highschool musicals story and its actors do not in any way belong to me i am just useing them in my awsome kick ass story they belong to the evil empire that is disney etc.

Chapter 15: feeling small

Enter Kelsey

I called again and again but Jason never picked up. I didn't know what it was I did but for some reason since that day at the mall he had completely avoided me he didn't answer any of my calls texts or face book messages and he didn't even come to the show which kind of hurt a little. I thought we were becoming close but clearly he had something different in mind maybe I wasn't the girl he thought I was.

Today I had scene him in the hall way and waved to him and he just walked away like he didn't even know me. Maybe I should approach him or something because the way things were going I was really starting to feel hurt. Jason was the only guy I have ever liked aside from Ryan and I don't understand what I could have done wrong.

Even though I had my own problems my thoughts kept drifting to what Ryan had told me a few days ago about him and troy. It was almost too good to believe. I knew that Ryan liked troy a lot at least in the last few months he did and for troy to feel the same was like something out of a fairy tale.

I was so happy for Ryan for actually finding someone who loves him and who better then a great guy like troy. But I couldn't fight the feeling that this could cause problems later on. I mean troy is friends with some of the nastiest guys in school who treat Ryan like shit everyday what would they all do if they found out troy was gay and dating Ryan?

One thing that surprised me was that Gabi was taking them breaking up better then anyone thought but that didn't stop everyone staring at her like she was crazy. The story was that she dumped troy no one knew why but people wondered. What most everyone was thinking was why would she dump troy Bolton golden boy? A lot of the basketball player's jumped on the troy dumped her bandwagon but they were hushed when troy confirmed that she did infract dump him.

I tried calling Jason one more time. It rang twice before some one picked up.

"Hello" he said

"Jason?" I asked

"Who else would it be?" he asked

"Oh… hi" I said "it's Kelsey"

"Hi" he said

Neither of us said anything for a few seconds and I could hear him breathing over the phone. "Is there something you wanted?"

"Sorry I just didn't think you were going to pick up" I said

"Why?"

"Because you haven't answered any of my calls in over a week so I don't really know what to say right now"

"Sorry" he said in the same monotone voice he had used with his other responses. This was not the Jason I knew why was he acting so weird to me?

"So what's up?" I asked

"Nothing"

"Oh…. Well I was just wondering if you were busy this weekend."

"I don't know maybe" he said

Ok this was getting annoying if he was going to act like this then I was going for the direct approach "ok why have you been avoiding me?" I said sternly

"Have I?" he said "I hadn't noticed"

"Cut the fucking crap Jason why are you Acting so weird I thought we got along I thought … you liked me was I wrong?" I could here him sigh

"No you weren't wrong" he said "listen I do like you a lot Kelsey it's just…. Ugh I just don't think we should go out its complicated and its better to end it now before it gets to serious"

I felt like I had been punched in the stomach "oh… ok I guess that's fine"

"I'll see you around Kelsey" he said followed by hanging up the phone.

Ok so that wasn't what I was expecting. I really thought me and Jason clicked what did I do to change that? Did I not put myself out there enough did I say something that he didn't like? Maybe it was all in my head maybe from were I stood we did click but in his mind we didn't. Why was dating so complicated?

I leaned back on my bed and held my pillow over my face and let out a loud scream. That was the last thing I wanted to happen I wanted to be happy I thought I found someone who would finally let me forget about Ryan but now I wasn't even sure. I lay there for who knows how long before I felt a vibration. I sat up and looked over to see that my cell was ringing. Who the hell could that be?

I picked it up and my eyes widened to find out that it was Gabi. I hadn't really talked to her lately mostly because of Ryan. He told me that she knew but I didn't really want to spill more then they wanted her to know so talking to her made me a little nervous.

As far as I was told me and Gabi were the only two that knew about Ryan and troy and that's they way it would stay for a while at least.

"Hey Gabi" I said into the receiver.

"Hey Kelsey what's up" she said. I could tell she was more then a little bit upset by the way she said it but I pretended I didn't notice and just kept the needless back and forth going.

"Nothing much I was just doing some homework and getting ready for bed" I said

" oh well then I wont bother you" she said sighing and as much I was glad I could get off of the phone with her I felt kind of bad . I mean she lost her boyfriend and found out he liked boys all in the same 24 hours and the worst part is that said ex boyfriend has asked her to keep quiet about the whole ordeal so she cant even vent to someone about it. It sounded really horrible and I had to ask myself if weather I would do a better job keeping it together. God knows I would never betray Ryan but if the shoe was on the other foot and it was happing to me or someone other then my best friend would I be as supportive?

