It's Just Me… Maybe them…

When she heard her front door close, she let herself drop to her bathroom floor and started crying. She didn't know how long she was there until she felt her bathrobe being put on her shoulders. She tied it up and removed the towel. When she looked up she met the compassionate eyes of JJ. It only caused another fresh batch of tears.

"Oh, Garcie… It's OK."

She pulled her up, brought her in her room and left her to dress.

"How is she? What happened?" Emily fired away.

"I don't know yet, Derek swears on everything he holds dear that he didn't do anything!" JJ was baffled!

"Well maybe words got in the way some how?"

"No! It's my entire fault and I lost the best thing that happened to me because of it! I'm such a loser! I'll be lucky if I end up like the crazy old cat lady!" sobbed Pen as she got in the living room.

"Pen no! What happened we'll fix it! And it's not over or Derek wouldn't have call us to make sure you were OK!" said Emily.

"What went wrong?" inquired JJ.

Penelope blush in a deep crimson red while her sobs subsided.

"I… I… didn't want… was afraid to show myself… to him." she provided between hiccups.

"WHAT!" came the anger reply from both of her friends.

She nodded. Now she was going to get a hear-full, she didn't need this right now!

"Let us get this straight, he left because you didn't want to sleep with him!" raged Emily.

"I can't believe this! Really?" added JJ.

"No! No! Hold your guns! Emily sit down! Let me explain!" she yelled alarmed.

When Emily sat down and JJ turned to her she sigh and blushed even deeper if it was possible.

"We did the deed, twice even, it was mind blowing, more than I expected, but we rush into it and I got away with not showing much skin…"

"What do you mean 'Got Away'?" JJ pushed.

"Derek is used to women looking between twigs to sexy bodies like you girls and I didn't want him to run for the hills when he finally saw me in the raw day light. I wanted to hold it off to hang on on the moment for a little while."

"Penelope Rose Garcia! What got into you? Where's the little vixen who gave Morgan a run for his money when it came down outrageous flirting?"

"JJ, hold on. Pen what makes you think Morgan would do this?"

It took a few minutes of silence before they got an answer.

"None of the men I took to bed seem to like what they saw in the day light, of course some were more gentlemen about it than others but when it came down to it other then showing my cleavage, they were content with me keeping a corset or a nightie on…"

"Bastards! Wait and Lynch?" JJ mind was reeling!

"He was gentleman about it, he only saw all of me in the shower, but he kept busy with the cleavage also."

"Pen, your mind might doubt it with everything you experience but your heart has to disagree with it! Morgan saw you at your worst! Didn't help you with your bandages after The Incident?" Emily gently probes.

The Incident, that's how they talk about her shooting, using anything else would be too hard for them.

"Maybe, but it's my brains that controls everything and when it comes to it I froze, I got burn too much." she whispers.

A heavy silence fell in the room, JJ got up to serve the coffee that was brewing. When everyone had their cup Emily tried again.

"What did Derek said when you told him this."

Silence was her response.

"Oh Pen! Don't tell me you just let him leave like this!" JJ asked.

"Like I said I get frozen, and he would have probably tried to get me out of the bathroom and I wasn't ready for it to end." said a stubborn Garcia.

"OK, so what did he said when you didn't come out?"

"He told me that he had very intention to worship my whole body like he promised last night and asked me how did I intend to hide it from him for the rest of our lives, why couldn't I trust him."

Emily and JJ swooned.

"And after that you didn't just jump his bone! I jumped men for less; OK I was horny anyway, but still!" Emily understood Pen's pain but couldn't wrap her mind around her friend's reaction, ti was HER Morgan for God's sake, how deep was the damage those bastard did?

"Slut!" JJ humphed.

Which drug out a watery chuckle from Penelope. At least she didn't lose her laugh totally.

"Anyway!, she said ignoring JJ, Pen this man is head over heels for you, you know this, we all know this, until what you just said I didn't how deep, who knew he had it in him, but doesn't it grant him the benefit of the doubt? And work together on your issues. If you don't how do you expect him to let you help with his own? Lord knows he has a lot, lots, lots and lots!" she ended with a smirk.

JJ was giggling and nodding.

"Hey stop beating on my Hot Stuff, he's perfect!"

"Funny, he says the same thing about you when police officers ask about you after they hear you on the speaker when were on a case." JJ replied with a quirk eyebrow.

Penelope eyes dropped.

"Right, go change will have brunch and help you clear you mind."

Pen got up and went to her room.