Chapter 5: that don't impress me much

Enter Troy

I waited for Gabi at my locker hoping to death that she didn't know what I had done. She and Ryan had hit it off and now they were sort of friends and I knew Gabi was not a huge fan of the way Chad treated Ryan anyway so if she knew what I said I was in for it big time. But if she didn't know I was going to try my hardest to find Ryan and tell him I was sorry.

The thing was this was really eating me up inside. I mean I barely got sleep thinking about it , I didn't think I cared so much about Ryan but clearly I did if I was feeling this bad about what I had said to him. No it wasn't him I mean yeah I felt bad but it was mostly because I thought I was better then to stoop to that level. I needed to make it up to him, not just for him but for me as well.

Caught in thought Gabi came up behind me and hugged me "hello wild cat" ok that was a good sign that she didn't know about what I did.

"Hey babe" I said kissing her on the cheek as I said it.

"How were you're dance lessons?" she asked smiling at me. My smile faded and she noticed "listen I know you're not a huge fan of the dancing but I'm glad you at least made the effort" she said. Well at least she took me being upset the wrong way. "I hear Ryan is quite the slave driver". I wasn't all that thrilled that she was proud of me either because as far as I am concerned I'm pretty much a dick and she just doesn't know about it yet.

"Yeah" I said nonchalantly

"I just hope I am good enough not to have to work with sharpay I feel like she would eat me If I messed up" she said giggling

"Yeah" I said again

"Broken record much?" she said putting her arms around my waste.

"No I'm just tired I didn't get a lot of sleep last night" I said

"No doubt I bet you felt like shit" she said

"What why" I snapped at her confused as to why she thought I would feel like shit did she know?

"I mean weren't you in pain from all the dancing those moves are pretty complex" she said arching her eyebrow "are you sure everything is ok you seem a bit off"

Oh she has no idea "no I'm fine just tired"

"Ok" she said sounding completely unconvinced but not pushing the subject further. It made me thankful that my girlfriend was not the type to interrogate me about every little thing.

"Hey guys" said Kelsey walking over to us with a big grin plastered on her face. Oh great now what was she up to?

"Hey Kelsey" said Gabi going to give the small girl a hug. I just smiled and waved.

"Listen troy I needed to show you some of the male lead rewrites so do you mind of we go to the choir room before class starts?" she asked.

I looked at Gabi and she just smiled "are you goanna come?"I asked her

"Um no I said I would meet Taylor in the library before class so you go ahead" she said

"Ok see you at lunch"

"All righty" she said before walking to go meet her friend.

Kelsey didn't say anything and walked away so I just followed her towards the choir room. The room was empty as it was pretty early. Class didn't start for another half hour and for that I was thankful maybe after this I would be able to find Ryan and explain instead of waiting for free period or lunch.

"So what was it you wanted to show me?" I asked

Her palm connecting with my face was not the response I was expecting at that moment. "How dare you "she said looking angrier then I had ever scene her before. I guess I should have scene this coming seeing as how she is Ryan's best friend.

"Kelsey I…"

"No troy I thought you were different I thought you were better then that "she shirked "but you are the same as all of the jock ass holes"

"I know I want to make it up to him" I tried but she wasn't having any of it

"why would you do that why would you say that kind of thing he was trying to help you and you made fun of him in the worst kind of way I didn't want to believe you would be the kind of person to judge someone on there sexual orientation but you really surprised me after all I did for you and Gabi this is the kind of thing you go and do"

"I'm sorry I didn't mean it"

"Save it troy don't ask me for any more favors" she said angrily "and of you know what's good for you stay they hell away from me and Ryan he doesn't need you on top of everyone else treating him like crap"

I don't know what it was. weather it was the guilt I felt for Ryan or the shame I felt for my self or weather it was the fact that I had gotten chewed out twice in the last 24 hours but out of nowhere I broke down and I did something I hadn't done in almost three years and that was cry not just a tear here and a tear there I was full out crying sobbing and snoting into my hands.

"Troy?" I heard Kelsey say but I wasn't paying any attention to her "are you crying?"

I looked up at her my face stained in my own tears and she frowned I wasn't expecting her to feel bad for me I mean I didn't deserve it. As much as I wanted to feel sorry for myself I couldn't I mean everything she said was true.

"You're right" I sobbed "I'm a terrible person I never thought I could say something like that but I did because I was frustrated and pissed off that's no excuse and I feel like shit for it"

"Troy this is really eating you up isn't it?" she asked putting a hand on my shoulder

"I just want to tell him I'm sorry I want him to know that I didn't mean it" I cried

"Well you should" she said "it was mean"

"I know … I don't want him to hate me" I said

She didn't say anything for a few seconds before sitting grabbing my hand and squeezing it "let me see what I can do"

I looked up to see her smiling weakly at me. "You're you're going to help me?" I asked confused

"Well you seem like you actually are sorry and I didn't think you were capable of being to hateful so yeah I'll talk to him" she said "but I can't promise he will want to here it"

Knowing that she was going to help me was a start. a smile creped onto my face and I suddenly pulled her into a hug " thanks Kelsey you're a great friend" I said

"don't mention it" she said.

Enter Kelsey

I was a little bit surprised that troy cried I didn't think he really cared what Ryan thought and if he did he never showed it. I need to stop trying to be on everyone's side. I felt so bad standing there watching him cry after I had just yelled right in his face. So of course the only way to fix that is to make empty promises that might not and if know Ryan probably wont come true. But I couldn't help being satisfied knowing I was right and that troy was different then the rest of the guys. He felt genuinely bad for what he said anyone else on the team wouldn't have cared.

I still can't believe he cried though. I have never scene a jock cry in my life.

