylor. She was a great girl and smart but apparently after the party on Friday after the big game he got lucky and hooked up with her now they were dating like me and Gabi and he acted like some Mack daddy bad ass because he got laid. I just wonder what Taylor would think she doesn't seem like the type to discriminate against gays or even the type to react well to sexist comments either but hey I could be wrong I mean she did hook up with Chad without even knowing him that well so who knows. Made me wonder when me and Gabi were going to that that leap. I mean sure we kiss a lot we have only been together for a little over a month but we have a connection like no other. Maybe it made me sound like a pig but whatever I love her why can't I indulge in her? All I know is these dance lessons form Evans is on the right track of getting that.