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The next morning I woke up with a whole new attitude. For once I wasn't grumpy waking up or dreading the day. I was looking forward to spending the day with Rose and then talking to Edward. Last night we never got the chance to talk again and I still wasn't sure what last night meant. One thing was for certain though; I had fallen for Edward, and hard. I still felt guilty about not telling him the truth though and hoped that today I could talk to him.
After deciding on a pair of blue skinny jeans and my Aeropostale sweater and tan Uggs I headed downstairs for a quick breakfast. It had been a long time since I had really cooked but I wanted a good breakfast so I took out all the necessary things and made myself some eggs, bacon and toast. When I was done I grabbed my car keys and headed to Rose's house.
When I pulled into her driveway I parked and reached into my bag to grab my phone that had been ringing the whole time. As soon as I flipped it open I noticed I had a text message from Edward. My heart started to beat faster and a huge smile appeared on my face. Even seeing a text message from him made me feel different. I had it bad.
I chuckled as I got out of the car and headed inside the house.
"Rosie!" I called out as I made my way up the stairs. "Get your lazy behind up!" I sang as I turned the knob to her door. As soon as I peeked in I saw the most disgusting thing ever. Rose lay in her bed on top of Emmett butt naked. I quickly closed my eyes and closed the door.
"Ilk OMG, I'm so sorry I didn't know!" I squealed and ran down the stairs.
As I sat downstairs I tried hard to erase from my memory what I had just seen. I opened my phone and read Edward's message to distract me from the pictures in my head.
Good morning gorgeous, sorry we didn't get to talk last night. How about I pick you up tonight for dinner?-E
I smiled as I read the message and quickly replied back.
Good morning to you too, dinner will be lovely. –B
As I closed the phone Emmett walked into the kitchen fully dressed.
"Sorry Bells, you should have knocked first." Em grinning giving me a quick hug and then headed to his favorite place, the refrigerator.
"Well I didn't think I had to since we are at Rosie's house. Where's Mr. Hale?" I asked knowing that Rosie's father would not have let her have Emmett over for the night.
"He's out of town this weekend. So I spent the night here with Rose." Emmett shrugged as he sat down next to me with a huge bowl of Fruity Pebbles.
"Oh okay. I've learned my lesson. Knock on every close door." I laughed and hit him on the shoulder.
"Good, one lesson down many more to go Bellie" Emmett teased and again I slapped him on his shoulder.
"What did you do baby?" Rose asked when she walked into the kitchen.
"Nothing Rosie babe. Bella here just learned to knock on close doors" Emmett smirked and kissed Rose on the cheek.
"Yeah sorry about that Bells. I didn't think you were going to be up early." she smiled at me and winked.
"Well I am so how about we get this day started." I got up and kissed Emmett on the cheeks before pulling Rose out the kitchen.
"Bye Baby be right back." she went over and kissed him on the lips quickly.
When we got out the house my phone alerted me that I had a text message so I quickly opened it up.
Good. Pick you up at 8. Until then I'll miss those soft lips of yours. J -E
I smiled and lowered my head to hide the blush that I knew was creeping on my cheeks. Damn that boy!
Ok I'll be ready. Is that all you miss? J -B
"Jeez someone is in loveeeeeeeeeeee!" Rose squealed looking at me with a huge smile plastered on her face.
"Ugh, No one is in love Rose. Shut up." I rolled my eyes and got in the car.
Again my phone beeped but this time Rose got to it before me.
"Rose give me now!" I shouted and tried to reach for my phone.
"Aww. Yeah you both are definitely in loveeee." she chuckled and passed me the phone. I rolled my eyes and read the message.
No, I love the pink on your cheeks when you blush and the way your eyes light up when you smile. J -E
At that my cheeks got hotter. I smiled sheepishly and put my phone in my bag. I had to focus on Rosie today and I wasn't going to do that thinking about Edward and his words.
***
Three hours and 10 bags later Rose and I were sitting at Starbucks when the subject about Edward and I arose for the umpteenth time.
"So Bella, what is going on with you and Edward?" Rose asked while sipping on her hot chocolate.
"Rose I'm not sure. He makes me feel different and alive. You know I've never let my guard down with anyone but with him it's like every time I'm with him the walls I built come tumbling down. I like spending time with him and like the way he makes me feel." I smiled and ran my hand through my hair.