Finally after two long classes it was time for lunch. This whole troy problem was all I could seem to think about at the moment. How could I not I mean what was this interesting in my life? Well aside form Jason but that is just a whole different story. A story book romance actually. Like the fairy tales! Ahhhh…. What was I thinking about? … Oh yeah troy and Ryan. All I knew is that I somehow needed to convince Ryan to talk to troy. It really tore him up. Of coarse Ryan couldn't know that because it would just make him happy so maybe if I told him he was meeting me he would want to come. But then I ran the risk of Ryan hating me again. And looking at my track record so far lying to him was something I would leave to be my last resort.

I made my way to the cafeteria and found Ryan sitting with sharpay. Great sharpay I never counted on her being here which I should have seeing as how Ryan always ate with sharpay but I guess my mind was still stuck on how I was going to convince him then on who would be around when I tried.

"Hello Benedict Nielsen" sharpay hissed. Really again? I feel like for someone who never wares the same outfit twice she should work on not using the same insult more then once as well.

"Sharpay when are you going to stop calling me that?" I asked plopping down in my seat.

"Never" she said dramatically

"Shar give it a rest" Ryan said in my defense.

Thank god for Ryan "yeah I'm sorry sharpay I'll never go behind you're back again" I said

"Whatever I'm going for a yogurt" she said getting up and walking towards the food line. Perfect she's gone.

I turned and smiled at Ryan and he raised an eyebrow at me after about thirty seconds he caved "ok what?" he asked

"I talked to troy today"

"Ugh so?" he said

"So he sounded really sorry" I said

"I don't give a shit how he sounded" Ryan said "why the hell should I? I'm not his friend I don't care about him so what dose it matter to me if he is sorry"

"See I got to thinking about that and realized you seem to be a little upset that he said it" I said

"Yeah he called me a queer why wouldn't I be upset?" he asked getting more irritated by the second.

"You never seem to care when Chad or one of the other basketball jocks call you a fag or a queer, why are you so pissed about troy doing it?" I asked. His face changed after I said that, like he was caught in a lie.

"I don't know why" he said "I guess I just thought he was different" he said. And I couldn't help but role my eyes. "What?" he snapped

"Ryan you go on about how troy is an ass whole and he is just like the rest of them on a regular" I said "don't use that as an excuse"

"I know I say it but it doesn't necessarily mean I think it" he said "It's like ugh you wouldn't understand"

"Try me" I said smirking

"its like even though I say that about him I want him to I don't know prove me wrong" he said "he has the potential to be an amazing guy he's charming and talented and I would be lying if I said he was ugly and I want him to be a good guy and I know I say it a lot but its different to actually see him stoop the their level especially when you are like rooting for him to do the right thing"

Even though Ryan prided himself for being president of the I hate troy Bolton club he made a lot of cense. "Wow I guess you're kind of right" I said

"But it doesn't matter now I never want to see his face again" he said "which is kind of hard seeing as how I have never missed a rehearsal and he is the lead in the play so I guess I will see his face again but I never want to talk to him again"

"Well can you at least come meet me after school in the choir room?" I asked knowing that trying to get Ryan to talk to troy was something that was never going to happen at this point.

"What for" he asked

"Song rewrites I think some of the second act songs could use some tweaking" I said lying threw my teeth.

"Ok sure I am on the market now that I don't have to teach butt sniff Bolton to dance" he said. I stifled a giggle at Ryan's comment did he really just call troy a butt sniff?

"Don't you think darbus will be mad?" I asked

He shrugged" I don't care I'll tell her he is a lost cause"

"She won't buy that" I said rolling my eyes.

"Then I will tell her that he has rabies and that he should be taken out back and shot" he said sarcastically before flashing me a big while smile. My heart melted… man was he cute… god get over it girl he is gay stop being such a fag hag.

"Very funny Ryan" I said when what I was thinking was I would drop everything.

Enter Ryan

Today was not my day. It's like troy's calling me a queer triggered hater's everywhere to come alive. Six gay comments. On a bad week I get six and now I get six in one day? Keeping up the careless phased was tiring to say the least. I know that I am an amazing actor and will win an Oscar one day for it but I found my self questioning weather it was worth talking the high road by ignoring it. Well until I was in the privacy of my own room were I would let it all out. This was also the only think that Kelsey didn't know about me. She went on thinking that it didn't faze me one bit when in reality it hurt a lot more then I let it be known.

As I walked down the hallway towards the choir room all I was thinking of was the pint of Ben and jerry's and my bed calling my name I wonder if she will let me take a rain check. The school was almost empty of students leaving for the day which was good for me. The last thing I needed was more stares and whispers as I did something as casual as walk down the hall. They were like snakes trying to suck every bit of life from you before devouring you whole. I guess that's what life is like in the spot light… might as well take advantage.

The choir room was open when I got there but no one was in there. I guess Kelsey was running a little late. Maybe I should just leave… no that would be rude. I sat at the piano and started playing around. Most people didn't know I played but I didn't flaunt it. I was more of a dancer and I didn't really want to take that away from kels not that I could seeing as how she was way better then me but I still liked to play. I suddenly realized that I was playing the slow version of what I've been waiting for from the play. I hadn't even thought about it but just started playing it.

"Wow you're really good" said someone form behind and I knew it wasn't Kelsey because it was a guy who was talking. I turned around and my face grew extremely red as none other then troy Bolton approached the piano.

A/N

lol i know cliffhanger and it guess its like worse because i said the next few chapters were slowcoming but worry not i will havethe next one up by at least tuesday night because i will be out of town from then till saterday so i will at least give you that anywho i hope you liked this chapter even if it was somewhat of a cliff hanger but at least you all know how bad troy feels and the next chapter will be a good one i promise :D