Chapter 5 (Neither Do I)

B.P.O.V

I woke up to a warm blanket over me and my throat hurting from all the screaming I did in my sleep. I had a dream of the day my mom died…

What blanket? I thought, and pulled it close to me, smelling it: Cullen.

I smiled, but underneath was scared that they found something out… What if they tell the child abuse home center? Charlie could be taken away! It's my fault he's doing this, and I'm not letting him get in trouble for my mistake…me… I'm the mistake….

I got up and took a cold shower because Charlie took all the hot water, got dressed, then went downstairs eating a granola bar and I was out the door!

"And it's raining!"

I walked through the rain slowly, taking in my surrounding. Birds flying away…wind blowing softly… Car going 100mph…. WHAT?! There was a silver car quickly going across the street where the speed limit was thirty!

"HEY, SLOW DOWN BEFORE YOU GET YOURSELF KILLED!" I screamed, but it didn't sound like my voice… it was too scratchy and sore. The car halted on the spot.

"Jerk!" I yelled, grabbing a rock and hurling it at the car. Amazingly it actually hit the car, cracking the back window. A few seconds later the car was speeding again off in the direction I was going, not even slowing down. I took a deep breath and started walking to school.

"Well, at least I will be able to tell the car if I see it again," I said, and ran the rest of the way to school thinking I might be late.

E.P.O.V

I was upstairs looking at my ceiling, trying to decide what was going on with that girl we saw in our house. Why was she having a bad dream? What about?

"Edward, dear, the rest of the family is going to take your car," Esme said, and I just shrugged.

"I knew that's why you told me to get a cheap car," I said, and walked over to the box a.k.a silver Volvo and got in the front seat driver's side. Jasper got in the front seat with me, and Alice went into the seat behind Jasper. Rosalie and Emmett came in the two other seats, and we were speeding off the second Emmett had the door shut. We were almost at our destination when we heard a woman's voice yell.

"HEY, SLOW DOWN BEFORE YOU GET YOURSELF KILLED!" she yelled; she had a seemingly familiar but scratchy voice. I halted on the spot and giggled…

"Get myself killed," I mocked, making Alice glare at me.

"Jerk!" I heard the voice yell, and three seconds later a scream came from Rosalie as a rock hit our back window, cracking the glass.

"Oh! Who does she think she is, making Rosalie scream?!" Emmett yelled, and I drove away before Emmett could start something.

"Relax Emmett, Rose is going to love fixing the car and we were going fast," Alice said, as Jasper sent his waves of calm across the car.

"Whatever," Emmett said, giving in.

Back to B.P.O.V

I walked into the parking lot and saw that car again! I looked at the car, and saw some kids getting out.

THE CULLEN'S! My mind screamed at me as I watched them get out of their car. Should I go tell them sorry before they get mad and change their mind about letting me stay? I thought as Alice spotted me.

"Hey Bella!" Alice waved as all the Cullen's walked over to me with umbrellas.

"You look soaked," Jasper said.

"You should have seen it! This stupid girl thought a rock at us for no reason!" Emmett emphasized 'no reason', wanting to talk about it.

"No way!" I played along, not wanting to get in trouble and all the Cullen's froze, noticing two things.

1) My voice had gotten scratchier.

2) It was the same one that yelled at them.

"Bella…?" Jasper asked.

"I can explain! I didn't mean anything! I didn't know it was you! I didn't want anyone to get hurt..." I was hyperventilating, my throat burning.

"Bella! Calm down! Gosh! We're not mad, we're just wondering why your voice is like this," Rosalie said, now taking interest to my gasping.

"I had a bad dream last night," I answered, and Edward tensed up, looking from his previous place on the ground to my face.

"We should get to class," I said, and started walking as Edward grabbed my hand, surprising me and also kind of hurting my healing sprain I had from a few weeks ago when I fell because Charlie pushed me.

"Can I walk you to your first class?" Edward asked, but I could tell he was really trying to ask me if we could start over and be friends. Why would any of them want to be friends with me? Worthless, ugly me…

I pulled my hand away with a jolt, and said simply before running off:

"It's best if you forget I exist. I can't give you anything but misery." It was true… with all the commotion going on I might die if Charlie is not pleased with me soon… I live to make him happy in mom's place and I'm doing a horrible job… I only hope he will smile soon…that's all I want…to make him smile like in that one wedding picture I have of mom and dad in my locket around my neck.

I found the locket in a box upstairs one night while I was hiding from Charlie. In it was a small sapphire and ruby ring that just fit into the locket, and a small heart-shaped picture that fit the locket's frame perfectly. The picture was of mom and dad… on a beach… smiling… dad's eyes sparkled so bright… I want to see him smile like that again.

Ding! The bell rang, symbolizing the end of class. The classes were the same as always –simple- except the gossip was extra high on how hot the new kids are.

"OMG!" The new Cullen boys are soooo dreamy! And a strong one was in my gym class! OMG! He is so strong!"