I couldn't keep ignoring her even if I wanted to. She knew about Ryan and troy that much I gathered from Ryan after her and troy's talk and at this point it was unfair to keep her in the dark. She has become an outcast at school and can't even explain why and that will inevitably push people away. So at this point what harm would it do to listen to what the girl has to say?

"No its fine it's only nine thirty I can talk" I said understandingly.

"Thanks Kelsey" she said sounding relieved and I knew I had made the right choice in handling things. This was good what she needed right now was a friend and someone to let it all out to and that person could only be me at this point because well I am the only on that knows about it all. "I have a question"

"Shoot" I said

"Do you know?" she asked I didn't answer not knowing exactly what she was asking but having a good general idea. "About troy and Ryan I mean?"

I knew that one was coming "yeah I … I do know" I said. I heard her let out a sigh or relief.

"You have no idea how happy I am to hear you say that" she said "it's so hard not being able to say anything"

"I'd bet"

"its like people keep coming up to me confused and I cant say anything I'm no good at lying and I have to in order to help out troy" she said "they ask me why I did it or if I am ok and I don't know how to answer that because I'm not ok and I didn't want to do it but I had no choice but to go along with it"

Hearing Gabi pour her hart out was hard to hear. She was in the right on all fronts and I felt so terrible for her for how it all went down. And if I wasn't friends with Ryan first I would completely be on her side but it was hard. She didn't deserve this she was just the wrong girl at the wrong time.

"I can't imagine how you feel right now" I said comfortingly "it has to suck being an outcast for something you had no control over"

"its like I cant win you know?" she said "like if I say he dumped me I am the girl who got dumped by troy Bolton the humiliation from the basketball team alone would be enough to make me snap but on the other spectrum saying I dumped him I become the crazy bitch who dumped troy Bolton and people hate me for it and I don't know if I made the right decision at this point because between being hated and being pitied I don't like either"

" I don't blame you" I said " I don't know if I could make a decision like that but what can you do at this point you were put into the shity situation and hung out to dry"

Listening to Gabi weep about everything didn't make troy all that great in my eyes. He was so trapped in this troy Ryan world of there's that he wasn't seeing the shit that's going on because if it. He wasn't taking responsibility for a problem that he created for someone else.

"And the worst part of it all is he doesn't seem to even care about me at all" she said and I could hear that she was now crying. " I don't owe him anything kels yet I keep his secret because I care about him and he doesn't even notice that I am putting my rep on the line to save his own and he doesn't even care"

She stole the words right out of my mouth. Troy was beginning to look more and more like a jerk the more I listened to her.

"Maybe I should have a talk with Ryan" I said.

She didn't say anything and I thought of weather or not saying that was a good idea I know in her mind Ryan is the enemy even if he didn't really do anything wrong so I wasn't sure if she was ready for that leap yet.

"Yeah you should I feel like if any one can get threw to him it would be Ryan" she said "I just don't know if he would care about me"

"Well I know for a fact that Ryan feels horrible about what happened with you and if he didn't care then I you can rest assure that I have you back no matter what"

"Really?" she asked unconvinced.

" yes really" I said " you are doing a great deal for troy and Ryan both even when you don't have to you of all people don't owe them anything and the least they can do is appreciate it and put a little bit more thought into how insensitive they are being about the whole situation"

"There really in there own world aren't they?" she asked

"Yeah they are"

"I fell like I would be in much more of a state if they didn't seem so right for each other" she said letting out a small scoff "in my eyes I will always love troy but if he his happy then there is no sense in getting upset about it all"

"Its you're right to be upset" I said

"Thanks for this talk Kelsey I really needed to talk to someone about this" she said.

"No problem my phone is always free on weekends and weekdays after six" I said and she laughed.

"I'll see you tomorrow"

"Bye" I hung up the phone and once again threw my head down into the pillows. I was surprised she was keeping it together better then most and as much I didn't want to get involved with all the drama aspect of everything I couldn't not talk to Ryan about this. He had to know that what was going on was really affecting Gabi and knowing him he would listen and agree.

A/N

no troy and ryan agian sorry but i need to get the plot of the potherd deeper as well so yeah. thatnk you for the review satchelboy it is realy a downer to have people constantly comment you on you're spelling and grammer so to know that somone likes it anyway is great it makes me want to write more in stead of stop because somone else made me feel like shit and to anyone who dosent like the spelling or grammer or who wants to comment or msg me about it... there is a difference between creative criticism and just being rude it's not a critique it's just bashing my spelling. I know I am no Shakespeare I do it for fun and the day I have to abide by someone else's standards is the day its no longer fun so if you don't like they way I write then don't read the story. thanks to all and please review and i promise that the next chapter will be all fluff for all the tryan fans =D