-14. What was I thinking?!?

After an evening splurging in their favourite desserts and wine the girls lounging in Emily's living room. Pen was afraid that either Lynch or Derek might come around or worst the latter wouldn't show up at all, this way she would never know, but that part she kept to herself.

''I don't know about you girls but I can't take another bite OR sip!'' said a groggy Penelope.

''Maybe, now that you stop stuffing something in every time we tried to talk to you, we could talk about the matter at hand.'' was the sarcastic reply of JJ.

''Did I say I was full?'' she said trying to grab the box of chocolate.

''Oh! No! You don't!'' said Emily snatching the box back ''You will sit down and talk even if it kills you! Pen, honey, this whole mess that you kept well hidden, thank you, came to a point where you have to make a firm decision! Either you cut out Derek completely or you make a go at stepping to the next level!''

''I say you cut him out; usually we use to fight him over you to get girl time! He wasn't even your boyfriend! But lately it seems we could whisk you away for a whole week and he would not have noticed! I first thought he did it because of Lynch, but we do know why now!'' said JJ, she knew she should be more supportive but enough was enough, nobody string along her friend like that!

She rooted for him since day one, when Lynch came along and he did nothing but stare the guy down still not opening up to Garcia, she played buffer thinking being push away might finally having him admit his feeling. But no! He had to go a find some floozies!

''JJ not helping!''

''She has a point Em, I never stop making time for you guys, especially him while I was dating, but it seems like it doesn't go both ways...''

The makeshift of bliss accomplish by her sugar high and wine was fading fast the more she thought about the situation.

''Ok, maybe he needs to straight out his priorities; I'll gladly kick his ass to help him out on it! Don't give up, talk to him when he comes back.''

''There's nothing to give up since there was nothing to start with! You all, God know why, thought we were this ideal potential couple! This was just harmless flirting! From where I sit the extra time outside work was because he needed a hole filler for everything except sex. I'm not saying he wasn't genuine during those time but why hang with me if you can get everything elsewhere?'' no, no, no she promised herself she wouldn't cry more than she already did!

But as much as she tried the tears came down.

''I mean how many times since you met meet have I been on dates? Men don't go for girls like me, if they do it's on the low! The men to whom I'm their type are already in meaningful relationship. And don't tell me it's because Derek was running interference! Men will fight to have girls like you and will prance around to show you off, me, they just give up at the first sign of trouble cause they think I'm not worth it.''

''Pen no! If they do think like that, well they just not worth it!'' said JJ rubbing her back while Emily was passing her tissues.

''It's ok you guys, I'll talk to Morgan, straight everything out and we'll go back to what we do best at work and I wont see him outside of it, anyway he'll be too busy with Mahogany, don't correct me I know what a real name is!''

''Pen don't you want to fight for it?''

''I'm not sure I want to or that I ever wanted to, maybe it was the ideal you people kept branding under my nose. Anyway I'm too tired for this shit, five years and a half girlies! Time to do a little clean up and reassess my priorities.''

''I swear I'm kicking his and Lynch's ass, I get first dibs, if there's anything left after I'm done Em and Hotch can fight over it!''

''Come on stop this lets watch 'A Walk In The Clouds' and remember that some men will fight for their heart, like JJ's honey! Then 'The Notebook' and will end with our favourite 'DIRTY DANCING', are you in?''

JJ and Emily look at each other and knew there was nothing they could do be there for their friend and nodded their heads.

''I'll go make pop corn!'' said Emily going to the kitchen with her cell phone hidden in her hand...

-Meanwhile at Morgan's place-

''Baby, I'm so going to miss you! When will I have the privilege to go on those trip to your mom's?''

''Ebony, we talk about this we're taking it slow. Help me finish packing.''

Something was wrong with Derek but she couldn't put her finger on it. Maybe his friends didn't like her, cause since the day she met two of them, he seemed kind of distant, always looking over his shoulder.

''Alright, how about I invite your dear friend Penelope for lunch, I feel like I know more about her then you, the way you keep talking about her. Do you know if she's busy on Sunday?''

''NO! I mean, yeah she's busy with her Lynch.''

''Okaaaay! Why do you always use this tone when you talk about her boyfriend? Are you jealous or something?''

