highschool musicals story and its actors do not in any way belong to me i am just useing them in my awsome kick ass story they belong to the evil empire that is disney etc

Chapter 6: it hurts

Enter Ryan

"What the hell are you doing here?" I growled at the other boy. Troy retreated back looking at me confused as to why I was being so hostile. Even he couldn't be that stupid.

"I don't get it Kelsey said…" he started but I was to angry to here his voice.

"She sent you here" I yelled

"She said you would talk to me she said to meet you here" he said shuddering… was I really that intimidating?

"Bitch" I said looking away

"Hey she was just troy to help I wanted to say sorry" he said

"I don't want to here it troy" I said picking up my bag and heading to the door. This is the last thing I needed right now I had already heard enough form all of the other jerks and ass wholes I didn't need this of all things to ruin my day even more and as for Kelsey well I can assure you if this was her plan that she will be hearing from me.

"Wait" he said trying to grab my hand but I pulled away before his grasp got tighter.

"Don't touch me" I snapped and he pulled his hand away

"Ryan I'm sorry I didn't mean it" he said "it was stupid and you deserve better then that you're a really good person and I was a total ass"

"I stopped in my tracks at the door. Was this some sort of joke? He was sorry oh well good for him great for awesome troy that he is sorry. I barely even realized I was crying when I turned around but because I was I might as well let it all out.

"do you know what it is like being called a fag or a queer everyday because of who you are and how you chose… no not choose because its not a choice by the way I wasn't given an ultimatum on weather I wanted to like girls or boys I was just born this way" I yelled "do you know what it is like being called a fag every day"

He didn't say anything and hung his head.

"It sucks a lot, people you have known you're whole life turning on you" I said "the fear that you will forever be hated by even the most important people to you its something I have to live with every single day of my life"

"I thought you didn't care what people say" he said "that's why I always liked you" what was he trying to win Ryan points or something? Was he for real about this? "You never let people bother you with this stuff"

"Yeah but there's only so much I can take troy" I said "I'm not made of fucking stone… I hurt just like every one else I have a heart too and I have feelings" I started pacing back and forth " and when someone who is known for being a all around great person starts in on me too its like wow even one of the coolest guys in school hates me and it hurts a lot"

"I don't hate you I made a mistake I have bean beating myself up about it" he said and I could see his eyes beginning to water. That didn't help my crying eyes… its something about other people crying that makes you just want to cry more.

"It hurts to have everyone hate you to whisper about you and know that even the nice ones feel the same" I said softly now not having the strength to raise my voice. "and the only reason I put on a show is because It's the only thing that stop's me from believing what they say about me if I keep telling myself that what they say doesn't matter then I know I am better then them, all of them and even though I may not have liked you I thought you were too"

"Ryan I'm so sorry" he said grabbing my arm and softly pulling me into a hug. It was unusual but I didn't fight it I was to upset to fight it. And it was nothing like I thought it would be. It was long and close and tight like a real hug. Which was odd because not only did I not think that troy would hug another guy this way but the fact that I am gay would have me thinking that he would have pulled away the first chance he got " its ok" he said resting his head on my shoulder. I cried into his as he whispered "I'll never hurt you again". I don't know how long we hugged but he didn't once try to pull away. "I promise" he said. And that's when I knew that I was wrong. Troy Bolton was not like the others. This hug filled with so much emotion showed me that he was so far from being the kind of person I thought he was. Not only was troy not like the others he may be one of the best people I have known.

Enter Troy

I couldn't watch him cry any longer. I don't know what came over me but I had to show him I was sorry. I couldn't have him hate me… some people would say it was because I couldn't stand having someone hate me no matter who it was but that was not true. People could hate me all they want people did hate me I knew that but for some reason Ryan was different him hating me felt so much worse because I hurt him. I always thought Ryan was arrogant and ignoring the rude gestures and angry words was just part of that but seeing him now pouring his heart out changed something in me. I was the straw that broke the camels back for him and it made me feel worse. Now it was like I didn't just want to apologize I wanted to be his friend I wanted to be there for him and tell him everything would be ok and defend him form the people who wronged him.

