A/N: Hey All!
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So here we go, separation chapter *tear*
And a massive thank you and hug to Angelheart24 for suggesting the perfect (well in my opinion perfect and obviously theirs too) song for Clary to sing and I'm not telling you all what it is!
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CLARY LOOKED OUT OF THE WINDOW FROM HER STEP FATHER LUKE'S HOUSE AS THE RAIN AND SLEET CAME DOWN. It was Christmas and she was dressed in all new clothes. A blue pleat bodice dress with a black belt around the waist, Pierre Hardy peep toe boots, multi mix bracelets, butterfly pave ring, 14K yellow gold multi-gemstone cocktail ring, silver large hooped earrings and a Juicy couture encrusted music note necklace.
She had been most surprised by the music note necklace as it came with a note saying;
My gift is my song and this one's for you
Jace had sent her a gift. A gift she never planned on taking off.
"Clary, are you ready for dessert?" Her mother, Jocelyn Garroway, called from behind her. Clary looked up and nodded walking back to the dinner table for the dessert she and Simon always fought for.
"I'll kick your butt this time Fray."
Clary smirked at him. "You have much to learn young Padawan." Simon shook his head at her as his mother served the dessert.
And just like she predicted, Clary got the first slice. Simon watched in great envy as Clary took the first bite.
"Don't frown Simon, you'll get wrinkles," his mother said and Simon scowled. "Simon what did I just say?"
Clary giggled at the mother and son spat, until of course the attention was put on her.
"Where'd you get the necklace Clary?" Luke asked, eyeing the music note hanging around her neck.
"It-it was a gift." She stuttered slightly.
"From whom?" Simon asked, looking very interested.
"A, a student gave me it as a Christmas gift. He said it was for helping him do so much better than he ever had in English."
"A boy?" Of course her mother's hearing chose that moment to pick up. Clary rolled her eyes.
"Yes mum, your 24 year old daughter who is a high school teacher teaches boys. Shocker."
Jocelyn looked a little embarrassed. "Sorry, maybe he has a crush on you."
Oh it's more than a crush.
"Maybe. Not that it matters of course, I'm a professional." Simon laughed a little at that, and Clary shot him a death glare.
"Luke, is my piano still around?" She asked deciding to call Jace now.
"It's out in the shed; we made it into a makeshift music room, completely soundproof."
She smiled. "Thanks. Loved the dessert as always Mrs. Lewis, night all."
They chorused a good night and Clary walked to the shed, flicking the light switch and locking the door. She pulled her phone out and dialled Jace's number.
"Hello?" He asked sounding sad. Clary's heart thumped at his voice.
"Hey it's me." Clary said happily.
"Clary?!" He asked in pure disbelief.
"Were you expecting someone else?" She asked a little jealousy creeping into her voice.
"No I-I just," he sighed before continuing. "I miss you."
"I know, but I'll be back before you know it." She smiled and then remembered he couldn't see her. "I really love the necklace." She said and heard him chuckle.
"It was stupid. I should have gotten you something- I dunno, prettier."
"Jace, it's perfect and I have something for you." She sat at the piano bench hoping it wasn't going to sound cheesy. She had this song in her head the whole flight to New York and once she wrote it down she came up with the melody.
"Clary you have already given me so much-"
"Jace I'm nervous enough so just please, shut up." She said staring at the piano keys as if they would bite her from touching them.
Jace was silent and she took that as a sign that meant go on.
Clary placed her fingers on the correct keys, hoping, no praying, she could play as well as she remembered.
The melody started and Clary's voice began with it.
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Jace's Christmas had, more or less, sucked. His grandmother had gone away until the third of January for some tournament for some bull shit. Izzy and Alec were on a cruise with their parents. Maia, Magnus, Sebastian even Aline were busy and the worst of all Clary was gone and he missed her with a deep aching pain he hoped would diminish. He thought about calling her, but he knew she was probably eating Christmas dinner with her family… probably not even giving him a second thought.
He sighed as he lay back reading Hush Hush. He was almost finished. Really it was a great book, but he was just doing it to pass the time and there was no way in hell he was reading Twilightor giving Clary ideas to cover him in glitter. Hell no! Edward Cullen could suck himself before he, Jace Herondale, became on over-obsessed teenage girl.
Suddenly his phone went off, and Jace answered immediately.
"Hello?" He asked, looking forward to talking to someone-anyone-to help with the boredom. But he knew that only hearing Clary's voice would make him truly happy.
"Hey it's me."