''What? I already told you she's too good for him,'' he said not looking at her ''I can't understand why she can't see it'' he mumbled to himself.

''To go on lunch with Garcia, I'm the one who should invite both of you.''

''Alright baby'' she made a move to kiss him, he turns his head and it landed on his cheek, he hugged her .

''Der, for the past few days you've been distant, you were never the cuddling type, but you were warmer than this, what did I do?''

''Nothing, I'm just tired.''

''No! Don't give me this shit! What your friend disapproved of me? I might not be a profiler, but anyone could see the changes in you since we ran into them!''

''Stop it, we never got into a discussion about you!''

''Oh! I see, they just ignore the fact that I exist! What not good enough for the big bad FBI Morgan?''

''Now this is just crazy talk, we'll talk about this when I come back''

''NO NOW! I'll drive you to the airport but we're not leaving it like this!''

''Don't push me!''

''Or what?''

Derek took a deep breath, he's been turning this idea in his head since the ''meeting'', first he thought it was a fluke but the more the days pass without Pen the more it's all he could think about. He looked at Ebony, he had fun with her, it was supposed to be just fun, but she kind of worm her way into some kind of relationship with him before he even knew it. Every time he turn around she was there, he always thought that if he get into a relationship it would only happened, he guess that's why she was still there.

He knows his mother always told him that the best couples worked hard to get where they were. But he was tired, he had too much going on in his work and he was still dwelling with his past, which he thinks he'll never stop, to fight outside of it. So since Ebony kept popping around he thought maybe that was it. Pen would eat him alive if she heard that! Baby girl... what happened to them, everything that made what they had easy became complicated. Maybe he needed to clear the air, start anew, beg her for forgiveness for being less than present lately. Have a talk with her before any of the team came after him, his money was on JJ.

''Derek!''

He looked at her, any men would fight each other to get her attention, but she just wasn't what he needed.

''I'm sorry Eb, I can't do this.''

''I already told you I'm not letting you walk away from this.''

''I'm not walking away from this discussion, I'm walking away permanently. I'm sorry.''

''You're sorry? No, no, no, no, no. You can't break up over a fight!''

''We've been fighting a lot lately!''

''Only since we met your friends, I know their behind it! You want it over fine! But don't come crawling back to me when she just ignore you for her geek! What? You think I'm that dumb? No men talk about a woman the way you did if she's not a relative or someone you grew up with! I mean not only I look better than her but I've you see the way she dresses! I should of known you were a chubby chaser the way you convince me to drop my diet! It's over alright, but I'm having a talk with dear Penelope whether you like it or not! Thinking she can mess with other people relationship while she's perfectly comfy in her!'' she said her voice dripping of venom on her way to the door taking her bag.

Derek stops her retreat.

''What? Already regretting...'' words cut up in her throat when she lift her eyes to his face. It was stoned wall and she could swear she saw fire in his eyes.

''I regret alright! I regret that I gave this a chance! I regret that I put everyone aside for this! You stay away from her. You don't try to talk to her, you don't 'accidentally' run into her, you stay far away! Are we clear? I said are we clear?'' not one time he yelled, but boy she wish she was elsewhere right now!

''Ok! Ok! Move so I can leave! I wont talk to HER or anyone else in your job for that matter!' she added when it took a step towards her.

Morgan opens the door and let her out.

If he thinks I will let it be he' sorely mistaking. There are other ways to handle it without talking to her.

''Baby girl what have I done?'' He needed to go see her, he knew after that stunt at the BAU that she wouldn't be at her place, looks like he would have to tear down either JJ's place or Em's and drag her with him to Chicago so they could talk after his mother cut her cake. His blackberry vibrated. It was a text from Emily.

(Don't you dare come to my place! She needs a time out and so do you. Hug and kiss your Mom and Sisters on our behalf. But when you come back your time will be up and only YOU can make it better. Don't blow! Love ya xxx

P.S. If you do blow it JJ gets first dibs ;p)

With a sad smile he called a cab and waited.

A/N: So want to kill me yet? Give me my fix!! When I first started this I wanted to give Hotch an OCgirl but the more I write the further I get from it, muses! Can't make up their minds!