A/N wow I'm finally here writing my last chapter of my first multi chapter story and it's taken over a year. Wow anyway thanks for sticking with me and I hope you like the ending.
She'd never really had the chance to reflect on her past with Everett before now. When she was in a relationship with him. She refused to reflect on it when she was in a relationship with him. Afterwards she spent so much time and effort trying to move on. She didn't have time for reflection. But now on this quiet alien ship. She looked at her past and shared it with this ship even if it wasn't alive. "I don't know, sometimes I think this ship is alive" she said it to herself almost daring it to answer back. She was greeted by silence. "I think I'm going crazy, I'm talking to a ship." She thought. With some reluctance she got out of bed and made her way to sickbay.
On the way there she ran into Eli.
"Hey there are you going to sickbay?" Eli asked
"Yeah I am" TJ said
"So you're not going to breakfast?" Eli asked again
"No I don't think so" Lieutenant Johansen replied.
"Are you sure it's crackers with substitute maple syrup. I really miss the pancakes my mom used to make me back on earth. Apparently this is going to be pretty close to pancakes apart from its crackers and the maple syrup is actually this juice of some weird fruit we found on the last planet. Volker says the fruit looked like a mouldy onion. But I'm sure it will taste all right." Eli said trying to be enthusiastic and cheer TJ up but failing miserably.
"I really don't feel up to it Eli" Lieutenant Johansen replied becoming more and more irritated. The very thought of that crackers and alien fruit juice made her want to vomit. She'd actually been feeling quite nauseous ever since she got on Destiny in fact.
"Ok but you don't know what you're missing" Eli said cheerfully as he ran to the mess hall. She smiled as he ran off. He was like a big kid full of optimism and enthusiasm. A part of him was living the dream. He was the big space hero who could solve anything. But TJ knew that deep down he was terrified. There was a very real chance he could die out of here. "But then again that's the same for all of us" she thought. She didn't want to die out of here. She put her hand on her stomach. She couldn't think about that.
TJ made it to sickbay. She started switching Lieutenant James bandages. She'd been mauled by a strange alien animal on the last planet. There was no lasting damage which was good. She was getting sick of not being able to help people.
It also meant she couldn't run away from her psych evaluations. Vanessa was suffering. Scott had slept with her and then refused to acknowledge her existence afterwards and the he immediately jumped on Chloe the moment they boarded Destiny. James was just grateful she had someone to confide in. She wished she could do something to help her friend. But TJ kept all her suffering inside and focused on her work. But Vanessa could see it in her eyes. She knew it had something to do with the colonel. But she didn't know what. She saw the way they looked at each other. Their eyes contained a history. They shouldn't have. Vanessa tried to ask her directly but she couldn't. Vanessa had to give her time. But when she was ready Vanessa would be there to help.
"So, how are you feeling?" TJ asked.
"Not too bad the cuts are healing up nicely." Vanessa answered.
There was a silence for a while. Then Vanessa said "I don't want to shoot her anymore but I just feel let down and it doesn't help that I have the thrilling prospect of watching them be together for oh I don't know the rest of my life"
"Look we're not going to be on this ship forever. We have to get home" TJ said with tears in her eyes. Despite both arms being heavily bandaged. Vanessa managed to hug her friend realising she needed to be comforted. They didn't say anything they didn't need to.
"You should be ready to go to Breakfast now" TJ said giving a weak ghost of smile.
"Can't wait" Vanessa said sarcastically "Come with me?"
"I'll meet you there" TJ said reluctantly. She didn't want to go but she knew Vanessa wouldn't take no for an answer. "I've just got to do a quick inventory of the medicine."
"Great see you in 5" Vanessa said.
TJ watched her friend go. She felt sorry for her having to be stuck on a ship with a man who broke your hear. She could certainly relate. She did the inventory. "My periods have stopped" she thought "I'm pregnant" She'd been suppressing this but she knew it was true. She'd had sex with the colonel 8 weeks before coming on Destiny and now she was feeling nauseous all the time. Her periods had stopped. She was definitely pregnant. She looked out the window. She closed her eyes and she wanted to see the lakes and mountains of her youth. But when she opened her eyes all she saw was black. All she saw was nothing. She realised that was what Destiny was for her child. She fell onto her knees and wept.
A/N the problem with taking a year to write a fanfic is the big dramatic reveal is kind of ruined a little bit. I also don't really like the relationship with her and Simeon. It's just really boring and just an excuse to give her a love interest. I just think her and the colonel's relationship is a lot more interesting and there's more to be explored there. Oh well I guess we'll just wait and see. Anyway I want to thank all of you have kept reading this fanfic despite the delays. I want to thank all those who reviewed this fanfic and were so positive and gave such gr8 compliments. Anyway I hoped you enjoyed this fanfic as much as I enjoyed writing and please review the ending and the whole fanfic as a whole.