highschool musicals story and its actors do not in any way belong to me i am just useing them in my awsome kick ass story they belong to the evil empire that is disney etc.

Chapter 13: perfect

Enter Ryan

I woke up and was surprised that the night I had with troy wasn't a dream. My arm was still wrapped around his waste and my head still on his amazingly chiseled torso. I looked up to see him sleeping peacefully. This was almost too good to be real. How did this even happen? How did I end up getting everything I have ever wanted? Was this real? I mean last night I was not thinking clearly obviously the only thing I had my mind on was troy and as soon as he woke up it would be the only thing I would be thinking about yet again. Now was a good time to sort out what had happened the night before because at this point it all seemed like a blur like I was on some sort of perma high off of troy's words of love and his delicious kisses.

Ok so last night after the show troy had come to find me alone in the auditorium only to confess his love for me followed by myself and him coming back to my room and well… yeah. I felt blush fill my cheeks thinking about what me hand troy had done. No words can describe how that felt for me. I have never been held the way he held me I have never been spoken such beautiful words and if he had wanted I would have let me take him right there. But is that right? I mean sure I have dreamed of having troy but to give it up at the first opportunity might not have been wise.

Was I some sort of idiot? Sure he kissed me and told me he loved me but that could all just be an experiment did he mean it dose he really love me? I don't even know myself because I was to caught up in it all. And if he didn't really love me then I don't know what I would do. Because what we did last night I don't know if I would be capable of never having that again. And if he did love me then what? Was he ready for that would or would he regret it. Because from what I have gained being troy's friend for the last month an a half is that he is a virgin and has never done anything sexual with anyone and if he wasn't ready then it would break my heart that I took that from him before he knew he wanted it for sure.

This brings me to another point. Something that even troy noticed was that I had yet to tell him about myself. no that was an understatement aside form the little common things I was a complete stranger to him and now that we might be well… what ever we are I don't even know if this means we are dating like did he break up with Gabi for good? Well whatever we are the point is I would have to tell him things that he might not want to hear such as the fact that I am not only not a virgin I would go as far as to say I have mastered the art of sex. I know that makes me sound like somewhat of a slut but I what's done is done and had I known that one day I would be with troy Bolton I may have held off swiping my v card and now that I am with troy I can say I regret ever taking advantage of sex.

As much as I would have loved lying next to troy in naked bliss I needed to get some cloths on. Me and troy needed to talk and doing so while both stark naked would be somewhat awkward.

I got up and made my way to my walk in and pulled on a pair of pajama pants and a t shirt which took a lot longer then it sounds… I have a lot of t shirts. I went back out into my room to see troy's ass disappear behind his boxer briefs. My heart began to pound in my chest as I watched his body. It was one thing to see it while motionless but to see it while it was moving as all of his muscles shifted and rippled was something that should be worshiped. Troy turned around to see me walking towards my bed and smiled. That smile reconfirmed a lot of my second thoughts in favor of him being truly in love with me.

"Hey" he said turning and walking the rest of his cloths completely forgotten. "I was wondering where you went off to" he placed a kiss on my cheek and I moved to place one on his lips. I could never get enough of that ever. "Frisky?"

I bit my lip and sat back down on my bed. "Speaking of that…. We need to talk"

"Do we?" he asked "I was kind of hoping we could make out"

"I'm serious troy" I said. The loving smile wiped from his face and was replaced by one of almost fear.

"What's up?" he asked

"Last night" I didn't say anything after that but he seemed to know what I was thinking about.

"What about it?" he said worried "did... Did you not like it or…"

"No troy it's not like that at all I loved every second of it" I said putting my hand on his to stop him from speaking further. He sat next to me on the bed and gave me a weak smile. Note to self: never let him look at you like that again it almost made me cry.

"Then what?" he said moving his other had to rest on my neck.

