"I don't understand. So you are saying Katherine is alive?" Stefan's face lit up on the last word.
"Yes we think she lied to protect herself from the originals since they know about Elena they would be looking for her first. But lets not forget Steffy that dear Katherine wants Elena dead." Damon shot me a look.
Lexi began pacing the room. "I know how Katherine is. This sounds right up her alley. Pretending to be dead. Telling Elena she was dead so you guys thought she was as well. But Stefan I do have to say it sounds like Katherine to kill Elena once the curse is lifted."
Stefan shook his head in disbelief. He was still in love with her too. Maybe my choice wasn't going to be so hard after all. Maybe Stefan had already chosen who he would prefer. Maybe he would prefer me dead over her.
"Maybe not". He said walking over to the fireplace and looking into the flames. "Say she is alive guys. I wouldn't put it past her to be alive and lie about her death. But if Elena is her doppleganger, her twin it's not going to be easy to kill her. They have a bond stronger than anything we can understand."
Damon interrupted, "But she doesn't need Elena. What if Elena chooses you Stefan? Katherine already chose you? You think she is going to run around in a fairytale romance with her look alike that she sent to you for the soul purpose of protection not for you to want to be with for eternity. Think about it Stefan. Elena is a risk to her happiness. She is selfish. When has she ever done a selfless thing, ever!"
I was sitting quietly on the couch as they went back and forth about me as if I wasn't sitting right here.
"Would you let anything happen to Elena?" Damon snapped at Stefan.
"Of course not." Stefan shot back shocked at Damon's question.
"Could you kill Katherine if that meant protecting Elena"? Damon shot right back.
Stefan was quiet for a moment. I don't know if that was the fairest question although I wanted to know the answer.
I stood up and they all looked at me waiting for me to say something.
"I think we need to find Isobel. She is after all my mother. I want to know what she knows and what Katherine has told her about the doppleganger curse. I have a feeling Isobel lied to me to hide Katherine but I think she may be mislead by Katherine about what I am really going to be used for when Katherine comes to find me. I want to go to my room to lay down. Today was allot of information and too many revelations for me to take in. I need to think on my own for a few moments." I turned away from them and headed into my room. They didn't say a word and when I closed my door behind myself they began to talk.
I sat there in silence listening as Damon and Stefan went back and forth using this new information to try and one up the other. Who loves Elena more? And who would be willing to protect her at all cost? Lexi would chime in from time to time but she even got tired of the war and went to her room. It was usually hard to drown out other conversations in the house but tonight it was easy. After awhile my own thoughts became loud in my mind and all I could hear was the insecurities roaming wildly inside.
Would Stefan choose Katherine over me? Would I care if he did? Does he love me enough to protect me? Or will there be a war between brothers when it all came down to it? How could I ask him to kill Katherine and save me if I was supposed to be with Damon? Damon was over Katherine all together so I knew he had nothing to risk by protecting me but Stefan had so much. I hate this twin crap.
I needed to get away to just escape for awhile. I left my room quickly and rushed for the front door. Damon was the first to the door. He stood in front of me intense looking me in the eyes. I stared for a moment and looked away before the flames could take me.
"What Damon". I asked annoyed.
"Where are you going Elena"? He replied in a snarky tone.
"Outside Damon".
"Where outside Elena"?
"Damon I'm going to take a walk." He stood there staring at me as if I was as fragile as glass. I glance behind me Stefan was starring at our interaction.
Frustrated at the spectacle he was making I spoke "Look I really need to get out of here. Please move".
Damon moved out of the way allowing me to open the door and slide through. It was clear outside and immediately I looked up at the stars and inhaled the fresh air. It felt good in my mouth. Damon stood next to me. What did he want now? I stood starring at him as if he was a freak show until he spoke.
"What you think I'm going to let you out alone. No way. You want to get away for awhile let me take you somewhere." I couldn't say no. I didn't want to say no. I hadn't been alone with him in weeks. I missed him. I shook my shoulder and he walked me to his car.
The drive there wasn't very long it was just windy deep through the forest to a part I had never been before. He grabbed some flashlights from the trunk and held his hand out for me to hold. I did and it was so nice to touch him without it being evaluated and examined by everyone trying to figure out the meaning of such an easy gesture.
"Where are we"? I asked as I followed him into the dark forest.
"We are at a place I used to come to when I was a boy. Stefan and I have kept it up never letting anyone buy the land. You needed to escape I needed to escape so I thought here would be the perfect place." He took his flashlight and shone it forward. I could make out a tiny cabin across the pond. It was quaint and quiet. Peaceful looking.
"Will Stefan worry if we don't come back tonight"? I asked stating to feel a bit guilty for wanting this more than anything else tonight.
"If he does then he is an idiot. Your with me. You are fine. Watch your step" he said as he lead me up the stairs and into the cabin. He started lighting little lanterns as he walked through the place. It was clean and smelled fresh. There were fresh flowers on the table and a cute little sofa in the living room. I saw a small hallway leading to obviously a bathroom and bedroom. Damon disappeared down it. I saw light come from one of the doors and decided to enter. We were alone and I wanted to be near him.
He sat on the bed contemplating something. I walked over sat next to him.
"What's wrong"? I asked puzzled.
He looked up and smiled that boyish grin, "One bed. I could probably fit on that sofa but".
I cut him off mid sentence and looked into his eyes. They smoldered. Fire. I was engulfed with flames. Passion swirled all over me as if drowning me in Damon. He felt it too because the next thing I knew his lips were crushed on mine. His soft lips and sweet tongue caressing mine. It was intoxicating. I felt like I was under the influence of something so powerful. His hands were on my body touching every part of me as if he memorized every curve and dip of my body. He found his way to my top where he pulled it off gently. No ripping clothes this time. It was different. His mouth made its way down my neck and to my breast where he stayed for a moment. His hands moved to my pants, where he began unbuttoning and pulling down the zipper. My hands were exploring going up his back and pulling his t-shirt over his head. My fingers traced the contours of his back and making their way to his chest and down to his pants pulling them off in one swift pull. His hip bones popped out of his white boxer briefs that hugged his body nicely. I traced my finger over them and he exhaled in pleasure.
Damon then pulled my pants down along with my underwear and along with his. We sat there for a moment on my back and him hovering over me our naked bodies on fire for each other and he looked into my eyes with so much feeling and passion.
He whispered to me "I love you Elena" and entered me and I knew I was home. I knew this is where I belonged and I knew that I didn't want to be anywhere else but here with Damon forever with him. I thought I could avoid him. I thought I could put what happened between us that night in the back of my mind to focus on what it was I felt for Stefan but in this moment I knew that what I felt for Stefan was love but it wasn't this love. The love I needed. The love I hungered for and lived for everyday. The love Damon was offering to me tonight and every day since the moment he saw me in that Grill. His love. The undying selfless love that he provided to me without flaws without an agenda. It was pure and more real than anything I have ever felt in my entire life. He was who I was destined to be with now that I was a vampire. I knew it he may even have felt it but Stefan would have to find out and I still didn't know how this was going to happen or play out. But for now I just laid in the arms of the man that I couldn't live without and basked in the delight of our bodies intertwined in a dance that only we knew the steps to.