A/N: this was meant to be up days ago but being the idiot I am I forgot to bring the story with me when I went to library. I forgot to put up the disclaimer last time so this time here it is.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight. I am though the millionth person in the line to rent Alice and Bella for the weekend. Uh…. wait I think they called my number. Uh… fuck that was just number 100,762. Oh well enjoy the story.

Chapter 1

APOV

I don't know what I was thinking when I decided to attend Forks Prep but I was hoping it would lead me to a better future I think. When I was thirteen I had won one of the two full scholarships to William H. Forks Preparatory. It was one of the best private high schools in New York City and extremely hard to get into. They only gave two full scholarships every four years, so you can see how I had felt extremely lucky to be attending.

The other scholarship had been won by another girl in Queens. My mother Maud Brandon and my brother Jasper Whitlock were extremely proud of me. I had my picture in every local publication and had gotten to meet the mayor also. That where I met the other recipient Angela Webber. I wasn't sure how to feel when I met her because what if she was a bitch? I didn't want to have to spend the next four years sharing this priveledge with a bitch. But she turned out to be very nice so I felt doubly lucky. I would have a friend when I went to the school that September.

When I first walked through the halls of Forks Prep none of the other kids would talk to me. Perhaps they had heard of my Bronx background and were terrified of me. I don't know why, I mean the Bronx was tough but I was from one the nicer neighborhoods in that borough. The only person I knew there was Angela and we only had lunch together that year. Being very lonely I dove straight into my schoolwork as I had to maintain a 3.2 G.P.A to keep the scholarship or they would revoke it. Take away my future why don't you. Not much happened that year because hardly anyone paid attention to freshmen anyways.

My sophomore year I made a few aquintences. Kate, Irina, and Garrett Denali were all nerds like me and we all bonded over our shared interest in learning. Their sister Tanya on the other hand had more than one screw loose but it was the law of averages I suppose. My spring semester was when I met Emmett Cullen. He was the captain of the boy's soccer team. I met him when he needed tutoring to stay on the soccer team. I had volunteered to be a peer tutor that year. He and his girlfriend Rosalie quickly became two of my closest friends.

Junior year was when the shit hit the proverbial fan. It didn't implode all at once but like the great Titanic my life sunk slowly then bounced back up, break in half and sink all at once. My junior year was when Bella Swan had transferred to the school.

My heart had leapt out of my chest and straight into her arms the first time I saw her. She was so drop dead gorgeous with her chestnut hair and chocolate brown eyes. I was in A.P Biology doodling in my notebook when she walked into the class. She stood there looking all nervous and biting her bottom lip. I had given her a small grin to try to help ease her nervousness and when she had glanced at me she seemed to relax for a moment before casting her eyes back around the room nervously once again.

Mr. Banner the teacher had glanced around the room once before sitting her in the only empty seat there next to Edward Cullen. My heart sank in my chest and that was the only time in all my years of knowing Angela I had truly resented her. She was my lab partner that year and therefore was occupying the seat next to me. I didn't want her to sit next to Edward Cullen. Even though Emmett was his brother they were two completely different people. He was the biggest player in school and it made me wonder how his parents who I had met through Emmett had given birth to him. Esme and Carlisle were the nicest people on earth and Edward was demon spawn.

I had watched in horror as Edward pounced on Bella like a child with a new toy. And as she giggled at whatever he had said I knew I had lost before I even had a chance. For the rest of the year I acted like Bella Swan did not exist to me. Like I wasn't desperately thinking of her at every moment of everyday at any given moment. Like I hadn't given her my heart and soul without her permission. I watched as she grew closer to Edward and fell for him like every other girl in this dumb school. I had to act like I didn't have a broken heart because I mean who was there to break it in the first place? No one but my brother knew how I felt and he couldn't really be there for me as he was away at college. Junior year was depressing but senior year was when my life sank and fell apart just like the titanic.