I pulled him into a hug half expecting him to pull away and run but he didn't. Instead his face leaned into my shoulder and his arms closed around my waist. I didn't let go and neither did he, he cried into my shoulder and my hand went to the back of his head by this point any pre conceived notion of him being gay was gone completely and all I wanted to do was comfort him. "Its ok", I whispered to him "I'll never hurt you again… I promise". Tears began to also fall from my eyes as I held him close. It wasn't uncomfortable hugging Ryan not at all. I don't even know how long I stood there with him in my arms but I didn't really care all that mattered is that he was here and I was here and he knew how I felt and I knew how he felt.

After the crying stopped Ryan's head came off of my shoulder and he looked at me. I took that as an opportunity to let go of him and step back.

"I'm sorry" was all he said. I raised an eyebrow and shook my head. What the hell was he talking about?

"What do you mean you're sorry you didn't do anything I was the jerk not you" I said "you have noting to be sorry about"

"No" he said "I do… I was mean first I freaked out on you because I was jealous you got my role I was pissed because I already didn't really like you and I was frustrated because of my own problems and I was out of line" he said

"Ryan It doesn't matter what you said or how rude you were you didn't deserve what I called you because you are so much more then that"

"But I didn't give you the benefit of the doubt and I should have… you a really great person troy"

"No you're an even greater person" I said meaning every word "you're right I stole you're part and what's worse is expected you to teach me to dance too it was like a slap in the face to you"

He didn't talk and that was fine if he didn't want to speak I wasn't going to make him. I didn't want to over step my boundaries with him I still wasn't sure weather he liked me or was just caught up in the moment.

"I am really sorry still, I just want to be you're friend" I said smiling at him.

"Why would you want to be my friend?"He asked. I frowned for some reason I couldn't think of a reason why anyone wouldn't want to be his friend." Who wants to be friends with the gay kid?"

"I do" I said "and any one who has a problem is no friend of mine"

"You really are you great guy" he said

"I would like to think so" I joked. I hope he doesn't take that the wrong way the last thing I needed at the moment. I mean was there even a wrong way to take that. If there was I'm sure Ryan would find it.

"I'm sorry by the way" he said smiling now. Man it was great seeing him smile and knowing I was the one who brought it on was an even better feeling.

"What are you sorry for now" I asked

"You're shirt" he said. I looked down seeing a big stain left from Ryan's tears. "I'll buy you a new one"

"You don't have to buy me a shirt Ryan you owe me nothing" I said seriously

"I'm buying you a new shirt and that's the last we are going to speak of it troy" he said before giggling. "Plus I need to hit up the mall anyway… I left my bag and favorite fedora in the auditorium yesterday afternoon and when I went back to get them they were gone" he then said shrugging.

Standing here with Ryan I almost forgot that I had stashed his stuff in my locker for safe keeping. And knowing that it was his favorite hat was just icing on the cake knowing that I had recovered it.

"oh yeah that reminds me" I said smiling" I noticed you left the so I brought them with me today to give them back"

His face lit up and he smiled "really oh my god you have no idea how scared I was that I had lost them" he said letting out a sigh of relief.

"Yeah if you want to walk with me to my locker then I can get them for you" I said

"Sure and then we can go to the auditorium" Ryan said beginning to walk to the door.

"What for?" I asked confused

"You don't think you can get away from dance lessons that easy do you?" he said.

"You're still going to teach me?"

"Of coarse I am "he said turning around "and I'm sorry for saying you have no talent" he then said in a serious tone "you're actually pretty good"

"Not as good as you" I said shrugging

"Yeah well few are but we will work on that" he said this time chipper as ever before walking out the door.

XxXxXxX

Ryan and I spent the better part of the afternoon and almost evening in the auditorium. To say I learned better by helpful tips and encouraging gestures then I did from rude comments and dirty looks would be somewhat of an understatement and compared to yesterday Ryan was being a hell of a lot nicer.

