Chapter 14: suspicions

Enter Gabi

I still wasn't sure what had happened the night before but I had a pretty good idea. After he just disappeared I heard that he had come back later with Ryan others said they didn't see him after he left but one thing I knew for sure was that I needed the truth. And if he didn't want to tell me the truth then I would tell him what I thought it was and let his eyes do the talking for him. And what I thought was going on was something I didn't believe possible until what happened last night.

Troy was gay… I tried to figure out something that would make more sense then that but there was nothing I could come up with. There is so much evidence backing me up on this. Firstly all the time he had been spending with Ryan. Second the fact that he cried his name when we were about to make love and third that he walked out on me and asked my friends if they had scene him.

Part of me wanted to believe that he forgot something and had to deal with it or something of that nature but it was just to… right , it all fitted together so well it could barely be anything other then what was inevitable.

So now I was sitting on a park bench twittleing my thumbs waiting on the edge of my seat for troy to get here and as soon as he did I could finally put my hart at rest weather for the best or for the worst in which case at least he will be happy.

Enter troy

How was I going to do this? How I was goanna see her and tell her I didn't want to be with her anymore without a reason. Ryan wants me to lay off coming out for a week to think about it and Gabi wants to know what's going on about last night and all of the crap that went down. The easy route would be to just tell her I am gay but then I would be going against Ryan's wishes. So then what? What am I supposed to tell her? I can't lie to her but I can't tell her the truth at the expense of losing Ryan's trust. And what if I did and it didn't end well? Would she tell everyone? I mean I wouldn't care all that much but I think Ryan would.

I walked down the lonely path looking for a bench that was occupied with my head swimming with what I was going to say to her. I was so preoccupied that I almost walked right past her.

"Troy" she said from my side and I stopped dead and turn to look at her.

"Hi" I said frowning she patted the place next to her on the bench and I sat beside her with my head down.

"Troy what happened?" was all she asked "why did you just walk out on me last night"

Oh great she was cutting right to the chase no small talk no friendly banter she was going straight for the kill and unfortunately I didn't really have an answer for it so I didn't say anything at all.

"Were you not ready?" she asked "because I could have waited"

"No that's not it" I said "its not that I wasn't ready"

"Then what?" she asked "I think I deserve some what of an explanation as to why I was left half naked in a guest bedroom"

"I could have sex with you" I said

"Why?" she asked

"Because I don't have feelings for you like that" I said in barely a whisper. I just wanted all of this to go away I wanted to be with Ryan and see his smile as we kissed and I wanted to hold him I didn't want to be sitting on this cold park bench breaking Gabi's heart.

I could tell that what I had said made an impact on her. "Ryan…" she said emotionless "why did you say Ryan?"

My eyes widened when did I say Ryan I don't remember saying Ryan "I didn't" I said

"Last night troy we were this close to doing it and you cried Ryan" she said "why did you say it?"

I had totally forgotten about that part. That's what triggered my realizing Ryan was the one and I had forgotten I had said it. I didn't say anything because I felt as if I was caught.

"Troy are… are you gay?" she asked and I continued to stay silent. I didn't even have to tell her the truth because she already knew. "Oh my god… I can't… just oh my god" she said as her voice rose "how?"

"How what?" I asked

"How are you gay?" she said "i know you troy you aren't gay"

That felt like a knife plunging into my stomach. If I wasn't gay that how could I be so in love with another guy? Was I gay I still wasn't even sure if I was? I mean just because I no longer got that feeling from her didn't mean I didn't like girls all together. Could I be bi maybe? I don't even know if that is right because I there is no way I look at other guys like that but at this point its probably the most personable explanation." I … I don't know if I am" I said

"Well you either are or you aren't" she said

"Or there is a middle ground" I snapped "I can like Ryan and still like girls"

"So you do like Ryan?" she said sounding defeated "and when you said his name it was because… because you wished it was him" I saw a tear fall down her cheek and I frowned I didn't like hurting her it wasn't fair. I knew she liked me and I still liked her but not the way I love Ryan.

"Gabi I'm sorry" I tried but she held up her hand troy.

"No troy I don't want to hear it" she closed her eyes and forced back tears "I… why? I don't get it was it me? Did I do something wrong?"

I heart ached for her "no Gabi it wasn't you I just realized lying there that I didn't have those feelings for you not they way I feel for... For"

"For Ryan?" she said for me "oh my god" she said crying into her hands "I just can't believe this"

"I'm sorry I hope we can be friends" I said trying my best to make this end on a good note.

"I can't be you're friend troy I still don't even know what's going on are you gay are you with Ryan did you leave me to find him what? It seems you either avoid answering my questions by saying sorry or you just leave me with more questions"

"I don't know what to say" I said in my defense "I don't want you to hate me"

"That's a little too late considering what you did to me" she said shaking her head

"I could have said nothing at all I could have been a jerk and thrown you under the bus never even trying to apologies but I told you Gabi"

"Yeah out of nowhere" she spat "I believed that we were happy that you were happy and not even a few hours later you drop me? I have every right to be pissed I have every right to hate you"

This was the last thing I wanted at this point I guess it was wishful thinking hoping everything would be right as rain once we had this talk but clearly she was having nothing of it. I can't expect her to understand I broke her heart and left her with nothing but questions as to why and even now I was still giving her no answers. "Will … you will you say anything?"

"No" she said " I wont say anything troy I would never" her head was still down but I knew she was being genuine.

