Love and hate get it wrong
She cut me right back down to size
Sleep the day let it fade
Who was there to take your place
Brooke did not go back to her house. She knew if she did that Lucas would show up. He still had a key to her place and right now she was just to hurt to face him. She had known that she shouldn't get involved with him, but she wanted to believe that he could change. She was angrier with herself for letting herself getting involved with him. She knew that she shouldn't have after what happened with Jake last year, but she thought that maybe it was time to allow herself happiness. And to think tonight was going to be the night she was finally going to give herself completely to him. She sighed deeply as she went through the gates of her parents mansion. This was the last place she wanted to be, but she did not know where else to go. She parked her car, brushed her tears away from her eyes, and grabbed her bag. Luckily for her when she got inside it appeared that no one was awake. She quietly went to her room and sat on her bed, grabbing her phone. Of course there was like ten missed calls from Lucas and a few text messages to follow. She didn't want to hear what he said, but she still looked through the messages.
Brooke, I know you don't want 2 talk 2 me, but u need to hear me out. I'm at your place, but your not here. Where r u?
Brooke y r u ignoring me? I have something important to tell u. Plz talk 2 me
I guess u won't talk to me. I'm going home. I hope u rn't out doing something u will regret. I miss u Pretty Girl, so much it hurts. –Luke
She brushed the new tears that had formed from her eyes and fell away. She knew she still had a voicemail to listen to, but she wasn't sure she could handle that. It took her everything to dial the voicemail box and listen but she did.
No one knows never will
Mostly me but mostly you
What do you say do you do
When it all comes down
I don't want to come back down from this cloud
Taken me all this time to find out what I need
"Pretty Girl, it's me. God I wish you would pick up this call to hear me out. I swear that what you heard on that message was not what you think. I know that is why you left now. I told you I don't talk to Beth. She had sent me a few text messages, but I swear I only talked to her to tell her to leave me alone," he said as he sighed. Brooke could imagine him running his hands through his hair frustrated. "I don't want anyone but you Brooke, and I mean that. You are all I think about, even when I am with you. Being with you has changed me so much, even if you don't believe me right now. Being with you scares me sometimes because I feel so many things for you, things I don't think I have ever felt in all honesty. Brooke I…I am." And the voicemail cut off. She was curious as to what he said but not enough to call him back. But a part of her did not believe him, because if he didn't feel anything for Beth, than he would not have reminders of her still. She suddenly felt every pent up emotion come out and cried so hard while she texted Lucas a message, and quietly crept down to her parents liquor closet.
Lucas lay in Brooke's bed extremely frustrated. The first girl he has felt anything for since Beth and he screws it up. The thing that made him even angrier was that he had no control over this situation. For the first time ever he did nothing to intentionally screw things up. He should have told Brooke that Beth had text messaged him, but he didn't feel the need to since he wasn't planning on talking to her at all after the last call. He was over her; he had been for many years. She had ruined his opinion of women for the longest time and it took Brooke to break that shell and allow him to feel anything.
He knew Brooke would not come back to her place if she knew he was there, so he had lied and said he left. But he couldn't bring himself to leave, not without her hearing him out and telling her how she made him feel, face to face. He had become accustomed to spending his weekends with her and now he never wanted to go without them. He rubbed his hands across his face and lay back on her bed against her pillows. He was taken out of his trance when he heard a light knock on the door.
Taken me all this time to find out what I need
and I'm doing fine now
There is no blame only shame
When you beg you just complain
More I come more I try
"Tiger, it's me. Cover up anything you don't want seen," Haley said chuckling as she opened up Brooke's door. She was surprised when she just found Luke in Brooke's room. She knew Brooke wasn't in the bathroom or kitchen because she had just walked past both. "Hey Luke, where is Brooke," she asked standing in the doorway.
Lucas starred back at the petite brunette and sighed heavily. "I don't know. I was hoping she was here Hales," Lucas said and diverted his eyes from hers to the floor.
Haley crossed her arms over her chest and leaned against the doorframe. "What's going on Lucas? She left here hours ago with her weekend bag and as far as I knew she was at your place, and then I here the door close and here you are. Did something happen," she asked somewhat annoyed. She was fiercely protective of her friend. When Jake had hurt Brooke it was Haley who had to pick up the pieces, and she was never going to let someone do that to her again.
Lucas sighed and patted the seat on the bed next to him. Haley sat down next to him, but not before he noticed the death glare she sent his way. "I screwed up Haley. I didn't do it on purpose or even intentionally, but I think I hurt her." Haley's head snapped towards him and her small hands clutched his arm tightly.
When Haley grabbed his arm, all she could think of was that he had done something to hurt Brooke and this angered her. Her words came out like venom and her eyes narrowed on the blonde boy next to her. "What do you mean you hurt her? I swear Lucas if you laid a finger on her I," but she was cut off by him interrupting her. She noticed the sad look he was giving her and when she implied that he may have touched her, his blue eyes opened bigger than she had ever seen someone open them.
