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Explanation

The next two days flew by quickly. After that day in the auditorium Edward still didn't speak to me but he didn't turn his face when he saw me. He actually smiled which had me totally blissed out. I know it wasn't what I wanted but it was a start and that smile gave me hope. I hoped that he still believed in the Bella he had gotten to know and that one day he would give me the opportunity to explain myself. I still thought I wasn't good enough for him but I wanted to try and be. I wanted and opportunity to show him that he meant the world to me and on Friday afternoon as I was looking through my bag again I found my opportunity. When you need me I'll always be here and will always listen to your side. That was what he had promised the day he gave me the bracelet and I wanted to hold him to it right now.

"Hey Rose I'll see you later. I have to take care of something" I said as I stuffed all my books in my bag.

"Wait Bella where are you going?" Rose shouted as I was about to run out the door.

"I have to see Edward. I'll see you later." I smiled and ran to the parking lot. I hoped I wasn't too late and that he didn't leave.

When I ran into the lot I noticed him standing by his car waiting for Alice, I guessed. I stopped and took a few breaths to slow down my heart. Once my heart was at its normal speed, well normal as can be around Edward, I made my way towards him. When I was in front of him he looked up from his book.

"Bella" he said and looked at me questionably.

I pulled out my hand and placed something in his "You promised" I said and looked up at him. When he looked down at his hands picked the bracelet up from his hand "We all broke promises Bella. I don't want to talk about this." He sighed.

"No you promised. You can hate me all you want Edward but you promised you would be here and listen to me. You promised Edward and I want to take you up on it." I pleaded and looked over at him with tears threatening to spill.

"I can't Bella. I'm sorry." he sighed and placed the bracelet in my hand.

"No I don't want it. You talk so much crap about opening up but you won't allow me to do that! You won't allow me tell you what I really feel. Keep it and make another empty promise to someone else." I shouted and threw the bracelet back at him. I wiped away the traitor tear that fell and walked away.

I know I had hurt him but for him not to even give me a chance to explain when he promised he would pissed me off. I didn't have to explain myself or apologize but I wanted to and he wouldn't allow me to. Edward meant a lot to me and having him upset with me and feeling betrayed was not something I could live with. Even if he didn't feel the same for me I still wanted to at least try and be his friend again. I know that I should stay away but I couldn't. Edward was starting to become the best part of me and I never wanted that part to disappear. I would never tell him that I loved him so just being his friend would be worth it. But of course I can't be his friend if he keeps pushing me away.

As I was pulling up to my house I noticed that it was starting to get misty outside.

Great, another rainy day in Forks. Feeling miserable and not wanting to talk to anyone I ran up to my room and turned on some loud music. Listening to it made it hard to think and that's exactly what I needed. Deciding I didn't want to just lie around I got up and started to clean my room, something I hadn't done in awhile.

At around 8pm I finished organizing my books and headed to get ready for bed. This was the first Friday in a long time that I was stuck at home and for the first time I welcomed it. I just wanted to stay in my room by myself and not deal with the outside world. The outside world didn't hold anything good for me, just a lot of heartache and regrets. Two things that right now I didn't want to deal with. Of course, that's all wishful thinking because all my thoughts ran back to Edward. After showering and lying in bed I started to feel the same pain I had for the last few weeks. I had tried everything I could to get him to hear me out but every time he didn't want to hear it. I never thought Edward could be so hard headed and unforgiving but it seemed like he was. All I needed was five minutes and I could tell him every thing I have been meaning to but he wouldn't allow it. I was a horrible person to him and he had the right to be mad at me but he's the one that told me to open up and when I tried he pushed me away. The tears that flooded my face were evidence of how much the way he was treating me hurt. And he wasn't the only one I hurt. I also hurt Jasper when he had only cared for me and wished the best for me. Thinking of a solution I got up and picked up my cell phone from the nightstand.

Hey J:

I know that I'm the last person you want to get a message from but I thought this was the only way you would hear me out. I'm so sorry for what I did to you and regret it dearly. That Bella only wanted to get her revenge but I'm not that person anymore. I left you because I didn't want to hurt you anymore and I knew you didn't deserve what I had done. You were nothing but great to me and I ruined it with my stupid childish ways. I am really sorry and I hope that one day you can forgive me. I really do love you as a great friend and am really sorry for the hurt I caused you.