"Wow we've tried so hard to do that and Edward does it within weeks. You must really like him a lot and I'm glad you are opening yourself up to someone. Bella you have to stop being so bitter and just learn to love again. You can't let one bad experience ruin your take on things sweetie. You deserve to be happy." Rose said as she placed her hand in mine.
I nodded "I know and with Edward I've come to realize that. For once I want to be that old Bella I was, not this bitter and evil one I've become. I want to be better Rose and Edward is the reason for that. He's helped me realize a lot of things." I whispered and smiled up at her.
"I understand sweetie. I'm so happy for you." she smiled at me.
I needed to talk to someone about what I was going to do and my best friend was the perfect person. "Rose I need to tell you something. I'm afraid that when this comes out Edward won't want me anymore." I looked down at my cup.
"Why Bells what is it?" she asked and put her cup back down.
"Well Edward is my English tutor. I know, before you say what I know you are, I want to tell you everything first." I warned and looked over at her. She nodded so I proceeded to tell her what I had been holding in for a long time
"The night at the party when you were friendly with Alice I was really pissed off as you know. Well I sort of said some things to her and Edward blew up at me. I was so fed up with everyone defending her and coming to her rescue that I promised to make her life a living hell. Well I sort of apologized to Edward and asked him to be my tutor so that I could get him away from Alice. That's also the night I told Jasper that I loved him just so that I could later hurt him. The whole thing was about getting revenge but…." I explained and looked down to tell her what had changed but she interrupted me.
"So you were only using Edward?" Rose asked in shock.
"Yeah but…." was all I managed to say before I was interrupted.
"WHAT! How could you?" I heard from behind me and turned to see Alice staring at me with furiously. When I moved to see who was behind her my heart dropped. Edward was there staring at me with a look of pure disgust.
"Edward I..." I started but before I could say anything else Edward turned and walked away. When I took a step to follow, Alice stepped in my way.
"Don't' you dare! You've done enough damage. You know I thought you were different but your not you are a conniving evil bitch. Don't come near me or Edward anymore because if you do I will show you how much of a fucking Swan I am." Alice yelled and then turned to walk away.
"No please you don't know anything! I need to explain myself to him, he needs to know…" I whispered and sighed when Alice turned back around.
"Please what? What the hell can you say to make up for that! You know he told me everything and I was happy for you two but I see now how wrong I was. You will never change! You only think about yourself Bella and I'm tired of believing you're better then that because I just realized your not! You're evil and I'm glad you don't consider me your sister because I don't want to be related to such an evil bitch! Don't come near us Bella because I swear you will see the real Alice." she turned and stormed out of the coffee shop.
I stood there in shock as I let everything that happened process in my head. It was not suppose to be like this. I was supposed to have the chance to explain myself to him. He wasn't supposed to find out this way. I needed to explain to him that I was wrong.
"Bella sweetie, come on lets get you home." I heard Rose say before everything around me started to spin.
"I didn't mean it. I didn't…" I sobbed and fell into Rose's arms.
"Sshhh I know sweetie. I know." she whispered into my hair as she rubbed my back and held me.
"What did I do?!" I sobbed onto her shoulder.
His eyes were so dark and full of hate. And I would have never thought Alice had it in her. I literally flinched at her words and knew she meant them all. She was also right. I was a horrible person and I deserved what was happening. Yesterday everything was perfect and now I had lost the person that made it so perfect. This hurt and it hurt a lot.
"Come on lets get you home" Rose whispered and helped me get up.
As soon as I was in my bed I curled up into a ball and cried. I had hurt the one person that had given me a chance. The one that I had finally let see the real me and had come to really feel something for. How could I be so evil? I thought and started to cry harder realizing that because of my stupidity I had hurt him. Because of my stupid bitterness and want for revenge. Because I didn't like sharing my father and held a grudge against someone that didn't do anything purposefully to me. I had done this to myself. I didn't deserve to be happy because of how I acted. I didn't deserve anyone to care about me or love me. I was unlovable.
That was it and if I hadn't been so wrapped up in being with Edward then I would have never gone through this. I should have never let anyone in because all that left me with was the same hurt I had the day my father left. My heart was broken again. Unlike before I still had a chance to close up again and that was exactly what I was going to do. I was going to lose myself completely because that Bella didn't have any emotions. That Bella didn't have the capability of being hurt. I wouldn't worry about Alice or the hate I had for her but I will make sure to not care about anybody. I was done with messing with her but I wasn't done being Bella Swan.