Oh my goodness, I'm sorry everyone! I totally forgot about uploading more chapters of this. Sorry!
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LOL Even after writing this, I sound like the Len from this story. His consciousness never really left my mind.
Me: -rambles to someone- Well I think that it's a good idea but I guess it could be better, like mayb--
Them: ?
Me: I sound like TTLen. -facepalm-
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Ch10
Ever since the talent show days keep rolling on and on and on. Everyone at lunch talks, Rin comes to my house and we talk and do random stuff, Banana keeps growing bigger and won't get off my head, the Doctor keeps doing whatever kind of research he does… I don't know, it just seems like days are less important now. But I try to stop and cherish each day that happens because one day I'm going to stop working and these days will be something that I will want to reach out for and live in forever.
I know that things won't be like this forever. Everyone won't sit at lunch at talk, Rin won't come to my house and we won't talk and do random stuff, Banana will stop growing and will be content to sit on the floor, and the Doctor will stop doing research. But the thought of that scares me. I don't want it all to end, I wish that time would just stop speeding by. But days just keep whooshing past like cars on the street.
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Can you believe it, guys? I'm graduating next month, and then, I don't know what will happen. I hope you guys stick together. That's what Meiko says, I forgot that she's a senior and I'm never ever going to see her ever again. It makes me sad. I don't want Meiko to leave.
And then after that, I'll be gone. That's what Kaito says. He looks sad. I don't want to leave, next year seems too soon. And we all agree, Kaito doesn't seem old enough to graduate, even if it is a whole 'nother year from now.
And then after that, the next year, Gakupo, Miku, and I are leaving. That's Luka. I really don't want to think about graduating though, it makes me feel sad. I don't like to think about any of us leaving, you know? I wish we could just stay as a group like this forever.
And we all agree and say yeah. And Miku says, I can't imagine us as a group any other way. Even one of us leaves, and it just wouldn't feel right. Meiko, I don't know what we're going to do without you. Miks, Miks, don't worry, I have a feeling you guys will stick together through thick and thin until all the rest of you graduate. And you'll make new friends next year to replace me. And the year after you'll make friends to replace Kaito.
But I wonder, will they find a replacement for me?
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Hey Len, can you do me a favor? And I say sure Rin. Can you hold this? I really really need to go to the bathroom. So I hold her backpack and then I wait for her outside the girls bathroom. And then I see Kaito walking along and he says oh hi Len! And waves. And I wave back and he walks over and he says hi Len, what're you doing? And I say I'm waiting for Rin.
And then he says ohhhh. And then he says well I'll wait too, I have nothing else better to do. Haha hey that rhymed! And then I say hey Kaito, you should try and rhyme everything you say when Rin comes out. And he says I don't know if I can do that, rhyming is hard! But I say try try please? If you get really stuck then I'll finish your sentence for you like we're mind connected twins.
And then Rin comes out and she says oh hi Kaito! And Kaito says hi Rin! And then he stops for a second and I look at him and he says uhh I… dropped my pin! And then he bends over and pokes the ground. And Rins says umm what the heck are you doing? And I give her her backpack and I say he's poking the ground, can't you see? And Kaito stands up and says well I'll be.
And Rin gives us a face like what the heck? And me and Kaito just want to burst out laughing. But we hold it in. Why are you two rhyming? What are you scheming? Then Kaito says we're scheming nothing, I like this time of year spring. And then Rin says it's almost summer and I see this pretty butterfly fluttering over her head. Kaito says ooh ooh that butterfly is purple!
And then I cross my arms and huff because Kaito messed us up, nothing rhymes with purple.
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Hey, Len, what's going on in that brain of yours today? That's Ted. He says that my mind is more mysterious than like, the Loch Ness monster, or the Nazca Lines, or the pyramids! Well I've only heard of the pyramids, they're in Egypt. But I don't think my mind is that mysterious, because well I guess I see my mind every day. Well I guess I don't see see it, I just know it's there, but I guess how I know my mind is there actually is a mystery.
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Days go by, you are very very dazed, veeeeeeeery dazed, you feel sleepy, maybe you will sleep right now, you—hey how do you read my mind? Gahh I can't hypnotize you when you ask me questions! Len just be quiet I'm going to hypnotize you!