"Ok good you have that part down to a t now what do you say we give it a break" he said sitting down on the floor of the stage and cracking open a bottle of water.

"One question" I said sitting down beside him and leaning back on my hands "where the hell was this yesterday?"

"Umm I hated you yesterday" he said matter of factly "come on troy keep up"

"You're so funny" I said shoving him playfully. Normally I wouldn't be this comfortable laughing and joking with someone who only an hour ago was yelling at me but that's how it had been since we left the choir room. Even though we had been at each others throats only mere hours ago I was completely comfortable being around Ryan and laughing and joking and that was the true test of friendship even if we weren't all that close yet "so do you really think I am mediocre?" I asked him

He scratched his head before responding " a good looking nice to every one captain of the basket ball team dating the smart girl and wants to broaden his horizons by joining the school play dose that make you mediocre" he said sarcastically " nah"

"I'm serious" I said not being able to hold in a laugh at his blunt honesty

"Don't sweat it troy you're living the high school dream just ride it"

"I mean yeah I am all of that but not everyone knows the real me threw and threw"

"Of coarse they don't" he said catching me off guard I raised and eyebrow "shall I elaborate?"

"Yeah that would be nice" I said

" obviously there are things about you that everyone including your girlfriend don't know about you" he said "its just natural that you will not know every single detail of someone's life it's the people who think they know you inside and out who know you the least"

"like my dad" I said "he had no idea that I was interested in musicals or singing he thought I only wanted to play basket ball for the rest of my life it actually put me threw a rough time not just with him but with everyone my friends and even people who aren't my friends who just look up to me for being noting more then …me"

Ryan nodded and smiled

" its like everyone one wants a piece of me and they all want me to do what they think I should do, then I find someone who I want" I said " I find something that I want for a change and I become a bad guy and it feels like crap to be the bad guy"

"You can't impress everyone troy" he said "it's not a bad thing to indulge in what we want over what other want for us actually its what makes us human"

"I know it sounds like I'm being conceded but when people expect you to thrive in everything you do you're not really aloud to be human you have to be product"

"Well I'm glad I get to finally meet troy Bolton the person" he said biting his lip.

I nodded and smiled " I know how you feel about being the villain" I said " people see what they want to see and when me and Gabi tried out for this musical all you did was try to keep something that was already yours"

"as much as I would like to be the star of every production there is always room for new talent" he said

Suddenly there was a loud ringing coming from my pocket and I almost jumped out of my skin. I pulled it out and saw it was a text from my mom saying where the hell you are. I then looked at the time on it and it said 6:45. We had been dancing for almost three hours.

"Shit "I said standing up

"What's wrong?"He asked also standing up

"It's almost seven" I said

His yes widened "I have to go" he said. I didn't want to think of why he looked so worried but I couldn't help but picture Ryan in some sort of medieval death trap while sharpay cackled at him. I shivered the thought away and turned back to him

"Do you need a ride?" I asked

"No I have my scooter" he said

"Don't you think its dangerous driving that thing at night?"

"What are you my father?" He asked raising an eyebrow

"No" I said hanging my head. I really don't understand why I cared so much I really shouldn't let it bother me "I just don't want you to get hurt"

"Awe I'll be fine but if it gets you sleep at night I will drive in with shar tomorrow and you can drive me home after rehearsal" he said

"That would be nice" I found my self anticipating it.

Me and Ryan walked to the parking lot were we both went our separate ways. Well today was something special… I just made a friend in Ryan Evans and I couldn't be happier about it.

A/N

ok so i am amazing being able to post a chapter today i dont even know where i fouynd the time to do this but i did because i love this stroy so much and even if i am not getting alot of reviews save for few(you know who you are) i am still willing to post chapters well before i meant to and i ahvealso been writing them too so yeah i hope you enjoy this sappy chapter and the begingin of a beautiful friendship but you know me i can never let anything stay perfect but for the next few chapters it will be ;)