A/N:

Sorry for the late update! Just not been happy with the action scenes I've been writing but a recent review by Kel (Thank You) has made me determined to tackle this again. So heres the first part while I work on the rest of the story. Hope you guys like it.

WARNING: Yaoi and more Angst!

CHAPTER 14

Iruka had finally been allowed to take both his lovers home after receiving the all clear. They had 2 days together before Kakashi and Yamato had to leave to join the re-con team. Iruka was determined to savour every moment he got with Kakashi and Yamato, he could see some of his old lover returning behind all the pain. He just hoped he was strong enough both mentally and physically to stand up to whatever that energy they had encountered was.

Yamato felt guilty as he watched Iruka's reflection in the mirror brush out his hair absent minded. He stood in front of the mirror with a towel wrapped around his waist after his shower; his long luscious brown hair fell just below his shoulders and stuck to his neck in places where it was still damp. Iruka caught Yamato's eyes in the mirror and a sad smile spread across Iruka's face "Hi" he rasped swallowing the lump in his throat. Yamato returned the smile and came over wrapping his arms around Iruka to rest his head on the Chunin's shoulder. "Iruka, I will come back to you, you know that right? I'll make sure Kakashi comes back too" Yamato tried to assure him. Iruka sighed and sank into Yamato's touch. Since Yamato had opened up he had been more willing to touch them, hold them and even initiate kissing and cuddling sessions to both Kakashi and Iruka's joy.

"Yamato, it's OK babe, I do understand. I just wish I could be with you". Iruka felt his lung capacity decrease and all of a sudden he found it hard to breath. He knew Yamato had to do this, was glad Kakashi would be there to support him but he didn't have to like it. "I'm being selfish babe. I know you have to do this, but I just want you both for myself. All I'm doing is thinking about myself and how much I'll miss both your bodies beside me. I'm sorry I'm not as self-less as Kakashi, his always thinking about you, about us. Don't worry about me OK?"

Yamato couldn't believe what he was hearing "Ruka listen to me, your nothing but self-less. After everything I've put you through I don't deserve you or Kakashi. I'm the one being selfish by going on the mission and making you both worry. But I'm really sorry I have to do this, I'm sorry for always being a burden" he nuzzled Iruka's shoulder. Kakashi had come out after his shower and watched both his lovers from the door jamb with a smile at the loving sight before him. He approached them wrapping his arm around Yamato tentatively and rested his head on his shoulder when he felt Yamato relax into his touch.

"Your both right, your both selfish" Kakashi chuckled as the other two raised their eyebrows at him "but I love you both none the less" he finished. "Iruka, we will come back to you so we can keep you warm in bed. Yamato you are a burden but you're our burden and we love you for it". Iruka and Yamato shared a glance, Kakashi could be romantic in a not so romantic way and both smiled at his indifference. This was his way of telling them he loved them. "Can I get a kiss?" he asked as he nuzzled Yamato's shoulder, he needed to feel them, he may put on a calm front but inside he was shaking.

Iruka turned in Yamato's arm and cupped Kakashi's face not surprised at all to find his cheek clammy from nervousness. "Don't hide yourself behind jokes Kashi" Iruka chided him affectionately kissing him slow and deeply. He moved away to let Kakashi gather himself and kissed Yamato. Yamato released an arm from around Iruka and threaded it through Kakashi's hair pulling him closer for a kiss of their own. He moaned as Kakashi sucked on his tongue "I want you" Yamato whimpered into his mouth taking both Iruka and Kakashi by surprise. "Erm…are you sure" Kakashi asked. Yamato's eyes flickered with emotion which Kakashi deciphered as hurt, possibly rejection "Yamato, you don't have to if you're not ready".

The black almond shaped eyes avoided both their gaze "Don't…don't you guys want me anymore?" he asked in such a quiet voice that it niggled at Kakashi's heart strings.