" if you hate me I understand… but please don't hate Ryan this isn't his fault and I don't want you thinking that he was behind this because until yesterday he was as clueless as you so please don't give him trouble"

"I can't promise that I am going to be nice to him troy I mean whatever way you look at it he stole my boyfriend so… "She said crossing her arms "but I won't give him trouble he gets enough of that already he doesn't need someone else to put him down"

"Thank you" I said smiling weakly

"Can you do me one favor though?" she asked

"Sure anything" I said

"When we say that we broke up it was me who dumped you" she said "the last thing I need right now is Chad making some comment at me about how I got dumped"

"Ok" I said nodding "and for the record I wouldn't let him"

She rolled her eyes "as if that would ever stop him"

"I don't even know what's happened to him lately" I said "he has become a completely different person"

"Yeah it seems a lot of people are changing these days" she said sourly and I grimaced. I was hoping that maybe she was coming around but that would be unfair to assume at this point. It was true I had changed and it was for the better in my heart I just hope Gabi will one day see how much Ryan means to me.

"For what its worth I wish things could have ended differently" I said grabbing a hold of her hand "and maybe one day we could be friends"

"With time" she said not looking at me but instead gazing away at the park "thank you for the talk" Gabi got up out of her seat and left the park without another word. I sat there for a few minutes after she left thinking about how I could have better handled things.

The only thing I could hope for was that she would keep quiet about things. I don't think she would tell but who knows what someone would do in her situation? All I knew is that Ryan may have been right because the idea of Gabi telling the whole school about Ryan and I and the things people like Chad would have to say left a sick feeling in my stomach.

Enter sharpay

Another successful show and another successful Evans after party. Last night had gone better then I had expected even though I was not the star of the show. Of course that was due to a few rumors that were flying around. The first was that troy left Gabi in one of the guest rooms right before they were about to have sex for the first time and that just filled me with glee.

Why would he leave her unless he didn't love her? He didn't love her because he loved someone else. A beautiful blond perhaps? I mean isn't it obvious that it's me he is after? Clearly he realized that playing hard to get wasn't my style and he was now if fate is on my side broken up with Gabi and probably figuring out how to win me over.

But it was the second rumor that left me a little unsettled and was preventing me from being as existed as I should be. Troy may have left but I heard threw the grape vine that he left to find Ryan. Why in the world would he be looking for my brother and what was so important that he walked out on his girl friend to do it. All I know is that I was going to have a little one on one with my brother when he woke up.

Speak of angles and here the wings flap I thought as Ryan entered the kitchen and made a bee line to the pantry to grab a box of cereal. Once the grabbed the milk from the fridge he sat at the counter and began preparing his breakfast. All the while I sat there studying his mood. Yesterday he was completely distraught and today he was as bubbly as he usually is. something was up and it had something to do with troy.

"What" he asked looking over at me with his eyebrow arched

"Where were you last night Ryan?" I asked

"I stayed at the auditorium" he said "I wasn't up for partying"

"Odd" was all I said and his eyebrow rose further. "Oh … nothing it's just yesterday you were in such a state over something yet today you seem chipper as ever it's just a little curious if you know what I mean"

"No I don't shar" he said "I think you would be the only one to notice something like that"

"Because I'm attentive and a terrific observer?" I asked

"Because you are borderline crazy" he said "it seems like you are trying to make me crack open sorting that is empty like you are looking for a confession to doing nothing"

"Tell me then why troy left last night looking for you?"

"Like I said I was at the auditorium so I don't know what happened here "

"So you weren't together last night?" I accused

"No we did hang out but we always hang out what's so strange about that?"

" well it just seems odd that he was about to have sex with Gabriella and then just up and left to find you" I said and that's when I saw it, it was the crack I was waiting for obviously something about that statement made him uncomfortable because I saw his lip quiver just slightly. I knew my brother well and I knew when his lip quivered while talking to me that he was either lying or uncomfortable with the topic. I prided my self for noticing because as quickly as he did it he composed himself and shielded his gestures once more. Now I know that there is something up.

"He did say something about that" he said

"What did he say?" I almost demanded

"Sorry shar bro code it's confidential"

I almost began to laugh "please Ryan you're gay you aren't a bro"

"It's still something I shouldn't talk about "he said "its kind of personal"

"I see well it was great having this chat" I said getting up and leaving the kitchen. I smirked as soon as I was out of sight. Me and Ryan would play this game often when we were hiding something from the other and we had both become great at it but I know as well as he dose that Ryan has a much harder time hiding his feelings then I do and today was a great challenge but I gained what I needed Ryan was hiding something and I was going to find out what it was.

Enter (Taylor)

Taylor walked nervously into the drug store wearing a pair of large sunglasses and a hat she couldn't risk being scene what would people think if they saw what she was doing? Most of the parents of her friends saw her as a role modal and someone to look up to smart with a promising future but when you strive to be perfect you can't make mistakes and well let's just say today she was going to find out weather she made the biggest one of all.

Her mind drifted to Chad as she walked threw the store towards the correct isle. What would he think? What would he say? This was his fault but he was quite immature. I tried to look past that he was a great boyfriend he was romantic and sweet but that all seemed to change when he wasn't around me but what would he say when he found out about this?

She finally found the isle she was looking for and picked up one of the small boxes. She looked down the isle both ways and then put it in her purse. There was no chance she would be paying for something like this the looks the judging eyes and unapproving gestures she would rather steal this then get judged for getting pregnant.

She made her way to the end of the isle and picked up a tabloid magazine near the check out and a pack of gum and paid as to not look suspicious and left the store.

A/N: ohh drama i think i remember saying that other people would be come a bigger part of this stroy and that is the begining of a much larger story line for this fic and i hate to say it but the next chapter is no0t about troy and ryan i want to thank all of the people who have been reviewing this story... ok who am i kidding the two people who ahve been reviewing this stroy :S but still thank you for you're feedback without it i wouldent continue to writer this stroy so thanks and please keep reviewing :D