Love B

Even if he didn't forgive me at least I knew that I had apologized and explained myself. Knowing that the next person was going to be the hardest I decided to say what I had to in person so I dialed the one person that could tell me where they were.

"Hey sweetheart to what do I owe this call?" Charlie answered his phone.

"Hi dad I was wondering if you could give me Alice's address. I need to talk to her about something and it can only be in person." I asked.

"Bella you and your sister do not get along. I don't know if that's the best thing to do." He said reluctantly.

"Yeah I know dad but that's why I want to see her. I need to apologize but only in person. Please dad I promise it's only with good intentions that I want her address." I pleaded.

"Ok fine I'll text it to you. Sweetie please don't do anything stupid." Charlie warned.

"I won't dad I promise. Thank you." I assured him.

"Ok Bells. Love you."

"Love you too dad. I know I don't say it but I do." I said honestly.

"It's good to hear. I'll see you soon kiddo. Bye" he said and hung up the phone. A second later I got the address, got ready and headed out the door.

As I pulled into Alice's driveway I noticed that her car was the only one there. Taking a large breath I parked next to it and walked up the stairs. When I knocked on the door I took a step back because I knew she would fling it open.

"Who is it?" I heard Alice shout from somewhere in the house. I didn't say anything fearing that she wouldn't open so instead waited for her to open the door.

"I said who is…." She shouted as she flung open the door and then stopped when she saw me standing on her porch.

"What do you want? What are you doing here? I thought I made myself clear." She sneered and tried to close the door but I stuck my feet in it.

"I need to talk to you Alice. I know you don't' want to talk to me but I need to say something." I looked up into her eyes and pleaded.

"I don't need to listen to anything you say."

"I know but I really hope you do."

"Fine you have 2 minutes." she said looking down at her watch.

"I know that what I did is the worst thing a person can do but that was the old me. I was so angry at you for trying to take my boyfriend and friends that I wanted to hurt you. When I decided the best way to hurt you was Edward I befriended him just out of revenge. But when I got to be with him everything changed. He had so much faith in me and that gave me the courage to change. I found myself being the old me because of him and I stopped trying to hurt you. You are a great person and I'm sorry that I never gave you the chance to show me that. I changed because of Edward and I was going to tell you all the day you heard me tell Rose. I never meant to hurt anyone and I'm so sorry for what I did. I don't expect you to believe me but I needed you to know." I said as the tears started to fall. "If I can take back everything I would, but I can't. All I can do is apologize and hope that someday you forgive me. That's all I had to say." I wiped away my tears with my sleeves and ran in the rain to my car.

"Bella!" Alice shouted and I turned to see her running down the stairs.

"That's all I needed to hear" she said and wrapped her arms around me. As soon as she did that I broke down and wrapped mine around hers.

"I'm so sorry Alice for everything." I sobbed onto her shoulder.

"I forgive you Bella. I knew you weren't that person and I'm glad Edward gave you a chance." She whispered soothingly.

"Thank you Alice you are a great person." I said as I pulled up and wiped my eyes.

"Why don't we go sit on the porch? It's pouring out here." She whispered and led the way to the swing on the porch. I don't know how long we sat there talking and apologizing but when we got to the part about my feelings for Edward I stopped.

"Alice I really don't want to talk about that. He hates me and we can never be together." I sighed and got up. "I should get going it's getting late. Thank you for everything Alice."

"Ok Bella I understand you don't want to talk about it and you're welcome for everything." She said and got up to give me a hug. "And he doesn't hate you." She whispered before pulling back and smiling at me. I just nodded and said goodbye to Alice.

On my way home all I could think about was my talk with Alice. It made me smile thinking that she had forgiven me and that now I could get to know my sister better. My sister. She had such a great heart and was so loving. Now I knew why Edward and everyone else loved her so much. She and Edward had the same heart and personality the difference was Alice was bubbly and Edward was quiet. I only wished that Edward would give me the same opportunity to explain.

I turned into my driveway and noticed someone standing on my porch. Who would be at my house at this time of night? I wondered as I parked. I wasn't sure if I should get out or call the cops. Deciding on the first I reached into my bag for my pepper spray, just in case, and got out of the car. When the person turned to look at me I gasped.

"What are you doing here?" I whispered