And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
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Iris- Goo Goo Dolls.
Ashley stormed down the corridor; slamming door after door behind her. She couldn't believe how stupid he had been. Risking his job so he could get a bit of a high.
Always mocking drug addicts while he's been one all along.
Seeing Max walking out of the sergeant's office, she broke into a slight jog and grabbed his arm; spinning him around to face her "Can I help you?" He sniped, tearing his arm away from Ashley's hold.
"Yeah. I think you can. You're a hypocritical pain in my ass you know that?" Ashley retorted as she looked both ways down the corridor to make sure no one was listening to her.
Max crossed his arms over his chest "What are you talking about?" He said as calmly as possible.
"I know" She cried in a furious voice.
Max suddenly went quiet "What do you know?" He asked.
Ashley placed her hands on her hips and rolled her head back "I know about your nasty little habit you have goin' on. Now, I'm going to make you a deal…" She growled as she stepped closer to her sergeant "…Either you tell the DI, or I will" She warned.
"What if I say no? You're a DC, I'm your boss….Who's going to believe you?" Max said in an equally quiet voice.
The two of them stared each other down for what seemed like forever before Ashley smirked and took a step back "Okay. Have it your way then serge" She stated before turning on her heel and walking down the corridor.
Max let his eyes fall shut for a moment before making his way down to find Mickey.
He stormed through CID trying to find the sandy haired man; as soon as his eyes fell on him. Max, not being able to control himself, picked him up by the scruff of his shirt and pushed him into the wall. Mickey protested and tried to push the other man off her "What did you tell her?" Max yelled as Mickey's eyes widened.
Max didn't know why Ashley's opinion of him mattered so much right now, he had never cared about them before. But when he saw the hurt in her eyes, when he saw the betrayal there, he felt something that he wish he never felt.
"What are you talking about?" Mickey protested as he once again tried to get Max off him. He was a bit pissed that there was no one else in the office except themselves, so there was no one to help him.
"What did you tell Ashley?" Max repeated as he pushed Mickey further against the wall.
Mickey shook his head "I told her nothing. She figured it out for herself" He argued.
Max shook his head "Not even Ashley's that smart. You must have told her" He concluded, not hearing the doors of CID open.
In a split second, Max felt a hand grip his shoulder and pull him away from Mickey "What the hell is wrong with you?" Ashley growled as Max looked between her and Mickey, a small smile gracing his face.
"Oh, right. I see what's goin' on here" He took a step back and placed his hands on his hips "You know the DI doesn't like office relationships. Although, since he's in one with Grace I suppose he wouldn't really bring yours up" He rambled.
Ashley shook her head "Don't play your damn games Max. You're the one who's in the wrong right now; you're the one with the nasty little habit. So stop being a child and thinking everyone else has the damn problem" She raged as she turned on her heel and walked away.
Max shook his head and bit the inside of his cheek before turning around and following Ashley "Oi, I'm not finished with you" Max called out after her as Max followed her down the stairs.
"Well I'm finished with you" Ashley retorted as she pulled open the glass doors.
Max grabbed her arm and spun her around to face him; Ashley ripped her arm out of his grasp and resisted the urge to hit him "I've had your back through everything yeah; the unspoken rule for partners. Always have their back no matter what. And even though you insult me, even though I can't stand working with you because you're this unemotional pain in my ass; I still stick up for you. And this is how you repay me?" She shouted; brushing off the looks she was getting from the desk officer.
"Look" Max noticed that he was getting a few stares from uniformed officers and walked over to the small interview room; he looked through the glass window before opening the door "In here" He ordered.
Ashley looked hesitant for a moment before gingerly walking into the room; Max closing the door after them.
"You don't know what you're talking about" Max started as he sat down on the edge of the table "You don't know what it's like..." He was cut off by Ashley holding up her hand.
"You tell me that I don't know what it's like to have an addiction so help me I will smack you in the mouth" She said as she crossed her arms over her chest "I'm not going to pretend that I know; but what I do know is that I know what happens at the end of it. You'll end up dead; don't believe me, just look at.." Even after all this time she still couldn't bring herself to say his name. Max looked down in knowing and sighed, running a hand over his face.
"Ashley; we are partners. We have been since you first came here. I'm sorry; if this has hurt you. But this, what I'm doing, it's none of your business" He said, watching as Ashley turned his head away from him in disgust.
"You know what; I thought..." She knew what she was going to say; I thought I had feelings for you, but she couldn't bring herself to say it "...I thought you of all people were better then that" She moved towards the door and pulled it open, walking out and walking out of the station; allowing the cool breeze to fall over her face. She was getting flustered, she couldn't deny that it was for her sergeant; she had feelings for her much older, cocaine taking, unemotional, sergeant.
She thought back to Harvey; immediently feeling guilty for having those feelings when her boyfriend was waiting at home for her.
She closed her eyes tightly and walked back inside; she noticed that Max was no longer in the room and assumed that he was back up at CID. Ashley walked past PC Ryder at the door and walked towards the courtyard; making her way to her car so she could go home back to her boyfriend for the night and, hopefully, forget about the days events and the conclusions it had come too.