"It's just… how do I say this?" I wasn't sure how troy was going to take this news but I knew the best way was to just tell him. "I'm not a virgin troy" I said

He didn't say anything but I could see in his eyes that he was somewhat upset about hearing this and I couldn't blame him. sex was something that should be shared with someone you loved and a first time is something that is more special then almost anything and if we were truly as in love as we felt right now then that was something I would never be able to give him and it almost felt wrong knowing that I would one day take his.

"I love you Ryan" he said catching me off guard "and as much as the idea of us being each others first is great how can I blame you for taking that leap? I mean I didn't even know that I had real feelings for you till a few days ago how could I expect you to not be a virgin and how could I be mad that you aren't?"

I was surprised he was being so open minded I mean I wasn't expecting him to rage and break a door or something but I would have thought he would be a little bit more well… hurt. "Really?" was all I could ask.

"Of course so no worries ry it's all good I love you all the same" that made my heart melt but that was not exactly my point in starting this conversation.

"I'm not quite done though" I said and he looked at me with a look of nervous anticipation. "I may not be a virgin but… I know you are and last night as much as I may have enjoyed it I don't know how you feel… I wanted to know if maybe we may have moved to fast"

He let out a small scoff and I frowned " to fast?" he said " no Ryan never to fast I love you and it feels so good saying it I have told my parents that I loved them and even Gabi but it has never felt the same as saying it to you it just goes to show me that this is so right to me because when I say I love you I feel something there that was missing when ever I said it to anyone else and that feeling even if I have only realized it for a few days is enough to know that you are the one"

No more beautiful words had ever been spoken to me before. I launched myself at him and collided lips with him in a kiss only the one he loves could give. "I love you too"

Troy pulled away and looked me in the eyes. "You're beautiful"

"Speak for you're self" I said

"I can't believe I never noticed it till now" he said "I'm sorry"

"Don't we have now" I said "and that's more then I could ever ask for"

He kissed me and then kissed me again holding my face with one hand and the back of my head with the other.

"I have to go" he said into my lips and I pulled away to look at him. I didn't want this to end I wanted him here with me forever in my room to kiss and hold all the time.

"Why" I asked

"I have to do some stuff" he said almost gravely

"What kind of stuff?"

"I have to talk to my parents" he said with conviction

My eyes widened he wasn't talking about what I think he was talking about? I wasn't sure weather coming out would be the best idea. I mean sure I have been out to my school for a while now but I never told my parents not that they have been around to ever know but that's not the point. the point is I know what people are like and it is no secret that the people troy calls friends or at least used to aren't as open minded as some and only realizing that he was gay recently one would think it was a better idea to maybe get used to the idea of being gay before throwing you're self out there.

I for example had thought long and hard for years and years before I felt the time was right. Fear is a deadlier foe then even the most dangerous of things and in order to come out to anyone I had to mentally prepare myself to possibly lose everything in my life that is important and that is a hard mountain to concur. And that was just me troy on the other hand has a lot more to lose then I do and that's why I think coming out may be a bad idea.

"What's wrong you don't look very happy about it" he said

"Yeah that's because I'm kind of not" I said

He looked at me confused "I thought you would like the idea"

"Its not that I don't like the idea troy it's just that maybe you should think about this before you go and make this decision"

"I love you ry and I want people to know don't you?" he asked getting a little annoyed

"Yes I would love that but I just don't think you are quite ready to come out"

"Shouldn't I determine that?"

" speaking as someone who is actually out of the closet troy I would say you should think about it a little bit more carefully then you are" I said

"Exactly you are already out so it would just be so much easier" he said. By this point I was the one getting annoyed. The way he talked about coming out was as if it were nothing to sweat about he didn't understand how much his life would be changing if he made this decision and that made me realize how right I really was.

"Troy" I said putting my hand up to cup his cheek " one week give it one week of thought troy and then if you still feel like coming out then I will support you but right now I feel like you're jumping the gun a little bit"

He thought about it for a little over a minute before throwing his arm over me "you seem to know what you are talking about so I guess we can hold it off for a little while" he said "but not to long I don't want to live a secret"

I understood all to well what he meant but that's not reason enough to come out he needs to be ready for things to change and at the moment he was in way over his head.