By my name that isn't Kaito, you're sleepy! You're really really sleepy! And you're not thinking anything right now but of my words, you're hearing what I say, that's it! You're not thinking of questions, your mind is blank!
No it's not. And then Kaito throws his pendant at Gakupo and says Len you think too much.
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I asked the Doctor today what he does when he's in his lab researching. And he says well I'm a scientist, I research. Well I know that but what are you researching? And he says do you really want to know? And I say yes. So he says okay, fine, come in here Len and I'll show you.
Well I don't know why he didn't just tell me but I say okay and follow him. And then he goes and sits at the stool he always sits at and says I research a lot of things, I program lots of things, which do you want to know about? And I ask why can't you just give me an overview please?
And he says well scientists don't do overviews, so I will start with the People Creator. Then he gets up and walks to the People Creator room and sits down at the people maker computer. He says remember this Len? And I say Doctor how could I forget, I hate this thing. And he laughs and says you would. Okay Len, I'm going to tell you how I make people. First you pull up their picture, I'll just pull up yours and Rin's as an example. Then he clicks the picture of me and Rin and I look down at my clothes because they're the same as in the picture and I realize oh I wear this all the time, and the Doctor says that's involuntary programming, everyone made from the People Creator come out in their trademark outfit and they automatically wear it when they don't think carefully about what to wear. Despite being a failed model you're no different. Then he opens me and Rin's picture into a different program and clicks Rin's side of the picture.
Here I program personality characteristics. Does this sound like Rin to you? I look at the screen and it says kind, friendly, sarcastic, smart, takes responsibility when necessary, and then I stop reading because those are all things Rin is like. See what I mean? The Doctor says and I nod. And then he says, what's interesting though is that because you failed not all your characteristics came out properly. I look again. Kind but arrogant, thoughtless, often resorts to violence when confused, often asserts he is a man, careless, often full of himself. And then I stop reading and say well Doctor I don't think I'm arrogant I hope? And the Doctor says no, you're not, and I think the last thing I would call you is thoughtless, you think too much. I think reading these things are strange, I guess that's reading into a person a little too much.
But programming these people take a very long time, because you have to input many many situations and how the person would react so that the real person has personality. And I say ooh can you do an example of me? And the Doctor scrolls down the page and I look at one of them. Pencil gets stolen by irritating classmate; what does Len Kagamine do? Stands up and says man you are annoying, give that back! I say well Doctor that doesn't sound like me either, even if someone is annoying, if they steal a pencil maybe they're poor and they need it. And the Doctor laughs and says had enough for one day? And I say no I'm still curious, wait Doctor, once you said these pictures are Vo, what's Vo?
And the Doctor looks startled for a second before looking at me calmly and putting his hand on my head. That's enough information for one day, Len, I'm getting back to work now. And then he leads me out the People Creator room and locks the door and goes back to his stool and looks through a microscope.
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Today at lunch Meiko said hey guys, my mom just bought tickets for everyone to go biking in the mountains. She said that since I only have a week left until I graduate, we all should do something fun. And Miku asks when is it? The rest of us still have final exams. And Meiko says Miks don't be so stuffy, it's after school's over, we'll all go to the mountains in a bus and go down this long bike path that goes all the way down the mountain. Just think of it guys, come on, the nice warm summer air blowing in your faces!
Gakupo says that sounded nice until the blowing in your face part, I don't want my hair to be messed u—we'd love to! That's what Luka interrupted Gakupo to say. And then Gakupo said but—and Luka interrupted him and said all of us.
And Meiko laughed and says awesome! Here's your tickets guys, on that day meet me at my house and we'll all go to the bus station together!
Well I've never ridden on a bike before, but all the guys on TV that ride bikes make it look terrible! They're all sweaty and well it doesn't look too pleasant, but if Rin and Kaito and everyone else besides Gakupo is excited to go then it must be fun.
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When Meiko goes up on the platform to get her diploma, we all shout and cheer and yell yay Meiko! And then she turns and smiles at us and waves and we're glad she knows we're cheering for her. It's going to be so different without her.