"No, no Haley I didn't hurt her physically," Lucas said as he put his head in his hands and ran his fingers through his hair, nervously.
"What does that mean exactly," Haley snapped.
Lucas looked over his shoulder at the defensive girl next to him. "She went over to my place and waited for me because I had to work a little late. Well, umm while she was waiting I got a phone call and a message that kind pf upset her and she left. It was my..," he started but he stopped when he felt his phone vibrate, letting him know he received a message. He paused his thought to read the message.
If I meant so much to u & u don't care 4 her, then u wouldn't have pictures of the 2 of u up or not told me that u talked to her. –B
Haley was getting edgy waiting for him to finish his thought. She knew from the look on his face that it was mostly likely a message from Brooke. She wrapped her fingers tightly around his arm and dug her nails into his skin. "What happened Lucas," she hissed, tired of being patient and polite.
Lucas tried really hard to think of what Brooke was talking about. He wasn't sure what pictures she was talking about because he had, had his housekeeper take them all down when they broke up. He quickly texted her back, asking what pictures she was talking about and turned back to Haley. "My ex-girlfriend called and she made it sound like were talked and asked to see me or something like that," he said and saw Haley start to look extremely angry. "I swear I only talked to her to tell her to never talk to me again. Brooke heard the message and now she is upset. Haley I need to find her," he said almost panicked. "Do you have any idea where I can find her," he pleaded.
"I..I don't know Lucas. When Brooke gets upset it's hard to know where she will go. Last time I didn't see her for a week."
"What do you mean a week Haley? Last time?"
Haley was worried about Brooke. When she got upset she had a tendency to cut off all contact and do things that weren't like her. She could see that Lucas cared, but wasn't sure if it was okay to share this information. "I'm not at liberty to talk about this stuff. Not when I don't know what is going on with you guys."
"Haley please. I need to find her. I…I," he started but stopped not sure if he should tell her how he felt before he talked to Brooke. But he figured that it was his only hope of finding Brooke. "Haley I love her. I need to tell her that. I need to talk to her," he begged.
"Lucas, when everything happened with Jake, Brooke kind of went off. She drank a lot and did things that are not like her at all. When she gets hurt she closes herself off to everyone and completely cuts out the people that hurt her. She was so broken when Jake did what he did to her and I never thought Brooke would breakdown like she did. He almost destroyed her. I swear that if that happens this time that I will make you pay," Haley said almost feeling bad for him, but also angry with him.
Lucas got off of the bed and kneeled in front of Haley. He knew he needed to beg and that's what he was willing to do. "Haley please I am begging you. I need to find her. Can you help me? Do you have any idea where I might be able to find her?"
Haley sighed deeply and slumped her shoulders. She didn't know if doing this would be beneficial for Brooke or make Brooke feel betrayed, but she felt as if she had no option. She knew where Brooke would end up. She stood up and motioned for Lucas to follow. He asked if they could make a quick stop by his place on the way and she reluctantly agreed. He needed to know what Brooke saw and she wouldn't reply to him.
Even though she knew if her parents woke up that they would be pissed, she didn't care. She was already on her forth shot of her parent most expensive liquor and sitting in her bathing suite by the pool. It was nice and quiet, just what she needed. Sure she looked like hell with her hair in a ponytail and her face stained with tears, but the booze was making her feel better. She wanted to drown out everthing for the night because she knew she would have to face her parents in the morning.
Daddy dearest would be trying to force her to go to another event and try to get her to be with his co-workers son. That has been the regular for the past two years. He knew if she was with his co-workers son that his job would be guaranteed for as long as he wanted. Not that he was in jeopardy of losing his job, but he always liked things guaranteed. She knew that he may have been catching on to her seeing Lucas because he was making comments about how if Lucas made the wrong decisions that he may end up losing his career, but Brooke had been extra careful to keep it a secret. Even if he hurt her, Brooke wasn't as low as using that to take away his life. If she really wanted to she could since just about every movie that Lucas made went through her father first.
Love and hate get it wrong
She cut me right back down to size
Sleep the day let fade
Who was there to take your place
She popped out of her thoughts, threw back another shot, and noticed headlights approaching in the distance from the driveway. They almost looked like Haley's but she couldn't remember calling her. She shrugged her shoulders and jumped in the pool. At least her friend could keep her company while she was miserable. This time wasn't going to be like last time. She didn't want to worry everyone and ruin what she had going for her. She was better than that, she was better than Lucas she thought as she relished the feeling of the cool water on her hot skin.
I don't wanna come back down from this cloud
Taken me all this time to find out what I need
Okay so here is part of what I've been working on. Hope you guys like it, but if not let me know too. I wanted to say thank you to all of the readers and thank you for the sweet comments. They meant a lot and I'm sorry this took so long to get up. I've just had a hard time actually sitting down and writing what I have. Well review as always and let me know what you think. I'm not sure how many more chapters I'll have, but for the few of you guys that read I'll definitely make sure to finish it! Thanks so much!