Chapter 21 The Awakening

I wasn't really sure who was suffering the most, me or Bella. I was losing her, and our unborn baby, but she was losing everything, the family, the friends, and the life, the chance to see our child grow up.

"Edward, you have to bite the baby out, or else it might be too late to save Bella!" Alice yelled at me, I was lost watching Bella in pain, I hated it, but still… I felt so numb, like a rock, more than ever.

I closed my eyes, I didn't argue, I knew every second mattered.

"I won't let you die because of me." I whispered before I bit her belly and started biting my way through. I didn't have to bite long before I had to dig,

I was bloody, but I couldn't find myself to care for the blood, not that I did, but I was amazed by myself, I smelled the blood, it was almost unbearable, but all I wanted was to see my child, and Bella alive, or at least mine, forever. A vampire.

And then I saw them, I saw the small baby hands reaching out for me, and there he was, mine and Bella's little baby boy.

If I could I would cry, but I can't cry, nor I was able to take the eyes off of my baby boy, he had his mothers eyes, and he was part vampire, his skin was as pale as mine and he was screaming like a human new born. Just like a normal baby is supported to.

But he turned around on his own, and saw Bella, I saw her body lying there, and I could hear her faint heartbeats. I gave our baby to Esme who went to clean the blood off of him.

Bella was turning into a vampire. I was happy in a way, and then again not. Because I would never be able to hear her heartbeats again, all of it would be gone.

I went outside with the baby, holding him close to my chest, wrapped up in a blanket Bella's mom had given us. The family was slightly worried about him being with me but he was safe, I mean, I am his father and wouldn't let anything bad happen to him.

I ran up a tree with him in my arms, and I sat there, for the rest of the evening, it's wasn't cold or anything, the weather was perfect.

[Two days later]

It was morning, I sat in the living room, holding my little boy, Ethan Carlisle Cullen. I named him without Bella, but I knew she would love it. The boy ate normal food, well baby food for now. But I could see he was gonna become more vampire as he grew.

I was glad he would have a normal childhood, though we will have to move a lot, because we can't say that me and Bella are Ethan's parents, we would get a year younger for every time he started at a new school, and he had to.

But we wouldn't have to move for now, we could keep him here for a while until Bella and I would be supposed to be 20-something.

Yet it will be different, I can't wait to start that life. Teach him to talk, teach him to walk, use the toilet as a big boy. I just got exited just thinking about it.

One more day and Bella would wake up, right now she was quite calm, she looked peaceful, and she smiled every once and a while, she seemed to be happy of the thought of waking up. I sat talking to her all day, telling her what was happening around her.

She smiled at that, and whenever Ethan touches her hand she seems happier. He wasn't very large, in fact he was a very little new born, he could barely open his eyes, and slept a lot.

I was counting the seconds until she would wake up.

Bella POV

It hurts, a lot. But I could live it, just knowing when I woke up I could spend forever with Edward and our son, Ethan.

I'd heard Edward talk to me, actually everyone in the house had come by and said something to me. Even Rosalie and Jasper...

I was happy they did, it meant much to me. If I was "awake" I would have cried because of their kind words.

They opened up to me, told me how they knew everything was going to be okay and how beautiful Ethan looked, and how such a good father Edward was.

It was late night, thought vampires didn't sleep, the house was calm and if I didn't know better, I would think everyone was sleeping.

I picked up everything that was moving, and sometimes I would guess who it was. The door opened, Rosalie? "Hello, Bella." yes, it was Rosalie. "I hope it's okay, that I come and talk to you, I mean. I know you and I really never talked that much, because I pushed you away so much. But I've realized this is how it is, you're in Edward's life forever now, and I deeply love Edward, as a brother. And I wish him all the best."

"I know no one has ever told you how I became a vampire, and so I'll tell you now, because I'm not sure if we'll ever get a moment like this again. I was eighteen, young, beautiful. I had everything, I was going to marry a rich man from the neighborhood, I was visiting a friend of mine, she had all I ever could wish for, a lovely husband, a son, but as you know very well I can't have that now."

She took a deep breath, I couldn't imagine her face in my mind, her voice was different, very calm and sad. Normally to me it was angry and controlled.

"Don't get me wrong, I love Emmett, but I want a baby was well, I don't want half of it, I want it all." I understood, Rosalie wanted nothing more than a baby that was hers and Emmett's.

"Anyways, I was on my way home, it was dark, and cold outside. And I now know I should have called my father to come pick me up, but I didn't, because it wasn't really that far.