I remember the Doctor said once that he made all of us with his People Creator. I wonder if he's proud of Meiko? I know Meiko's mom is, she is sitting with us and she's crying and patting her eyes with her handkerchief and saying our little Meiko is grown up! And Meiko's dad is patting her shoulders.
But then when I think about it, I wonder did the Doctor really make Meiko more than ten years ago? I don't think computers existed that long ago. Or maybe they did, I don't know. Maybe the Doctor puts fake memories into the parent's heads too.
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Bike riding? Len, that is absolutely preposterous! No, Rin, he's not ready to go, he is staying right here. You know that he is deteriorating, he can't handle something like that, besides if something happens I'm not there to help, and—okay Doctor, we get it.
I'll just go to my room, I guess. Bye Rin. And then the Doctor watches me go and I close my door and open the window and I say okay coming! And then I start squirming out the window but it closes on me and I yelp ow by accident and Rin is like Len shhh he's going to hear! And I bite my lip and try to get through but the window's stuck, Rin Rin help! And I reach out my hands and she pulls me out the window just as the Doctor opens my door and yells what the?
And then before he can catch us, me and Rin are running down the sidewalk laughing.
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Len, you've been being very naughty lately, you know that? I keep telling you, don't do things like bike riding and running and trying new foods and I'm really regretting building you that window and well the Doctor is just a stuffy old Doctor and so I don't really listen to him any more.
I'm going to die, right? So I might as well enjoy my time left here, that's what I think.
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Len, I'm fed up with you. I'm going to board that stupid window we built you. You always sneak out of it, you're driving me nuts, I can't keep track of you. I look at the Doctor wide eyed. You're not really going to, right, right? You and Ted and Rin built it so I could see outside!
And he says you lost your seeing privileges, go wait in the laboratory while I board your window up. No no, Doctor no, please please please wait I promise I'll be good I promise! I promise, don't board it, please don't, it makes my room—he shoves me in.
I just sit on the floor and cry. The Doctor doesn't know anything, he doesn't know that having a window makes you feel like you're a person not a robot, and having a window lets you see outside and it makes you feel happy in the morning, he doesn't understand, he doesn't understand!
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I don't feel happy any more. I think the Doctor wants to isolate me from the world, now, and everything I've built outside of this laboratory. It doesn't feel like home any more. The Doctor locks me in, he says Len I'd love to run some tests on you, that'll keep you busy if you'd like, no I wouldn't like it, I hate the tests and experiments and the test tubes, I want to be outside playing with Rin. Well you can't play any more, you keep forgetting that you are not fit for playing.
I am fit for playing, see Doctor, I haven't broke in months and months. That doesn't mean you're healthy Len, god, sit down and sit quietly.
The Doctor doesn't understand anything. Maybe when I cry he says that's so annoying, crying boys are bad boys, so they have to sit inside and wait to die. That's what I think.
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Len, swallow the tears while I tell you something important. First off crying is not going to make you better, secondly I've discovered why on earth you can cry without short circuiting yourself. Salt water, Len, tears are salt water, but food and rain is pure water. I guess you're okay with salt water. It just happens I used salt water in that test tube, it…
I don't care about salt water. I want to see Rin.
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God dammit, Len, do you ever shut up? How can you cry like this for days and days and days on end, I think I'm going to keep this headache for the rest of my life. And I say well Doctor, I don't want to wait and die, I want to go outside with Rin. And the Doctor says don't you want to sit quietly and live longer?
But I said no, no, I want to go out now, it's okay if I die faster, I want to go outside and play with Rin.
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Doctor, why won't you let Rin inside? I promise we won't go anywhere, I promise, I just want to talk to her. No, she puts crazy ideas into your head, so does Ted, you are going to stay inside this laboratory Len whether you like it or not.
And me and the Doctor argue every day. I feel like I've been rotting in here for days, days, weeks, years, years, years, tears.
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Fine, I'll let her in, just this once, if you two set one foot outside, I swear Len, you are never leaving this place again. Okay Doctor, okay I promise to be good, I promise! So he lets Rin inside and she says Len oh Len I'm sorry and I'm so glad to hug her again because I think the Doctor's had me locked in here for weeks.