"Did you see the new chick with blond hair? What a babe! If only Jessica were that hot…"

"I don't get why Mike is talking about the blond hair girl like she's a goddess! I mean, I'm way hotter…"

"Did you see the one named Edward in history? Hot and smart! Damn! You don't get that every day."

Disgusting. Looking at people like new meat…

I walked to the lunchroom, remembering I didn't have money for a lunch, and walked in ready to go to my table like always… but no. Since God was bored, he decided to tease me. There was a huge crowd of people around my table. But why?

I walked to the table, moving past the teenagers, and found the Cullens in the middle smiling and trying to be kind to the people as they asked to be left alone.

"Hey, move it loser!" a girl yelled, and pushed me so I fell forward, hitting my already-tender head against the table.

"Aaaaah!" I yelled as I fell, and the Cullens rushed to my side…

"Are you okay?" Edward asked, helping me up.

"I'm fine, let me go," I said, but as soon as he let me go I was falling again, but this time Edward caught me and picked me up bridal-style.

"Put me down!" I screamed as girls glared at me.

"You're hurt; I'm taking you to see my dad," Edward said.

"I'm fine really. My knees just got a little buckle and I tripped. I can't miss class." I said, and thrashed in his arms, but it was no use as it felt like I was hitting stone. At one point I just broke down and started sobbing as I yelled.

"Let me go!" But Edward nodded to Alice and we were off to his car. When we reached it Edward seemed reluctant to let me go, but put me in the front passenger seat as we sped off to see Edward's father going a hundred an hour.

"Slow down!" I screamed, but dizziness was coming over me as I started to close my eyes.

"Bella… don't fall asleep!" Edward yelled, but it was becoming more and more difficult…until I closed my eyes and was unconscious. Edward pulled over and picked me up, getting out of the car and running… that's the last thing I remembered… running …

"What am I doing here?!" I yelled at the shadows around me in a black marble box. It was a small box, with one hole at the top that let just the right amount of light in for me to see, and I was staring around me at the moving shadows…

"You're here because you want to be punished," said a strange voice, yet it had a hint of familiarity…

"No, I want to get out of here!" I screamed at the voice and I heard footsteps…

"Bella… you don't want to be in the same room as your own mother?" And then the light shone brighter, going bigger around me as I saw my mother… and I was frozen to the spot as I saw that thing before me. It was my mom, but her flesh was decaying and her head was tilted to the side as one of her eyes turned to the back of her head. And I realized where I was… Mom wanted a big marble coffin to lie in just like the Egyptians and this was her coffin… the light was from a hole in the ceiling Charlie had made so the light would still shine over her face, but then Charlie had to plug it so no bugs could get in… and as I thought that something blocked my only light as I was plunged into darkness…

E.P.O.V

I watched her as Carlisle did the last check to make sure everything was fine.

"She should take better care of her body," Carlisle said, and I read his thoughts: she's so thin…when was the last time she ate?…I'll have Esme cook her up something, which will make Esme happy… Carlisle exited the room, leaving me staring at her sleeping form. She was thin…

"Mom?" I heard Bella say, and went to her side.

"No, no! NO!" Bella started thrashing and I felt so helpless… What do I do? I thought.

B.P.O.V (You know you want to get back to it.)

"Help!" I screamed, sitting up fast, sweat running down my face.

"Bella…" I turned around, scared to see who it was, but happy as I saw Edward looking at me with concern.

"Edward," I said, and tried to get up, but he was at my side in a second, pushing me back down. He kept his hands on my shoulders, his face a few inches from mine. I stared at his eyes and watched them go from relieved to angry.

"When was the last time you ate?" he asked, looking me hard in the eyes, trapping me like a rabbit under headlights. I could not lie…

"Four days ago," I said, and looked away quickly. I stared at the wall and found myself in Edward's room.

"Why haven't you been eating?" Edward asked, looking calmer, but my mind was starting to hurt as I scanned my brain for a good excuse…

"I… I've been busy. I'll eat when I get home…what time is it?" I asked. Edward sighed, his cool breath traumatizing me as he sat down next to me.

"One hour after school… you're something you know that?! You hit your head really hard from the looks of it a few days ago… It would have been fine but you didn't give your body any food so it didn't heal… you need rest and food… here, eat." Edward handed me a tray of food, but I pushed it away and tried to get up again.

"I have work!" I yelled.

"Well it's canceled now!" Edward said, and pushed the tray at me again… the food smelled so good I could not resist. I took the tray and ate as Edward watched me.

"Why do you care so much?" I asked after I devoured every bite of the amazing meal in front of me. Edward had a shocked look on his face, and was deep in thought for a long time then said simply:

"I don't know."

"I told you I was not good. I could hurt you…"

"I'm the one who says that when someone wants to be my friend… and for the first time… I don't think I care…" Bella bit her lip and smiled.

"Neither do I."