"So I walked, when I was almost home I heard loud voices coming from a group of men not very far from me, "Hey, Rosalie!" one of them called, it was my soon to be husband.

"I walked over to them, and eagerly he pulled me to his side. "This is my girlfriend, Rose" he said, he tried to kiss me, but I pulled away.

"The smell of alcohol lied heavily around us. Suddenly one of his friends ripped off my coat, while yelling: "Let me have a better look at you."

"I was so scared, they suddenly all started grabbing my arms, hitting me, raping me, everyone one of them raped me."

She was crying now, though no tears came, I couldn't see her but I could clearly hear her sobbing. She pulled herself together and continued. "They left me there, bleeding and dying. Then Carlisle found me, and took me to his place.

"Edward and Esme weren't there at first, but when they came home Edward threw a fit, Carlisle had already bitten me, if he didn't I would have died.

"So there was really no going back. Esme took me in at once, loving me so much more than I deserved."

"I can't wait until you wake up, and you'll know what happened to me. And I hope we can be better friends, and I hope you can forgive me for all the things I've done to you."

She stood up and left without saying anything more.

Carlisle POV

We all were waiting for Bella to wake up, the silence laid heavy upon the house, and everyone in it. Edward and Ethan were in Edward's room, playing music to calm the baby, who had been crying for quiet a while, so he had been out not to bother the others.

I also think he enjoyed it very much in a way, spending time with Ethan alone. I know he would be a good single-father, luckily he won't need to be.

Me and Esme sat in the living room, watching bad night TV. I personally found Grey's Anatomy idiotic, nothing was real, everything they did was wrong and so we never watched that.

Then we heard a noise coming from up stairs. We all ran to Bella's room, she was turning in bed, clearly because of the pain.

Ethan was given to Rosalie, who brought him and Alice down stairs, along with Emmett and Jasper. They didn't find a reason to stay in the room right now, she wasn't going to wake up yet.

"Carlisle, what's going on?" Edward asked me, worried. "It's just the venom going into her heart now, making it stop, it has been beating very very fast, even hard for us to hear it, now it's slowing down, and it's gonna stop."

"How long will this take?" he walked around the bed, leaning closer to Bella's chest to hear her heart beat. "It can happen in a few minutes, or maybe hours.

When it does, she will wake up." I answered, and started unplugging her from the machines. She didn't need them anymore so it was alright to do so.

Edward POV

My angel looked so beautiful, she was like sleeping beauty, but a million times more beautiful. She was flawless, just like before.

"Edward." she said, and I took her hand, I noticed I was almost sitting on top of her now, I was just fascinated by her beauty. "Bella." I answered, so she would know I was there, though she did anyways.

Suddenly she turned over, I laid down next to her, putting my arms around her. Carlisle went out, letting me and Bella be alone. I really just laid there talking to her, it was the most relaxed moment I'd had in a long time.

It was almost like I was sleeping, my eyes were closed, as well as my mind. Only the calm unnecessary breath of Bella and me was all I heard.

A few hours passed by, and I really couldn't tell that it had. I was actually very amazed by that, had I fallen asleep? Forget that, Bella could wake up any moment.

I jumped off the bed and ran down stairs and got the others. They were all sitting quietly watching tv, it was almost dawn.

For really no reason at all I started humming on the song Collide – Howie Day, I'd always loved that song, it reminded me of when me and Bella met.

I walked up the stairs with the rest of my family behind me, "Edward?" I heard coming from the door, I ran inside the room. Bella stood on the floor, looking around, confused.

I walked over to her, wrapped my arms around her and she wrapped her arms around me too, like she never wanted to let go. We stood like this for a while, holding each other.

"Edward..?" she asked, and looked up at me. "Yes, love?" She looked over my shoulder, and then at me. "Where's my son?" she let go of me, and walked over to Esme, who was holding Ethan, he had starting to open up his eyes.

"He's beautiful.." Bella sounded dazzled, I chuckled. "Yeah, he is. Just like his mother." I said to her, and she tore her eyes away from Ethan's face. "He got a lot of you in there too." she replied and kissed me softly on the lips.

Alice came over to us, taking Ethan from Bella. "I'll take care of him, show him he's new room." Emmett came over to us too, and said: "Edward, you gotta teach Bella how to be a vampire!"

I took Bella's hand and dragged her outside, I knew she was dressed for it anyways, she couldn't get cold and she was dressed in clothing she could easily move in. Barefooted we stood on the grass in front of the forest. "Ready?" I asked her, "I feel like I already know it all." she said and smiled at me, "But it will be fun to try it out." she grinned.

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