Len, stop crying, it's okay, he'll let you out eventually, right Doctor? But he doesn't answer and goes back into his lab. That means no, I say, and hug Rin and cry on her shoulder and say he's never, ever, ever letting me out of here ever.
And Rin says no, that's not true, he can't keep you here forever right? And I nod a little and say well, no he can't because I'm not going to last forever. And then Rin says Lennn, stop being so negative, it's not like you, come on, we need to get you to smile. Lay down over here.
Okay, what now? Now, big hug! And she hugs me really tight, and then we just lay on the floor for a while. But Rin's arms are warm and feel nice, Rin is so nice. She says Len, have you slept at all? And I say no, why, I don't need to sleep. When I sleep it's like nightmares, Rin, I dream about everyone and all the fun we used to have. And Rin hugs me tight again and I say Rin, can you just stay here forever? And I curl up with my head under her chin. And she says if I can, Len, I'll stay here as long as you want.
And Rin stayed there until I fell asleep, right there.
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Rin, don't you need to go home? Don't you have parents that worry about you? The Doctor keeps trying to make Rin leave but she holds my hand and says sure I have parents but they let me do what I want, and right now I want to stay right here. And she sits back down right next to me on the floor.
Then the Doctor grumbles and leaves. Then I say Rin, do you think the Doctor's gone crazy? I think he's gone crazy, he wasn't like this before. And Rin says I don't know, this does seem a little strange. Maybe he discovered something.
I wonder what he discovered?
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He won't say anything. Rin and I have been asking him for three days so far and he won't say anything. I'm so glad Rin's here with me, I'm so glad. I think that I won't die as fast now, I learned in school that happy people live longer.
I'm not really a person, but I think that being happier will make me live longer. At the least, at least I won't die crying. I want to die a happy robot boy, with Rin right next to me like she is now, holding my hand.
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Hey Len, do you know why thunder and lightning happens? But there's another crash of thunder when she says that and I'm shaking. W w w well it's magnets r right? And Rin says close, there's negative and positive charges in the sky. Rin does lightning go towards people on purpose? No it doesn't really, it's attracted to water or things standing out in the open.
Rin, I want to feel the rain. Len, you don't really want to, anyway. It's cold and wet. What's it like to be wet? And Rin doesn't answer.
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I still hear the pitter pattering of rain on the roof. I want to go outside, I want to go outside and feel wet. I want to feel the rain. I don't care about the thunder and lightning now, they're not scary, it's been going on for three days, I want to go outside and feel wet. I don't even care about short circuiting, because I know it'll just happen sooner or later anyway.
Rin says being wet isn't fun like playing in the snow. She says it's cold and miserable. But I say, it's cold and miserable in here too Rin, aren't you cold and miserable? She says only a little. Don't worry about me Len, it's worth it.
I want to go outside and feel the rain.
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Rin said hey Len I'll be right back, I'm gonna try talking to the Doctor. And I say okay. And then she goes in and I wait outside because I want to hear what they're saying.
I think you've both malfunctioned, you can't keep him in here, and now he wants to run out into the rain and kill himself! I can't malfunction, I'm not a robot like he is. Doctor, what's gotten into you? Did you discover something that you're hiding from us? Ahem ahem what Rin? I didn't quite hear that. Did you discover something you're hiding!
And then their voices go quiet and I'm trying to hear but I can't hear. Then Rin comes out and she looks like her mind isn't on much any more. Rin? What'd he say? She says nothing, he didn't say… anything.
I wish Rin wouldn't lie to me too, I thought Rin was the only person I could trust, and now she's hiding things from me too.
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Rin stopped holding my hand. She's sitting alone in a corner, her eyes are dull and she is just sitting there quietly. Rin? I ask, if you want to go home, that's okay, I'm okay now, I have Banana after all. But Rin says ahh, no, I'm sorry, I… and then she trails off.
Then she falls asleep so I crack the front door open. It's still raining, and then I see a big flash of lightning and then the thunder comes right after. I'm a little scared, I'm a little scared, but I reach my hand out the door.