"Yamato, god Yamato. Are you serious?" Kakashi asked lifting his lovers chin towards him so he could look into those deep black pools. "What does this feel like Yama?" he ground his hard length into Yamato's back causing him to moan again and he blushed beautifully in their arms. "I've wanted you every day for so long" he growled low in his throat as he grinded his length against Yamato's cleft "but I didn't want to push you". Kakashi continued to roll his hips and left a trail of kisses up Yamato's neck "but we will only do this if you're ready for us".

Iruka nodded in agreement "Yamato, if only you knew what you do us" he kissed and nipped Yamato's jaw. "Your sexy body has done nothing but torment us for the last few months. Seeing it so badly damaged and bruised we just wanted to wrap you in our arms and never let go. This is why it's so hard for me to watch you go on a mission again" Iruka said nuzzling Yamato's cheek tenderly and then began to leave his own trail of kisses on the other side of Yamato's neck. "So Yamato" Iruka said with a smirk nibbling Yamato's collar "tell us what you want to do. What you need".

Yamato sighed in relief and felt his cheeks grow red again "Kashi, Ruka I…I want to feel you both. I need…you both…please". They had both yearned for so long to hear those words. They closed their eyes and took a deep breath both releasing groans of pleasure at his words. Kakashi carried on kissing along Yamato's jaw and then captured his lips battling with Yamato's tongue tasting the mouth he missed so much. Iruka kissed his way down Yamato's body, hands touching and kissing the scars left behind from the war whilst slipping off Yamato's pants. He kissed down one leg and then up the other relishing the moans coming from both his lovers. He looked up at both Kakashi and Yamato lost in a kiss and then smiled before swallowing Yamato whole releasing a gasp from him and taking Kakashi in his hand under the towel wrapped around his waist. He kissed, caressed and sucked Yamato until he felt a hand pulling at his hair. "Ruka…mmmm…not yet, please" Yamato groaned. Iruka turned to Kakashi and swallowed him giving him the same attention until he felt a tug in his hair. He kissed his way back up Yamato's body, playing with his nipple sucking and flicking it with his tongue and then captured his lips for a kiss off his own.

Kakashi prepared Yamato slowly knowing full well his lover was still recovering. Yamato winced with the feel of Kakashi preparing him but it felt good too. Kakashi guided both his lovers to the bed and gently laid Yamato down on his back as Iruka curled around him. Iruka and Kakashi began to kiss every inch of skin they could reach and touch until they felt Yamato lose all control under their torment. Iruka captured Yamato's lips "Oooo" Yamato moaned as the head of Kakashi entered him slowly. "Mmmmm am sorry baby, just hold on…you're so tight" Kakashi moaned at the feeling of Yamato around him. He pushed deeper "Aaahhh" Yamato whimpered as Kakashi filled him slowly. "Yama…baby...you OK?" He asked worried massaging Yamato's back to help ease the pain. It had been more than 5 months since Yamato had been stretched and he was worried about hurting him.

"Aaahhh Kashi...I'm fine babe, you feel so good…move already baby…I want to feel you". Kakashi chuckled and regained his composure slowly thrusting in and out of Yamato. Iruka placed a hand on Kakashi's back and wrapped his hand around Yamato stroking him to the rhythm of Kakashi's thrust. Yamato moaned with the feel of Kakashi inside of him and Iruka's hand on him he wasn't going to last much longer, but he needed to feel them both. "Iruka I want you too". He searched for Iruka and prepared him earning himself a moan. Kakashi eased of the thrusts as Yamato entered Iruka and they groaned in unison. Yamato moaned and felt his mouth being captured by Iruka, they knew Yamato wouldn't last much longer and nor would they as the beautiful sounds escaped Yamato's lips with each thrust. "Come for me Yama" Kakashi growled into his ear and pumped into him harder. The growl was all it took for him to go over the edge "Kashi, Ruka…Aaahhhh" Yamato screamed losing himself in the release. He felt Iruka come over his abdomen a few seconds later shouting his name and Kakashi followed thrusting hard once more, with his head back "Aaahhhh...YAMA!" and filled him with his seed.