"I still have to go though… I haven't scene my parents since before the show they probably want to tell me how amazing I did and don't worry mums the word"

"Keah" I said as he leaned in to kiss me on the cheek.

"I'll see you later I love you" he said as he got up to pull on the rest of his clothes.

"I love you to" and with that troy was gone and I was left with only my thoughts. A mind that was once filled with surprise and complete love was now filled with fear and worry for what would inevitably come next week. I could understand troy's desire to come out and be with me its something I would want as well but he doesn't understand the things that will change if he dose come out there is so much especially for him that he could lose from this and its not that I don't think he should ever come out I just think that it would be best to first understand what it is he is getting into being gay is not an easy life to live and I want him to realize that before he dives in or else it will only be worse.

There was a knock at the door and I froze whoever it was must have scene troy come out of my room and that doesn't look good no matter what way you look at it. I got up and approached the door cracking it only a little bit.

"Morning" said a hung over looking Kelsey from the other side "I stayed in one of you're guest rooms"

I opened the door all the way and let her inside before closing it again and making my way to my bed where she was already waiting for me.

"We need to talk" she said

"About what?" I said nonchalantly

"Oh please ran" she said rolling her eyes and giving me that look.

"I have no idea what you are talking about" I continued not letting anything up.

" ok then I will talk" she said smirking " last night you told me that you told troy that you loved him and you were so upset that you decided not to come home to the party later troy ditches Gabi right before they are about to have sex for the first time and comes to me asking where you are and rushes from the house like a bat out of hell to find you and this morning I find the boy leaving you're bedroom with the most shit eating grin plastered on his pretty little face"

I didn't respond but my facial expression was one that spelled out caught all over it and I hung my head blushing.

"If you ask me that all sort of points to one thing wouldn't you agree?"

"Yeah that troy doesn't care if I love him and he still wants to be friends?" I tried

"RYAN" she said

"Fine fine ok so yeah you caught me … us is that all you wanted?" I asked and she frowned

"You better not think I would ever use this against you Ryan" she said angrily "I came up here first to confirm my suspicions and second to fill you in on what's going on"

"What do you mean what's going on?" I asked confused

"Well I don't know if you forgot what I said but troy sort of hung Gabi out to dry last night and that sort of thing brings up questions"

Shit I hadn't even thought about what was going to happen with him and Gabi I mean I knew he walked out on her but I didn't think of what was going to happen afterwards I was to caught up in me and troy nothing else really mattered reality decided to crash down around me as soon as he left.

"Gabi came down about an hour after troy disappeared to find you and well she was pretending everything was ok but we aren't that stupid"

"Damn well what do you think is going to happen?" I asked

Enter troy

Everything was looking up at the moment I had finally realized who I was in a way. I mean sure I had already known who I was but for the past couple of years I had been in a rut. Its like even though nothing seemed wrong there was that feeling in the pit of my stomach that felt unsettled and now it was like that feeling was gone because of Ryan because not only had I realized my true feelings I had found the person that was right for me.

I wish he could see how great it would be if we just came out to the world but he seems to know what he is talking about so I will leave it for now. And aside from that life was perfect there was not a single thing that could ruin my mood.

Suddenly my phone began to vibrate in my pocket and I retrieved it and all of the sudden I had a horrible taste in my mouth.

"H…hi Gabi" I said after I picked it up

"Troy we need to talk" she said "meet me in the park" and she hung up without another word…. I think I spoke to soon.

A/N

so here is another chapter for... yalll anywho bad news i ahve hit a rut in my writing prosses. i am in the middle of writing chapter 17 and am at a loss for wghat to do there was some stuff that i wanted to write but i wanted it to come later not as soon as i think i am going to do it so if i can like figure it out then it will but it may cut this story down to a few less chapters then i thought i would have so if anyone has any sugestions as to what i should do that would be nice but aside form that.

i know you hate me for making troy talk to gabi but it has to be done please review =D