It feels so strange, like a million people poking my skin all at once. I don't know how to describe being wet. Now I know why Rin didn't say anything. But it feels nice. I like how it feels, I really like how it feels! It hits me all of a sudden and I hop out the door and the rain flattens my hair onto my face and it makes me feel cold but it's just pounding on me. I run out to the middle of the street where there's no trees or houses blocking the rain, and I just stand there because it feels so nice.
But then my head feels stiff. Really stiff. And then my neck hurts, oh yeah, my port, rain got in my port, oh no, oh no, oh n—
Then there was a huge flash of light, I see white, I feel hot! Hot! I feel strong, but hot! Hot hot hot! I feel wow wow I don't know what I feel but I sure feel strange. Then I hear Rin screaming but I still see white and I don't feel the rain any more. I just feel feel feel feel feel I don't know what I feel!
Then the white fades and I see Rin right in front of me, Len come on, get out of the street, you're in the rain, you'll—it's okay, I'm okay see? The Doctor lied, I can stand in the rain after all! And Rin grabs my arm but screams and holds her hand, L L Len you're hot, you—Rin Rin what happened? Rin are you okay? I reach out for her but she backs up Len what's wrong with you nothing's wrong with me, I can walk in the rain see? See? See Rin I can walk in the rain!
I feel like I could run a million laps in the rain, in the rain, I like the rain Rin but are you okay? Your hand is all burned…
I I'm o k kay, c'mon Len, l let's go i inside… Okay Rin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll come now. So I walk next to her but she doesn't touch me and when we're inside she says Doctor Doctor! And he comes rushing out, what happened, did—oh my god, Len, what's wrong with you?
I walked in the rain, Doctor, you were lying, weren't you? No, you shouldn't have… but Len, your eyes are yellow. That's silly Doctor, you're just making up excuses, can I go back out? I like the rain!
Len, come in here? Look in a mirror, your eyes are yellow. You too, Rin, what happened to your hand? He's hot, he's so hot, I touched…
Okay come on you two in here. Rin, sit there. Len, sorry, but I have to examine you right now, what happened? I walked in the rain Doctor, it made me flash white and I can walk in the rain. The Doctor puts a hand to his head and says dear god, what's happening now? Len, for God's sake look in a mirror!
So I go to his wall because I don't want the Doctor to get mad but I look and oh my gosh my eyes are yellow! Doctor why are my eyes yellow, Doctor I'm scared, what's happening to me? Doctor Doctor help help, why are my eyes yellow, what's wrong with me?
I don't know, Len, I don't know, don't start crying now oh God, Len get in the test tube, I know you hate it, but this time it's important. I don't want to but why why are my eyes yellow? Am I dying right now? I don't want to die inside the test tube, I don't—
Len please? I don't want you to die! Rin got up off the table and was walking towards me, she's crying, oh no Rin please don't cry too! Len don't die, I don't want you to die yet, I—
I don't know why, but I turned around and went in the test tube this time. I'm not going to drown, or short circuit, because because, I can stand in the rain and I feel like the sun is living inside of me.
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Len? Len, open your eyes… I blink and then I blink again. Don't say a word, I still don't want you swallowing water, even if it's salt water. What color are my eyes, Doctor? Are they blue again? Please tell me they're my light too blue blue, the kind of blue like ice glaciers on TV, are they blue?
Thank God, it looks like whatever happened to you's subsided now, it looks like you got hit by lightning and supercharged. Is that what happened? Oh. That makes sense.
I try and look for Rin but I can only move my eyes so I don't know if she's there or not. I hope her hand is okay, I didn't mean to— Len, don't be reckless any more, I have something to tell you, I noticed that your brain scans are deteriorating rapidly, as well as your heart and breathing mechanisms – your thinking is more fuzzy and vague, have you noticed? Also, have you noticed how the days are blending together for you? I'm sorry I have to tell you this, Len, you're dying faster than I could have ever anticipated.
I am? Oh.. oh, okay, I'm dying, that's the big secret. I.. I don't want to die. I've been thinking about it, and thinking about it, and saying no it's okay I'm just a robot boy nothing more I'm kind of not really alive, it's okay if I die, but I.. I I don't want to die! I hope at least the Doctor lets me out, I really don't want to die in a test tube, if I'm gonna die I at least don't want to die in the test tube.
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