"Clary?!"
"Were you expecting someone else?" He heard the jealousy there but he thought it was silly, who else could there be?
"No I-I just miss you." He admitted.
"I know but I'll be back before you know it." Jace smiled at the thought.
"I really love the necklace."
She did? That made him chuckle. He thought it was corny.
"It was stupid. I should have gotten you something, I dunno, prettier," though he couldn't think of a pretty thing that wouldn't be outshined by Clary's beauty.
"It's perfect Jace, and I have something for you."
"Clary you have already given me so much."
"Jace, I'm nervous enough so just please, shut up."
Jace went silent, figuring there was no point in speaking if she was just going to bite his head off. Then he heard the most beautiful sound, piano keys and the voice of his Clary singing.
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights so long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy...
Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you
When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
When I look At You I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I Know I'm Not Alone.
Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you
When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
You appear just like a dream to me
Just like Kaleidoscope colors that
Cover Me, All I need every
Breath that I breathe don't you know
You're beautiful...
Yea Yea Yea
When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
I look at you
Yea Yea Oh OH OH
And you appear Just like a dream
To me.
Jace didn't have words. The lyrics, the melody, the voice all of it was perfect. He couldn't even describe how it made him feel.
"Jace?" Clary asked, sounding a little worried.
"I uh-I, that was, it was beautiful. I can't even-" He drew in a deep breath. Where had his eloquence gone?! "I love you." That was all he could say and it was true, he did love her more than he thought he could love anyone.
"You liked it?" She asked unsure
"Liked it? Liked it?" He scoffed. "Clary it was the single most beautiful song I have ever heard and the fact that it was for me, about me, makes it that much more beautiful."
"I wish you were here to hear it. I would come back earlier but I have to spend time with my mom and Luke."
"I understand Clary." He did to a point understand that she had to stay since she lived far away from her parents. He just wished she was here.
"Maybe, I'll come back a day earlier and..." She trailed off knowing if she did come back they would not be able to see each other again until school started.
"Clary its okay, I'll just have to wait until school starts. I have to go, but I'll call or text you later. I love you." Jace said, wishing he could talk to her forever.
"I love you too." Then she hung up.
Jace made his way up the stairs to the bathroom so he could shower and then he would finally get some sleep.
**********
Clary hung up and made her way back to the house hoping to shower and lie in bed until sleep took her.
She lay in bed and heard voices carry to her from outside her door. It was her mother and Simon.
"Simon, this student that gave Clary the necklace, he- they aren't… you know?"
"No they aren't. Clary wouldn't be that naive to begin a relationship with a student."
"Good, I mean she shouldn't. It's not right. She should be with someone her own age. Is she dating?"
"She was seeing someone, he owned a hotel or something but I don't know what happened there." Even Clary heard the anxiety in his voice. "Listen, Miss-Mrs Garroway, Clary is a smart girl and she wouldn't involve herself with a student and if she gained feelings for one she would wait a few years or at least until the student graduated before pursuing a relationship."
Clary heard her mother sigh. "You're right, she would, I guess I'm just paranoid."
"It's understandable." Then Clary heard no more.
Oh god what had she done?!
In starting a relationship with Jace she had gone against everything she believed she had completely disregarded how others would feel and for what? A few nights of happiness?
Jace was a high school student; the love he felt was probably just infatuation. He didn't love her, not like she loved him, certainly not. He couldn't, and now she was going to have to do something that would kill her on the inside.
I love you Clary, sweet dreams xoxo Jace
She read the text and felt tears in her eyes.
She had to end it and break both of their hearts; it was the only way, the only way they could live. This relationship would amount to nothing and Jace would leave her so the sooner she did this the easier it would be for everyone.
She knew that she loved Jace, and he might think he loved her but he didn't. It was a fling. It wasn't love in its truest form. They would both move on from this, they had to.
Clary re-read the text again and again, knowing it would be the last he would send her.
She had to break his heart and shatter her own soul in the process.
She never responded to another of his texts while in New York.
She couldn't.
Oh no! Bad Clary's conscience!
So don't hurt me! I know your all like, Bitch don't you dare break them apart!
Will it happen? Remember there is still Valentine's Day ;)
So Question or request; Can someone please send me the dialogue in the COG epilogue when Clary and Jace are talking about the lack of forbidden? Starting with "Aline said you wouldn't be interested..." It would be greatly appreciated and you will get an excerpt :)
And the song that was suggested by Angelheart24 was; When I look at you by Miley Cyrus
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