All three remained as they were for a moment all tangled in each other's arms and legs. Kakashi gently eased out of Yamato causing him to wince and lay next to him with his arms around both his lovers. Yamato snuggled into Kakashi's chest whilst Iruka spooned Yamato's back head resting on his shoulder. Yamato let out a sigh and he felt both pairs of arm tighten around him. Kakashi raised Yamato's chin and whispered "Yama" with a worried look. He looked up and took Kakashi's lips kissing him deeply trying to show him how much he loved him and that he was alright now, they didn't have to worry. He then turned his head slightly and felt Kakashi's arms loosen so he could kiss Iruka. Yamato took Iruka's lips and kissed him to show him that his old Yamato was returning. He pulled away and Kakashi and Iruka shared a kiss of their own over his head. Yamato couldn't resist either of their necks and reached up to suck on the skin leaving marks first on Kakashi earning himself a gasp and then Iruka who moaned into Kakashi's mouth. Kakashi and Iruka looked at one another and both with a smile pounced and set to work on Yamato again.

-oOo-

They day arrived when Kakashi and Yamato had to leave, Iruka watched them prepare there packs and sat quietly biting his fingers anxiously. Yamato approached him with his head down "Iruka" he said questioningly not looking his lover in the eye "thank you" he said head still bowed "thank you for everything" he finally looked at Iruka whose eyes glistened with unshed tears.

"Oh Yamato" Iruka said pulling him into his arms so Yamato straddled his hips. Yamato wrapped his arms around Iruka's neck and held him kissing the top of his head until the sobs died down. Iruka lifted his head from Yamato's chest and smoothed out the ruffled Jounin vest "I'm OK now Yama". He cupped Yamato's face and looked into the almond shaped eyes and saw the traces of shadow still there "promise me, promise me if it gets too much you'll pull away. You'll tell Kakashi and you'll pull away. You don't need to prove anything to anyone love, so promise me" Iruka said desperately trying to get his message across. Yamato nodded solemnly and kissed Iruka thoroughly before getting out of his lap so Kakashi could say goodbye.

Iruka helped both of them with their flak jackets; they both held onto him one last time and kissed him before teleporting away. Iruka fell to his knees and buried his head into his hands, please, oh please let him them be OK he sobbed uncontrollably as his body trembled with each heart breaking cry.

-oOo-

Kakashi glanced at Yamato as they sped through the woods towards their location. He saw the subtle beads of perspiration on Yamato's neck. They had been traveling all day and night was soon approaching. "Maa Yamato" he said catching the brown haired Jounins attention "Let's find a place to rest". Yamato stopped in a clearing ahead thought for a few moments and constructed a small hut for Kakashi and himself complete with bed and a kitchenette area with table and chairs. Kakashi was used to Yamato's fine dwellings but he was still in awe at the structure "You never cease to surprise me" he said chuckling kissing him on the cheek with his masked lips.

Yamato blushed "I put up the tent, you're cooking".

Kakashi nodded laughing "Fine go rest in our tent, I'll call you when the foods ready". Yamato went into the hut and rested his eyes, his mind partly on the lover he left behind and the upcoming events. What if it really is Orochimaru? What if it's really my fault that he came back? What do I do? He wants me, won't leave me until he has me, that's what he said, I belong to him. Yamato's mind played over different scenario's as he shifted restlessly on the bed. He was so lost in thought he didn't sense Kakashi's presence watching him.

Kakashi padded softly over and placed a hand to Yamato's temple startling him "Yamato, rest" he said kissing his eyes as he fired a bolt of chakra through him to render him to sleep. It was a great technique he had picked up from Sakura when she wanted Naruto to rest or out of her way. Kakashi went back to preparing the food; Yamato would be out for at least 2 hours, plenty of time for him to read the scrolls that had arrived recently from the re-con team at the location. His eyes widened in shock as he read a hurriedly scrawled note in the middle of the page. Below it was a paragraph of explanation. They had lost a team member who died an honourable death. Even on his last leg bear had managed to get information to them, Kakashi's hand shook with both fear and anger as he dropped the scroll. The hurried scribble read Orochimaru alive; target CAT.